What do you think?

imagesEven though things are slowly getting a little better, I am still feeling way too much anxiety and stress. I am glad that my unemployment was approved because that helps with the financial stresses, but not having insurance when dealing with Multiple Sclerosis is making me feel a little crazy. I do think this would make anyone feel like they were jumping out of their skin, which is the way I feel right now.

My husband keeps telling me that I need to relax and everything is going to be okay. I am a very optimistic person normally, but I do not see life the way he does right now. Medications are stupidly expensive and so are doctor’s anxietyappointments. One of the medications I take daily that is supposed to slow the MS down is Gilenya. Y’all will be surprised how much this one medication would cost me each month without insurance. For simply a month supply it would cost me $7,500. Seriously, who can afford that?

Something that I find frustrating is, health care in the United States costs a lot of money and then there are still additional fees that need to be paid. The United States is the ONLY developed country that does not offer FREE health care, which I find crazy! Of course, I have never lived in a country where health care was free, but from my perspective, it can’t be any worse that what we have now. Sure, you might have to wait longer to see a specialist, but for me to get into the neurologist in the states I wait at least 2 months. free-and-universal-health-care-universal-health-care-free-but-65307278With all the costs between the price of insurance, the costs for appointments, the price of tests that need to be run, and then medications, people could just about go bankrupt. Our brilliant politicians try their best to convince the American people why we do not have free health care and that it would be an awful thing! The sad thing is, some believe everything they hear on the news and all the lies that come out of the politician’s mouths! I strongly believe that health care should be a RIGHT, not a PRIVILEGE. No one should ever have to choose between food and their health!

I know some of you reading this post live in a country with free health care, so want to get your input! What are the pros and cons of having free health care? Do you fe62d503ebdec18d58277ced8257e5e9_survey-citizens-for-plainfield-township-trails_631-313like having free health care or would you rather have it like the United States does? On average how long do you have to wait to see a doctor? Are the physicians intelligent and knowledgeable?

I hope your day is going well and you are feeling the best you can. Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I am looking forward to reading your comment! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

My Rant that needs advice!

Happy SundayHappy Sunday y’all! I hope you are having a wonderful weekend and you are feeling well. I am really sorry that I have been a little MIA for the past few days, but I have been dealing with decisions that I am terrified I will make the wrong choice.

I think it is already perfectly clear how I feel about my job and manager. It is extremely difficult for me to sit by silently when I see people being treated like  third-class citizen that doesn’t deserve kindness and compassion. Of course my manager has found him an assistant manager that thinks the nasty treatment is acceptable and is almost worse than he is! Y’all know I currently work for an apartment community, which I had done frustration-level-to-maximum-conceptual-meter-d-rendering-87596475.jpgpreviously for years. I was a good manager and excellent with leasing and taking care of my residents. I NEVER once treated the residents in a demeaning manner, but always tried to understand what was going wrong with their lives. I have even gone as far to say to my heartless manager if it were not for the residents we would NOT have a job! But yet he still acts the same way!

On Wednesday night I was dealing with some horrible pain and unpleasant feelings in images (7)my legs and feet making it impossible for me to sleep. I know my body and knew it would not be possible to be at work and walk around, so I called out sick on Thursday. The manager decided to make things even more stressful for me requiring a doctor’s note to prove myself. He even went as far to say in a text message, “I hope you enjoy your day.” I mean seriously, I called out due to pain and NO sleep and this idiot had the nerve to tell me to “ENJOY” my day! I believe there is a point when being treated unfairly makes a person break. Well I hit that point on Thursday! 

First of all he knew when he hired me that I had Multiple Sclerosis and knew some days would be worst than others. It isn’t like I was hiding my illness from him, in fact I was confusedvery upfront with him! So what gives him the right to treat me as if I do not have a chronic illness?? I complied with the requests to provide doctor’s notes that I am NOT able to work more than 5 days in a row and yet he still had the nerve to ask me why I was scheduled off on the Friday before I worked the weekend! If I had worked that Friday, I would have been working 8 days in a row without a break, which is NOT ONLY ILLEGAL, but against my doctor’s orders! Why ask for doctor’s notes if he wasn’t planning to honor them?

At this point I have a doctor’s note keeping me out of work until Wednesday. Honestly, I debateam debating with myself if I am going to go back! I have one interview already and another one on Tuesday that seem promising. Are these jobs what I want to do for work? Probably not my first choice, but they both would be a hell of a lot better that where I am at now! I have gone back and forth with myself all weekend if I am just going to walk into the office at some point next week and tell him to take his job and poor treatment up his ass! Or I could go in on Wednesday to negative treatment and guilt trips! It should not be a difficult decision to make, but quitting like this isn’t who I am!

The other issue that is huge with this place is I have not been given my bonus for 2 months, which is SO WRONG! This so called man treats my co-worker like he is God! This co-worker doesn’t get anywhere near the amount of leases I do and most residents think he is rude! He is late to work every day, takes longer lunches and leaves early, but somehow still gets 80 hours. Hmm, how do you think that happens? So my question is what does this co-worker have that I don’t? frustration

I know this decision seems cut and dry, but I am still struggling with it! I know that if I quit suddenly, I will find another job because I am determined and I also do not do well not having a job. At the same time, I do feel like I deserve a short break to get my body feeling better. I have been suffering with pain and frustration for way too long! So, what do I do now? In my heart I know my health needs to come first and leaving this toxic environment would be good for my mental stability. 

AdviceThank you for visiting my site today. I am sorry this was pretty much a rant, but getting these feelings out has been helpful. Now, I am asking you for any advice you may have, please! I do hope the rest of your weekend is great! Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of    love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤