Motivational Monday!

Featured Image -- 7497Good morning y’all! I hope you had a nice restful weekend and you are ready to start a new week with positive thoughts! This is the last weekend that I will have to work all week and then finish up some left over moving, I am looking forward to a weekend that I will be able to just rest and enjoy the new house!

I am sure y’all heard about the devastation Hurricane Michael did last week to a few. The havoc those in Florida experienced is truly heartbreaking to me. Personally, I know several people who live in Florida and even sending hopethough they lost so much, they didn’t lose their lives which is SO important. Houses and personal belongings can be replaced, but lives can’t be replaced. Please, help me with sending hopeful and loving ❤ thoughts/prayers to all those that were affected by Hurricane Michael. I feel like many are in need this and if we join together we can help with our thoughts.❤❤ 

The quote I want to share with y’all today has a lot of meaning to me and I really hope you find some meaning and hope in it. We all go through difficult and dark times in life, which often allows us to forget there is a light out there that will help us through.beautiful butterfly

Thank you for stopping by my site this morning. I always appreciate the support you offer me and I can’t thank you enough for your thoughts and prayers for those in the states affected by Hurricane Michael.

I hope y’all have a great start to a new week that has so much potential. Today allows for us to let go of what happened or didn’t happen last week and just start over again. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love  ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Time For A Change!

no accidents all is meant to beChange is a wild mixture that can be both exhilarating and nerve-wrecking all at the same time! Change gives us the ability for amazing new opportunities, but sometimes it seems very risky or maybe that is just how my brain works. I know the best way to handle change or changes is to take things one step at a time and not over do it by trying to do all that needs to be done at once. I am a FIRM believer that everything happens for a reason and when it was meant to! Sometimes I also think there isn’t such a thing as something happening or meeting someone by accident!

With moving to a new city in a different state and starting a new job, there seems to be aChange lot to juggle right now in life. The funny thing is, before I went into my interview I saw a beautiful butterfly flying around my car! Of course I thought the butterfly was a sign that I was meant to get the job I really wanted and I DID!!

Now, packing can be a fun at times because you can actually throw away or donate things that you don’t use anymore, this gets rid of unnecessary clutter. I think it is best to donate items not in use instead of throwing them away because those items might be very useful to someone else. You have probably heard that saying, “One man’s junk is another’s treasure.”? Even with that said, it can still take a lot of energy that I seem to be losing change-quotes-5rapidly. I tend to feel overwhelmed because I have the need to do everything myself and hate asking for any help, but I am learning slowly to ask for help more!

I am sure y’all understand how stressful moving and starting a new job can be! In your lifetime, when you have moved, how did you manage to handle it without having a nervous-breakdown? I have always been a bit of a walking/talking stress case, but I am trying to handle it better. Of course I do not want to get myself too stressed out and cause myself to have a relapse! Any tips you might have I would love to hear! I always appreciate all of your great advice and to read how you handle similar situations! 

70502da7ecfb161bf5ee8a42face4478-1050x1050My last day at my current job is this Friday!! I am nervous and excited about this. I have been with my company for over three years and even though I am more than ready for a change, it is the change that is a little scary! I will be starting my adventure with my new job on September 28th and I am very excited about this position! I think my new job is the perfect fit for my personality and the hours are far beyond fabulous!

With moving and packing, I might not be making posts as I typically would. Please forgive me if I fail to respond in a timely manner, but I will still try! I hope y’all are having a great week and feeling the best you can! Please remember that no matter what I am going through in life, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Never stop believing in hope!

hope-quotes-wallpaperI think in the world today, it can be very easy to give up hope. There does seem to be so much negativity and hatred surfacing daily, but not allowing these thoughts into our lives is possible! As long as we keep only those around us who offer happiness and nothing but optimism, we all could spread those emotions instead of negativity. If enough believe in love❤ and hope, we could out power the hate.

It could be easy for me or anyone else that lives with a chronic illness to want to give up any hope for a cure. Living with any illness that causes daily pain is without a doubt frustrating, hope-quotes-about-life-09especially when it seems to be never-ending. Being required to take numerous medications several times a day to slow any progression down, is not any fun! Making decisions of what the right medications are is like playing a game of Russian Roulette, you never know what the outcome is going to be. All of this takes determination to beat the odds and hopefully win the game of life!

Making decisions on what the right medications will be for yourself is extremely difficult. This takes having a lot of confidence in your choices. It also takes doing a lot of research on the medications to choose from. Since being diagnosed with Multiple hope seeing brightSclerosis 18 years ago, I have been on numerous different types of medications that are meant to slow the progression down. The first several were not right for me and I was able to move onto something different. The great thing is, none of the medications need to be permanent if they do not work well with your body chemistry, you are able to keep moving on with something else. This process was frustrating for me, but I never gave up hope that something would work well for me. Thankfully, I had a very understanding and tolerant doctor during this time which helped me make the best decisions!

I want to share a blog post from a fabulous fellow blogger❤ with y’all. Jenny at https://trippingthroughtreacle.com has lived with Multiple Sclerosis for many years and still keeps up her fight! I always find everything Jenny shares to be beyond amazing and she continues to give me hope for better times. I want to share with you her recent post because it was so brilliant and very informative https://trippingthroughtreacle.com/2018/09/07/multiple-sclerosis-and-its-symptoms/#comment-1981. This post alone will make you want to read even more of 2-19-life-1024x792Jenny’s posts!

As difficult as life gets, we all have the choice to hold onto HOPE! If we continue believing, HOPE will never die! We have a choice to challenge the potential for continuing to better ourselves and even all around us. 

Thank y’all for visiting my site this morning. I always appreciate your support and love to read your comments! I hope you have a wonderful Tuesday and you are feeling well! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Prisoner of my own body

prison bodyIn a previous post I shared with y’all that my recent MRI results showed improvement and there were NO new lesions, which is great news! I felt so incredibly relieved with these wonderful results, but for some reason which I am sure is probably stress related, I still feel an incredible amount of pain and burning in my legs/feet. This pain and burning sensation is constant and unrelenting, which is nothing more than frustrating.

Trying to continue doing all that I want and need to do become trying because it seems like not much really help the issues I continue to struggle with. I feel that my body is trying to hold me as a prisoner from my own illness. Isn’t there normally parole from prison? Unfortunately parole has not been offered to me, so maybe that means I have not stay in painshowed good behavior! I know I do not listen well to my doctor (whom I do my best to avoid to at all costs), but I also continue to ignore the advice from the Nurse Practitioner (NP) that I actually like and respect, considering she worked closely with my first specialist that I just loved! During the MRI results reading with the NP, she encouraged me once again to try things to reduce my stress, considering she seems to believe that is where my pain is stemming from. I am do not agree with her completely on this, but maybe she is right.

Avoiding stress in the world we live in seems completely impossible to me, but maybe and not very likely I am wrong. I mean you are not able to turn the TV on without interruptions from the government, spewing nothing but lies! It is impossible to be out stress everywhereamong people without one them mentioning some lie they heard on the news that they of course believe. Avoiding stressors that I have been aware of for a long time is possible, but then through no fault of my own they seep through and then cause me nothing but frustrating feelings. I have even tried to ignore the stress-factors, but all that does is bottle up hostile feelings which tend to come out in rather terrible and unhealthy ways!

Now considering my MRI results indicated improvement, I am left to wonder if the pain and burning sensation that will not let up is just my life. This is what makes me feel that I am nothing more than a prisoner in my own body. How do you break-free when nothing seems to help? All that seems to be happening is the walls are growing taller and more impossible to escape from.light

Even though the issues I continue to face are frustrating, I will continue searching for the light I know is there somewhere. There must be an end to the pain and burning sensation and in time I am sure I will figure it out. However, by the time I figure out ways to end the pain and burning I am probably going to be very elderly and in an assistant living home, in which they will have to deal with me! I definitely feel bad for those individuals! 

I would like to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. I always appreciate you reading my thoughts for the day and leaving your amazing comments! I hope y’all have had a nice day and I hope you are feeling well. Please remember that I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can, as I really do enjoy the open communication we have. As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Zest for Life, Love & Strength!

Zest for life, love and strengthGood afternoon y’all! I hope you are enjoying your weekend and for those of us living in the states, I hope y’all are enjoying your long weekend! I sincerely hope you are feeling well. I can honestly tell you that I have been doing my best to not do much of anything and just enjoy my three days away from living on a schedule.

I think it is safe to say that we all go through difficult times over the course of our life. We will question anything and everything about what we are going through and the life we are living, only to not get any real true answers. I might be wrong, but I do believe that life was never meant to be easy. Even if we do not notice it, we learn and gain so much strength and knowledge with the challenging time we all face.Sunrise - Carolina Beach

I guess I feel that with all we deal with every single day of our life it can be pretty challenging. However we still must find the ability to enjoy the life we were given, love ourselves and those important to us and of course remember the strength we carry within ourselves as it is extremely powerful!

Even when life throws numerous curve balls at us, daily or even hourly, we still manage to do our best to bounce back from every hit. Some of the hits might be a little more intense than another, but that still doesn’t stop us! Each of us is full of love and determination, which enables us to keep up our fight for a pleasant life.

9c567cf19e3e6a689483b44f7f2ac52f--my-style-so-trueIt is crazy to think that every struggle makes us stronger because some of us have been to hell and back again so many times that we lost count, but still we may feel weak at times. I know over the 18 years I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis, there have been days I have felt like I was being punished for who know what. However, even with every horrible situation I have been through with this illness, I have never allowed Multiple Sclerosis to ruin my life and defeat me ever!

Do you ever wonder how you find the strength to get up every morning when you do not know how what do expect? Many chronic quote17-04illnesses are very unpredictable. This can mean that every day is different from another or even being a little more real, every hour of the day can different. This comes down to always being prepared for the unexpected and just keep moving forward without hesitation. This is not easy for anyone and yet that is what all of us do!

I do believe that we all have a “Zest for life, love and strength” because most days we all have the enthusiasm and energy to do it all and much more! There might be days we feel so exhausted from pain, which honestly can make us feel helpless, but just the fact that we have not given up shows our true inner strength. I think even in our weakest moments we still have a determined power that keeps us on track with our goals for life.  Is there zest for lifeanyone that is part of your life deal with what you do daily? I without a doubt can so ABSOLUTELY NOT! I would gladly change places with anyone when I hear what their very minor complaints are! The truth is, we all handle our struggles differently and for those that have been lucky enough to  have never had to endure what all of us do, they just do not understand and we can’t force them to comprehend!

Thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today! I hope you enjoyed what I have written about today and really look forward to your comments, which I will respond to just as quickly as I can! I hope you enjoy the rest of your Sunday and if this is a three-day weekend for you, I hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

What are the joys of a long weekend?

happy-long-weekendGood morning y’all! I hope you have had a delightful week and you are looking forward not to the typical weekend, but a LONG weekend! Even though I personally do not have any extravagant plans for my three-day weekend, I am so happy to have one! Between dealing with my typical MS pain, daily to-do’s and horrible negativity at work, my week has been extremely long and aggravating! I am thrilled to have three days away from work!

What do you look forward to when you have a long weekend? I know this will sound crazy and very simple, but I look forward to not having a schedule to follow! I do not have to get up at a certain time, be on the drive to work by a specific time, perform the same tasks during work hours, be in bed by a certain time to get a decent amount of longweekendsleep and so on. When I do not have to be at work I am not woken by an annoying alarm clock and can sleep in, not that I sleep long anyways, but still I do not have to be up at 5:15 am! The alarm clock becomes my enemy during the week because it never misses a beat and goes off at the same damn time every day, which I know that is what it is supposed to do, but it is still annoying! On weekends I can wake up and even fall back asleep or take naps if I find myself too tired. If only we could take naps at work, the days would be SO much happier!

I mentioned earlier that I have a difficult week and part of it was due to dealing with SO much negativity at work. How do y’all deal with negativity in the work place? I did my very best to ignore it and just walk away, but honestly things were wearing on me to a 291c5c14c410d5c8f270226eba5e2182horrible point. I allowed for one person’s personality/bad attitude to cause me way too much stress. Logically I know that the way this person acts is his problem not mine, but he manages to wear his feelings on his sleeve and facial expression. His behaviors have brought me to tears way too many times before and I know he isn’t worth it, but the comments still bother me to an extreme. It gets difficult to walk away from someone with negative energy when that person is your direct supervisor, but I have been trying to keep my distance the best I can! If y’all have any other advice on how to handle this, I am open for suggestions. 

Thank y’all so much for stopping by my site this morning. I always appreciate you taking the time to read what I write about and love❤ reading your comments. I find all of your comments very enlightening and they open my mind to other ways of thinking. I hope you have a wonderful Friday and I hope your weekend is fabulous! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤