One Year Blog Anniversary!

Good morning FriendsGood morning y’all! I hope your week has started off wonderfully and you are feeling good on this Tuesday morning or at least as good as possible! My Monday went fairly well and I was actually able to work six and a half very LONG hours! I found this to be great success and I was pretty happy about it! If I am being completely transparent with y’all though it was not easy because I was in pain, but I did make it! When I finally was in the comfort of my home, I received a message from WordPress that read:

 

“Happy Anniversary with WordPress.com!

You registered on WordPress.com one year ago.anniversary-2x

Thanks for flying with us. Keep up the good blogging.”

 

It is so hard to believe just one year ago I embarked upon my blogging adventure! I will admit that at first I knew absolutely nothing about blogs, how to blog or really anything about it at all and I was incredibly nervous about sharing my personal experiences with others. My thoughts and feelings have changed dramatically over this year with y’all and there has never been even one day that I regretted my decision to take this fabulous journey!

I have been so honored to be able to get to know so many fantastic and absolutely amazing people all around the world that really understand the struggles I deal with on a stranger-become-important-peopleday-to-day basis. It has been very humbling to have been nominated for numerous awards over this past year and receive many astonishing comments from fellow bloggers with praise for my positive outlooks and my perseverance with fighting this illness I live with. I feel that I have made some real true bonds and friendships with so many of you and I am far beyond thankful for each and every one of you! With your help I have gone from three followers to over 1,000 before my one year anniversary! My goals from when I first started my blog have not wavered as I am still very determined to spread as much positivity, compassion, encouragement and support as I possibly can!  Every word I share comes straight from the heart and will always be very real; I tend to not have the ability to sugar coat things because my thoughts are my reality.

So many of you have offered me some excellent advice and it has all been extremely appreciated! I value the connections I have made over this year and really look forward amazing-people-quotes-8to learning even more from y’all in the future! I sincerely hope that the posts I have shared thus far have been helpful and encouraging to you as well and I promise to continue sharing uplifting posts!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today and for always being so breathtakingly amazing! I hope you have a wonderful day and really do hope you are feeling as good as you possibly can! Of course your comments are always encouraged and I will respond to them as quickly as I can, unfortunately work has been busy so I can not respond until I get home from work, but I still will! As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Motivational Monday!

Make Monday the best dayGood morning y’all! I hope you had a wonderful weekend and you are ready to shine today! Monday mornings are not always the best days because it forces us to let go of the restful and peaceful days of the weekend, but it also gives us another chance to start over with any goals we may have for ourselves. Do you have any goals for yourself this week? I do have a goal, but I do not want to share it yet because I do not want to set myself up for anything that might be negative. I promise to share my goal with you soon!

Of course y’all know I always think we need a little motivational quote to start the week off on the right foot! I hope you like the quote I am going to share with you and it has as much meaning to you as it does to me! I look forward to reading your thoughts about this quote!die if you don't swim

I hope y’all have a wonderful day! Please always know that  I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Physical & Emotional Pains team up!

great afternoonGood afternoon y’all! I hope you have had an amazing weekend and you are feeling the best you possibly can. I hope wherever you live the weather has been treating you well and there has not too much extreme with the temperatures. I know where I live there have been many extremes and it has been absolutely insanely HOT!

Physical and emotional pains tend to all blend together over time. I think at times it is almost hard to distinguish the difference between the two, especially if they are both overly intense. We all go through times during our lives when we struggle with certain aspects of life and there is no denying that is emotionally painful. Some people when struggling with emotional pain hold it inside because maybe they do not want to burden anyoneno-pain-no-gain-by-ms-anu-mehta-39-638 else with what they are battling internally. I can speak from personal experience that when I am dealing with something that is deeply emotional to me, I do not want to talk to anyone about the issues. I will let most things fester in my own mind, which honestly only causes SO much additional stress. I think that for people who really know me, I am not able to hide when I am terribly disturbed about something because it is clearly all over my face and my demeanor changes drastically. I would make the absolute WORST poker player because I do not do well masking what I feel. The bad part about holding all the emotional struggles inside is, I feel like I am going to explode after a while! Have you ever shaken a bottle of coke vigorously? When you finally open that bottle, the coke will explode all over the place because of all the pressure it felt while being Pain-Changes-Peopleshaken. It is not a good feeling to say the least!

Most of us experience physical pain over the course of our lives. There are so many times when that pain may become so intense that it really changes your personality. For the most part I am a happy and positive person, but when my pain becomes too severe it overpowers me and I become reserved and a little negative. I find that I will fly off the handle over the smallest of things and really overreact. Sometimes the pain makes me say things I do not mean and even feel hostility towards something so minuscule that when I think back all I can say is “What was wrong with me?”

Emotional pain can and does trigger even more of the physical pain! I often feel that they are teaming up together just to test my strength and see which one of them will break me first. During times of war between the various pains I deal with, I do my best to hold onto my determination to excel in this life! I think there are many people pain demands to be feltthat when they are faced with too much trauma and or struggles, they tend to just shut down because it is easier that way. I almost think that shutting down makes it so you just can not feel the difficulties of life and also may not care anymore. In my own personal opinion, shutting down completely is the same as giving up and allowing the internal and physical battles win the war. Call me delusional or just completely wrong, but I do feel the only way we can ever fail ourselves and our loved ones is to give up the fight we were chosen to be in.

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! I always encourage your comments because they are always so fantastic! Please know that I will respond as quickly as I possibly can! I hope your weekend has been filled with nothing but happiness and I hope you are ready for the new week to start tomorrow! Enjoy the rest of your Sunday to the fullest! As always  I am sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Bad night turns to a bad day!

stressOverwhelming stress will only cause literally nothing but a terrible amount of pain! For reasons I can completely acknowledge, I was in so much pain last night and could not turn my brain off long enough to get any sleep. I would just lay in bed worrying about every little thing in life and then look over at the clock and just think, “Well if I fall asleep now, I will get 4 hours asleep”. Then an hour later still be awake and see the time and once again think to myself, “ If I could just fall asleep now, I will get 3 hours of sleep.” This went on all night and in turn I was not able to go to work today. Truthfully I am really disappointed in myself because I had been doing so well this week working six and a half hours, so to turn around and miss an entire day is just discouraging! I did think about just trying to push myself to go into work on ZERO hours of sleep, but I also knew that would not do my health any good and getting that run down would cause my health to deteriorate even more.

I can not say and be 100% sure if my increased amount of pain is due to the crazy stress 1weather or to the unrelenting stress life continues to throw at me! I never was good at dodge ball, so the stress just keeps hitting me hard! I often wonder if I am causing the stress I feel to take control of my life and I am actually the one that is responsible for making it worse. I know that allowing stress to bombard my thoughts is NOT any good for my friend “MS”, but I also do not seem to have the strength to avoid it and let it just roll of my back. It never fails, instead of when I am faced with anything I know will be stressful, I am not able to just fight to find something a little more peaceful to focus on, but I focus completely on what is causing my stressful thoughts! I can give advice all day long to others on how to handle stressful times, but I NEVER take my own advice!

Now that I am home for the day to allow my terribly achy and fatigued body to rest, all I can do is be hard on myself for breaking the success I did make by working more hours Monday-Thursday! How is it possible that I had such a successful week and now I am in so much pain it hurts to move? Did I push myself too hard in the beginning of the week by trying my hardest to work more hours because of how busy it is right now? I do not feel like I i will breatham capable of not being hard on myself because just last year I was working many more hours and I was fine! Why since October am I not able to do more like I use to be able to? Is it possible that I am now just allowing the MS to win the battle and control my life? That is not me and is just not the way I ever planned for my life to be. I had always planned to control this illness as much as I could, but seem to be failing miserably at that lately! I guess the truth is control is really just an illusion and what is going to happen, it just going to happen! We are not able to control things that are really uncontrollable, in all reality we are only able to control how we handle the difficult times in life.

In all honesty, the only thing I can do right now is rest in order to get better before the new week starts again. I will not give up on the progress I was making earlier this week, I will try again next week and just hope for a better outcome! I really need to learn how to handle my stress levels A LOT better than I have been because really all I am doing by allowing the stress to consume me is destroying my own body and my health! I can dont-lose-hope-everything-happens-for-a-reason-you-never-6877637promise myself all day long that I will make the necessary changes, but I do not know how to. Writing is definitely a great way for me to get my thoughts out which does help some, but I need to find even more ways to cut the stress out completely and for good! Do y’all have any suggestions on how to do this?

I hope y’all had a pleasant Friday the 13th and I hope you are looking forward to your weekend! I do really appreciate you stopping by my site today and look forward to reading your fantastic comments, which I promise I will respond to as quickly as  I possibly can! Please remember that no matter what I may be dealing with in life, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Never give up!

Have a peaceful dayGood evening y’all! I hope you have had a pleasant day and you are feeling well! I really appreciate you taking the time to visit my site and definitely do encourage your comments, I do promise to respond as quickly as I possibly can!

No matter the pain and/or discomfort I may feel, this pesky little thing called MS will never control my life! I will make small and simple adjustments to accommodate the MS to remain comfortable in my life, but I am still determined to live my life in ways that bring me the most joy!

This massive heat wave so many of us are experiencing is causing me to feel extremely fatigued, but letting that run my life is just not an option. Like I said, small andheat wave simple adjustments need to be made at times and to not be exposed to the heat too much is one adjustment that I am willing to make! I was able to adjust my hours at work so the initial part of my day isn’t in the extreme heat, well that was not really the reason for the adjustment of my hours, but it does help other issues as well. I get to work around 7 am which is early, but the sun has not been heating the world up quite yet! Usually I will leave work between 1 and 2 when it is pretty hot and my car feels like a mobile sauna, but I will sit for about 5 minutes with the windows down allowing for the a/c to start blowing cold air! I can not drive when it is too hot because I will feel very faint, which is pretty dangerous! If I have to go to the grocery store, I always try to go do not confuseeither early in the morning or later in the evenings when the sun has gone down. These slight adjustments to handle the heat work fairly well for me at least.

On a crazy plus side, my migraine has taken a short break to allow the other pains I feel play their part in my day-to-day life. Honestly I would much prefer my back and legs to hurt rather than having a massive migraine. The pain I feel constantly in my back and legs is aggravating and makes things a little difficult, but at least I can still function. Even though it is insanely hot outside I will still use my “friend” the heating pad when I am in my chilly work office or at my house. It seems a little strange that the heat outside makes me feel terrible, but my heating pad heals my pain! Maybe it is more the humidity outside making me feel all the darn fatigue. Who knows!?

I am truly happy to say that with the migraine taking a vacation I was able to work six and a half hours for the past two days! I have made a promise to myself to never give up dont give uppushing myself to work additional hours each week. Truthfully there might be times I do not have the strength to increase my hours, but that will never mean it isn’t possible.

I hope y’all have a peaceful and relaxing evening! I hope you are feeling well and taking the time to think about your own needs, which we often tend to neglect. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Motivational Monday!

fresh start MondayGood morning y’all🌤! I hope you had a nice weekend and are ready to conquer a new week! Monday can be viewed a the day we start all over again and anything that happened last week is in the past! We learn everyday how to be even better than the day before and build so much strength from those lessons learned! 

Even viewing Monday as a fresh start, I still think we all need just a little extra motivation! It seems to me that there is far too much hate and judgment in the world and everyone needs to just put a little more compassion into each day! We can not change anyone else’s views or beliefs, but we can change how we handle each and every situation we are faced with. I hope you find as much meaning in the quote I am sharing with you as I do!4fd7c705288279035a11a30a9c39083a

I hope you have a lovely day and I hope you are feeling as good as you possibly can! Just because it is a new week, please do not push yourself too far beyond your limits because there is always tomorrow to try again! 

Thank you so much for stopping by my site on this sunny☀ Monday! I look forward to reading your comments on this quote and promise to respond as quickly as I can! As always, please remember that I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

How do you describe?

HOPE 2.0How do you describe the pain you are in when it can be SO indescribable at times? Living each day with an incredible amount of pain definitely gets a little old, but it also leaves no choice except to keep moving forward. Dwelling on the pain does not make it go away, but I do believe makes it SO much more intense. On my worse days, I do my very best to just keep my mind busy so I am not thinking about the pain I am feeling. It really seems like the moment I stop doing something all I can think about is how much I am hurting, whereas if I just stay busy I do not have time to allow myself to really feel it. I do understand that rest is important, especially when the pain levels are high, but at the same time rest makes me think too much and then I hurt more! I guess it can really be a no win battle between me and my pain, but I do not ever want it to defeat me entirely!

I think everyone that battles with pain issues handles them differently; we all just need a way to manage and escape at times! Do you struggle with pain and how do you handle it? Today for instances my pain is pretty darn high, so this morning I watched a little TV and then did laundry. I did not do anything too strenuous as that would probably cause painful daysme to hurt even more. Normally I would go grocery shopping, but thankfully NOT today!! When I am trying to keep my mind busy to avoid thinking about my pain I often will read a good book or write because both of those things keep me relaxed! I thought for a long time about what I wanted to write about and honestly had a little bit of writers block, but then decided I should write about what I was feeling. I am guessing that many of you can relate to this painful topic and I really wish none of us could!

So on top of dealing with my normal pain, I have been battling with terrible migraines that just will not let up! I went to bed last night with a migraine and woke up with it still with me. I guess I was hoping I could sleep it away, I hate to admit it but I was wrong! pain changes peopleThankfully right now it has finally started to ease up and now it is just a mild little headache that I can handle. I never thought I would say this but the pain I have daily is so much easier to live with than migraines I have been struggling with ALL week! Even though I know I can’t, but if I could choose I would much rather have my back and legs hurt a lot worse than to have a migraine.

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. I really do appreciate you taking the time to read and do encourage you to leave a comment, which I promise to respond to as quickly as I can! I truly do love your comments and they are always very helpful! I hope your weekend is going well and you are feeling as great as you possibly can! We all deserve a restful and peaceful weekend! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of❤ love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤