What do you do to unwind?

Happy Friday forget the weekGood morning y’all and HAPPY FRIDAY!! I think the weeks start feeling longer the older we get, but maybe that is all in my mind! What do y’all think? With the weekend finally near, I am looking forward to my two days away from work and getting up early! I might not sleep in as much as I should, but just knowing I do not have anywhere to be is a breath of fresh air!

Do y’all have things you enjoy doing to unwind from the long work week? Some of the things I truly enjoy doing and help me relax are similar to what I do in the evenings, but with more freedom and knowing the alarm will NOT wake me in the morning. I think some of what I actually enjoy others might view as stressful, but for me they WORK! Writing is something that helps me get mychristianlouboutin1 feelings and stress off my shoulders. This is something that I need because otherwise I would be even more of a massive stress case. Even though I write several hours before bedtime or when I should be preparing for sleep, I have been told (by the NP), I should not be doing so. I have said this numerous times before, but I am the only one that knows my body and what is beneficial to me. These are the types of comments and or advice I have learned to ignore or just let pass on in my mind. 

It can become a little difficult during the work week when I am too tired from work to give my nelson-mandela-quoteblogger friends the true attention they deserved. If I am too tired or in too much pain, I save reading others posts for the weekend, when I can really absorb what I am reading and then leave the best comments I can. This produces amazing friendships❤!

I honestly enjoy writing and making strong connections with others around the world. This  allows for me to learn from others different ways to handle life and the struggles we all face.  

I also really love trying to spread positivity to as many as I can! Life can get so complicated and really frustrating and we all have bad days! Even though my posts are full of reality and come straight from my heart❤, I do not sugar coat anything EVER. If I am having a horrible day my post might start off on the negative side, but they always flip to positive before it is done. The reason this happens is because I am getting the frustrations I am feeling out and finding a different way to view my struggles before I end the post. 

Now that I have shared something that actually helps me unwind and chill out, what helps y’all unwind and relax? I am interested to hear what you find beneficial as I knowrelax unwind and chill we all have different methods. What works for me, might not work for another.  Just as what works for you, might not be as helpful to me. All of this is okay because we are all uniquely different, which is what makes us special.

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read and LOVE❤ your comments. I am also very excited to read what you find helpful to relax after another long week! I hope you have a very lovely Friday and hope your weekend is fabulous! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Prisoner of my own body

prison bodyIn a previous post I shared with y’all that my recent MRI results showed improvement and there were NO new lesions, which is great news! I felt so incredibly relieved with these wonderful results, but for some reason which I am sure is probably stress related, I still feel an incredible amount of pain and burning in my legs/feet. This pain and burning sensation is constant and unrelenting, which is nothing more than frustrating.

Trying to continue doing all that I want and need to do become trying because it seems like not much really help the issues I continue to struggle with. I feel that my body is trying to hold me as a prisoner from my own illness. Isn’t there normally parole from prison? Unfortunately parole has not been offered to me, so maybe that means I have not stay in painshowed good behavior! I know I do not listen well to my doctor (whom I do my best to avoid to at all costs), but I also continue to ignore the advice from the Nurse Practitioner (NP) that I actually like and respect, considering she worked closely with my first specialist that I just loved! During the MRI results reading with the NP, she encouraged me once again to try things to reduce my stress, considering she seems to believe that is where my pain is stemming from. I am do not agree with her completely on this, but maybe she is right.

Avoiding stress in the world we live in seems completely impossible to me, but maybe and not very likely I am wrong. I mean you are not able to turn the TV on without interruptions from the government, spewing nothing but lies! It is impossible to be out stress everywhereamong people without one them mentioning some lie they heard on the news that they of course believe. Avoiding stressors that I have been aware of for a long time is possible, but then through no fault of my own they seep through and then cause me nothing but frustrating feelings. I have even tried to ignore the stress-factors, but all that does is bottle up hostile feelings which tend to come out in rather terrible and unhealthy ways!

Now considering my MRI results indicated improvement, I am left to wonder if the pain and burning sensation that will not let up is just my life. This is what makes me feel that I am nothing more than a prisoner in my own body. How do you break-free when nothing seems to help? All that seems to be happening is the walls are growing taller and more impossible to escape from.light

Even though the issues I continue to face are frustrating, I will continue searching for the light I know is there somewhere. There must be an end to the pain and burning sensation and in time I am sure I will figure it out. However, by the time I figure out ways to end the pain and burning I am probably going to be very elderly and in an assistant living home, in which they will have to deal with me! I definitely feel bad for those individuals! 

I would like to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. I always appreciate you reading my thoughts for the day and leaving your amazing comments! I hope y’all have had a nice day and I hope you are feeling well. Please remember that I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can, as I really do enjoy the open communication we have. As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Zest for Life, Love & Strength!

Zest for life, love and strengthGood afternoon y’all! I hope you are enjoying your weekend and for those of us living in the states, I hope y’all are enjoying your long weekend! I sincerely hope you are feeling well. I can honestly tell you that I have been doing my best to not do much of anything and just enjoy my three days away from living on a schedule.

I think it is safe to say that we all go through difficult times over the course of our life. We will question anything and everything about what we are going through and the life we are living, only to not get any real true answers. I might be wrong, but I do believe that life was never meant to be easy. Even if we do not notice it, we learn and gain so much strength and knowledge with the challenging time we all face.Sunrise - Carolina Beach

I guess I feel that with all we deal with every single day of our life it can be pretty challenging. However we still must find the ability to enjoy the life we were given, love ourselves and those important to us and of course remember the strength we carry within ourselves as it is extremely powerful!

Even when life throws numerous curve balls at us, daily or even hourly, we still manage to do our best to bounce back from every hit. Some of the hits might be a little more intense than another, but that still doesn’t stop us! Each of us is full of love and determination, which enables us to keep up our fight for a pleasant life.

9c567cf19e3e6a689483b44f7f2ac52f--my-style-so-trueIt is crazy to think that every struggle makes us stronger because some of us have been to hell and back again so many times that we lost count, but still we may feel weak at times. I know over the 18 years I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis, there have been days I have felt like I was being punished for who know what. However, even with every horrible situation I have been through with this illness, I have never allowed Multiple Sclerosis to ruin my life and defeat me ever!

Do you ever wonder how you find the strength to get up every morning when you do not know how what do expect? Many chronic quote17-04illnesses are very unpredictable. This can mean that every day is different from another or even being a little more real, every hour of the day can different. This comes down to always being prepared for the unexpected and just keep moving forward without hesitation. This is not easy for anyone and yet that is what all of us do!

I do believe that we all have a “Zest for life, love and strength” because most days we all have the enthusiasm and energy to do it all and much more! There might be days we feel so exhausted from pain, which honestly can make us feel helpless, but just the fact that we have not given up shows our true inner strength. I think even in our weakest moments we still have a determined power that keeps us on track with our goals for life.  Is there zest for lifeanyone that is part of your life deal with what you do daily? I without a doubt can so ABSOLUTELY NOT! I would gladly change places with anyone when I hear what their very minor complaints are! The truth is, we all handle our struggles differently and for those that have been lucky enough to  have never had to endure what all of us do, they just do not understand and we can’t force them to comprehend!

Thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today! I hope you enjoyed what I have written about today and really look forward to your comments, which I will respond to just as quickly as I can! I hope you enjoy the rest of your Sunday and if this is a three-day weekend for you, I hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

The world keeps spinning!

The world keeps spinningThe world seems to keep spinning around me so fast, but I feel like I standing still. I think it might be important to just accept the things in life that we have no control over and just embrace life for what it is. There really is so much about life that we might want to change, but I think whatever we might be living with or dealing with is in front of us for a reason. The reasons might be unknown, but there are reasons that we will discover someday!

If you sit down and really think about the way your life has played out, is there any outcome you would want to be different? All the struggles we might have encountered have not made us weak by any means, but they have all built our strength to continue onstruggle is real fighting a good fight! Sure none of us want to have a chronic illness or financial struggles or anything that might appear to be a negative aspect of life, but if we did not go through all the trials in life who would we be? I would like to think that everything we go through in life creates who we are and how we treat others, but maybe we would still be the same person if we did not go through any hard times. No one can say and be 100% sure!

Personally, I have always been very empathetic towards others and sympathetic to other’s needs. Everyone’s thoughts and emotions matter to me❤! I guess I am and probably always will be a very sentimental and sometimes overly emotional person. The way I am now has not changed since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, I am just me!

There are so many people we all encounter that never learned how to be empathetic, which if you think about it is pretty sad for them. I guess for some people, especially in the world we live in frederickdouglass1today, if you have never experienced a life altering illness that causes many different issues, they are unable to understand. It is okay for people to not fully understand, but they should never judge another because how they say they are feeling. Pain is VERY REAL! Migraines are VERY REAL! Instability when walking is VERY REAL! Mood changes are also VERY REAL! Everything we deal with in life is VERY REAL! None of us asked to have a chronic illness and I am sure we all wished we didn’t. But considering we have one, we face the world with a different perspective that involves a lot of acceptance and willingness to make changes at a moment’s notice. Our days are typically never the same, but most of never complain about it, we just manage it the best we can.

Basically I have taught myself and I am still learning how to accept the fact that I haveaccept what we can not control no control over many things in my life. I know I can control how I view situations and how I react to them, but that is all!  As a person that might have some control issues, this isn’t easy for me. I have always had a strong desire to make the lives of those I care about better. Learning that I have NO control over how someone else’s life works out for them is hard! I have learned that there isn’t anything I can do to make life easy for anyone because I do not think life was meant to always be easy! We all just need to live our life to the fullest and never dwell on what we think or wish would happen!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my sometimes random thoughts and really LOVE reading your comments! I hope y’all are having a wonderful weekend and I hope you are feeling well. Please always know that I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Half way there!

wednesday.jpgGood afternoon y’all!  I hope you are having a wonderful Wednesday! I am beyond excited that this week is almost over and next week is a four-day work week because of the holiday! 

I have honestly had kind of difficult week dealing with pain issues! There is a certain amount of pain that I find tolerable, but then there is another kind that makes me feel absolutely miserable and incredibly fatigued! Even though I have been dealing with a terrible amount of pain that is mixed with headaches and muscle spasms, I have been able to go to work. I did not make it through six hours Monday and Tuesday, but I did today! Of course after whatever hours I do work, I come home and I am absolutely exhausted. But the simple achievements are better than none! There has been another issue I have experienced this week and I have no idea what is causing it. Both Monday and Tuesday while sitting at my desk at work, I had several what seemed to be fainting episodes. It was really scary, but I was thankful I was sitting down. I did call my doctor’s office to let them know about this, but not so surprising they did not call me back. Have any of you ever experienced this before?

I am a pretty resilient person and I never give up on the goals I have for myself!! A while back I had made the goal to work six hours each day, which honestly did not happen at first. However I did not allow that to keep me down for too long  and tried to not view it as failure. I have always been veryresilience1 hard on myself, but seriously that does not help at all. Being too hard on ourselves only sets us up for hard times, which is never good. My goal now is to just continue to always be resilient and keep moving forward! 

I have to say everyone on this blog helps me see the strength I have and keeps me focused on that strength! There are so many incredible people who I have had the pleasure to get to know and I am very thankful for this. There really seems to be so much ugliness in the world today, but y’all allow me to see the good in others!

I hope y’all had a great day and I hope you are feeling well. Thank you for stopping by my site today and I really do encourage your comments. Y’all already know that I do respond as quickly as I possibly can! I hope you have a lovely evening and do what helps you relax! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

Fight the pain tears!

RTFRDRR_zpsstqz8fkyGood morning y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and I really hope you have a fabulous weekend! This week was literally the first week in a while I was able to push myself through working the entire week. Despite the unrelenting pain I was feeling, I managed to work all five days for six very painful hours! Who would have ever thought that 30 hours in one week would be so difficult? I mean I used to work over 40 hours and not really struggle that much, it was just what had to be done.

There were days during this week that I did not think I would be able to continue in the day because my pain level was a 13 on the 10 scale, but I had something to prove to myself. I had to prove to no one but myself that I was still strong enough to handle a work day.  There were days that I would be almost in tears on the drive home, but that did not help the pain subside at all. Self pity has painnever really been for me, so I fought the tears vigorously trying to never allow even one tear to fall! I am not saying that tears are a sign of weakness, but I am way too stubborn to allow something like pain to keep me down for too long!

I get so tired of people saying things like, “Why do you not go on disability?” or “If this is too hard for you, go home.” or  “Why do you not just work part-time?” or just the pity stares because they are just making some unnecessary judgment call. It is so true that the only one person truly knows how you feel and that is you. No one can understand how I really feel because they do not have to walk in my shoes. So many speculate, but until they walk in my shoes for one day they have no idea what I am fighting. There are times that words do not do any justice to what I am dealing with, so I find peace in silence.

Thankfully the weekend is here and I have the opportunity to just rest my poor brokenpain makes you stronger body and allow it to do much-needed healing. The only things I plan to do this weekend is rest, write, read and I have a new project that I am so excited to work on which is a bullet journal! I was absent from making a post for a few days because I was just trying to manage my pain. After working 6 hours in a day my back, shoulder to my finger tips and legs were in so much pain I would not have been able to write the way I wanted to. When I create a post I want to be able to write with strength and from my heart which I am not able to do when I hurt too much.

Now my fun project I will be working on, the bullet journal was inspired by a fellow blogger Hannah https://hannahelizasite.wordpress.com/, who has created some fantasticcreativity bullet journals. If you have not already viewed Hannah’s site, you definitely should because she is so incredibly amazing!!! Hannah has been very helpful to me with creating my own bullet journal by giving me advice and answering questions I had! I think this is going to be a creative and fun way to keep track of my illness! Maybe a little creativity will help ease the pain I am feeling and also allow me to find ways to see common trends and maybe correct them!

I appreciate y’all stopping by my site today and do look forward to any comments you may have. I hope you have an amazing and relaxing weekend! As always no matter what I am going through, I am sending you LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

What I have overcome that has made me stronger!

happy tuesdayGood morning Y’all! I hope your long weekend was full of nothing but happiness and you are feeling great starting this short week at work! I can say that the majority of my weekend was dedicated to resting to get myself feeling better and hopefully making my pain issues just go away! I guess we will see now that the week has started!

When I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis almost 18 years ago, I honestly viewed this as a punishment of something I must have done wrong during my life. I could not for the life of me understand what I could have done so wrong to deserve a battle like this to live with. It took me so many years to accept the diagnosis and findHope ways to live a❤ happy life not allowing an illness to EVER alter or control my life in any way! I wanted to be the one to continue controlling my life because I did not feel it was fair for an illness to be in control of MY life!

The sad truth is we are not able to choose the way our life is going to play out before we are here to actually live it. Once we are born we just need to live the life we were given the best way we can and not ever give up when things get too difficult. Life is not all about ☀sunshine, butterflies, rainbows and waltzing through the days easily, hard times fall on every one of us and we must learn to alter life when it is required.

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and even if we do not like it or 11324-Everything-Happens-For-A-Reason..agree with what is happening, it is just the way it is! Any obstacles that we are given are not intended to be a punishment in any way, it is just what was meant for our life and all of these obstacles make us even stronger than we were before! All the hurdles along our journeys are put in place so we can just learn to sore over them with grace and strength! These frustrating impediments are all a learning experience for us to grow further!

Let me just say that I think overcoming the complete shock of my diagnosis in some crazy ways made me a stronger person. Yes, I have my bad days when I feel absolutely terrible, but in time I get back to my “normal” self or maybe it is better to say my “new normal” self. It sounds so crazy to say that an incurable and sometimes debilitating present situationillness made me stronger, but it really has! This illness gave me so many reasons to keep fighting for my own health and it has empowered me with determination that does not waver.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my thoughts and ❤LOVE to read your fantastic comments. I hope you have a great day and I really hope you are feeling well. Please always remember that I am sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤