Puzzle of Life!

Good afternoon y’all! I hope your weekend is starting off great and only gets better moving forward! Weekends provide much comfort and relaxation, which is often very needed and well deserved. I am still trying to get adjusted to this working full-time thing and still maintaining household duties, my blog and anything else that comes my way. Honestly it isn’t easy, but I also think I can handle it!

Over the past week or so, I have been thinking about how much our lives actually resemble a huge jigsaw puzzle. Sometimes we have a piece that fits together perfectly and other times nothing at all fits the way we expect or want  it to. It really is like when you try putting a large puzzle together, but some of the pieces you have in front of you become difficult to place because of their shape and size. We all face the same situation daily when we are confronted with people with different views and behaviors. We may strongly disagree with others point of views, but we are all entitled to our own views and perspectives. As long as these  thoughts do not cause physical and or emotional harm to another it should be accepted. 

Personally I think I am very capable of getting along with everyone and anyone, as long life-is-like-a-puzzle-stop-trying-to-place-people-where-they-dont-fit-quote-1as they are respectful of me and my beliefs. I have never tried changing another person or their views because that is just wrong to do! I feel that if we were all alike the world would be downright boring and we need diversity! I enjoy being around people who are different from myself and find learning about how they view things pretty fascinating!

All relationships and even jobs can be like putting a challenging puzzle together. When you start a new job, there will be some that51accc1426746b8fa9976fe7436086f5  co-workers you mesh well with and others whom you don’t and that is perfectly okay! You really can’t force the pieces of life together, things just fit when it’s meant to be! I have always believed that everything in life happens for a reason and when it is supposed to. Of course I tend to forget this often and get frustrated because I just want things to work out perfectly. I guess that is the part of me that is controlling, but we all have our faults and we deal with them as needed. 

Other parts of life, like dealing with a chronic illness or other difficulties just adds to thepuzzle-pieces-of-life-2-stock-illustration_csp34374889 puzzle of our life. It can be incredibly frustrating and test our strengths, but at the end of the day we can be proud of what we have accomplished. It is so important to never give up and know all the pieces will fit perfectly eventually.

I did try the new Editor version of WordPress, but did not do all that well with it. I will puzzle-piece-quotekeep trying and I am sure I will understand how it works soon. Have y’all tried it yet and do you have any advice for me?

Thank you for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate your words of wisdom and kindness. I am still working on getting caught up on reading and commenting on your posts and should be caught up before the weekend ends. I hope the rest of you day is amazing and you are feeling the best you can! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Outraged!

IMG_0579I can’t believe it’s only Tuesday because it certainly feels we should be much closer to the weekend. It is crazy how fast the short weekends go by and then how LONG the work weeks are. I am thankful I found a job that is close to home and all, but strongly believe 40 hours a week is too much for anyone to dedicate to a job! I think it is even more outrageous that here in the United States we are often forced to wait 90 days before we can even get insurance, not to mention the fact it is INSANELY expensive! I mean, if I were to get insurance for myself and my husband the cost per pay check would be more than a quarter of my paycheck!

I know I have written about this before, but now it is getting painfully more real! The obamacare-pre-existing-conditionsnews I heard, after a long day at work, was so disturbing and caused me so much ANGER, as it would anyone with a heart and any empathy for others! For someone during their campaign they ran to become president, no names being mentioned of course, saying they wouldn’t do anything negative to those of us with pre-existing conditions, to now doing the EXACT OPPOSITE and trying to eliminate protection for pre-existing conditions! I know this person in the white house has some of-nonelderly-adults-with-a-pre-existing-condition-twitter-v1crazy issues with the former president,  but to banish the good things that were done is very wrong. How anyone could still support this person is beyond me because I sure as hell couldn’t and never would! There are millions of people in the United States that will be affected by this and many could even lose their lives if anything happens to their health insurance. 

I try my best to keep my blog encouraging and never talk politics because we are all understandingtheacaentitled to our opinions, but when something can change my own life for the negative, I can’t help but to share my thoughts on the matter! I have been trying to tell myself that no one would ever think about doing something so awful and ruin lives for so many, but it just may happen! Striking down the Affordable Care Act, as has been put on the table, is wrong on so many levels, no matter what your political views are! I wish there was something more I could do to stop anything like this from happening, but I do not even know what that would be! Of course I can write about it, but I don’t know how much that will really change the issues! I do understand there is a chance that nothing being proposed will pass, but what if it does? How can anyone afford the medications they need to live their lives? I know there is absolutely NO way I could ever afford the medications I take to slow the progression of my Multiple benefits-affordable-care-actSclerosis down without insurance. Where would this leave people battling with a chronic illness and does anyone in power really care??

I am sorry for my second rant in a matter of days, but I am hoping we could some how all join together and find a way to help make things better for millions of people! We all deserve WAY better than this and it is shameful we are facing this fear now! I have always heard that there is strength in numbers, so all I can do is hope for better times!

Thank you for visiting my site today and reading this rant! My frustrations are sky-high and the only thing I know to do is write about them! This helps me calm my nerves and ease my stress some! I hope y’all have a pleasant and relaxing evening. I always encourage your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can! Please know that even though I am a little high-strung right now about all this, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

More talk about MS!

ms march awarenessMultiple Sclerosis is a very complex and frustrating battle to face. Unfortunately, this illness does impact everyone’s life in  so many different ways and to the point it’s almost hard to pinpoint what is what! There have been various names people choose to use when referring to  MS; such as the snowflake disease or invisible illness. I think these terms can also be used in many other chronic illnesses as well because they are fitting. I mean if you think about it, there are no two snowflakes that are exactly the alike,  just like no illnesses experiences the exact same symptoms. Also, there are so many of these illnesses that are completely naked to the eye, so they are pretty much invisible in the bigger picture. 51209211_2039825619447292_5206443739896197656_n

Let me ask my wonderful fellow bloggers, whether you live with MS or know someone else that does, what do you already know about this not so fun illness? Honestly,I think the only thing everyone knows to be 100% true is this illness can vastly differ for each individual! There might be times throughout the years each person with MS will unfortunately have a new symptom emerge and they need to learn to cope with this. While no one wants to deal with anything additional and all symptoms can be daunting, there  really are always ways to carry on with life!

symptomsI know there may be countless responses to this, but what are your top 5 most challenging issues you have been forced to accept during your journey? One thing I find very challenging and the most aggravating is how completely unpredictable this illness is. I have and probably always will be an obsessive planner! It drives me crazy for any unplanned issues to appear without any warning! Over the years, I have learned to expect the unexpected and be willing to rearrange my plans.

Another part of my MS life I find challenging, but am learning to accept is there are th-26-300x111NEVER any real answers for the numerous questions I ask my doctor. I would have never thought my questions were so difficult that my specialist can’t answer them. I mean these doctors go through enough schooling they should have a wealth of knowledge to match this. I am sure the schooling for many years is very expensive and probably more money than I will make in MANY years! Maybe while in school they should have a class in good bedside manner because most neurologist have a terrible personality. I think they have a godlike and ego maniac demeanor. 

flat,550x550,075,f.u4The third challenging aspect of this life that I have almost accepted is, the complete ignorance and total lack of empathy most people have for others. The ugly glances and degrading comments I have seen and heard over my years, especially when I park in a handicap parking space are nothing short of hurtful! Even though I have lived with this for many years, these glances and comments still can bring me to tears. This really doesn’t have anything to do with me, but is all on them! These people probably believe that misery loves company and try to bring me down to their level, which I try to avoid!

It doesn’t matter how long I have struggled with this illness, fatigue still tries to kick my Worst-MS-symptombutt daily! It was always complicated for me when I was working full-time because it never failed at about 1:00 or 2:00 if I am lucky I was exhausted! I have accepted this issue and try my best to conserve my energy so I am not ready for a nap at lunch time!

Lastly and to keep this from being too terribly long, the final challenging thing for me to accept is the constant pain I feel. It often seems like I am going to always to battle with pain and with little to no relief. I do know that dwelling on this pain only causes the pain to worsen instead of lesson and this just  isn’t an option for me! I do try focusing on the positive in my life instead of the negative hoping these thoughts will trick my body into healing! I also believe acceptance is half the battle and laughcan help keep my stress in check which will in-turn lessen the pain.

I would like to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. I told y’all on March 1st that for MS Awareness month I wanted to shed more light on this illness because knowledge is power! I am looking forward to reading your comments and do hope this was helpful for you!

I hope you have had a good week and of course hope you are feeling well. The weekend is finally here and  I hope you enjoy every moment of it! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and  many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

What do you do to unwind?

Happy Friday forget the weekGood morning y’all and HAPPY FRIDAY!! I think the weeks start feeling longer the older we get, but maybe that is all in my mind! What do y’all think? With the weekend finally near, I am looking forward to my two days away from work and getting up early! I might not sleep in as much as I should, but just knowing I do not have anywhere to be is a breath of fresh air!

Do y’all have things you enjoy doing to unwind from the long work week? Some of the things I truly enjoy doing and help me relax are similar to what I do in the evenings, but with more freedom and knowing the alarm will NOT wake me in the morning. I think some of what I actually enjoy others might view as stressful, but for me they WORK! Writing is something that helps me get mychristianlouboutin1 feelings and stress off my shoulders. This is something that I need because otherwise I would be even more of a massive stress case. Even though I write several hours before bedtime or when I should be preparing for sleep, I have been told (by the NP), I should not be doing so. I have said this numerous times before, but I am the only one that knows my body and what is beneficial to me. These are the types of comments and or advice I have learned to ignore or just let pass on in my mind. 

It can become a little difficult during the work week when I am too tired from work to give my nelson-mandela-quoteblogger friends the true attention they deserved. If I am too tired or in too much pain, I save reading others posts for the weekend, when I can really absorb what I am reading and then leave the best comments I can. This produces amazing friendships❤!

I honestly enjoy writing and making strong connections with others around the world. This  allows for me to learn from others different ways to handle life and the struggles we all face.  

I also really love trying to spread positivity to as many as I can! Life can get so complicated and really frustrating and we all have bad days! Even though my posts are full of reality and come straight from my heart❤, I do not sugar coat anything EVER. If I am having a horrible day my post might start off on the negative side, but they always flip to positive before it is done. The reason this happens is because I am getting the frustrations I am feeling out and finding a different way to view my struggles before I end the post. 

Now that I have shared something that actually helps me unwind and chill out, what helps y’all unwind and relax? I am interested to hear what you find beneficial as I knowrelax unwind and chill we all have different methods. What works for me, might not work for another.  Just as what works for you, might not be as helpful to me. All of this is okay because we are all uniquely different, which is what makes us special.

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read and LOVE❤ your comments. I am also very excited to read what you find helpful to relax after another long week! I hope you have a very lovely Friday and hope your weekend is fabulous! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Prisoner of my own body

prison bodyIn a previous post I shared with y’all that my recent MRI results showed improvement and there were NO new lesions, which is great news! I felt so incredibly relieved with these wonderful results, but for some reason which I am sure is probably stress related, I still feel an incredible amount of pain and burning in my legs/feet. This pain and burning sensation is constant and unrelenting, which is nothing more than frustrating.

Trying to continue doing all that I want and need to do become trying because it seems like not much really help the issues I continue to struggle with. I feel that my body is trying to hold me as a prisoner from my own illness. Isn’t there normally parole from prison? Unfortunately parole has not been offered to me, so maybe that means I have not stay in painshowed good behavior! I know I do not listen well to my doctor (whom I do my best to avoid to at all costs), but I also continue to ignore the advice from the Nurse Practitioner (NP) that I actually like and respect, considering she worked closely with my first specialist that I just loved! During the MRI results reading with the NP, she encouraged me once again to try things to reduce my stress, considering she seems to believe that is where my pain is stemming from. I am do not agree with her completely on this, but maybe she is right.

Avoiding stress in the world we live in seems completely impossible to me, but maybe and not very likely I am wrong. I mean you are not able to turn the TV on without interruptions from the government, spewing nothing but lies! It is impossible to be out stress everywhereamong people without one them mentioning some lie they heard on the news that they of course believe. Avoiding stressors that I have been aware of for a long time is possible, but then through no fault of my own they seep through and then cause me nothing but frustrating feelings. I have even tried to ignore the stress-factors, but all that does is bottle up hostile feelings which tend to come out in rather terrible and unhealthy ways!

Now considering my MRI results indicated improvement, I am left to wonder if the pain and burning sensation that will not let up is just my life. This is what makes me feel that I am nothing more than a prisoner in my own body. How do you break-free when nothing seems to help? All that seems to be happening is the walls are growing taller and more impossible to escape from.light

Even though the issues I continue to face are frustrating, I will continue searching for the light I know is there somewhere. There must be an end to the pain and burning sensation and in time I am sure I will figure it out. However, by the time I figure out ways to end the pain and burning I am probably going to be very elderly and in an assistant living home, in which they will have to deal with me! I definitely feel bad for those individuals! 

I would like to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. I always appreciate you reading my thoughts for the day and leaving your amazing comments! I hope y’all have had a nice day and I hope you are feeling well. Please remember that I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can, as I really do enjoy the open communication we have. As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Zest for Life, Love & Strength!

Zest for life, love and strengthGood afternoon y’all! I hope you are enjoying your weekend and for those of us living in the states, I hope y’all are enjoying your long weekend! I sincerely hope you are feeling well. I can honestly tell you that I have been doing my best to not do much of anything and just enjoy my three days away from living on a schedule.

I think it is safe to say that we all go through difficult times over the course of our life. We will question anything and everything about what we are going through and the life we are living, only to not get any real true answers. I might be wrong, but I do believe that life was never meant to be easy. Even if we do not notice it, we learn and gain so much strength and knowledge with the challenging time we all face.Sunrise - Carolina Beach

I guess I feel that with all we deal with every single day of our life it can be pretty challenging. However we still must find the ability to enjoy the life we were given, love ourselves and those important to us and of course remember the strength we carry within ourselves as it is extremely powerful!

Even when life throws numerous curve balls at us, daily or even hourly, we still manage to do our best to bounce back from every hit. Some of the hits might be a little more intense than another, but that still doesn’t stop us! Each of us is full of love and determination, which enables us to keep up our fight for a pleasant life.

9c567cf19e3e6a689483b44f7f2ac52f--my-style-so-trueIt is crazy to think that every struggle makes us stronger because some of us have been to hell and back again so many times that we lost count, but still we may feel weak at times. I know over the 18 years I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis, there have been days I have felt like I was being punished for who know what. However, even with every horrible situation I have been through with this illness, I have never allowed Multiple Sclerosis to ruin my life and defeat me ever!

Do you ever wonder how you find the strength to get up every morning when you do not know how what do expect? Many chronic quote17-04illnesses are very unpredictable. This can mean that every day is different from another or even being a little more real, every hour of the day can different. This comes down to always being prepared for the unexpected and just keep moving forward without hesitation. This is not easy for anyone and yet that is what all of us do!

I do believe that we all have a “Zest for life, love and strength” because most days we all have the enthusiasm and energy to do it all and much more! There might be days we feel so exhausted from pain, which honestly can make us feel helpless, but just the fact that we have not given up shows our true inner strength. I think even in our weakest moments we still have a determined power that keeps us on track with our goals for life.  Is there zest for lifeanyone that is part of your life deal with what you do daily? I without a doubt can so ABSOLUTELY NOT! I would gladly change places with anyone when I hear what their very minor complaints are! The truth is, we all handle our struggles differently and for those that have been lucky enough to  have never had to endure what all of us do, they just do not understand and we can’t force them to comprehend!

Thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today! I hope you enjoyed what I have written about today and really look forward to your comments, which I will respond to just as quickly as I can! I hope you enjoy the rest of your Sunday and if this is a three-day weekend for you, I hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

The world keeps spinning!

The world keeps spinningThe world seems to keep spinning around me so fast, but I feel like I standing still. I think it might be important to just accept the things in life that we have no control over and just embrace life for what it is. There really is so much about life that we might want to change, but I think whatever we might be living with or dealing with is in front of us for a reason. The reasons might be unknown, but there are reasons that we will discover someday!

If you sit down and really think about the way your life has played out, is there any outcome you would want to be different? All the struggles we might have encountered have not made us weak by any means, but they have all built our strength to continue onstruggle is real fighting a good fight! Sure none of us want to have a chronic illness or financial struggles or anything that might appear to be a negative aspect of life, but if we did not go through all the trials in life who would we be? I would like to think that everything we go through in life creates who we are and how we treat others, but maybe we would still be the same person if we did not go through any hard times. No one can say and be 100% sure!

Personally, I have always been very empathetic towards others and sympathetic to other’s needs. Everyone’s thoughts and emotions matter to me❤! I guess I am and probably always will be a very sentimental and sometimes overly emotional person. The way I am now has not changed since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, I am just me!

There are so many people we all encounter that never learned how to be empathetic, which if you think about it is pretty sad for them. I guess for some people, especially in the world we live in frederickdouglass1today, if you have never experienced a life altering illness that causes many different issues, they are unable to understand. It is okay for people to not fully understand, but they should never judge another because how they say they are feeling. Pain is VERY REAL! Migraines are VERY REAL! Instability when walking is VERY REAL! Mood changes are also VERY REAL! Everything we deal with in life is VERY REAL! None of us asked to have a chronic illness and I am sure we all wished we didn’t. But considering we have one, we face the world with a different perspective that involves a lot of acceptance and willingness to make changes at a moment’s notice. Our days are typically never the same, but most of never complain about it, we just manage it the best we can.

Basically I have taught myself and I am still learning how to accept the fact that I haveaccept what we can not control no control over many things in my life. I know I can control how I view situations and how I react to them, but that is all!  As a person that might have some control issues, this isn’t easy for me. I have always had a strong desire to make the lives of those I care about better. Learning that I have NO control over how someone else’s life works out for them is hard! I have learned that there isn’t anything I can do to make life easy for anyone because I do not think life was meant to always be easy! We all just need to live our life to the fullest and never dwell on what we think or wish would happen!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my sometimes random thoughts and really LOVE reading your comments! I hope y’all are having a wonderful weekend and I hope you are feeling well. Please always know that I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤