Half way there!

wednesday.jpgGood afternoon y’all!  I hope you are having a wonderful Wednesday! I am beyond excited that this week is almost over and next week is a four-day work week because of the holiday! 

I have honestly had kind of difficult week dealing with pain issues! There is a certain amount of pain that I find tolerable, but then there is another kind that makes me feel absolutely miserable and incredibly fatigued! Even though I have been dealing with a terrible amount of pain that is mixed with headaches and muscle spasms, I have been able to go to work. I did not make it through six hours Monday and Tuesday, but I did today! Of course after whatever hours I do work, I come home and I am absolutely exhausted. But the simple achievements are better than none! There has been another issue I have experienced this week and I have no idea what is causing it. Both Monday and Tuesday while sitting at my desk at work, I had several what seemed to be fainting episodes. It was really scary, but I was thankful I was sitting down. I did call my doctor’s office to let them know about this, but not so surprising they did not call me back. Have any of you ever experienced this before?

I am a pretty resilient person and I never give up on the goals I have for myself!! A while back I had made the goal to work six hours each day, which honestly did not happen at first. However I did not allow that to keep me down for too long  and tried to not view it as failure. I have always been veryresilience1 hard on myself, but seriously that does not help at all. Being too hard on ourselves only sets us up for hard times, which is never good. My goal now is to just continue to always be resilient and keep moving forward! 

I have to say everyone on this blog helps me see the strength I have and keeps me focused on that strength! There are so many incredible people who I have had the pleasure to get to know and I am very thankful for this. There really seems to be so much ugliness in the world today, but y’all allow me to see the good in others!

I hope y’all had a great day and I hope you are feeling well. Thank you for stopping by my site today and I really do encourage your comments. Y’all already know that I do respond as quickly as I possibly can! I hope you have a lovely evening and do what helps you relax! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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Fight the pain tears!

RTFRDRR_zpsstqz8fkyGood morning y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and I really hope you have a fabulous weekend! This week was literally the first week in a while I was able to push myself through working the entire week. Despite the unrelenting pain I was feeling, I managed to work all five days for six very painful hours! Who would have ever thought that 30 hours in one week would be so difficult? I mean I used to work over 40 hours and not really struggle that much, it was just what had to be done.

There were days during this week that I did not think I would be able to continue in the day because my pain level was a 13 on the 10 scale, but I had something to prove to myself. I had to prove to no one but myself that I was still strong enough to handle a work day.  There were days that I would be almost in tears on the drive home, but that did not help the pain subside at all. Self pity has painnever really been for me, so I fought the tears vigorously trying to never allow even one tear to fall! I am not saying that tears are a sign of weakness, but I am way too stubborn to allow something like pain to keep me down for too long!

I get so tired of people saying things like, “Why do you not go on disability?” or “If this is too hard for you, go home.” or  “Why do you not just work part-time?” or just the pity stares because they are just making some unnecessary judgment call. It is so true that the only one person truly knows how you feel and that is you. No one can understand how I really feel because they do not have to walk in my shoes. So many speculate, but until they walk in my shoes for one day they have no idea what I am fighting. There are times that words do not do any justice to what I am dealing with, so I find peace in silence.

Thankfully the weekend is here and I have the opportunity to just rest my poor brokenpain makes you stronger body and allow it to do much-needed healing. The only things I plan to do this weekend is rest, write, read and I have a new project that I am so excited to work on which is a bullet journal! I was absent from making a post for a few days because I was just trying to manage my pain. After working 6 hours in a day my back, shoulder to my finger tips and legs were in so much pain I would not have been able to write the way I wanted to. When I create a post I want to be able to write with strength and from my heart which I am not able to do when I hurt too much.

Now my fun project I will be working on, the bullet journal was inspired by a fellow blogger Hannah https://hannahelizasite.wordpress.com/, who has created some fantasticcreativity bullet journals. If you have not already viewed Hannah’s site, you definitely should because she is so incredibly amazing!!! Hannah has been very helpful to me with creating my own bullet journal by giving me advice and answering questions I had! I think this is going to be a creative and fun way to keep track of my illness! Maybe a little creativity will help ease the pain I am feeling and also allow me to find ways to see common trends and maybe correct them!

I appreciate y’all stopping by my site today and do look forward to any comments you may have. I hope you have an amazing and relaxing weekend! As always no matter what I am going through, I am sending you LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

What I have overcome that has made me stronger!

happy tuesdayGood morning Y’all! I hope your long weekend was full of nothing but happiness and you are feeling great starting this short week at work! I can say that the majority of my weekend was dedicated to resting to get myself feeling better and hopefully making my pain issues just go away! I guess we will see now that the week has started!

When I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis almost 18 years ago, I honestly viewed this as a punishment of something I must have done wrong during my life. I could not for the life of me understand what I could have done so wrong to deserve a battle like this to live with. It took me so many years to accept the diagnosis and findHope ways to live a❤ happy life not allowing an illness to EVER alter or control my life in any way! I wanted to be the one to continue controlling my life because I did not feel it was fair for an illness to be in control of MY life!

The sad truth is we are not able to choose the way our life is going to play out before we are here to actually live it. Once we are born we just need to live the life we were given the best way we can and not ever give up when things get too difficult. Life is not all about ☀sunshine, butterflies, rainbows and waltzing through the days easily, hard times fall on every one of us and we must learn to alter life when it is required.

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and even if we do not like it or 11324-Everything-Happens-For-A-Reason..agree with what is happening, it is just the way it is! Any obstacles that we are given are not intended to be a punishment in any way, it is just what was meant for our life and all of these obstacles make us even stronger than we were before! All the hurdles along our journeys are put in place so we can just learn to sore over them with grace and strength! These frustrating impediments are all a learning experience for us to grow further!

Let me just say that I think overcoming the complete shock of my diagnosis in some crazy ways made me a stronger person. Yes, I have my bad days when I feel absolutely terrible, but in time I get back to my “normal” self or maybe it is better to say my “new normal” self. It sounds so crazy to say that an incurable and sometimes debilitating present situationillness made me stronger, but it really has! This illness gave me so many reasons to keep fighting for my own health and it has empowered me with determination that does not waver.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my thoughts and ❤LOVE to read your fantastic comments. I hope you have a great day and I really hope you are feeling well. Please always remember that I am sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Happy Friday!

GoodmorningwishesonFridaypictures3-compressedGood morning Y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and you are looking forward to a beautiful weekend! It is amazing how fast the weather has changed from being pretty chilly, to sunshine and warmth! I am so thankful for the natural vitamin D the sunshine has to offer us all, I just hope y’all get to enjoy this as well!

I try to not make too many plans over the weekend and just use weekends as restful time. We spend the entire week dedicated to our jobs and often neglect ourselves, so the two days we get for the weekend should be spent doing what makes us happy❤! I also avoid making plans for the weekend because I never know how I am going to be feeling so instead of disappointing others, it is just best to play things by ear! If myself and my husband are both feeling well we can set up something that we want to do, but if one or both of us is not feeling our best we do not have to do anything at all! It works for us and most people do understand this! 

I made a decision today that I am going to try my best to increase the hours I work each failure not an optionday from 6 to 7 hours starting Monday. I am hopeful that I will be successful with this goal, but if for some reason I am not I will not be too hard on myself and just keep trying. I think it is extremely important to set goals and try your hardest to achieve those goals, but also not beat yourself up if it does not work out on the first try! Not achieving goals you set is not failure, giving up is the only way to really fail yourself! 

I hope y’all wake up and feel great today so you can enjoy your Friday! Maybe feeling well on Friday will pave the path for a fabulous weekend! I certainly hope y’all are feeling great today and I hope you have a wonderful day! Remember to be easy on yourself and take care of your needs everything else will just fall into place! I always appreciate you visiting my site and value your comments which I will always respond to as quickly as I can! Never forget that I am always sending y’all lots of love and comfort!

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Always, Alyssa❤

Huge thank you!

Thank-You-So-MuchI am completely astonished by the amazing amount of support all of you have offered me since I start my blog in July 2017. I started this blog with only one follower initially, my husband. I made the decision to start this journey because of my passion for writing and my strong desire to help others that may be going through hard times. I felt that after living with a chronic illness for almost 18 years I could offer some hope, courage and strength for others. I am very proud to say that I am achieving my goal more and more each day due to the gratitude I have received from many of you. At this moment with each post I make over 600 individuals are reading what I write and so many make gracious comments to me that I am helping them through difficult times. I have heard so many times that my positive thoughts and encouraging words have inspired others, which really makes me incredibly happy. All I have ever wanted to do is help and motivate others that may have fallen on hard times or may possibly be struggling with illness.i-am-here-for-you

I want y’all to know how much I have enjoyed getting to know you and also learning so much from each of you! All of us deal with something that is not easy and we all have special and unique ways to cope our situations. I truly hope that y’all know that I am always here to help in any way I can. Our struggles are real, but they are always strengthening our abilities to handle the next day! Continue to stay positive and know that it is okay to lean on others. It is also okay to have a bad day and not feel very optimistic, we all have those days. However, it is important to not dwell on a bad day and remember that tomorrow is a new day with new opportunities for happiness!

I hope y’all have a great evening! Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. I look forward to hearing your thoughts in the comments and I do promise to respond to you as quickly as I can! I love the fabulous communications we have had! I am sending all of you lots of love and comfort!!

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Always, Alyssa

A few days MIA

Bright weekI have not made a post in a few days because sometimes life just gets too chaotic and it is hard to do the things I want to do. Life’s obligations can get in the way of good and fun times. Now whether it be work or household chores they all get in the way of leisure times. I know once I get home from work I am exhausted and do not feel like doing much of anything. Granted my job does only consists of being at a desk and most people would think that is not very tiring, but staring at a computer screen all day is exhausting! When you are sitting all day, not being active it weakens your muscles to the point they do not want to do anything else. I almost feel that my muscles go to sleep and do not want to wake up for any such reason. Plus being at a computer all day causes me to feel so much pain in my back and that pain alone makes me fatigued. 

I have been doing my best to increase my hours at work and I have been able to do 7 hour days. I am thankful that my job has been understanding with slowly adding to how much I am able to handle. I have noticed that I feel so much better earlier in the day, but then about noon I start feeling like I have been hit by a ton of bricks. I do however keep pushing a few extra hours so I can hit my 7 hour goal! 

Y’all already know that living life with an illness can add some additional stress and challenges to your daily life. How do you fight through pain when there is not any kind of relief? Even though things have not been easy lately I do still believe everything157213-Fight-Through-The-Bad-Days happens for a reason and somehow everything works out the way they are meant to. I do realize how clique that sounds, but I do believe every word of it.  

The weather plays  huge part in the way I feel. Rain and cold cause my body to feel terrible. We had a few days of bitter cold and I felt like a truck had run me over and backed over me just for good measure. Then Mother Nature decides it needs to be warm, so my body adjusts to that only to have the weather get cold again! Then we have days of sunshine, followed by days of rain or the threat of rain and I feel horrible! If we could just have weeks or months of the same type of weather I could be adjusted and stable!

I hope y’all had a great Monday! I hope the rest of your week goes absolutely wonderful! Always remember how important it is to stay positive even when it is difficult. Strength comes from positivity! As always, I appreciate you stopping by site today and please leave comments as I will respond to you just as quickly as I can! Sending y’all lots of love and comfort always!

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Always, Alyssa

 

Martin Luther King

MLKMartin Luther King Jr was an incredibly influential man, who dedicated his life to fight for equality. He was born January 15, 1929 in Atlanta Georgia into a home of strong religious beliefs. His father, Martin Luther King Sr’s birth name was actually Michael King Sr but he adopted the name, Martin Luther King in honor of German Protestant religious leader, Martin Luther. In 1931, he stepped into the role as Pastor of Ebenzer Baptist Church after his father in law passed away.

Even during his youth Martin Luther King was a brilliant man. While attending Booker T. Washington High School, he skipped both the 9th and 11th grades. At age 15 he entered Morehead College in Atlanta, GA, where against his father’s wishes choose not to study ministry because at the time he was questioning religion in general. In all honesty, I can understand why he would question religion. The treatment of African-Americans was so unjust and unfair how could anyone believe in what religion is supposed to be about? Somehow during his junior year in college his faith in religion was renewed and hemartin-luther-king-jr-6 wanted to have a career in Ministry. In 1948 he earned his Sociology degree and decided to continue his education at Liberal Crozer Theological Seminary in Chester, PA. I was not surprised to learn that he graduated as the Valedictorian and was elected as Student Body President in 1951. Upon graduating from Liberal Crozer Theological Seminary, he was accepted at several colleges for doctoral studies and enrolled at Boston University. King earned his PhD at a young age of 25.

From deciding the road of Ministry, to his final speech “I’ve Been to the Mountaintop” on April 3, 1968, Martin Luther King made an enormous difference in the world. He dedicated his life to equality that should have continued to be upheld through the years but unfortunately seems to have diminished rapidly. How many people today would organize peaceful protests that would help humanity? In 2018, 63 years after King Stick with Loveorganized the Montgomery Bus Boycott, how many people would stand up for their beliefs in the harmonious way he did then? I feel that all these years later, anytime there is a protest it ends up being a riot and there is an incredible amount of unnecessary violence. Why have we not evolved into more loving individuals?

King wanted nothing more than to have peaceful changes amongst the treatment for African-American. I am a strong supporter of equal rights for everyone because we are all human beings with feelings and it does not matter the color of your skin, love choices, religious or political beliefs. On August 28, 1963 King and his supporters organized their plans for a monumental demonstration on the nation’s capital. The March on Washington drew in more than 200,000 people all wanting amicable changes. It was during this demonstration when King made one of his famous speeches, “I Have AI have a dream Dream.” 55 years later it almost seems that so many have forgotten the very powerful words that were made during that speech. What happened to having a dream of fairness and justice?

It was due to King’s relentless efforts that the Civil Rights Act was passed in 1964. The act authorized the federal government to enforce desegregation of public accommodations and outlawed discrimination in publicly owned facilities. During that same year, King was awarded a Nobel Peace Prize Award for his refusal to accept racial prejudice in America.

Sadly, Dr. King was assassinated April 4, 1968 while standing on the balcony of the Lorraine Motel in Memphis TN. The day before his death, he made his final speech, “I’ve Been to the Mountaintop.” Dr. King motivated so many Americans to stand up not only for their rights but their beliefs. Are there many people today actually motivating society? Is it really too hard to embrace and value others for who they are? I believe that ethics has vanished from the world and it is really sad. Dr. King was just a man who made life altering changes for the world. I only wish that in 2018 we could remember Inspiring-Martin-Luther-King-Jr.-quotes-Keep-Movingand honor him for all he did for Americans and not disgrace his memory, values and strength.

Much of my post for today was to teach you more about Martin Luther King but also to share just how passionate I am for respecting and caring everyone. It only takes one person with a belief to make incredible changes. Always stand strong to how you feel and never allow anyone to discourage you. What would have happened if Martin Luther King allowed someone to demoralize his beliefs? He never lost his spirit during all his battles and cruelty that was inflicted on him.MLK Keep the Dream

I hope y’all enjoyed this post today. I encourage your comments because I would truly love to hear your thoughts. I hope the rest of your day goes well and you have a very peaceful and restful evening! Sending love and comfort to you everyday!

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Always, Alyssa