Time For A Change!

no accidents all is meant to beChange is a wild mixture that can be both exhilarating and nerve-wrecking all at the same time! Change gives us the ability for amazing new opportunities, but sometimes it seems very risky or maybe that is just how my brain works. I know the best way to handle change or changes is to take things one step at a time and not over do it by trying to do all that needs to be done at once. I am a FIRM believer that everything happens for a reason and when it was meant to! Sometimes I also think there isn’t such a thing as something happening or meeting someone by accident!

With moving to a new city in a different state and starting a new job, there seems to be aChange lot to juggle right now in life. The funny thing is, before I went into my interview I saw a beautiful butterfly flying around my car! Of course I thought the butterfly was a sign that I was meant to get the job I really wanted and I DID!!

Now, packing can be a fun at times because you can actually throw away or donate things that you don’t use anymore, this gets rid of unnecessary clutter. I think it is best to donate items not in use instead of throwing them away because those items might be very useful to someone else. You have probably heard that saying, “One man’s junk is another’s treasure.”? Even with that said, it can still take a lot of energy that I seem to be losing change-quotes-5rapidly. I tend to feel overwhelmed because I have the need to do everything myself and hate asking for any help, but I am learning slowly to ask for help more!

I am sure y’all understand how stressful moving and starting a new job can be! In your lifetime, when you have moved, how did you manage to handle it without having a nervous-breakdown? I have always been a bit of a walking/talking stress case, but I am trying to handle it better. Of course I do not want to get myself too stressed out and cause myself to have a relapse! Any tips you might have I would love to hear! I always appreciate all of your great advice and to read how you handle similar situations! 

70502da7ecfb161bf5ee8a42face4478-1050x1050My last day at my current job is this Friday!! I am nervous and excited about this. I have been with my company for over three years and even though I am more than ready for a change, it is the change that is a little scary! I will be starting my adventure with my new job on September 28th and I am very excited about this position! I think my new job is the perfect fit for my personality and the hours are far beyond fabulous!

With moving and packing, I might not be making posts as I typically would. Please forgive me if I fail to respond in a timely manner, but I will still try! I hope y’all are having a great week and feeling the best you can! Please remember that no matter what I am going through in life, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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What do you do to unwind?

Happy Friday forget the weekGood morning y’all and HAPPY FRIDAY!! I think the weeks start feeling longer the older we get, but maybe that is all in my mind! What do y’all think? With the weekend finally near, I am looking forward to my two days away from work and getting up early! I might not sleep in as much as I should, but just knowing I do not have anywhere to be is a breath of fresh air!

Do y’all have things you enjoy doing to unwind from the long work week? Some of the things I truly enjoy doing and help me relax are similar to what I do in the evenings, but with more freedom and knowing the alarm will NOT wake me in the morning. I think some of what I actually enjoy others might view as stressful, but for me they WORK! Writing is something that helps me get mychristianlouboutin1 feelings and stress off my shoulders. This is something that I need because otherwise I would be even more of a massive stress case. Even though I write several hours before bedtime or when I should be preparing for sleep, I have been told (by the NP), I should not be doing so. I have said this numerous times before, but I am the only one that knows my body and what is beneficial to me. These are the types of comments and or advice I have learned to ignore or just let pass on in my mind. 

It can become a little difficult during the work week when I am too tired from work to give my nelson-mandela-quoteblogger friends the true attention they deserved. If I am too tired or in too much pain, I save reading others posts for the weekend, when I can really absorb what I am reading and then leave the best comments I can. This produces amazing friendships❤!

I honestly enjoy writing and making strong connections with others around the world. This  allows for me to learn from others different ways to handle life and the struggles we all face.  

I also really love trying to spread positivity to as many as I can! Life can get so complicated and really frustrating and we all have bad days! Even though my posts are full of reality and come straight from my heart❤, I do not sugar coat anything EVER. If I am having a horrible day my post might start off on the negative side, but they always flip to positive before it is done. The reason this happens is because I am getting the frustrations I am feeling out and finding a different way to view my struggles before I end the post. 

Now that I have shared something that actually helps me unwind and chill out, what helps y’all unwind and relax? I am interested to hear what you find beneficial as I knowrelax unwind and chill we all have different methods. What works for me, might not work for another.  Just as what works for you, might not be as helpful to me. All of this is okay because we are all uniquely different, which is what makes us special.

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read and LOVE❤ your comments. I am also very excited to read what you find helpful to relax after another long week! I hope you have a very lovely Friday and hope your weekend is fabulous! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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Amazing benefits of Yoga!

good morning butterflyGood morning y’all! I hope your week has started your week off on a good note and you are feeling well today! I hope y’all have a lovely day and continue feeling the best you possibly can!

This past Sunday I received an amazing yoga tip that can be done at my desk at work from a fabulous fellow blogger! ❤Heather & Dizzy from https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com/ sent me a YouTube link for a short yoga option that can be done easily at work! It is easy and incredibly helpful. Not only do I encourage you to check out Heather & Dizzy’s site, but please check out this short yoga video. I tried it at work on Monday and was shocked on how much it helped! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAUf7aajBWE

Both Heather & Dizzy have been doing yoga for some time now and knew how much Itransform your health really wanted to give this a try! The two of them share great videos showing just how easy yoga can be. Dizzy ❤is adorable with all her honest efforts and I know that Heather ❤will give Dizzy her favorite treats, ginger cookies!

So not just those of us living with a chronic illness, but everyone could benefit from practicing yoga. There are so many positives to trying this, with no negatives that follow! I think the improvements practicing yoga can provide us can and will be a benefit to our health!

5b25d83cf185a54b8dbe00c0871a5ae2The video I did while at work on Monday (the same one I shared with y’all) was relaxing and allowed the pain in my body to ease up some, which was wonderful! As I discover more easy-to-do yoga videos, I will continue to share them with y’all and if you know of any, please share them with me. I am really trying to find more ways to help me relax and therefore reduce the levels of stress I tend to feel daily!

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today and I do look forward to reading your comments! I do promise to respond to all comments as quickly as I can! Again, please if you have not already viewed💞 Heather & Dizzy’s site, stop by their amazing site as I am more than certain you will find Heather’s personality and humor very encouraging and contagious! Thank you again Heather💞 for all of your kind & encouraging comments & your amazing advice about yoga!  Always remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort! 

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The world keeps spinning!

The world keeps spinningThe world seems to keep spinning around me so fast, but I feel like I standing still. I think it might be important to just accept the things in life that we have no control over and just embrace life for what it is. There really is so much about life that we might want to change, but I think whatever we might be living with or dealing with is in front of us for a reason. The reasons might be unknown, but there are reasons that we will discover someday!

If you sit down and really think about the way your life has played out, is there any outcome you would want to be different? All the struggles we might have encountered have not made us weak by any means, but they have all built our strength to continue onstruggle is real fighting a good fight! Sure none of us want to have a chronic illness or financial struggles or anything that might appear to be a negative aspect of life, but if we did not go through all the trials in life who would we be? I would like to think that everything we go through in life creates who we are and how we treat others, but maybe we would still be the same person if we did not go through any hard times. No one can say and be 100% sure!

Personally, I have always been very empathetic towards others and sympathetic to other’s needs. Everyone’s thoughts and emotions matter to me❤! I guess I am and probably always will be a very sentimental and sometimes overly emotional person. The way I am now has not changed since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, I am just me!

There are so many people we all encounter that never learned how to be empathetic, which if you think about it is pretty sad for them. I guess for some people, especially in the world we live in frederickdouglass1today, if you have never experienced a life altering illness that causes many different issues, they are unable to understand. It is okay for people to not fully understand, but they should never judge another because how they say they are feeling. Pain is VERY REAL! Migraines are VERY REAL! Instability when walking is VERY REAL! Mood changes are also VERY REAL! Everything we deal with in life is VERY REAL! None of us asked to have a chronic illness and I am sure we all wished we didn’t. But considering we have one, we face the world with a different perspective that involves a lot of acceptance and willingness to make changes at a moment’s notice. Our days are typically never the same, but most of never complain about it, we just manage it the best we can.

Basically I have taught myself and I am still learning how to accept the fact that I haveaccept what we can not control no control over many things in my life. I know I can control how I view situations and how I react to them, but that is all!  As a person that might have some control issues, this isn’t easy for me. I have always had a strong desire to make the lives of those I care about better. Learning that I have NO control over how someone else’s life works out for them is hard! I have learned that there isn’t anything I can do to make life easy for anyone because I do not think life was meant to always be easy! We all just need to live our life to the fullest and never dwell on what we think or wish would happen!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my sometimes random thoughts and really LOVE reading your comments! I hope y’all are having a wonderful weekend and I hope you are feeling well. Please always know that I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Never a straight answer!

Relaxing QuotesGood afternoon y’all! I hope you have had a wonderful day! Look on the bright side, we have made it through two days and only have three to go!

So, y’all already know that I had the brain MRI on Friday evening, but of course I am not able to get the results until Thursday afternoon when I see the Nurse Practitioner! Typically I have always been able to read the radiologists reports online, but for some UNKNOWN reason the results are blocked to my viewing! Thankfully I do honestly prefer to see the NP rather than seeing the doctor because the doctor left a really bad taste in my mouth after her reaction to the MRI I had last October. I still find her reaction very unprofessional and disturbing, but what’s done is done and there is no correcting that experience! In front of my husband she actually told us it was the WORST MRI she had ever seen! I mean I think I reacted just as anyone else would as this was a very rude and hurtful way to share the results. Unfortunately in front of her I did cry, but then got extremely angry! Her reaction made me feel absolutely terrible, like I was going downhill fast and my illness was just progressing rapidly!Waiting torture

On Monday when I was not able to view the radiologists report, I contacted my doctor’s office. Monday afternoon the nurse responded back to my email by saying it did not look like my MRI had changed much since the one I had in October. That should have been good news and good enough, right? But being the person I am that wants more answers, I simply asked if this was indicating that considering I was still feeling the same way and the MRI apparently had not changed all that much since October, does this mean that I am just going to feel this way for the rest of my life? I think that was a very valid question, don’t you? Today this same nurse went from saying the MRI did not show much change to saying the doctor weighed in and he was not able to share any information with me as I need to wait to see the NP. How does something change so much overnight? I just do not understand why he suddenly is unable to share anything else with me. The way my mind works is I am thinking something a little more has changed and the NP needs to discuss this with me so I am clear on the situation at hand! Do you think I am overreacting?

waiting for answersI can be semi-logical sometimes because I do know there is nothing I can do to change what my MRI has found, but yet I still can not get my mind to slow down! Last night being SO stressed about this, I was able to contact a fellow blogger on Facebook. I thank Alex so much as she really did make me feel so much better, but now today I am back to being stressed to the MAX! Thanks to the blogging community and people as wonderful as Alex I know I have support and encouragement when I need it most! If you have not already visited Alex’s site, I am going to strongly recommend it. Alex offers so much support, love, compassion, and understanding, which I do think you will find as well once you visit her amazing site https://mswithmsalex.com/. Sending you so much LOVE ❤and thanks Alex!

Thank y’all for stopping by my site today and I do really look forward to your comments. Your comments always mean so much to me and really add some fantastic insights that I probably have not been able to see. I hope you have a nice and relaxing evening. Please always remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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Calming Sunday!

happy sundayGood evening y’all! I hope your weekend has been very pleasant and enjoyable! Considering I am still feeling so much pain and fatigue, I literally have done NOTHING today! Doing absolutely nothing for one entire day has been both calming to my out of control nerves and peaceful! I can not believe I have missed out on this feeling for so many years! I am always one who wants to be on the constant move no matter how I am feeling, partially because when I am still, I feel pain a lot more!. Doing things around the house, organizing my week ahead and ensuring that everything that needs to be completed is done by the end of the day on Sunday has always been the way my weekends flow. It sounds SO crazy when I think about that a little deeper because things will always get taken care of when they are meant to, so why rush things along?

I think everyone is already very well aware that I am very disturbed by how the United States has been behaving lately. I feel strongly that the behavior of those in charge is setting a very BAD impression and example for all Americans, as some of us do still struggles and frustrationsbelieve in EQUALITY and LOVE❤! Of course there are still some Americans that blindly follow those in charge, which is sad and unfortunate! I find it extremely hard to relate to anyone that does not see what is really happening in this country! I am sorry if anyone finds this statement offensive, but it is how I feel everyday of my life. I have and always will see everyone as just human with no other judgement! I do not appreciate being constantly lied to from those in power of the country I live in because I feel that honesty is the best and only way to live!

I want to apologize for the slight tangent I went off on. I try to stay hopeful that things are going to get better and not any worse, but there is no guarantees with those making the decisions that inflict damage on our lives daily! Currently I feel that I am living in a your patienceconstant state of fear that I am going to end up losing health insurance because I have a pre-existing condition that I never choose to live with. I do not feel that I should be punished for living with a chronic illness, as that alone is punishment enough, so for our government to decide I may not qualify for insurance is absurd! This has not happened yet, but I do think it is in the works! Hell I think I already pay WAY too much for insurance! But it is scary for me  to think that Trump could easily have a bad day and have a temper tantrum that will eliminate healthcare for those with chronic illness! 

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for visiting my site today! I do encourage your amazing comments and promise I will response as quickly as I possibly can! I know some of what I have written is a lot different that what I normally write about, but my frustrations have been elevating drastically each day and every day I hear of what is going on in the United States. Trying to find the positive in what is going on is difficult, but I am sure it is there somewhere! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing evening! Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

** I forgot to ask y’all! Do any of you have Facebook as well? As of August 1st, all my blog post do not link to Facebook any longer and I kind of want them to still link to Facebook. Do you by chance know what I need to do, so I do not have to continue posting to Facebook manually?**

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