How can this be happening?

images (2)Good evening y’all! Before you continue reading, please beware this is a very emotional post with how I feel about what is going on at the moment. I do hope this does not offend anyone that reads. 

hateHate is a useless emotion that can end up controlling our lives and what good does that really for anyone? Not a damn thing! I will never understand how anyone could be so incredibly full of hate and actually want nothing more but to spread those negative feelings to as many people as they can. Maybe I am the one in the wrong, but I feel we are ALL human-beings with a beating heart ❤ and have real feelings!

If I am being 100% honest with y’all, even though I do my best to not allow hatred to takehate 2 control of my life, I failed miserably last night after watching a horrifying news clip. Seeing the way US Border Protection and Custom Agents are treating immigrant woman and children is disguising and that is putting it mildly. These people being detained are seeking asylum because of the dangers in where they are from.

download (4)I am at a total loss for words that anyone could watch what I did last night and it not leave them full of not only sadness, but pure rage. I sat here in tears for hours because I want to do something to help these innocent people. Woman and children being forced to live with a limited amount of food, water and place to lay their heads, is heartbreaking. It did get even worse than this because children are being separated from their parents and in turn have no one to actually care for them. Sadly the detainees are being treated worse than those in maximum security prisons and even being abused by US Border Protection and Customimages (1) Agents. I would be able to understand what is happening much more if those being detained were causing harm to others, but all they are doing is searching for a safe place to call home.

I have several questions for these immoral US Border Protection and Custom Agents starting with, whose direction are you following? What has caused you to be so malevolent? How the hell would you feel if your wife, mother or child was treated in the horrific way you are treating xrZq6007others? How do you sleep soundly at night and not be haunted with guilt?

For some reason I was under the impression that the United States of America was sanctuary country and was willing to help those in need, but unfortunately I was very wrong about this! There are actually 7 US states that are sanctuary states which include: California, Colorado, Illinois, Massachusetts, New Mexico, Oregon and Vermont. I want to clarify what sanctuary means. The term sanctuary jurisdiction refers to a city, country or state that has enacted policies that limit local officials’ involvement in the enforcement of federal immigration law.textgram-5

Currently I feel completely helpless with my desire to help those being harmed at the border. I told my husband I wanted to somehow send food, clean water, pillows, blankets, clothing, daily hygiene products and anything else these people could benefit from. It about broke my heart when he informed me that others have tried that, but the products never make it to those in need.

Maybe I am just way too emotional of a person, but my heart bleeds for those that I am unable to help. I do not know any of the people that are suffering under the care of US Border Protection and Custom Agents, but that does not mean a thing. These people are trying to escape their own Spread-lovecountry because of the dangers they encountered and come to where they think they will be safe, but are still in fatal danger. I am having a hard time being okay with this and just saying “All well there is nothing I can do.” At the moment, all I am able to do is spread word of this terrible issue and hope for change.

Thank y’all for visiting my site and taking the time to read this highly emotional post. I do encourage your comments and promise to respond as quickly as I can, download (4)but I am also not pressuring you to comment. I know everyone has a lot they are dealing with in their own lives and we all have our own opinions on everything, which is the way it should be! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Chronically Hopeful Award!

ChronicallyHopefulAwardI was completely blown away that the lovely Heather and Dizzy at https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com thought to nominate me for such a beautiful award. I find both ❤ Heather and Dizzy to be so encouraging and battle MS with nothing but grace! Considering I have been adjusting to working full-time again, blogging has been a little difficult for me. I had actually told myself that I would not be able to do award posts until I had fully adjusted, but this one is very special and holds a place in my ❤heart because I think all of us living with a chronic illness need to hold on tight to hope! I mean, without hope, what do we really have? Thank you from the bottom of my ❤ heart Heather and Dizzy ❤ for this incredible nomination! I do encourage anyone that has not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site to check it out https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com, I know you will love it as much as I do! And thank you Pamela ❤ for creating this amazing award for those that are able to have hope for the future!

The wonderful Chronically Hopeful Award has been created by Pamela, “to recognize the incredible people who blog about chronic illness, mental health and disability.”

THE RULES:

  1. Thank your nominator
  2. Recognize Pamela from There Is Always Hope as the creator of this award and link her URL – https://pamelajessen.com
  3. Use the Chronically Hopeful Award logo somewhere in your post
  4. Copy these rules onto your post
  5. Answer your nominator’s questions
  6. Write 5-10 of your own questions (they don’t need to be illness related)
  7. Nominate 5-10 other chronic illness, mental illness, or disability bloggers
  8. Comment on each of your nominees’ latest posts to tell them they have been nominated

Heather & Dizzy’s Questions and my answers:

 1, What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned from your illness?

 I think the biggest lesson I have learned since diagnosed with MS at age 19 is, life can be painfully difficult, but giving up should never be an option. We are meant to live the life we are living and must always fight with everything we have.

2. If you were a dinosaur, what dinosaur would you be and why? download (4)

This was actually a very difficult question to answer, but I think I would have to say a Pterodactyl because they can fly! I think it would be amazing to have the ability to fly away when you need time alone!

3. What is your most embarrassing moment? 

I know I have had many embarrassing moments, but I have done my best to forget them. One embarrassing moment I haven’t been able to forget is tripping while walking on rocks at the beach. It was a simple accident, but so many people watched it happen.

4. What is your favourite flower?download (3)

My absolute favorite flower is the Stargazer lily. I got married in early October when these flowers were not really in season, but I just had to have them. Thankfully, the florist was able to get them for me! It was probably the only thing that I just had to have for my wedding!

5. What makes you happy? 

There are several things that make me happy. First, my two adorable and very loving ❤ cats bring me so much joy. They can be little terrors at times, but they misbehave in the cutest ways possible! Being able to write also brings me so much joy.

 

❤❤My amazing nominees are: Now, my nominees are in no specific order and I also do not want to add any additional stress or pressure to your life, so please do not feel obligated to participate, I will understand if you choose not to. On the other hand, I do look forward to reading your answers to the questions I have come up with!

https://simplychronicallyill.com/

https://autoimmunewarrior.org/

https://mymsrollercoasterride.wordpress.com

https://fuckms.ca

https://bsingthroughms.home.blog/

https://invisiblyme.com/

https://brokenlifesite.wordpress.com

https://beckiesmentalmess.blog/

https://msichchronicles.blog/

❤My Questions For My Nominees Are:

1, What inspires you?

2. What brings you the most joy in life?

3. What do you struggle the most with?

4. If you could be an animal, what would you be and why?

5. What has been your greatest achievement in the past year?

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I hope y’all are having a fabulous weekend and you are feeling well. Please, if you have not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site, check them out if you have the time, I know you will never regret it! Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

 

A Day of Remembrance!

memorial-day-1.jpgMemorial Day, is an American Holiday that is observed on the last Monday of the month of May. This holiday is to honor the men and women who lost their lives while serving in the United States military. This day did not actually become an official federal holiday until 1971. Memorial Day was originally known as Decoration Day in the years that followed the Civil War.

I still cannot understand how any war can be referred to as “Civil” because 620,000 people lost their lives in this war. This “Civil” War or the War Between the States went Memorial Day Tributeon from April 12, 1861 until April 9, 1865. The absolutely absurd thing about this war is, it was fought between the United States of America and the Confederate States of America. The Confederate States of America was 11 southern states that left the union in efforts to form their own country and consisted of; South Carolina, Mississippi, Florida, Alabama, Georgia, Louisiana, Texas, Virginia, Arkansas, North Carolina, and Tennessee. The Confederate States of America were fighting to freedom isnt freeprotect their so called rights for slavery.

For me this is a shameful thing to even fight about because I do not believe slavery should have ever existed. Y’all already know this about me, but I strongly believe everyone should be treated equally regardless of their skin color or anything else some might judge on. In 1865, the United States of America defeated those that were part of the Confederate State of America and slavery was abolished.

 Of course in 2019, people are using this day to visit cemeteries, memorials, hold family gathering and participate in parades. Today is aimages (14)day to honor those that fought for equality and to not have anyone referred to slaves. The real meaning behind this day is something honorable and should be recognized. To really honor this day, those that are still judging people need to make a true attempt to change their hateful ways and just share love ❤ with all. So many people risked and gave their lives so we could have the opportunity to live among each other. All of us have a beating heart ❤ that feels and has real emotions. With that said, why do so many people still seem to live to only hate? My hope for today is, everyone will realize and understand that love ❤ is the only way to live and hate images (16)should not be allowed to cloud our thoughts.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have a wonderful day and send a little kindness and love ❤ to another that may really need it. We never know what someone else is going through and it is very possible kind words will not only bring them joy, but it may also make their day! Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

It wasn’t meant to be easy

life has a funny wayLife has a funny way of throwing random things in our direction when they are least expected and often VERY unwanted. It definitely isn’t easy, but these are the times we must pick ourselves up, dust off the difficulties and strive to carry on!

For the most part, I think that the troubles we get faced with happen to remind us just how strong we truly are. We all go along through the motions of any given day and never stop to give ourselves the much deserved credit for the accomplishments we have made. Our daily routines have become so embedded into our minds that we just naturally react to every situation in the best way possible. Sometimes things will work out right the first time around and other times we have to try again! The best way to handle these situations is, NEVER GIVE UP! As long as we choose to not give up and remain determined to succeed, we will never fail.download (3)

What happens when something occurs that was so unexpected; it throws major a wrench in our day to day activities? Of course the process we need to go through may be challenging to figure out, but our minds will lead us in the right direction, if we just listen to our own intuition.

Sometimes life becomes more like a movie that is just set to automatic repeat, or at least it is for me. Monday-Friday every day is the same, which is perfectly fine and preferred. What some might call boring and predictable, I call calm and drama-free! With all the insanity that goes on in this world, who really needs additional drama? I actually love coming images (14)home to be greeted by my ❤ husband and two adorable cats❤! We eat dinner while watching our favorite shows and then just spend good quality time together. I will read, write or crochet in the evenings, so it is very calm, happy, and peaceful!

When I stop to think about how precious life is and how quickly things can change, I am thankful for what I do have in my life. Sure maybe life may have been easier if I didn’t have MS, but I do and I choose to continue living! I try to NOT think about what could have happened or what should have happened because really, what is the point? 63449-Life-Has-Many-Ways-Of-Testing-A-Person-s-WillAnything that did happen did so for reasons I may never know and that is okay. Hell, if it was not MS it may have been something far worse.  

My heart breaks for the people out there that do not have the faintest idea of what actually makes them happy. It almost seems as though these people got lost somewhere along the way and never managed to find themselves. I cannot say they did not try, but I might say they gave up the search. I have known people that went through some pretty severe depression, but even in their darkest hours knew a couple images (15)things that did bring them joy. Of course, those joys did often get shadowed over by their negative thoughts and bad situations, but they were still able to recognize a few positive things in their life. Unfortunately, I have also learned that I do not have the power to turn someone’s mind around when it is clouded with depression. In times like these, there is only one person that can create happiness and that is themselves. For instances, my mother has been struggling lately and neither herDPere-vWAAAeBey husband nor myself can make her truly happy, she needs to do that on her own. I hate to put that so bluntly, but it is the truth and I do think that any legit therapist would agree with me on this for anyone.

The sad reality is life can be harsh and painful, but it is how we handle it that counts. Challenges happen to everyone, no matter how you are or where you live. Unlike so many other things in this world, hard times do not discriminate and will try destroying anyone images (16)and anything that stands in the way. The good news is, if you never surrender and continue fighting back, those hard times will move onto its next victim.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I do encourage you to take a moment to leave a comment because I love knowing what you think of what I share. I hope you are having a pleasant day and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Sunday Hopes!

sunday-1.jpgGood afternoon y’all! I hope your weekend has been absolutely amazing and you are feeling well. I am so glad that I was able to finally able to do a couple posts this weekend because it really brings me SO much joy! I must say that I am still a little shocked that I received two award nominations a couple days apart from each other and feel so thankful to the amazing people that nominated me! Now that I have been given this kind of recognition it leads me to believe that it is possible that I am doing something good with my blog! I have always wanted to be able to inspire and encourage as many as I possibly can and maybe, just maybe, this means that I am doing what I had planned!

If I am being completely transparent, which I always am and find it very important to do so, I have had VERY LOW energy and MANY pain issues this weekend. Of course, pain pain and fatigueand fatigue are just part of my daily life and I am typically able to just ignore them completely and move forward. I tend to not really understand why such issues become more intense at various times, but I think I might have finally determined the reason behind this. It is very possible that I am just a fantastic weather woman! My body tells me when it is going to rain a day ahead of time and I find amusement when the actual weatherman is clueless! On Friday, I started to feel somewhat awful, but it was manageable. Yesterday while I was grocery shopping I started chatting with the cashier, images (10)which I know y’all will find that shocking, just kidding y’all already know I always initiated conversations wherever I go! Anyways, I mentioned to her that I thought it was going to start raining   very soon. She was an older woman and agreed with me. We both said that we feel the rain deep in our bones prior to the first drop falls. Her reason was that she has arthritis and always hurts more when it rains . WOW, this kind of makes me feel older than my years, but I guess such as life and it could be worst!

Even though I am rather tired, I finally have the time to write. Have y’all ever run into download (12)roadblocks when you start writing because you have far too many ideas running around in your mind? I am definitely at that point right now, so please bare with me as I try to sum up a few things that are on my mind!🌸

It has been a couple weeks since I shared my thought that I may be gluten-intolerant. I have done a decent job with cutting gluten of my diet, but definitely not perfect. I have bought many gluten-free foods for my house and can tell a slight difference in the taste. Last night the craziest thing happened to me Wheat-Gluten-Intoleranceand scared the hell out of me. When I was almost done eating dinner, I had a terrible pain in my stomach. This pain was so intense it not only made me very nauseous, but unable to finish my dinner and bent over in pain. Let’s just say without too many details, this was the worst pain my stomach has ever felt. My husband was ready to take me to the Emergency Room and knowing it would cost a small fortune without insurance made my stress increase the pain I was already dealing with drastically.  Thankfully, this all did pass after a little more than an hour and I am okay now, but I also refuse to eat.download (13)

❤❤Another thing I would like to add is two people I know are in need of some extra prayers. The first one is my mother who went to the hospital on Friday because of severe pain in her back. After a many tests, the ER doctor said it could be one of two things. She may end up needing to have her gallbladder removed because of gallstones or she needs to pass a kidney stone. Both of these can be terrifying and very painful. I am just hoping this issue is just a kidney stone that will pass soon ending her pain and not needing surgery. It might sound crazy, but surgeries scare me because  errors can happen.

❤❤The other person that is in need of prayers is a dear blogger friend Jessica. Jessica’s son has been in the hospital for I think about a week now. Her sweet little boy has had to endure being in the hospital with doctors poking and prodding him. This would scare the heck img_0737out of me and I am 37, so I cannot imagine how this little boy is feeling. Jessica is a VERY strong and amazing woman, but I do believe the more prayers of healing for her son would be very appreciated! If you have a moment, please check out her blog and maybe leave her some encouraging words as I know she will appreciate your thoughts-https://jessierenea.com.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! Y’all know my posts are not normally this long, but I had a lot to share! I hope the rest of your Sunday is wonderful and peaceful! I do look forward to reading your brilliant thoughts on this post and I do promise to respond as quickly as I can! Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

The past two days….

b95003c28f7647882e471ba62e268fc0The past two days have been truly awful for me! For some unknown reason, on Thursday the normal pain I face every day increased drastically. It was incredibly painful to walk and even to sit at my desk at work. I did push myself to make it through my day at work, but then did not go into the office on Friday. Between the pain I was dealing with and the massive migraine, I could not do anything.

My weekend was full with naps and ice packs on my head. It was not until this afternoon that I felt human again. I am not going to lie, I am still struggling with a minor headacheiceand pain, but I am hoping it does not get anywhere near as bad as it was for the past two days. I am used to dealing with pain of all kinds and can handle it rather well, but once the pain gets into my head, I am done!

There were things I had planned for this weekend and was not able to accomplish any of it. I was nominated for The Sunshine Blogger Award and had planned to do a post about it, but could not do it. Hillary Tan at https://sereneluna.wordpress.com is the sweet lady that nominated images (2)me and has been understanding with me not being able to do the acceptance post, yet! I promise I will do this post as soon as I am able to. In the meantime though, if you have not already viewed Hillary’s blog, I strongly encourage you to do so. Hillary has some great posts and I always enjoy reading her posts!

I hate that I felt so terrible all  weekend because I do have several posts that I have been working on to share with you. It might sound insane, but I feel helpless when I go an entire weekend without accomplishing anything. I am one that plans to rest some over the weekend, but to get things done around the house. I download (6)hope throughout the week, I will be able to complete the few posts I have started and be able to publish them!

I know y’all understand pain and migraines. I really hate that because I would not wish how I was feeling on anyone, well I am sure I can think of a few people that deserve the suffering feeling. Considering it is Sunday night and I am still battling with a slight headache and pain, I just hope the rest I had over the images (2)weekend will pay off. I am supposed to be at work tomorrow morning, I am very hopeful that I will be able to start the week better than last week ended. I will keep my positive outlook and know things will work out the way they are supposed to!

Thank you for stopping by my site tonight. I appreciate your support and the never-ending encouragement and understanding! I really hope your weekend was MUCH better than mine and you are feeling well! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Lies and Deceit!

images (1)I think it our society today, politicians and even BIG corporations have glorified their skills with lies and deceit. We watch many of these individuals make speeches with hardly any truth to them, but yet many people believe each and every lie they hear! For the life of me I can’t understand why so-called smart people can actually fall for the blatant lies even when there is solid evidence of the lies that were spoken. 

The truth will always come out and the liars will be revealed for what they truly are. It download-1-1.jpgseems that those that believe the lies they hear from, let’s say politicians, often think it is perfectly acceptable to do the same and only speak lies themselves. Of course there is a slight possibility those that constantly tell lies actually believe what they are saying to be true, but it is also possible they just get some kind of insane thrill when they tell lies, which is really sad! 

lies and deceit 1I do believe people can change, BUT only if they can admit to themselves what they are doing wrong and work to correct their unacceptable behaviors. None of us are perfect, but most of us do learn from our mistakes and do our very best to not make the same mistakes again! 

We live and learn to become better, not worse. Our lives should be about finding ways totime-will-inevitably-uncover-dishonesty-and-lies-history-has-no-place-for-them-f3ae1e880f2fbb24bd5e1e51d026a4ad not only better who we are, but to also progress into something more than we were. It does seem like SO many people choose to digress, which really doesn’t do much for them or anyone around them.

Is anyone else just completely sick and tired of hearing nothing but lies daily?? I think I have heard more than I can take and am choosing to eliminate anything to do with lies from my life. I guess this means I can’t watch the news or read images (2)about it anymore, not that I intentionally watched the news before, but my husband does and tells me what is happening! If someone can’t be completely transparent and truly honest with me, I just don’t have room in my life or tolerance for it anymore! The only thing that lies accomplish is hurt and disappointment. Even holding onto these words, “Enjoy the good times, but always expect the bad to return,” isn’t helping anymore!!

Please forgive me for yet again another rant, but seriously downloadwriting is the only thing that helps ease my troubled mind. I do appreciate you taking the time to read this post and I am looking forward to reading your comments! I hope you have had a lovely and relaxing weekend and of course feeling the best you possibly can! Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤