Dreary Sunday

Well spent SundayGood afternoon Y’all! I hope you have had an incredible weekend! I do believe it is important to live each moment to the fullest, as we do not know what tomorrow may hold for us. I am not saying to dwell on what could happen, but love others and life-like tomorrow does not exist, so there is not anything to regret! No one wants to live with the feeling of regret!

Do y’all do anything special on Sunday in preparation for the week ahead? Is Sunday your day to catch up on rest or get everything done you are not able to do during the week? In the past, I made Sunday my day to get all the cleaning, grocery shopping and laundry done, but now I am making Sunday a day to do things I want, no matter what that is. It may be resting or it may be cleaning, but regardless of what I do, it is not planned like the rest of my week! I think we all need a day that is completely unplanned and definitely not full of chaos. 

Lately I have been once again dealing with some extreme pain and as difficult as it is I am trying to not allow this pain to consume me! It is not easy to fight against the pain, but it does not help matters to give up and sit around crying about it. Tears may fall, but there is no amount of tears that will stop the pain I feel. 

Currently, I have been experiencing something new and I am not sure if it is related to Thoughts arrive like butterfliesthe MS or not. I have lost some of my abilities to taste, which seems a little odd. I did read about this and it can occur due to lesions on the brain. Considering I do not want to think there are new or active lesions, I am choosing to ignore this very mild issue. I am not one that enjoys food, so it does not matter that much! I am just accepting it and moving on!

I have heard from so many people who there must be some kind of special diet I can do for the MS to avoid any new issues. I have to say that is a pretty obnoxious thing to hear so often. In all honesty, there is no special diet that is going to cure MS or prevent further issues from happening. It is very clear for everyone that a well-balanced diet is healthy, but it does not offer a cure for anything! Everyone should already understand that over-eating is not a wise thing to do and will cause weight problems. We can all figure out if anything we eat causes us to feel worse and then we can avoid those specific foods. I am pretty stubborn, so when people are constantly talking to me about what I should eat I do the opposite. My doctors have been on my case for years about what I should weigh, but I hover around the same no matter what I do. I do not normally gain any weight and depending on what I am going through lose weight. Even if according to BMI calculators I am under weight, I feel like I am fine! 

Throughout life we are confronted with so many decisions we have to make. Sometimes we might make the wrong decisions, but that does not mean we have to stop living. I believe that the decisions we make that were not the best choice actually makes us Whispers of your heartstronger. Most of us learn from the bad decisions and hopefully do not make them again. I am a pretty emotional person so most of my decisions come from the heart. However, the bad decisions I make come from  negative feelings and maybe some angry feelings I have! Previously all my decisions surrounding the MS were solely based on fear, but now I am able to make rational and logical decisions about my health care because I educate myself on everything the doctors suggest. I do believe that if we listen more to what our heart is telling us, we will feel happier and more satisfied with life! Our heart knows what is right and wrong! 

Thank you for visiting my site today and I would love to read your thoughts! I learn so much from y’all because you are all so insightful! Most of us are battling with an illness, but we handle it with nothing but grace and strength! Who would have ever thought we had resilience and strength to continue fighting even when we are in so much pain? Not allowing an illness to take control of our daily lives is not easy, but we are all doing it every day and for that we should all be extremely proud! I know this post was a little all over the place, but I had a lot on my mind! I hope the rest of your Sunday is spent doing what makes you smile! A smile can make a big difference in everyone’s life! As always I am sending y’all lots of love and comfort!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

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Where is Spring?

where-is-springOn March 20th, we should have been graced with spring weather, but it seems Mother Nature had a difference of opinion! The first day of spring was rather warm, but then the days that followed were very chilly and some even had snow! Spring time snow just does not seem right to me, but I guess we will never understand how nature works. Spring is “supposed” to bring on the blooming of the trees and blossoming of the flowers adding so much beauty to the world! New life is given to nature and new beginnings are created all around us. The amazing and various colors of flowers give an incredibly artistic sight for us to see. Even the trees, which most think are just green, have a variety of different greens brightening up our surroundings! Of course the days delay the darkness of night by having a few hours longer of daylight and sunshine!

The days ahead are finally showing some signs of spring like weather. I really do hope that spring will stick around a while before we are bombarded with the summer heat! Summer is great for going to the beach, but when you live hours from the beach it is not always so fantastic! When it is 100 degrees out with high humidity, you literally can not walk from an air conditioned building to your car without being drenched in sweat! With the way Mother Nature has been acting, it is hard to say what summer is going to be like. There were a few days in February when the temperatures were in the upper spring_flowers_2015_longwood_cr_LongwoodGardensLAlbee70’s, which is highly abnormal! I do not think it is healthy for temperatures to go from nearly 80 degrees to the next day being in the upper 40’s that is too drastic of a change.

How is your spring going so far? Are y’all having spring like weather or are you experiencing the tail end of winter still? I know I have said this before, but my body does not respond well to dramatic weather changes. I definitely do not handle chilly rainy days well at all. Do you feel like cold rainy days worsen how you feel? But in all honesty, we can not control the weather and just need to do what we can to keep living! Never allowing an illness that is strongly affected by weather is hard, but we are all so much stronger than that!

I recently did a post about pain management doctors and how I feel about them. I do understand there is a huge issue right now with people abusing pain medications and doctors do not seem to have the man power to know which of their patients are not just after some type of high, but actually just want to live a normal life without pain. I feel like there is a lot of judging going on right now with people who live in pain and go to pain management. These patients should not be labeled as an addict or anything else that is humble-and-kinddemeaning. No one in their right mind wants to go to the doctor for anything, but they surely do not want to sit in a doctor’s office while they are in pain and wait to be seen. These people would much rather be at home where they are comfortable. So those that go through the struggles of getting to the doctor’s office and wait are suffering and in need of relief. I do not want it to sound like I am placing all the blame for the opioid crisis on the doctors and government, but they both have a lot to do with the issues at hand. I will never think that those that have a legitimate reason for going to pain management because of an accident or illness should be punished further. It does not seem fair to add more pain and suffering to those already under much stress from the pains they go through every day! 

I always appreciate you stopping by my site and I love reading your comments, which I will respond to as quickly as I can. We are all entitled to our own opinions and they all matter! I hope your weekend is going well and you are able to enjoy every moment of it! Sending y’all lots of love and comfort!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

Continued headaches and pain!

happy-friday-eve-walking-into-work-like-i-own-the-placeHappy Friday Eve Y’all! I hope you have had a good week and are ready for the much-needed weekend! It seems to have been a long week and I even missed a day of work due to my headaches and pain. I have no answers, only speculation as to what causes my headaches and or pain. As y’all already know, I do not like to give into these issues because it does not ever help and I prefer to push myself further. 

I always lean towards blaming the weather for any pain issues I have and the weather really has been all over the place. It was only last week when it was sunny and warm, but now this week has had a terrible chill in the air and vast amounts of rain. My body does not handle when there is a bitterness in the air because I tend to become very stiff. Then when you add the rain to the mix, I feel every pain possible and more.  Even though I am so thankful for the weekend, it is supposed to rain all weekend. Luckily I will be able to combat the chilly rainy weather by staying inside and under a warm blanket all weekend! 

Stress is a very obvious pain trigger for me. I am pretty sure all of you reading this know how much stress intensifies pain and headaches. I am working on controlling my stress forgive ourselvesbetter. It sounds crazy, but I am the type of person that will stress about being stressed and wonder what I am doing wrong! I think that one way to reduce and manage stress is to set boundaries in life, which I am working on! It is important to recognize that the only thing in life that you are able to control is yourself and you are not able to control other’s behaviors. You are able to control your own reactions and actions, but have absolutely no control on the conduct of another person. We are all have experience with forgiving others, but sometimes forget to forgive ourselves!

Thank y’all for stopping by my site today and your comments are always welcomed! I will respond to all comments as soon as I can and really enjoy the communications! I hope y’all are feeling well and have a relaxing evening! Always look on the bright side of things, we made it through another week and the weekend is almost here! As always I am sending you lots of love and comfort! 

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

 

Gloomy foggy start!

foggyThis morning was so incredibly foggy, I could not even see a few inches in front of me. There is something a little eerie when you wake up to a thick layer of fog outside your window. Driving to work in this massive fog was a little scary, only because not everyone drives with the right amount of caution. In additional to the towering fog, there was an intense threat of rain! Rain and dreary weather adds even more pain to what I have already been dealing with.

The weather has been so crazy lately! It was not too many weeks ago when it was cold and there were minor threats of snow, but honestly snow in the south are only an inch or so! Now, it has been rainy and highs in the 70’s. It sounds so insane to me for temperatures to be in the 70’s in February, but I am really not complaining at all. I just wish the rain would stop and allow the sun to shine through! We all could use the high painbenefits of pure and natural Vitamin D!

I know that it is the changes in temperatures that has caused my pain to sky-rocket once again. I am doing my best to not allow it to get me down because I know there will be a day where my pain is a little more tolerable, it just is not today. I always try to remain hopeful for a better tomorrow though because I really do think it is important to hold onto positive thoughts. I mean, seriously what good will negative thoughts really provide in the big picture?

Life is a struggle, but it is how we choose to cope with the issues that can make a huge difference in the outcome overall! No matter how much pain I am in or how hard it is for me to LIFE-IS-LIKE-A-GAME-OF-CARDS--WE-DONT-CHOOSE-WHAT-WE-ARE-DEmake it through the day, I do know that things could always be so much worse. It almost feels that life is like a game of cards. You will some days get dealt a great hand that is just easy to play, but other days the cards we are dealt are all horrible and hard to continue to play the game. The most important thing is to never fold because what you are holding in your hand may turn into something wonderful on another day! I use these analogy because it seems to fit, but the funny thing is I do not even play cards!

I hope y’all had a great day and you are feeling well! I appreciate you taking the time to visit my site today and of course leaving me some great comments! I will respond to all of your comments as quickly as I possibly can! Oh and before I forget, I am SO excited because I am doing a guest blog tomorrow for one of my fabulous fellow bloggers. If you have not already seen Grace’s blog, her site is https://msgracefulnot.com/, she is truly amazing! I really do feel honored that she would want me to make a guest appearance on her blog! Sending y’all lots of love and comfort, always!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

 

 

 

 

 

A few days MIA

Bright weekI have not made a post in a few days because sometimes life just gets too chaotic and it is hard to do the things I want to do. Life’s obligations can get in the way of good and fun times. Now whether it be work or household chores they all get in the way of leisure times. I know once I get home from work I am exhausted and do not feel like doing much of anything. Granted my job does only consists of being at a desk and most people would think that is not very tiring, but staring at a computer screen all day is exhausting! When you are sitting all day, not being active it weakens your muscles to the point they do not want to do anything else. I almost feel that my muscles go to sleep and do not want to wake up for any such reason. Plus being at a computer all day causes me to feel so much pain in my back and that pain alone makes me fatigued. 

I have been doing my best to increase my hours at work and I have been able to do 7 hour days. I am thankful that my job has been understanding with slowly adding to how much I am able to handle. I have noticed that I feel so much better earlier in the day, but then about noon I start feeling like I have been hit by a ton of bricks. I do however keep pushing a few extra hours so I can hit my 7 hour goal! 

Y’all already know that living life with an illness can add some additional stress and challenges to your daily life. How do you fight through pain when there is not any kind of relief? Even though things have not been easy lately I do still believe everything157213-Fight-Through-The-Bad-Days happens for a reason and somehow everything works out the way they are meant to. I do realize how clique that sounds, but I do believe every word of it.  

The weather plays  huge part in the way I feel. Rain and cold cause my body to feel terrible. We had a few days of bitter cold and I felt like a truck had run me over and backed over me just for good measure. Then Mother Nature decides it needs to be warm, so my body adjusts to that only to have the weather get cold again! Then we have days of sunshine, followed by days of rain or the threat of rain and I feel horrible! If we could just have weeks or months of the same type of weather I could be adjusted and stable!

I hope y’all had a great Monday! I hope the rest of your week goes absolutely wonderful! Always remember how important it is to stay positive even when it is difficult. Strength comes from positivity! As always, I appreciate you stopping by site today and please leave comments as I will respond to you just as quickly as I can! Sending y’all lots of love and comfort always!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

Real truth behind it

Good DaysIt really seems as though no day is exactly the same living with Multiple Sclerosis. I have good days, where the issues I deal with are there but tolerable. On these days I can pretty much just ignore the realities of this illness, which is fantastic! I do not like to dwell on the fact that there is no cure for MS, yet! I enjoy and appreciate my good days with bearable symptoms. On my good days I do my best to do things that I either want to do or need to do without having to push myself further.

Then there are the bad days, which take a little extra effort to do normal easy tasks. On bad days my pain levels will rise above the tolerable limits causing me to move a little slower and need a few extra breaks along the way. I try to not allow additional pain to affect my life too drastically but find ways to alleviate it some. I will utilize my heating pad more than normal and maybe take more Advil. I also try to stretch more to not allow my muscles to just stay tight. I will say that my mood is a little altered on these days but not too horrible.back on track 100

Unfortunately all my ideas for stopping the pain before it gets too far does not always work which turns my bad day into a terrible day! Today was one of those days. While at work I felt my back, neck, shoulders and legs gradually start increasing with pain. I did not panic and just tried alternating my heating pad from my back to my legs and stretching my back and neck muscles. I even tried getting up from my desk to move around a little hoping I would not start hurting even more. Regrettably nothing I did helped and I started feeling so much worse. I have been trying to increase my hours at work but I was not able to today. I ended up coming home to rest because I was in so much pain it was making me nauseous. Honestly, I was pretty disappointed because I did my best to keep pushing myself to make it through 7 hours at work. I did almost make it but could not handle it any longer. My mood is vastly different on terrible days because I am so irritated with the pain and it is hard to be around anyone. I prefer to just be at home in a nice comfortable and quiet atmosphere.

I do not understand why some days I can handle the pain issues but some days are SO completely unbearable. I thought that maybe it was related to the weather changes. It did go from freezing temperatures to relatively mild temperatures. Last week it was 17 degrees with snow/ice and this week it is 60 degrees with sun! I think that is a pretty Stars can't shinedrastic change and it has always taken my body time to adjust. How am I supposed to adjust to such rapid changes and be able to feel normal?

The truth is bad days come and go without any warning, they just need to be taken in stride! The bad and terrible days can be very discouraging but it is so important to not allow them to deter us from the good days that are ahead! I have honestly had a horrible day with pain but I am hoping tomorrow will be a better day. Thankfully I am home resting comfortably with my trusty ole heating pad, husband and loving cats! 

I hope y’all had a great day today and are feeling well. Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! Even though I have not had a good day, I am still trying to remain positive as I hope y’all are as well! Please leave comments below and I will respond to you just as quickly as I can! I hope y’all have a fantastic evening. 

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Winter in the South!

closedHappy Wednesday Y’all! It has actually snowed in the south, which closes everything down! I am definitely not complaining since my office was closed today, but will it close again tomorrow due to the icy roads we will have? I do believe it would be the logical and safe thing to do, I just wonder if they will see things the way I do!

I am not a huge fan of the cold weather as it does cause me so much additional pain, but it was really pretty to wake up to see snow falling! The snow has blanketed the cars and ground which is a beautiful sight, as long as I do not have to go out in it or try driving in snowdayit! I am not saying I can not drive in the snow, but my car does not see things the same way I do. However, I do not believe anyone can drive in the ice, which is what things are going to result in tomorrow!

I do believe we have one good snow fall every year! Considering I did grow up in the north a couple of inches would really not mean too much but it does in the south! The south does not see much snow, so I do not believe we have the necessary equipment to handle much if any!

Yesterday I kept saying we were going to have snow today and I do not think anyone believed me! I even sang my made up snow song in hopes for the snow and it worked! Maybe I need to make up another song for my office to be closed tomorrow, so I do not have to try to drive with icy conditions!

Just to give y’all an update on how I have been feeling physically. I have noticed that I do seen better daysstart feeling much worse as the day progresses. My pain and headache issues will be fine in the morning until about 2:00 in the afternoon, but then everything starts to come back. I will slowly start to get a headache and my back and leg pain will hit me hard. This would be the reason why I am not back to my normal full-time hours at work yet, my body just can not handle it. I really am hoping that someday soon I will be back to as normal as I can be and work a full day. Prior to my most recent flare up I could easily work 8 or more hours a day and be fine, but now after 6 hours I am in bad shape. I have been trying to push myself a little further each week and now I am working 7 hours, which has been working fine. If I am able to come home and rest comfortably my pain will subside some! 

I hope y’all are having a good week so far! Thank you for stopping by today to read my thoughts for this fantastic Wednesday! As always your comments are very much appreciated and I will respond to you as quickly as I can! Remember to always do your best to stay positive because y’all know I believe it make dramatic difference in life! I hope y’all are feeling well today and stay feeling well! Sending much love and comfort to all of you!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Freezing Cold Temperatures

BabyItsColdOutside750It seems that the frigid temperatures are not just isolated to the north anymore but have expanded into the south. The temperatures in the south have not gone about 32 in several days and we are facing more chilly days this week. Some areas are even expecting 1-3 inches of snow. Snow is beautiful to see but not so friendly in the south. With just the anticipation of snow businesses and schools are talking about closing tomorrow. I grew up in the north so to me 1-3 inches of snow is very mild.

What I can say about these freezing temperatures is it makes my pain skyrocket! I guess it is because I get so tense with the cold air I cannot help but stiffen my muscles. I have found the best thing to do to combat these issues is dress very warm, make sure to heat my car before leaving the house and always have  heating pad available at home and pain-and-cold-weather-1-kate-the-almost-great-previewwork! I know it is winter and it is supposed to be cold, but living with a chronic illness that already comes with a lot of pain, the cold weather never makes it any better! 

This might sound crazy considering I am not a big fan of the cold, but if it is going to be this darn cold we need a little bit of snow! They are expecting snow to the north of where I live but not actually in my area. So we just have to deal with freezing temperatures without the sight of beautiful snow covering the ground which does not seem right! I will admit one reason why I would love for it to snow is my office would definitely close for at least a day! If it snows I would not have to leave the house and could just stay nice and warm snuggled up on the couch with my adorable cats!

Now that it is finally a new year, how is your year going so far? I was very excited for 2018 because I think it is going to be full of wonderful opportunities. I am hoping for so many positive changes both for me personally but also around the world! I know I have already said this, but I am hoping 2018 is going to bring love and respect back into hearteveryone’s life. I feel strongly that respect has been lost and I am not sure why. It seems that people are very quick to pass judgement onto others without getting to know them first or at least trying to understand them! I am the type of person that treats everyone the same and always try to be kind and compassionate. The truth is, we never know what another person is going through in life unless we ask and offer our assistance. Kind words and actions can go a long way in making someone’s day better!

I hope y’all had a great day today! I really appreciate all the comments y’all have made on my posts and I love getting to know you better! I feel like I have learned so much from so many of you and it really has been beneficial to me! I said in my New Year’s post that I am going to start writing about more things that I am passionate about which will give you an idea of who I really am as a person. I hope you have enjoyed my previous posts and I hope you will continue to enjoy my future posts! Have a fantastic night and try to stay warm! Always hold onto positive thoughts because they will help through the hardest of times in life! Much love and comfort to all of you!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Cold Weather Is Here

Cold Weather WarningIt is not even officially winter yet but the temperatures are saying something different. The high for today is only 36 degrees with a mixture of rain and snow and then tomorrow they are still calling for snow. Even though it is cold, I think the snow they are calling for will only be rain. There will be no accumulation on the ground and the roads will just be wet.

Some people love the cold weather and it makes them feel much better than the insanely hot days, but for some it really has negative effects. The cold weather results in less blood supply to the extremities to preserve body heat in the core torso and head. The kitty coldreduction in blood flow means there are less white blood cells available to fight diseases. With a weakened immune system you are more susceptible to winter illnesses, such as a cold and the flu. However, colds and flu are not directly caused by cold weather but caused by viral infections of the upper respiratory tract caught from others.

Those that suffer from migraines can also have some negative effects. Decreased temperatures come from falling barometric pressure. An atmospheric change can be so intense it can lead to sinus issues and migraines. It is hard for me to say if my sinus issues get worse in the winter or not because I have year round sinus issues.

MS and weather can have a challenging relationship. Hot temperatures can be almost unbearable but cold weather can also bring on other issues. Cold can lead to muscle cramps, stiffness and tightness which can cause increased fatigue. The shorter winter days and less sunlight also have an effect on depression, which is very common with MS. Vitamin D levels are lower in the winter months due to less exposure to sunlight. It is important to do what you can to increase your Vitamin D level. Vitamin D levels with MS have a huge impact on any relapses that might occur.

cold-toes-catThere are many ways to manage MS and cold weather:

  1. Keep your hands and feet warm
  2. Soak up as much sunshine as possible (There are sunny days, even in the winter)
  3. Don’t overdo heat inside (There is a delicate balance between cold and heat! Too much heat can cause additional issues. Hot showers and baths feel nice, but you must be careful with them!)
  4. Warm yourself from the inside (Warm beverages can take the chill off and actually warm the body’s core faster.)

The next few days are going to be rather cold but then there are days next week it will warm up. The inconsistencies with weather is horrible. Our bodies are not able to adjust to a temperature before it changes again. It seems to go from the threat of snow to sunshine and warmth. Hopefully the temperatures will balance out soon so I can get acclimated to the weather and feel much better than I do now! 

I hope y’all had a great week and have good things planned for the weekend! Enjoy the weekend as much as possible, as you already know it goes by so fast! Thank you for reading and commenting on my post for today! Take care and stay warm! Much love and strength to all of you!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa