Running on EMPTY!

Well spent SundayGood afternoon y’all! I hope you are having a pleasant and relaxing Sunday! My poor mind has been going in so many different directions this weekend! I think I might have hit the wall today because I could not sleep AT ALL last night! I have so many random thoughts running through my mind and this is to the extend I can not just focus on just one.

I have been stressed to the MAX about various things my car being one of them. That poor car has been having issues for the past two weeks and even after placing a special order for the part needed, it is still not satisfied! My husband put the part needed in last night which did fix the problem. We were able to drive my car around our neighborhood a few times, but now a completely unrelated issue has appeared, the car will not switch gears! I mean what in the world could be wrong now? I am unsuccessfully trying to be optimistic that we will figure out what the issue is now and be able to fix it without spending too much money! The reason I am failing with this is because that car seems to have a never-ending bad attitude!dont-give-up-galaxy-hold-on-hope-Favim.com-1428490

My constant pain that will not let up is also causing me to be more than just stressed. Like I do not know what is beyond stressed, but that is how I feel! This pain has been going on for way too long and I really feel I have been patient enough, but I NEED a break! The constant headaches cause me to not be able to focus on what I need to be focused on. The incessant leg and back pain is so becoming SO  FRUSTRATING!! When nothing relieves that pain, what do you do??

Another thing that weighs heavy on my mind is the state of our country because of the government’s behavior.I normally do not bring politics into a conversation, but this is very disturbing to me.  I am not able to put myself in the mind-set of a politician, so I just do not understand why we all can not just get along. Watching the country I grew up in be destroyed at a very fast pace is stressmind-blowing and extremely sad! It is difficult seeing what the problems are and not being able to do anything to fix the issues! 

I am pretty logical person, well most of the time at least, so I know that being overwhelmingly stressed is very unhealthy! I know staying stressed will not make anything better and it is only going to cause me more pain, but I can not seem to turn my mind off! I doubt the lack of sleep is helping me at all right now, but the pain I am in will not even allow me to even take a nap! So I decided writing about it may help ease my stressed out mind! I know this post has been a little all over the place, but this is a mild form of how much is on my mind! 

I appreciate y’all visiting my site today and I strongly encourage you to leave a comment. I always love your comments and I will respond to you just as quickly as I can. I hope your day is going well and I hope the rest of your Sunday is wonderful. Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

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Who Am I?

Who am IHave you ever asked yourself this what should be a fairly easy question, “Who am I?” I sometimes am forced to ask myself this question a few times a day, especially when others challenge the person I know I am, by being disrespectful and even a little demeaning. I find that other people can cause a slight change in my views of myself and then I react unkind. For instances, there is a person I work with that seems to enjoy treating others as if they are beneath him, which creates a very hostile work environment, or at least it does for me! I do not need someone to blow smoke up my rear end, but I do demand and deserve to be respected. This negative treatment causes an excessive amount of anger and frustration in me, which then causes my attitude to be so NEGATIVE and this is not me! In your experiences and opinion, what is the best way to handle this extremely disturbing individual?

Underneath everyone is a person that is so much more than what can be viewed from their exterior appearance! Our exterior is just a visual image, but underneath that visual image is an entirely other person with emotions and passions. When I was first diagnosed with MS, I thought that people just viewed me as just my illness and not for underneath-copywho I was on the inside. Even now, almost 18 years later I feel that is all people see me as which could not be further from the truth, but I am learning that is their problem and not mine! Others view me from my outside as a vertically challenged (I am a little short) and petite person which makes people make annoying comments that I do not eat, which I do! The verbal attacks cause frustration to me and therefore make me very uncomfortable, but again I know this is those doing the talking problem not mine!

At 36 years old, I am still learning how to deal with other’s personalities and how to interact with them when it is the complete opposite of my own. When I ask myself, Who am I?, I typically answer it the same way every time! I pride myself on being ❤kind and understanding of everyone. I also have never been and never will be ❤judgmental towards anyone by judging on race, color, religion and or sexual preference. I always butterfly who am Iwant to help others get through hard times by offer support and encouragement to those! I will always be compassionate, loving❤, caring and giving to a fault despite how most around me are not. So, if I ask y’all the same question, “Who are you?” what would your answer be?

I really appreciate you visiting my site today and I really look forward to any comments you may have! I do promise you, I will respond as quickly as I can! I hope you have a wonderful rest of your weekend and I hope you are feeling the best you possibly can! Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

Love 2

❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

Escape Negativity!

state_of_emergencyThe world has become a constant state of anger and negativity! It is almost impossible to turn on the television and not be shown another act of violence or another type of anger. So many lives are affected every day by these horrendous acts. Anywhere from school shootings, to ludicrous talk from the White House, to an incredible amount of police brutality, to the lack of ethics in corporate American, it seems never-ending! There has to be something that can be done to stop the outrageous behaviors that have become the new norm.

Personally, I do my absolute best to hold onto the positive aspects of life. I do believe that even in the darkest times we encounter in our lives, there is a bright side somewhere even if it is well hidden. If we surrender to all this negativity surrounding us, we are not any better than those stirring up the pessimism. We do have the ability within us to rise above all the hate and show love for others!

It is possible that I am wrong, but I think the amount of hate in this world has increasedholding-on-to-anger-is-like-grasping-a-hot-coal-with-intent-of-throwing-if-at-someone-else drastically over the last 14 months or so. Politics with family and friends has always been a sensitive subject and probably always will be that way. Everyone wants to believe in who they vote into any political position and will not listen to reason when the facts are proven, over and over again. I think it is safe to say that no one really wants to admit they were wrong and were blindly convinced someone would make positive changes. It does not matter what side we are on, not many politicians are very honest. They all say what they believe people want to hear and will force that person to support them through anything! Who wants to believe that anyone in a powerful position would destroy something that could be truly wonderful? I think that money and greed can influence people to do things that ordinarily they would never think of doing. For me, there is absolutely no amount of money that would make me think it is okay to destroy anyone’s life!

When I was younger I thought that the United States was a great country to live in because we were free and safe. But, now that I am older and a little wiser I am questioning this a lot more! How are we free and safe when we have someone constantly making what were allies angry and making others that could be considered dangerous hostile? In order to create harmony, there must be logic and common sense! I have thought for a long time now that logical behavior and common sense were long-lost, which is pretty unfortunate.

I know that this entire post was absolutely nothing to do with any chronic illnesses or issues that come with illnesses, but these thoughts are pretty important in the big picture. There is way too much hate encompassing people around the world right now! No hateWhen we should be evolving, but it seems as though we are devolving! I have my thoughts on where it is stemming from, but there could be a lot more involved that I am just not aware of. I do not know how to make changes in massive amounts, all I know to do is always treat those I encounter with respect and dignity!

How do y’all feel about the state of the world right now? Do you believe there are positive or negative things occurring daily? How are you personally handling the issues that you view on the television or see in person? I am going to be honest, I was a little worried about sharing this post because I do not want to offend anyone reading. I am just really tired of hearing about all of the hate and violence that is constantly going on. I am and always have been a very compassionate person, but that just seems to be unusual in the world today.

I hope y’all had a great week and I hope you are looking forward to your weekend! I am so glad we finally made it to the weekend because this has been an incredibly long week and I wish the weekend would be just as long as the week felt! I really appreciate you reading my rant today and I would love to hear your comments! I will of course respond to you as quickly as I can! I hope you have a very lovely evening and a fantastic weekend! I am always sending y’all lots of love and comfort!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Healthy Anger v.s Unhealthy Anger!

healthy-and-unhealthy-angerDid y’all know there is a difference between healthy anger and unhealthy anger? I honestly had no idea there was a difference. I do not like confrontation at all and I will try to avoid it at all costs. I guess you can say that I just bottle up my emotions even though I know that is not a good way to live.  I try so hard to ignore what I am really feeling, thinking that if I ignore it those emotions will just go away, but they do not! Avoiding confrontation has never been a successful method!

Anger alerts us that we need to protect ourselves. It is an alert that we are not being treated correctly and something in our life is not working out the best way it can and should! Anger is an awareness tool that shines light on an injustice and provides insight to make necessary changes. We should never dismiss the anger that we are feeling, but we should investigate our feelings and make imperative changes and then let it go. Adults-and-Anger-What-Causes-AngerLetting go is never easy, but if we are able to acknowledge and address the pain we are feeling, the next step is to just release those negative feelings and move on with our lives! If we continue to stifle our emotions we may miss an opportunity to make some real positive changes in life and that would be a disgrace to ourselves and we would probably regret not taking the chance we were given for a beneficial change!

Unhealthy anger does not do us any good either. This type of anger can cause emotional and physical issues, but can also have a terrible impact on those around us as well. Anger can suffocate a person that is only trying to avoid the initial confrontation, but the issues are still present until they are dealt with. Unhealthy anger is continuously fed, masks_of_anger_revisited and held onto, but the issue or issues are never addressed. This allows for anger to just pile up and you will feel like you are going to explode. I think the best way to explain it is, have you ever taken an unopened bottle of soda and shaken it vigorously? What happens when you open that bottle? Whatever type of soda you just shook up will explode all over the place.

My soda analogy is what can happen when someone allows for the anger to just stay inside their heart and mind, not address the problem and let it go! Whatever you are angry with will not just magically disappear and improve without talking about it. bottle-explosionCommunication is so incredibly important as it will allow us to learn from the mistakes made in life and make proper changes. Change can be scary, but it can be a good thing as well.

Anger can happen with anyone, not just a loved one or co-worker, it can occur when we drive to work and someone cuts us off. That one small incident with the bad drive sets presence to our mood for the day! With the situation with the bad driver, you are not really able to confront them and get the negative emotion out in the open, so what do you do? I guess you just have to expect for others on the road to not be as cautious and careful as you are and chalk it up to another day on the road! In situations like that I know the initial reaction might be to use some unpleasant sign language, but that does not fix the issue and will not teach anyone how to drive. I can honestly say that it is not easy to let things like this go, but at the same time is not worth our mental time and allowing it to ruin our day!

How many times has your significant other made you so angry that you wanted to angescream? Has anyone in your family ever done something so outrageous that it caused resentment and frustration to the point you were not able to speak to them for a little while?  It is perfectly normal to get angry, especially with family because you know more about them behind the scenes. I think family anger is a lot more painful than most anger because it is so much closer to your heart. I think anger with our family tends to be more intense because we normally have higher expectations for them than just the normal run of the mill person we communicate with. We hold our family to higher standards so we expect so much out of them. Sometimes I wonder if it is just better to keep our expectations low so we are never disappointed, but when something great happens we can savor that moment! 

Life can be extremely difficult and we are all going to face some kind of disagreement angry kittythroughout out lives. It is okay to be angry, but it is also very important to address what you are angry about. If you allow angry to fester and never address the problem, it will only hinder your own happiness. 

I hope y’all had a great Monday! As always I do appreciate you visiting my site today and your comments are very welcomed! I promise to respond to all comments as quickly as I can and look forward to the conversation! I hope y’all have a very relaxing and pleasant evening! Sending you lots of love and comfort!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Invisible Illness?

chronic illness factI am so frequently hearing about invisible illnesses now. What does that really mean? Fibromyalgia, Multiple Sclerosis, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Depression, Diabetes and Digestive Disorders are just a few illnesses that have been labeled as invisible illnesses. I have Multiple Sclerosis and yes, for the most part it is invisible because no one can see the pain or any other issues that I am dealing with. I do think the most frustrating things I hear are: “You do not look sick”, “Have you tried vitamins?” and the classic “There must be a cure for it.” I want to believe these comments and questions are not from ill intent, but from those that just do not understand. you don't look sick

Honestly, I think the reason why the label of “Invisible Illness” brings many questions to my mind is because most illnesses are invisible. Why does someone need to have skin rashes, walk with assistance of a cane or walker, require a wheelchair or be attached to an IV to be sick? There are many people out there that may be battling cancer, well that is not really seen. Or what about those that deal with Chronic Sinus problems which is also not seen. They may have a running nose or watery eyes, but no one pays attention to that.

We can even take this a step further! What about people who are HIV positive or even have AIDS? These illnesses are not normally seen unless there has been extensive progression, which may cause rashes, sores and or lesions. You could be walking through the mall and pass several people who suffer from HIV or AIDS and you would not know it because at that moment, it is invisible.

invisible illnessWhat about people who suffer from Migraines or Chronic neck and shoulder pain? Now for the most part this person may look and act completely normal, like they do not suffer from extricating pain several other days of the week, but the fact is they do suffer in pain! During the times when this person does not have a Migraine or shoulder and neck pain, this would in my opinion be an invisible illness, but please tell me if I am wrong.

I do not mean for anything I said to not show credence for our issues, but I would like to be able to acknowledge all the other illnesses that are not visible to the naked eye. I guess I just do not believe those that are dealing with Migraines or other pains should not be included into an invisible label. Statistics state that 2-3 million adults in the United States suffer from Chronic Migraines and 90% of them are forced to miss work because of this issue. As far as I know, Migraines are not in the invisible illness bubble but really should be. Migraines can be completely debilitating and just miserable!

I believe that there is a huge difference between sympathy and empathy. We never really know what another person is going through in their lives, so the best thing to do is always be kind to everyone! We may meet someone who has just been diagnosed with a chronic illness and they are completelyKind word devastated, so something we say to them can either make their day a little better or even worse! Kind words can go along way in another person’s life. I always ask myself when I am talking to a new person, do I want to be a positive in their lives and make them smile or do I just not care enough to make a difference? I always choose to try to make a positive difference in everyone life because everyone’s feelings matter to me!

I appreciate you taking the time to visit my site on this rainy Sunday! I hope y’all had an amazing weekend and I hope you are ready for the new week to start tomorrow. I really do treasure the comments you make and I do always try to respond as quickly as I possibly can. I hope you are able to spend the rest of your weekend comfortable and relaxed. I did not want to forget to mention, the picture at the top, “I Don’t Look Sick? You Don’t Look Stupid. Looks Can Be Deceiving!”, is on a t-shirt that I actually have! I think it is a pretty great shirt, but some would probably disagree! Sometimes you have to add a little bit of humor to a bad situation! As always I am sending you lots of love and comfort!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Hot Topics!

177073-Beautiful-SundayI hope y’all have had a wonderful weekend! It is always so amazing how fast it goes by and then we have another 5 very long days we have to be at work! I guess it is kind of a blessing in disguise because at least we have another chance to make our week great!

I am sure everyone already knows this, but there are some topics you should never talk with family or friends about! Most of us have our own very passionate beliefs regarding politics and religion that probably do not match up with everyone. It is okay that we all have our own thoughts about these topics, but arguing about them will never solve the issues and you will never be able to change someone else’s mind! Never in my life have I ever been a political person, but I do have my strong opinions on the topic that are not influenced by anyone but myself! 

Another hot topic that should be avoided with family and friends is same-sex marriage! I am one who believes very strongly that we are entitled to love whom ever we choose Love no boundariesand therefore should be able to marry whom ever we love! Same sex marriage does not harm anyone, but talking ill of this in a “free country” will ultimately harm others. Why does it seem that so many are only okay if you marry someone of the same color, religious following, same ethnicity, but it must be the opposite sex? Who has a right to say who you should or should not love?

As y’all can probably tell, there are some things I am extremely passionate about and feel very comfortable sharing my thoughts! I think we should all feel comfortable with who we are and never feel any shame about it! I believe very indomitably that we should feel free with our beliefs! I will not get into how I feel about politics though only because that is probably a more intense conversation!

I want to thank y’all for visiting my site today and reading my semi rant! I get so frustrated with the negative thoughts surrounding these topics and will never When-you-look-at-your-enemy-in-the-face-and-all-you-feel-is-love-then-you-have-achieved-acceptance.-Joan-Ambuunderstand the hostility with certain things! Sometimes facts are facts and can not be changed, no matter what you do or say. I really feel that if there was more love and acceptance around us, instead of hatred and judgement, the world would be so much happier! I did not mean to go all pageant queen with that statement wanting world peace, but it would be really nice if we could all just get along!

I hope you have  a wonderful evening! Remember to always stay positive because it will pay off! Please feel free to leave a comment and I will respond as quickly as I can! I would really love to hear your thoughts! Sending you love and comfort always!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Open Minded Thoughts!

open mind 1Of course living with a chronic illness comes with its own set of challenges, so why not just embrace them with open arms? If I went through this life being closed-minded, I believe I would miss out on so many wonderful new experiences. If we approach everything with an open mind, it will allow a freedom to accept additional knowledge we otherwise would not have been exposed to. 

Just look at how many different medications there are for various illnesses. Of course the doctor will have their opinion on what is best but if you do not keep an open mind to medications, you might very well miss out on the one that is best for your body chemistry. It is amazing how much you can learn when you have a conversation with a friend, co-worker or family member about something they find incredibly interesting. This conversation can introduce you to something that is extremely fascinating that you had never heard of or if you did, never gave it a second thought. I skied when I was a little girl but only for a few years. I think about 10 years ago my husband discovered snowboarding and fell in love with it. If he had not stumbled upon this and introduced me to it, I would have never thought to strap a board to my feet and go down a mountain! Even though I am not able to stay out on the mountain as long as he is able, I am glad I have acquired this still because it is a lot of fun!

I do find it amazing how much I have learned from chatting with my fellow bloggers! I am the type that will talk with the waitress at a restaurant or cashier at the grocery store about their day, which they seem to enjoy as much as I do! Y’all know the lines at grocery stores or other retails stores can get long, so I normally find way to entice conversation with the person behind me. It makes the wait seem shorter and you can sometimes find out great information on how they save money at the store through coupons or apps on their phone!

Being closed-minded allows for negative judgments, which y’all already know I Closed mind closed heartam one of the least judgmental and positive people! I find great pleasure in positivity because to me it really makes long days just a better and easier to handle. I always try to find the positive in the most difficult situations! I do believe that having an open mind creates a positive and uplifting environment!

I hope y’all are having a nice weekend! The weather seems to be changing once again. Yesterday it was over 70 degrees and now for the next several days it will be in the 30’s or 40’s which is quite a change. But I guess if you can’t beat it just accept it and continue moving forward! I appreciate you visiting my site and would love to hear your thoughts! I hope the rest of your weekend goes fabulously and you enjoy every moment of it! Remember to always stay strong and positive!! Sending you love and comfort always!

Love 2

 

Always, Alyssa