~June 12, 1999~
Sometimes it seems like time flies by us, while other times it feels as though it is standing still. I can only speak for myself when I say this, but I did not enjoy my high school years and some reasons I will not go into. June 12th makes 22 years since I graduated high school and even though I did not go directly to college, I never looked back. I graduated high school at 17 years old because of where my birthday falls in the school year. The choices that I made when I finished high school probably were not the best, but I was young and could not wait to get as far away from the small town I grew up in as possible.
The funny thing is, I was always a dreamer and had thoughts of what I wanted my life to be like after those miserable four years in high school. Of course, there were many dreams I had that might not have come to fruition, but I have always thought that everything in life happens for a reason even if we do not know what those reasons are right away.
One thing I never dreamed of after I got out of high school was to be diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis only two years later. To be honest, I did not know much about this disease all those years ago and only knew one other person that had it, which is my father’s wife. It took me many years to realize that having MS was nothing to be ashamed of and I did not have to hide it from anyone. I do think that this disease has made me a stronger person and of course, I promised my late grandfather that I would never allow it to control me. I also promised that I would never let MS win the fight because I would win the war my body was having within itself.
A dream I had 22 years ago was to be a Broadcast Journalist, which as you know did not happen for me and I do not have any regrets. The reason I do not have regrets about not being in Broadcast Journalism I know I would be able to deal with lies from politicians and would probably get myself in trouble calling them out on their deceitful ways. It does not matter if a politician is a Republican or a Democrat because the truth seems to be a little challenging for all of them to provide. Plus, I also strongly believe that people deserve honesty, especially with issues that impact our lives.
Once I had given up on my Journalism dreams, I thought being a Pediatric Nurse would be an amazing career. Unfortunately, not too long after I decided nursing would be a great option, I had an awful relapse and was worried that it would be a little too challenging to be a nurse if I had mobility struggles. I was a Certified Nursing Assistant (CNA) for a few years on a Pediatric unit and I learned fast that mobility issues would be far less challenging for me than the emotional impact this had on me. There were a few patients I will always remember, but one little girl that even to this day sends chills down my spine. She was a sweet six-old little girl that had been brutally raped by her uncle. Due to the legal issues, her mother was not allowed to be with her in the room, which was for good reason. Part of the job for the nurses and CNAs was to help the little girl with her bath, but she would not allow anyone but me to help her. I would also sit with her and read her the book of her choice. There were a few other children that weighed heavily on my mind and would put me in tears at the end of the day. This emotional struggle caused me to have a lot of stress, which created issues with the MS.
I am an overly emotional and strong-willed person. I am the type that will fight hard for what I believe in and defend anyone unable to defend themselves. I have never and never will allow anyone to change my mind on something I am passionate about, which can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on the issue. I think it is safe to say I would have made one hell of an attorney if I had wanted to be in school that long and have that amount of student loan debt.
Again, as I have already said I do believe strongly that everything in life happens for a reason. We may never know what the reasons are for the things that happen in our life but should try believing there are reasons for everything. The best and most we can all do is be happy in life and be thankful for what life has provided us, no matter what.
It does not matter what I have gone through in life because I know I am who I am from all of it. I have a quiet and happy life with my husband and three cats. Y’all may remember that in early February we lost our cat we had for almost 16 years, which was a painful loss for both me and my husband. There are still times today that I think of Chloe and what could have been done differently. I might be an emotional person, but logically I know nothing could have changed that day she took her last breath on my lap. The only good thing about this was she did not have to suffer, and she was able to pass away peacefully in her home.
First, I want to thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I wrote today. For some reason, it had taken me several days to think of what I wanted to write about, which might be because I had a lot of ideas on my mind. Plus, it was a long week for me, and I was feeling very fatigued. Second, I hope you are having a great and safe weekend. Our weekends should be spent doing what makes us happy and helps us to relax to recuperate from the week we just had. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I promise to respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!
Always, Alyssa
Happy Friday Eve y’all! I hope your week has been good and you are staying safe! I think I have lost count for how many weeks we have been dealing with this horrible pandemic. My husband and I have been watching the numbers as they rise daily. Of course, I do not leave the house and when I do go to the grocery store, I wear a mask and gloves. Thankfully, the job my husband recently got will be a work from home in the near future, but while going into the office they are ensuring no one could possibly be carrying the virus. Actually they have everyone working from home already and my husband is only having to go into the office while training.
with my normal “Pick-Me-Up-Thursday” posts. I did find a fabulous quote that I hope will serve as a pick me up for y’all. I do feel we all need to make the most of things in our lives and even when there are a struggle, there is still a silver lining in everything! I think many people are in fear of COVID-19, but there are so many things we can do to keep ourselves and our family safe. Often times, it is having good common sense and following what the experts tell us. Y’all already know that I do not care much for the president, nor do I take him at his word, but there are so many people working with the government that are intelligent and know what is best for all of us.
Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I will always appreciate your support and value your opinions! I hope y’all have a wonderful day and you are feeling the best you possibly can. Right now with not being able to work and no companies are hiring, I am trying to focus on what I want out of life, which y’all know my aspirations for writing as a full-time or at least a part-time job. I do think all good things come to those who wait and never give up on their dreams! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love 
I feel confident saying you have all heard about vision boards before, but what do they mean to you? Have you made a vision board before and if so what did you include on yours? If you have had a vision board in the past or you currently have one, did you find it to be beneficial, why or why not?
reality.
only need a few simple items including:
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Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you found this information helpful and something fun to try, if you haven’t already done so. I do look forward to reading your thoughts on this and if you have any other reasons why a vision board can be beneficial to our lives.
relief from insomnia and anxiety and peaceful easy feelings. Try the following steps tonight and see how much it will benefit you and your sleep.
by 2 each time for as long as you are comfortable. Do not increase more than you are comfortable with considering this will not work if you are not at ease. The important part of this exercise isn’t the length of your inhales, it’s the exhaling longer.
some of us struggle with sleep for so many reasons. I will be honest and tell you, I am unable to turn my thoughts off at night and this does include all the stress I feel daily. If you do end up trying one of these habits, please let me know which one worked for you, if any.
It is the first Saturday of 2020 and I hope your weekend is starting off great. I have managed to start 2020 off with a migraine that just will not ease up. My migraine started while I was at work on Thursday and it was horrible. It wasn’t easy but I did get through the day. I spent Thursday evening miserable on the couch with an ice pack on my head only hoping the pain in my head would ease up. When I woke up Friday morning, I could still feel the pain in my head but forced myself to go to work. Considering I am still new at my job I couldn’t call out sick already, but did end up leaving early. I really hate that I had to leave work early and I 
have only been at my job 3 weeks, but it was something I couldn’t avoid. People always want to ask, “What do you think is causing your migraine?” That is one of the most irritating questions, especially when I am in that kind of pain. The only thing I can think of that could have caused the migraine is it was raining. I do tend to get more headaches/migraines when it rains. Unfortunately it looks like it is going to rain a lot over the next week.
what I want for 2020. One thing I am focused on is improving and building my writing skills. Y’all already know I want to get into freelance writing and even though it isn’t going to happen overnight, I will accomplish this goal. I am not rushing this goal because I want to be sure everything is done right. I need to go through the posts I have done over my years of blogging and pick a few of my best posts to add to my writing portfolio. Once I figure out which posts I think might be some of my best, I might ask y’all for your opinions because I do value what you think!
all 365 prompts because I think it will help build my writing skills. I hope that by continuing to blog as much as I can and completing the writing prompts I will be better equipped for a freelance career.
Sclerosis and I will never give up on my dreams, I plan to keep that promise to him. We are the only one that can make our dreams come true, no one can do it for us.
take to make that dream your reality? Of those dreams you hold onto, has any of them come true? Or if some of these dreams never made it to reality yet, do you know why?
back for way too many years and I am going to start fighting against them! I really want to make my dreams come true and I know in my heart I will.
believing in yourself? Training your mind to know your strengths and using them is not easy, but it must be doable because look at how many others do achieve their goals.
feel excited for some reason. I will never understand that frame of mind. I told someone the other day the only drama I like is General Hospital because that isn’t real! I think all drama brings to life is stress and pain! I also think that those of us living with a chronic illness already have enough to deal with and anything else is just unnecessary!
daydreaming and turning dreams into reality. I enjoy sharing my thoughts with you and then reading your comments because they are always amazing. 