Pick-Me-Up-Thursday!

uess-what-its-friday-eve-chankscats-happy-friday-eve-guys-17457852I am so sorry for the delay on my Pick-Me-Up-Thursday quote. I think the holiday has me a little behind on what day it is! I hope y’all are doing well and I hope you had a wonderful Christmas! 

I find the quote I am sharing with y’all today incredibly true. Life gets so complicated and living with a chronic illness  can add to the difficulties. I have promised myself for years to never give up, as y’all already know that is the only way we can really fail! I hope you find this quote helpful and it adds a little ❤ inspiration to your day!inspirational-encouragement-quotes

❤My husband and I were able to spend time with his side of the family on Tuesday and my mother and step-father were able to come spend time with us yesterday and see our new home. ❤It was great to be able to see everyone that we ❤ love and reconnect! Y’all already know that I live with Multiple Sclerosis, but my dear sweet step father has to live withfamily is everything Parkinson’s disease. I know it isn’t easy for my step father and I do my best to add some light and encouragement to his life. I do know that MS and Parkinson’s are very different, but I try to explain to him every time I see or speak to him just how I have managed for 19 years with MS, which seems to help temporarily!

It doesn’t really matter what chronic illness someone is living with, all of us need to find encouragement ❤ and inspiration whenever and Princess-quote-helen-kellerwherever possible. I am able to find relaxation and happiness with writing and crocheting, but sadly my step father’s hobby was building model airplanes, which due to his condition he finds too difficult. When he told us yesterday he can’t do his hobby anymore because his hands shake too much, it broke my heart. I tried telling him that it doesn’t matter how quickly he builds the planes, but he could build them slowly and take breaks whenever he needed to. I am hoping he will actually listen and NOT give up on something that einstein-on-lifemakes him happy.

I hope y’all are feeling well and you are able to enjoy the weekend that is coming. We have another holiday we can enjoy and hopefully 2019 will be a great year! 2018 went by so damn fast and was a bit of a struggle, so maybe this new year will slow down and bring all of us LOTS of happiness and amazing times! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Holidays Approaching!

enhanced-buzz-31796-1387830656-36-600x450I still can’t believe that December is coming to an end so soon and the holidays are quickly approaching us. I know this year has been pretty busy for me and there have been many changes, but it seems like we just celebrated the start of 2018 last week. Where did the year go?

I do think many people look forward to the holiday seasons because it gives an amazing opportunity to spend time with ❤ family and possibly friends, relax a lot more, enjoy life a477x246_holidays_closedjpg little and of course the time off from work is pretty fabulous! My office is actually closed the entire week of Christmas and doesn’t reopen until January 2, 2019! I have never experienced such generous time off from an employer for the holidays before and I must say I absolutely ❤  LOVE❤ it!

I realize on the other hand there are many people who dread the holiday season for their own personal reasons. Even though it has been many years now, there are some loses 3 snowflakes with namesthat still feel very fresh years later for myself and my family. It has been nine years since my husband’s dearly loved ❤ grandfather passed away, five years since my ❤ grandfather who I idolized passed away and four years since my husband’s loving ❤ grandmother passed away. Those that have passed away will live on in our hearts ❤ and souls for an eternity. Not only will we miss them with every breath we take, but 872989bc7fbe00c87e1318785e86011ewe will always stand true to honor their memories of ❤ love, courage, compassion and inspiration for as long as we possibly can. I know that I am not alone when I say this, but I would give anything to have just one more minute with any or all of these loving souls. The joy that would be felt from hearing their voices or a simple hug one last time would be priceless and cherished. 

I do think it is natural to remember those we lost even deeper around the holidays, butremember those in Heaven we should all also still remember to rejoice with the family we are still able to spend these days with. The funny thing is, we do not get to choose our family because they are just given to us and we must learn to accept them with their amazing qualities and even their flaws. I mean seriously, no one is perfect and we all have our own faults that may drive other crazy, so we really can’t judge another for similar situations!

Life is way too short to allow for any silly little altercations to break families apart, but sadly I do believe this happens far too often. I can admit that I have held onto hostility and anger with some in my own family for much too long. With the harsh realities that they won’t be here forever makes me try letting go of those unpleasant feelings and find neutralwhere there is love grounds. I know I have said this before regarding other issues, but we are all different and have our own uniqueness to us. I guess I believe that all of our unique behaviors and outlooks are what makes us special and like no other!

There are many wonderful things we experience with the holidays, but it tends to make me a little sad. I miss those that are not with us anymore, but I do appreciate the family I have with me still. The way I am able to make it through the holidays with limited tears is I always have to continue reminding myself that those we have lost and still with us in heart, mind and spirit and that they are not living with pain any longer.

Every year I always feel that Christmas has lost its true meaning. The stores are always full of shoppers spending money Christman is morethey might not have and buying products just because they are a hot commodity.  I feel that Christmas should be more about family and less about buying gifts! There are no gifts that can take the place of our loved ones. There are way too many people who struggle just to put food on the table and have a roof over their heads, while others rush the stores. In my job now I hear really sad stories that break my heart. Just yesterday we were working with a single mother that was going to be homeless today. Myself and two of my co-workers, one of which being my boss,  were trying to find a place that could offer her a roof over their heads and shockingly most were already full and might not be able to help until mid January. I was so sad for her and her 6-year-old child to suffer like this so close to Christmas. Thankfully, we did find an extended stay for them to go to, but I was still shaken by this. This poor little girl will wake up Christmas morning not expecting gifts under the tree, but wanting a bed to sleep in and food to eat.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I know this post was little longer than what I normally post, but the holidays get me a little emotional. I am looking forward to reading your thoughts and I do promise to respond as quickly as I can! I hope you are feeling well and your weekend has started off wonderful. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

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Giving my thanks!

happythankfulGood morning y’all! I hope your week has started off well and you are feeling the best you can!

Today is day two of my acknowledging what I am thankful for and actually writing it down! I am beyond thankful for our loving and hilarious cats. We have had one of our sweet fur babies for 13 years❤. Chloe has sweetness and sass to complete her unique personality but, you just can’t help but love her! Chloe can actually tell where I am hurting and feels that if she lays where I am in pain it will make it go away, which sometimes it does!

Our other sweet fur baby, Sundance, we have had for about 3 years. We were luckyCats enough to be able to adopt this ball of love ❤ and joy after his original owner sadly passed away. This little boy has the sweetest personality I have ever seen and would never hurt a fly. He only gets a little testy when I brush him, he absolutely HATES being brushed, but it isn’t an option for him!!

It is one of the most adorable things to walk in a room and see these ❤two cats cuddling with each other.We never in a million years would have thought Chloe would 20180210_101739 (1)allow another cat close enough to her in order to cuddle, but she has taken quite the liking to Sundance. Chloe even allows Sundance to give her LOTS of kisses ❤ on her little head! Their personalities are much different from one another, but their love ❤ for each other and my husband and I is endless!

It is very comforting to take time out of each day to reflect onto my life. Then to think of everything that is in my life that I would not be me without! It is crazy to look at how the smallest things in our lives, can make a huge difference daily in the big picture!

If you saw my post yesterday, my goal is to take a moment each day to write down at least one thing I am thankful for. I am hoping that y’all will try doing the same and maybe share with me a few things you are thankful for! At the end of this week, after I share one thing I am thankful for each day with you, I am going to take time to really reflect what are you thankful for todayback on what I wrote and hold onto those things. Some of the things I am thankful for have really surprised me, but I will get to that in a later post!

I want to thank y’all for visiting my site today. I always appreciate your time and your amazing comments, which I try to respond to as quickly as I can! Please let me know something that you are thankful for as I am sure it is fabulous! I hope y’all have a great day and you are feeling the best you can. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

It’s time to show thanks!

what are you thankful for todayGood morning y’all! Y’all know I typically do not do multiple posts in a day, but this is an exception! With this being the week of Thanksgiving, I think we should all be thinking of what we are truly thankful for. Life gets so busy and we tend to forget to take a moment to acknowledge what we want to give thanks for. It might not be easy to do, but I think we should try to everyday think of and write down just one thing we are thankful for! It might be pretty interesting to reflect back on these at the end of the week!0

Today, I want to say how incredibly thankful for I am for the very loving ❤, accepting and helpful family I am blessed to have! I am lucky enough to have my mother and step father that always show their love❤, support and appreciation. I am also blessed enough to have married into another wonderful and loving family that I couldn’t have asked for better than them! Two loving families is just twice the love and support!❤

For the first day of this week, what is one thing you are thankful for? I hope y’all have a lovely day and I am looking forward to reading your response! Remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Brain MRI Day

good afternoonGood afternoon y’all! I hope your weekend is starting off wonderfully! Last night I was able to have my much-needed and dreaded brain MRI. Even though over my 18 years with Multiple Sclerosis I have had SO many MRI’s, I was still extremely nervous! However, if I am being 100% honest I am WAY more nervous about getting the results next week! The waiting period will be brutal because my mind will go in a million different directions and most of those directions lead to the negative thoughts. I am trying to be logical, which is not always easy for me because I know there is no amount of stress or worrying that will change what these results are going to show and all that worrying will just add stress to my life leading to even more PAIN!  

With all the MRI’s I have had in my 18 years with Multiple Sclerosis, this one was just of the brain. It was not long at all and the two MRI techs were absolutely amazing. One of them was the same tech I have had several times before, so it was not scary at all. It was pretty funny because Radiologythe one I have seen many time previously said to me, “Alyssa, do you have any questions before we get started?” Before I was even able to speak he said, “You know I can not tell you anything because this needs to be read by the Radiologist and I just do not have that type of knowledge. Now you also already know you can go online in a few days and read the full report.” I do tend to always ask at the end of the test if they saw anything like lesions. I hate waiting to see the doctor and I know the techs can see the images and probably have a somewhat educated guess on what they are looking at. My goodness they are so stubborn about sharing any news with me which I kind of think that is just mean, just kidding! He did make one funny remark by saying he was happy to announce that I do still have a brain!

For some reason today I am in so much pain, but I am doing my best to just rest. I do tend to use my Saturday’s as a day of rest and anything I think needs to be done waits until Intraoperative-MRI_Joyce_690x380pxlSunday. More than likely the reason for my pain is due to stressing about the MRI and also the argument I had with my mother on the way to the MRI. Isn’t it funny how when you are stressed about something all it takes is one comment to make the calm barriers fall down hard? The smallest of disagreements can turn into a disaster! I am not proud of this, but I am very strong in my nature and can have a hot temper when provoked. Anything I am really passionate about causes me to protect and defend it to the fullest. I will say things I mean, but it will come out in a very hostile manner. I do also believe that anything that happened yesterday is in the past and can not be changed, so all you can do is move on with life and hopefully be less hostile, but we will see about that!

Thank you for visiting my site today and I hope y’all have a great and restful weekend! IHappy-Weekend.-Do-what-makes-you-smile-and-be-happy will do my best to stay calm and definitely not continue thinking about “what” the results are going to tell me on Thursday. I think the only thing I can do between now and Thursday is keep my mind busy by thinking about only the positives aspects of life! Even though those positives can be hard to find because of all the negative in life are still there! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Very Special Man!

PoppyWhen I was younger there was always ONE voice that could make ANY situation better with just a few simple words. There was that ONE person who I held so dear to my heart❤ that could find the positive side in anything and everything in life. I had that ONE person that made everything better with his wise and very loving words. I admired this man more than words could ever even begin to describe because he knew ONLY love❤ and showed it with all he did in his life. My beloved Grandfather, who I actually called ❤Poppy, was literally the most amazing, admirable and loving people in this entire world! He touched the lives of so many with his kind and loving heart! 

Way back 18 years ago when I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis terrified and extremely sad, I called my Poppy in tears.  He calmly listened through my tears and offered his never-ending support, love❤ and great advice. The words he spoke has stuck with me through the years as he said, “Alyssa, you are strong and can handle anything this illness may inflict on you. But always remember no matter what struggles you may endure, someone else is always going through something worse, so stay strong.” I know just how true his statement is because even when things feel really bad, they could definitely be far worse. At this time I did share with him my fears that I could lose my ability to walk and be wheelchair bound and at the young age I was that was frightening. But he told me to never put thought in something negative until I am actually faced with it and that was wonderful advice.

My sweet Poppy passed away September 9, 2013, but I still remember all the words ofpoppys grave encouragement he shared with me through the years. In the times I am in a terrible amount of pain or feel a massive amount of stress, I hear his voice in my mind with all of his healing powers.

For some reason these past few weeks have been very difficult for me. My pain levels have been elevated drastically and the stress weighing on my mind has been at a HIGH! Some of this stress is the upcoming MRI that I found out today needs additional information from the MSAA. I have sent several emails to the person that was helping me, with NO response yet. But staying logical, I will try again tomorrow as this MRI has already been scheduled! I guess it is possible that some of the stress is I am over thinking EVERY aspect of life and have a difficult time letting go! I am very passionate about many things in life and do not accept “It is what it is and there is nothing we can do!” If I keep remembering my Poppy’s words, if we all stand strong, there is always something that can be done! I guess this is where I got my notion to NEVER GIVE UP!

I think it is very clear that my Poppy was my role model in life and I will always strive to be as much like him as I possibly can! There will never be another man like him, but I My Poppyguess that is what makes him so special. You know that being diagnosed with a chronic illness is tragic and life altering, but losing him was twice as hard on me. I know it has almost been 5 years, but it feels like yesterday when I got the call from my Uncle to tell me Poppy had passed away. I honestly felt as though my world came to a complete halt! If I had just one wish, which I know most people would think I would wish the MS away, but I would wish I could have just one more day with my Poppy. I would rather live with the struggles of Multiple Sclerosis for the rest of my life, if I could just have him here with us again. I would love to be in the car with him listening to him sing “Seven Spanish Angels” by Willie Nelson & Ray Charleshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ as those were the best and most memorable days for me. 

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading this extremely emotional post. I must say this was the hardest post I have written and could not make it through without many tears. I truly wish that my Poppy would not only be proud of this post, but also of all the others that I have written. Always remember to cherish those you love❤ and make sure they know how you feel because unfortunately there is a time they are meant to move onto the next level and be in Heaven. I hope you have a nice and relaxing evening. Please always remember I am sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤