Good afternoon y’all! I really hope your day is going much better than mine has. I already have to get up pretty early for work, but being woken at 3:00 am due to a power outage is a terrible way to wake up. It kind of sets how the day is going to go for you! Waiting patiently for the power to come back on so I could get ready to work was frustrating to say the least. I could not fall back asleep for a few reasons, it was a little hot without the air conditioner and sheer panic in thinking how I would wake up if I fall asleep without an alarm and get ready for my day. Thankfully the power company did work fairly fast and the power was restored by 6:45 am, but I am typically at work at 7:00 am. I guess you can say I was able to partially throw myself together and I was at work at 8:00 am. Even though my manager was fully aware of the situation, my day felt off due to being an hour behind my normal schedule. Thankfully it is over now and hopefully tomorrow will start off much better!
Of course to add to my frustrations from the power outage this morning, I can not seem to get any responses from my doctor’s office. I am waiting for them to send the MRI order to
the company that might approve for me to get assistance with the co-pay for the extremely expensive MRI. The nurse, that is normally helpful, sent me the paperwork I needed to fill out and then send to the company MSAA, but apparently failed to send me the MRI order that the company requires. After several phone calls and emails they still have not sent this in or responded to me! The doctor is the one that wanted me to get the MRI, but I guess it was not all that important to her after-all! Maybe I am wrong, but I am taking this to mean my health is NOT all that important to her and neither is the MRI she was forcing on me. Through the fatigue and frustration, I emailed the AVP of the practice and SURPRISE still NO response!!!! I mean who else do you go to when even the AVP does not respond?
Maybe this is my fault because I expected this new doctor to care and treat patients the way my previous doctor from this same office did. Nothing has been the same in this 
practice since my first doctor retired. My first MS Specialist was caring , compassionate and knew how to communicate, but I guess this is a new day in age and doctors like him are scarce. Communication between doctors, nurses and the patient is vital to good health care, but apparently they see things differently. Every time I see this doctor I go into her office prepared with all my questions written out, just so I do not forget anything and considering I know when I leave the office I will never get a response to my questions. I am not sure what happened to doctors that actually care about their patients, I think they are extinct like the dinosaurs! It is really sad that we pay all this money for a few moments of the doctor’s time, but sometimes feel like we are a nuisance to them? Or maybe that is just me.
Thank y’all for visiting my site today and reading my small rant! I really hope you had a lovely day without any of the frustrations I have experienced today. Your comments are always encouraged and very much appreciated! I hope y’all have a great evening doing what makes you happy! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of 
love and comfort!
Always, Alyssa
just isn’t working the way it should be! I am resting, staying hydrated and taking all the medications the doctor has prescribed, but there is still NO relief yet! My guess is the stress this issue is causing me is not helping me get better, but it is in fact making things so much worse! Isn’t it crazy when we know what is causing our problems to become worse, but yet we still change absolutely nothing with our thought process? Obviously I know exactly what is making all my pain more intense, but I am still getting myself worked up and upset about it anyways!
see what foods could be causing more issues for me). I want to also include a Hopes & Dreams page, Positive thinking page to really keep my mind in a happy place and a Gratitude page
. I might include a page of books that I want to read considering sometimes I think of a book I want to read, but then forget the title! Then lastly I want to include a page of ideas for my blog because I come up with random ideas, but then forget what I wanted to write about when I try to start! I guess I can contribute my forgetful mind to brain fog from the MS.
know I have done all I could do and hope they will approve my request for assistance. MRI’s even with insurance in the United States are insanely expensive. I still wonder why in the world I pay so much for my medical insurance just to have to turn around any pay tons of money for doctor’s appointments and required procedures, it just really does not seem right to me! Maybe someday the US will follow suit with the other developed countries and offer “free” health insurance. I kind of think it would be insane to hold my breath because things have been this way for many years without anyone stepping in to make GOOD changes! 
been back on the Gilenya for 6 months and they want to see if it is helping my illness. Until I mentioned that I was on Gilenya for 6 years previously they did not seem to have any idea and now it might not even be necessary. It is a little disturbing to me that my specialist did not know or remember that I was on Gilenya for so many years prior to October. When she first told me I needed to have the MRI, I thought it was to see if the new active lesions from the October MRI had went into remission or if there were new lesions, I did not know she was ordering this because of the 6 month time line due to restarting the Gilenya! If I am being 100% honest, the only reason I would want this MRI done is to see if there are new active lesions causing all this spasticity and pain. But all the MRI will do is cause me a lot of unnecessary stress and in turn upset me way too much, which we all know the damage being upset will cause. I mean seriously, if all is well with the MRI the specialist 
will say I am doing well with the Gilenya but, if there is any activity on the scan she might say the Gilenya is not strong enough for me and I need to consider starting a different medication. The bottom line is I am NOT switching medications again until there is a cure because the Gilenya worked SO well for me for 6 long years and if the MS has progressed to Secondary, Gilenya is still used to treat the illness. Do you think I am being logical or irrational with my thought process?
to have to find something that will keep me distracted. I am still experiencing so much pain, so I am really not sure if I am going to work on Monday, or if I am going to head straight to my doctor’s office to try to get the answers that I need. But, it is only Saturday and I am going to try to only think about things one day at a time! There is really no point in doing as I have always done, and try to plan my week out in advance, because things never work out perfectly! Saturday’s have always been my more restful day, and I would actually try to get things done on Sunday!
