Another week has passed, and I am still deciding if I will try again to do another writing competition. I know what I want to write about, but each time I sit down and try to start, I find myself trapped in my memories! I think the reason for this being difficult is because the topic is painful to write, and even more painful to remember the details I have tried so hard to forget. This competition is a personal essay, but I think this topic might be too personal, and I do not believe I have the strength to do this. Many things we have gone through during our lives never leave our minds, no matter how hard we try to forget, but I believe the topic I was considering writing about is too much for me. I guess we shall see what happens. Is it worth bringing up those memories for a writing competition, or would it be best to leave those memories in the past where they belong?

I am unsure, but my pain levels have been considerably higher for the past couple days. It is hard to say if this additional pain is happening because of the extreme heat or stress, I am causing myself. It could be a combination of both, but I am ready for it to end. The weather in the south, where I live, has been ridiculously high, and heat always causes me additional issues. It does not help that we do not have central air in our house, but we have two window units. The window units help some, but not as much central air conditioning would. I can admit that I have felt increased stress, but it is because of things I wish I had done differently at work. I have always been harder on myself than anyone else could be, and I know that is not a good way to be, but I have been this way for as long as I can remember.

Do you have a favorite season? My favorite season is Autumn, and I only enjoy Summer if I can be at the beach. Summer is way too HOT, but the ocean breeze helps. In my opinion, the temperatures during Autumn are not too hot or too cold, but perfect! Hot weather and Multiple Sclerosis do not get along, and tend to create massive issues, which can be nearly debilitating. Considering I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis for more than half of my life, I should be used to all the pain issues, but I cannot say that I am. Most pain I can deal with and try to ignore, but when the pain is in my head, I am unable to ignore the pain or function like normal.

Thank you for stopping by today. I hope you enjoyed what I shared, and I would love the chance to read your comments. The weekends are so short, so I hope you can enjoy it to the fullest. My plans for the rest of the weekend are to try to relax, stay where it is cooler, and make a final decision regarding the writing competition. Another thing I hope to do is to read more of the 23rd book in James Patterson’s Women’s Murder Club series. If you have not read any of James Patterson’s books, I highly recommend it. He is a phenomenal author with talents I cannot even grasp. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa