We Are In This Together

~Together We Can Make A Difference~

We have all been going through the same struggles and fears since the beginning of 2020. We have probably all been staying home and avoiding any contact with others outside of our home because of COVID-19. Is it just me or does it feel like we are all on house arrest? I sometimes think that actual house arrest offers more freedom than we have seen over the last several LONG months. Truthfully, it has been a lot more than just several months and more like a year! There is a chance I am wrong, but I think if things were handled differently at the beginning of the pandemic, we would not still be experiencing the hardships and isolation we are today. I am pretty sure I have said this a million times before, but the Trump administration this took place under failed miserably.

I think y’all already know that I work from home as well, so I am literally always at home. I miss the days when my husband and I could go out to dinner or even to the mall to look around. This sounds awful, but I honestly cannot remember the last time we were able to go out for a nice dinner. Not that this was something we did often, but at least we were able to for special occasions. I know my husband loves a good steak every now and then, which I do not care for and I do not know how to even cook steak. Of course, my husband has never been much of a cook, and truthfully I do not think he has ever cook anything. I remember before we started living together, he was trying to make hot dogs and had no clue how to. I thought it was cute and a little silly, so I walked him through how to make a hot dog.

Of all things, I never in a million years thought I would miss going grocery shopping because I always dreaded this task. Since the pandemic began, I have been having groceries delivered. I am thankful for the amazing people that work with this service, but it makes me feel like I am being lazy and useless. This is an awful feeling but considering many people in the city I live in refuse to wear a mask or even social distance, and the fact I have a weak immune system, I cannot take any chances. I do not want to get COVID-19 and risk being hospitalized, and possibly losing my life. I would love to see my late grandfather again, but not right now.

Over the past several months, I have been keeping track of the new COVID cases in the city I live in. To put it mildly, the numbers are terrifying, but the way people behave is insane! I also know there are many people that still think this virus is not that serious or even just a joke. The problem with this way of thinking is, people lie, but numbers do not lie. When we all can see the number of new cases on a steady rise, logically this would show the when the way people are behaving is NOT working you would think it might be better to try something different, right? This would mean, for anyone that is NOT wearing a mask when they leave their homes to start wearing a mask. Or for anyone that is NOT practicing social distancing, to start keeping space between themselves and others. Months ago, the experts advised 6 feet was a good distance to keep, but now they have increased the space to 10 feet. Of course, masks cost money and are difficult to find, but social distancing is free and easy to do. Even before the pandemic, I never appreciated people getting too close to me because I value my personal space!

Anyone that has known me for any length of time, knows that for the most part, I like people. I have always been great at socializing with people of all kinds. I guess the sad truth is, with everything that I have seen on the news and witnessed, I have become overly angry and a little hostile, which are characteristics that I am NOT proud of and are very unlike me. Unfortunately, my patience and tolerance for ignorance have diminished greatly because of COVID, the increased levels of selfishness, heightened number of lies we are being told daily, and then the lack of questioning these people telling the lies, and even worse is the lack of accountability there is in the entire world. When I mess up, I own up to my mistakes and deal with the repercussions of these mistakes because that is what good human beings are supposed to do. I do not think I will ever understand why those that did NOT do what was RIGHT at the beginning of the pandemic are not punished for their wrongdoings, or at least feel awful and apologize for what they did wrong. I already know that some of you might disagree with me, but I strongly believe that the almost 400,000 deaths of American’s are Donald Trump’s fault. The failed leadership, lack of empathy, and sympathy by this person are by far the worst I have ever witnessed. The bottom line is, COVID-19 is not political, it is a matter of life and death!

Of course, next week a new president will be inaugurated into office. Joe Biden was our vice president for 8 years and I hope he will do right by not only the American people but people around the world. Biden is not a perfect man and he will make mistakes, but I cannot imagine he will screw up anywhere near as much as Trump has. I think Biden and Harris have plans to help heal the United States from COVID -19 and hopefully, this means a better plan for delivering the vaccine to all of us who need the vaccine. I do not think that Trump had any plans because he does not care about the lives of people and only cares about his #1, himself. I am not going to say the Biden/Harris team will not screw up more than the Trump/Pence team because I have said something like this before and was VERY wrong! At this point, all we can all do is hope for better, brighter, and safer times in our future because what is life without hope?

I want to thank you for taking the time to read this post and even though you might disagree, I would love to read your comments. I can promise you, even if we disagree on everything or agree, I will respect your views because that is just my nature. I hope you are having a nice and safe weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Feelings that have built up

Beware in advance, I want y’all to know this post is the most personal I have written and extremely emotional. It is also rather long, but not as long as at least one another post.

Everyone’s life unfolds in unique and often challenging ways. No matter how things appear on the outside, no one has the “picture perfect” life. Our lives are full of happy times and hard times, which might not be equal. When someone experiences something that is painfully difficult and they somehow overcome those times, others may not know how in the world they overcame such tragic times and they never ask. How many times have we been asked in life if there was anything we would change? I can recall countless times, but my answer will never change. Anything that occurred in life that was hard, I feel that I am strong because of the hardest times in life and therefore would not change anything at all.

How would you respond if I were to ask you, what would you change in your life if you could? Sure, there are probably hard times you might wish you did not encounter. If those hard times never happened, would you still be the person you are today? Maybe you would, but maybe you wouldn’t. I say this because things I went through in life, I don’t know if I would be who I am if those things didn’t happen.

2020 has been a difficult year so far and we do not know when or if things will improve. I want to believe that what the United States has witnessed will open everyone’s eyes to the state of our nation. We have NOT had ANY leadership over the past three and a half years. We have watched what feels like the fall of a country that was supposed to be “strong”, “fair”, and “equal”. The entire world was exposed to COVID-19 and most other countries acted in a way that protected the citizens when the United States acted late which caused hundreds of thousands of people to unnecessary lose their lives. There is no way to know if the government had acted sooner, those lives lost could have been saved, and sadly that is what these individual’s families must live with.

Unfortunately, there are still way too many people that believe the lies the president says and tweets. These are the same people that follow their “leaders” example and fail to wear masks when out in public and seem to not understand what is meant by social distancing. I guess it makes sense because we all saw the president and the crowd on the 4th of July close together possibly spreading the virus to one another and yet somehow magically neither the president nor vice president seems to get the virus. Y’all already know that I am terrified of the virus and I do have a weakened immune system because of the medication I take for Multiple Sclerosis.

I will say that finally, several states have made masks when out in public mandatory. Those that fail to comply with wearing masks will be fined. I hardly leave the house these days but did go to the pharmacy on Friday. They had in huge sign in bold letters saying that all customers entering the store must wear a mask or they will be asked to leave immediately.

It has also been made painfully clear that the United States has enormous problems with racial injustice and police killing unarmed black people. I am not naïve enough or blind to the fact that not all American’s are treated equally and it makes me feel shame for the country.

All my life I have always treated everyone the same and never judged anyone based on anything besides the way they treated others. I appreciate the beauty in the differences others show and find those distinctions fascinating. I think if we were all exactly the same, this world would be rather boring and we would miss out on some incredible opportunities.

We are already more than halfway through 2020. The news has put a lot of focus onto either COVID-19, politics, police brutality or the latest with the Epstein insanity. For starters, the United States knew about COVID-19 on January 20, 2020, but did not act on it until March. That left about a month and a half for the virus to spread throughout the country. How many months did the president say this highly contagious and deadly virus was a hoax or not that serious? The answer is just simply way too many and it should have been taken seriously starting back in January.

I am sure my feelings are pretty clear throughout this entire post. I am ashamed of how the country I was born and raised in has behaved for the past three and a half years and honestly probably many more. It will not come as a shock to anyone, but I am not and never have been a fan of Donald Trump. I think the way he blames everyone else for what has gone wrong in the world, how he disrespects everyone that disagrees with him and the media for doing their job, the revolting names he calls others, the way he refers to other countries “shit holes”, the way he has absolutely has no respect for the country he represents or the people living there, and so much more than just repulsive. This man cares so much about his pole numbers that rapidly dwindling and of course, he is blaming the democrats, when truthfully it is his own fault.

I think y’all know I always try my best to be optimistic and believe that positive thoughts will lead to a positive outcome. I also know how incredibly negative this post might seem, but these feelings have built up for a while now. I want to apologize if anything I have written was offensive to you and hope you know that was never my intent. I am a very sensitive person so hearing about the countless people that are dying daily because of COVID-19 breaks my heart and tend to have me in tears. Of course, I do not know any of the people that lost their lives to this virus, but they meant something to someone else.

I also have never been a political person and found most if not all politicians to be dishonest. Trump and Pence have proven my views of dishonest politicians. It is hard for me to understand how anyone could know about how many people have died because of a virus and how it would not affect them. It will never make sense to me how anyone that represents a country and not care about the people. How they sleep soundly at night is a mystery to me.

Since the news first broke about Jeffrey Epstein in 2005 it has made me sick. I then read a book by one of my favorite authors, James Patterson wrote about Epstein which made my feelings even more intense. After Epstein was arrested I thought that justice had been made for his victims.

Of course, he ended up committing suicide while in prison which could be viewed as a good thing, but it was an easy and selfish way out for him and his victims did not get to testify and feel the closure they may have needed. The latest with the Epstein situation was his long-term confidant and associate a female was arrested. This woman helped find Epstein young girls to become another victim and she also participated. Any woman that is capable of doing this kind of harm to a young and innocent girl is vile and appalling and should feel shame for the ways they ruined the child’s youth.

I do realize this might have not been the most positive thing I have written, but this is how I feel. Again, I am sorry if I have offended anyone reading this and hope I did not discourage you from reading future things I write.

This post was very personal and full of raw emotions. I do appreciate you taking the time to read and I encourage you to leave a comment, which I will respond to as quickly as I can.

Y’all know I am starting my new full-time, work from home job tomorrow and I plan to continue blogging as much as I can. No matter how busy I get I will continue doing Motivational Monday, Pick Me Up Thursday and Let It Go Friday! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, and many positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa