Motivational Monday

missing youSix years ago today, I lost my dear sweet Grandfather aka Poppy. This man had an amazing way to make anything difficult actually bearable. I believe with all my heart and soul he made the world a better place just by being who he was on the inside. I was able to have the opportunity to witness first-hand how he interacted with others and to this day I try to mimic him in every way I can ❤. I will never in a million years be the wonderful person he was, but I will continue to try until my dying day ❤.f7989c70e9fd3f083cc03d48208b8c28

Even though this day does bring me much sadness, I know my Poppy would not want me to remain sad. I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt that my Poppy would want me to continue to live my life happily and do what I can to spread cheer and positivity as much as I can. With that said, the quote I am sharing with y’all means so much to me.❤ I remember the day I told my Poppy I had been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and I remember how encouraging he was for me. I made a promise that day to never surrender to this unpredictable illness, but fight against it!funny-motivational-quotes-for-employees-196-workplace-inspirational-wonderful-funny-motivational-quotes-for-employees

I believe we all live with many difficult times and somehow we manage to pull through it all. Of course it is not easy, but we do not really have a choice and we must refuse to give up! I do look forward to reading your thoughts on this quote and I know your thoughts will be 49644_originalvery powerful!

I want to thank you for taking the time to stop by my site today. I always appreciate all of your support and encouragement. I hope you have a lovely start to the week and your week only gets better. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Unimaginable!

Sunday-QuoteJust for a moment try imagining if the unimaginable could actually be a possibility for you. What if there was a visitor’s pass that would allow for us to embrace and talk to a loved one that has passed away, would you do it? I can say without a shadow of a doubt, if this was an option, there would be several people I would love ❤ to see and talk to again

During difficult and emotionally draining times in life, I would give anything to have just one more minute with my grandfather. He had an ability to make even the craziest download (6)situations make sense and easy to handle. Any problems I would talk with him about, he would always tell me I would make the right decisions and they would be the best decision for me. In the rare times I felt like giving up, he would remind me that I wasn’t a quitter and even though I felt helpless, someone else was facing something a lot worse. This might seem crazy to most people, but I feel the presence of my grandfather every time a butterfly goes by me!

What would you do if faced with a situation you could go visit a loved one that passed away? We may never be offered a visitor’s pass to visit loved one’s that have passed away or feel their embrace or hear their voices, I do believe our loved ones that passed away are still living within our hearts and soul.

images (1)Thank you for stopping by my site today! I hope you have been able to enjoy your weekend to the fullest. I don’t know about y’all, but I am NOT at all ready for the new week to start, but it is going to happen regardless. I am sure it shows from this post, I was a having a slight emotional day. My emotions seem to be heightened when I have increased pain and do not feel 100%. I guess I might be on the mend from not feeling well at all on Friday, but it is taking it’s time. I was able to rest most of the weekend considering I really did not have any plans, but grocery shopping which I dread! Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Weekend of loss

lives lostOriginally, I had decided I wanted to write something about dreams, partially because of the awful ones I have been having lately. I was very curious to find a reason behind these dreams because they felt so real, which was a little scary! However, due to the horrifying tragedies that occurred this weekend not even 24 hours apart, my heart and mind is consumed with sadness and heartache for all those affected by these tragedies.

I cannot even begin to wrap my mind around what has happened, yet again in the Unitedel paso States. So many innocent people out on a Saturday for back to school shopping and then others just out for an enjoyable Saturday night have had their lives taken from them or changed forever. No one should ever fear going out in public because of the mentally damaged people that want to cause harm to others.

Everyone always wants to know what the motives are for these mass shootings. The shooter in El Paso TX is said to have published a manifesto an hour and a half before the shooting happened about his reasons. el paso 2The shear hate for those that are a different color or ethnicity is wrong on so many levels. The shooter thought there was an invasion of Hispanics in Texas. Logically, where do think this person heard about an “invasion” of Hispanics? What political leader has made similar comments?  Unfortunately, this 21 year old man killed 20 innocent people and left 26 injured.

The shooter in Dayton, OH was clearly very unwell. It doesn’t appear he was targeting adayton specific type of person; he just opened fire in an open historic area surrounded by bars, restaurants and theaters. Sadly, the 24 year old man killed 9 people one of which included his own sister.

It is incredibly heartbreaking that there was 13 deadly hours this past weekend, leaving 29 dead and dozens injured. How can this continue to happen with no one taking any action to make dayton 2improvements? What or who is creating the intense amount of hate in the United States of America today?

It really does seem that there is at least one deadly incident every week and this needs to stop. I do think many have almost become desensitized to the insanity, which is something we should show a lot more sympathy for. When I heard about the first shooting on Saturday morning, I cried for those that lost their lives or lost someone they loved.

It is August 2019 and there have already been 250 mass shooting in the United States,2042563-Anonymous-Quote-Death-leaves-a-heartache-no-one-can-heal-love which is FAR higher than any other country. The president has made harsh comments about other countries calling them “shitholes”, but these countries have not had anywhere near the mass shootings the United States has had. So how is a country with little to no amounts of mass shootings a shithole and the United States with the most mass shootings a great country to live in? This does not and never will make any sense to me.

asasfasfI am sure it is clear by what I have shared the amount of innocent lives lost breaks my heart. I almost went to the local Wal-Mart on Saturday, but for some reason didn’t and chose a different store. It is upsetting to me that I actually fear going out to stores and malls now because it seems very unsafe. You never know when mentally unstable person will decide to go on a shooting rampage. I believe that everyone needs to stand up together and fight back against the hatred in the world. Sadly, if there aren’t policies implemented about gun control in the United States, this is only going to continue to happen.xBpZ8970

Thank you for stopping by my site today. I am sorry if anything I have written was offensive, but the tragedies that continue to happen are hard to accept. I strongly feel that everyone’s life matters and no one should ever live in fear. As unpleasant as this post has been, I hope your weekend was as lovely as possible. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of      love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Tribute to Poppy

tribute-2Good evening y’all! I am a little late with getting this posted, but at least it is still on the day of my beloved Poppy’s birthday❤. I am dedicating this post and this poem to him.

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❤My Poem for my Grandfather (Poppy). A man who will never be forgotten.❤

 

It’s been more than 5 years,

Since we lost you

Today will always be your daywpid-screenshot_2015-09-07-16-12-50_1

I will continue to celebrate

this day in your honor

as it was the day your journey began

I think of all the lives you touched

Gracing them with your loving ways

Because of you

the world made sense

It was a better place

poppys gravewithout you here

nothing has been

or ever will be the same

You gained your wings

To be the angel you always were

I still feel your presence

Especially when times get unbearable

You ease my struggles

By being my loving guardian angel

I cry tears of joy and painpet-tombstones-quotes-09

Joy for the times shared

Pain because I will never stop missing you

Talk to you so often

Still hearing voice so softly

Our bond was strong

and will never be broken

tribute-1It’s been so long without you here

but your memory is held close

I know someday

we will fly together

Soaring about the clouds

But until that day comes

your light will guide me

Believing I will be reunited

With the part of my heart

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Thank y’all for stopping by my site. This post was very difficult and emotional for me, but I wanted to honor my dear Grandfather on his birthday. I wish this amazing man Happy Birthday every  year on his birthday and I do believe he feels the love I am sending him. 

I hope your weekend is going well and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of    love ❤ , comfort and many positive vibes.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Fighting to find motivation again

bad daysSometimes things happen in our lives that shake us to our core. It can be terribly difficult to heal from these situations and painfully trying to find the motivation to keep moving on. I have NEVER been the type of person that allows for anything or anyone to keep me down for long because we only have one life to live and must live it to the fullest. Even after being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at the age of 19, I wouldn’t allow for that to take control and or run my life, so why would I start now?

In recent times something else has happened to me that was not only a complete and total shock, but also incredibly inappropriate. I was let go from my job for the most everything-will-be-okay-just-not-today.jpgabsurd reasons I have ever heard.. My husband and I relocated to a brand new city where I started this new job that I was super excited about. During the course of my employment, even after asking several times I had NO training. The complete lack of training was at no fault of my own, but due to no one knowing the answers to the numerous questions I asked. How wrong does that sound!? It seems like the people I was working for expected me to be psychic, which unfortunately I am not! Any loss is hard to accept, but not understanding what went wrong makes it even harder. Beyond a shadow of a doubt, I did my job to the best of my ability and didn’t deserve for this to happen to me. Anyone that really knows me, knows that I work hard and am good at whatever I set my mind to.

In my rational mindset and heart I know everything happens for a reason, but that feeling lost todaydoesn’t make this any easier to accept. Losing a job has made me feel worthless and like a failure, which logically I know probably isn’t true. Even when I felt terrible, I still went to work. Even living with a chronic illness that brings on many issues, I still work and work hard! The hard truth for me to swallow is people can be so FAKE and more often than not the people who seem kind and caring are the direct opposite. I don’t possess the ability to be anything but who I am and that is NEVER fake! Personally, I am always going to just be who I am, which is a compassionate person to a fault. I am and probably always will be the person that cares more about others needs than my own.

How do you find motivation when your world has been turned upside down? A job dont-get-closure-until-you-move-on.jpgdoesn’t define who I am as a person, but it does make me feel productive instead of the one sulking around the house without any direction. I am a very strong person and I will bounce back to the positive person I was, it might just take time. I honestly think this situation would be easier to accept if there were valid reasons for this my termination, but there AREN’T ANY valid reasons! Many people have already told me this is their loss and not mine because I deserve so much better, maybe once my mind has healed from this I will see it that way as well.

I don’t mean to share a post that is pretty negative, but honestly sometimes writing out my feelings helps for me to heal. Many of y’all, that have been following my blog for a while now, knew something was wrong way shake off everythingbefore I admitted it and I appreciate all the kind and encouraging words you have sent my way. It has only been 4 days, which feels more like 4 weeks, since losing my job and unemployment doesn’t suite me well.

I am trying to take time to heal from this horrible event and focus on things that bring me joy again. There were so many things I wasn’t able to do working full-time, so maybe now is my chance to do more with my life. Y’all know that I had dreams of writing a book that I even already have an outline for. Maybe I can use this time, in between a job search, toHow-to-Stay-Motivated-When-Searching-For-a-Job-1024x512 at least start the book of my dreams. One thing I can say with 100% certainty is, I can not and will not allow what I have gone through to send me into a terrible relapse. you can heal

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for stopping by my site today and I do hope y’all have a fabulous weekend! For those of you living out west where I know it is insanely cold, I hope you are able to keep warm and the temperatures improve very soon. I do look forward to reading your comments and promise I will respond much faster than I have been in the past few month. Even though I might be going through a difficult and painful time right now, please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Holidays Approaching!

enhanced-buzz-31796-1387830656-36-600x450I still can’t believe that December is coming to an end so soon and the holidays are quickly approaching us. I know this year has been pretty busy for me and there have been many changes, but it seems like we just celebrated the start of 2018 last week. Where did the year go?

I do think many people look forward to the holiday seasons because it gives an amazing opportunity to spend time with ❤ family and possibly friends, relax a lot more, enjoy life a477x246_holidays_closedjpg little and of course the time off from work is pretty fabulous! My office is actually closed the entire week of Christmas and doesn’t reopen until January 2, 2019! I have never experienced such generous time off from an employer for the holidays before and I must say I absolutely ❤  LOVE❤ it!

I realize on the other hand there are many people who dread the holiday season for their own personal reasons. Even though it has been many years now, there are some loses 3 snowflakes with namesthat still feel very fresh years later for myself and my family. It has been nine years since my husband’s dearly loved ❤ grandfather passed away, five years since my ❤ grandfather who I idolized passed away and four years since my husband’s loving ❤ grandmother passed away. Those that have passed away will live on in our hearts ❤ and souls for an eternity. Not only will we miss them with every breath we take, but 872989bc7fbe00c87e1318785e86011ewe will always stand true to honor their memories of ❤ love, courage, compassion and inspiration for as long as we possibly can. I know that I am not alone when I say this, but I would give anything to have just one more minute with any or all of these loving souls. The joy that would be felt from hearing their voices or a simple hug one last time would be priceless and cherished. 

I do think it is natural to remember those we lost even deeper around the holidays, butremember those in Heaven we should all also still remember to rejoice with the family we are still able to spend these days with. The funny thing is, we do not get to choose our family because they are just given to us and we must learn to accept them with their amazing qualities and even their flaws. I mean seriously, no one is perfect and we all have our own faults that may drive other crazy, so we really can’t judge another for similar situations!

Life is way too short to allow for any silly little altercations to break families apart, but sadly I do believe this happens far too often. I can admit that I have held onto hostility and anger with some in my own family for much too long. With the harsh realities that they won’t be here forever makes me try letting go of those unpleasant feelings and find neutralwhere there is love grounds. I know I have said this before regarding other issues, but we are all different and have our own uniqueness to us. I guess I believe that all of our unique behaviors and outlooks are what makes us special and like no other!

There are many wonderful things we experience with the holidays, but it tends to make me a little sad. I miss those that are not with us anymore, but I do appreciate the family I have with me still. The way I am able to make it through the holidays with limited tears is I always have to continue reminding myself that those we have lost and still with us in heart, mind and spirit and that they are not living with pain any longer.

Every year I always feel that Christmas has lost its true meaning. The stores are always full of shoppers spending money Christman is morethey might not have and buying products just because they are a hot commodity.  I feel that Christmas should be more about family and less about buying gifts! There are no gifts that can take the place of our loved ones. There are way too many people who struggle just to put food on the table and have a roof over their heads, while others rush the stores. In my job now I hear really sad stories that break my heart. Just yesterday we were working with a single mother that was going to be homeless today. Myself and two of my co-workers, one of which being my boss,  were trying to find a place that could offer her a roof over their heads and shockingly most were already full and might not be able to help until mid January. I was so sad for her and her 6-year-old child to suffer like this so close to Christmas. Thankfully, we did find an extended stay for them to go to, but I was still shaken by this. This poor little girl will wake up Christmas morning not expecting gifts under the tree, but wanting a bed to sleep in and food to eat.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I know this post was little longer than what I normally post, but the holidays get me a little emotional. I am looking forward to reading your thoughts and I do promise to respond as quickly as I can! I hope you are feeling well and your weekend has started off wonderful. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

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Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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❤Always, Alyssa❤