Motivational Monday

Well, it is Monday again. Most of us probably are not ready for it, but they do happen every week and we manage. I am not as disappointed today because I only have a few days until I meet James Patterson. I do not think anything could ruin this week for me, well unless the meet and greet is canceled. How was your weekend? I hope you enjoyed every minute of it and you were able to rest and do what makes you happy. I did not do much of anything because I was battling a headache the majority of the weekend, but I did finish one of the books I wanted to.

Considering Mondays are often one of the most dreaded days, we all must find a way to be motivated and stay motivated throughout the week. Although it sometimes feels easier to give up and throw in the towel, we will discover many more amazing opportunities if we keep trying. Yes, sometimes pain can be a factor and that can make us want to stop trying, but pushing forward and continuing to try will make life much more fulfilling! We never will know what we are capable of if we do not try!

I do not think I will ever understand why the weekends go by so fast. It still feels like Friday afternoon and I am ready for the weekend to begin. I know my cats hate when the weekend ends because then they have to wait all day until they can fight over or share my lap, which they do love. For some reason, yesterday I broke down in tears thinking about our sweet cat Chloe that passed away. It is surprising how quickly and unexpectedly the memories come back. It always hits me like a ton of bricks. Please do not get me wrong, I love our three cats, but I would give anything to have Chloe back in our lives! She was a sweet little angel.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have enjoyed what I shared and the quote offered you a little motivation. I am counting down the days until Friday and it will never get here soon enough. This might sound crazy, but I even have an outfit picked out to meet James Patterson in. I look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Friday Eve thoughts

Happy Friday Eve. Even though it was a short week, it still felt long and grueling week. Honestly, it was not all bad because I am being trained on a different process at work and the trainer is great. I have not met many people that had a similar personality to mine, and I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. It is unusual because while I will yell at my computer and use some incredibly colorful language towards the computer, and I will even say that it has a bad attitude problem, most people think that is ludicrous, the trainer does the same😊! We both enjoy adding humor to our day because it makes the day slightly happier and more interesting.

Life can be challenging, and we face many hardships throughout our lives. Everyone deals with painful times differently, but we all need someone to talk to and lean on when we struggle with various situations. A friend of mine that I have worked with at two different companies previously remain close over the years. We have talked about everything and anything during the years we have known each other. Last Sunday, she found that her grandmother was being moved into a hospice center, which was obviously extremely painful☹.

After learning that her grandmother would be leaving this world soon, she immediately made plans to go visit her. Unfortunately, her grandmother did pass away a few days after being moved to hospice. I told my friend that she could call me anytime she needed someone to talk to and that I would do anything I possibly could for her. The funeral is Friday and I know that will be one of the hardest days she will go through because I remember when my grandfather passed away. My friend has said the same thing I did when I lost my grandfather, she feels numb and like she lost a HUGE part of her heart and soul. I think the reason learning about my friend losing her grandmother affected me so profoundly is because I remember that pain like it was yesterday and it has been almost 10 years since losing my grandfather.

Losing someone we love is never easy. It is important to be supportive and understanding when we know someone is experiencing such a heartbreaking situation. Of course, we cannot make the pain disappear, but we can listen and be empathic. Sadly, we have all lost someone we loved, so we know how tragic and agonizing the pain can feel. I am sure we have all heard that saying, “It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all”. Even though that sounds so clique, it is true.

How has your week been? The news always seems to be hard to watch because there is so much sadness. So many people have been glued to the TV to watch the Johnny Depp vs Amber Heard case. That entire situation has been beyond ridiculous. Of course, I do not know either one of them, but the accusations that were made about Depp were serious. Many people suffer in abusive relationships, so when we watch this on the news with clear lies it is infuriating. Lies and deceit does nothing but destroys lives, but this is something people do commonly. Those who lie as easy as it is for most to breathe make my blood boil, especially reading something so horrendous.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I am sure y’all are looking forward to the weekend and hopefully, you will be able to enjoy it safely. I would love to read your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Although, you do not know my friend who lost her grandmother, please keep her in your thoughts and prayers, she needs this currently. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes.

Always, Alyssa

Gun Violence & Mental Health

Unfortunately, there are so many tragedies happening in the United States, that many people have become desensitized. Sadly, in the five months of 2022, there have already been 213 mass shootings. As a result of the incredibly high number of mass shootings, 17,000 people, and 650 of this number were innocent children had their lives cut short. For an incident to be considered a mass shooting, four or more people are shot, injured, or killed, but these are typically a larger number of people.

On Tuesday, May 24th, a mass shooting took place at an elementary school in Texas. Nineteen innocent children and two adult teachers were killed. Tuesday was marked the deadliest school shooting in Texas history. According to reports from CNN, the gunman performed this heinous act alone. Before the 18-year-old high school dropout went to the elementary school, he shot his grandmother, allegedly texted a 15-year-old girl in Germany about his plans for the elementary school, and then took his grandmother’s truck to head to the school to carry out his deranged plans.

Gun violence is not something new in the United States but has been a problem for decades. In 1987, after a British gunman killed 16 people, the country banned semiautomatic weapons, which was the weapon that was used. After a school shooting in 1996, the country proceeded in the same manner and banned most handguns. At this time and after several bans, the country has one of the lowest gun-related deaths in the developed world.

Australia acted with gun-related violence and deaths after a massacre in 1996. The country prompted a mandatory gun buyback. It has been estimated as many as one million firearms were melted down making them useless and not deadly. The occurrence of mass shootings has decreased from once every 18 months to once every 26 years.

Our Canadian neighbors have also taken action against gun violence. Following a mass shooting 33 years ago in 1989, Canada tightened their gun laws. Other countries such as Germany in 2002, New Zealand in 2019, and Norway last year also tightened their gun laws.

With the levels of gun violence and innocent lives lost in the United States, something needs to change. Too many are caught up in their 2nd amendment right to see the bigger and more critical issues. Everyone wants their right to bear arms upheld, but what about the innocent people who lost their life’s right to a safe life?

I do realize that mental health in the United States is neglected, but something can be done about gun laws. We can hardly watch the news without hearing about shooting somewhere. There are innocent lives lost and families affected daily. Mental health and gun laws need to be narrowed and changed immediately. In the United States, we must worry about children going to school, going to the grocery store, movie theater, or anywhere outside the safety of our homes! Are we going to wait to fight for change until it hits close to home and someone we love is killed by a mentally unstable gunman?

It has taken me several days to be able to put this post out because it is extremely emotional. I could not read through the different news reports about this because it kept bring tears to my eye. I cannot imagine what the families that lost children and loved ones are going through. There is no logical reason for the recent issues that took place in Texas, and most are left to ask, was this man mentally ill? If this 18-year-old had gotten the help needed, would the 21 people killed still be alive? The 18-year-old gun man’s family was in shock he would shoot the grandmother he loved in the face or kill 19 innocent children and 2 teachers. The information I found was based on CNN who spoke to the mother of the disturbed 18-year-old.

Regardless of anyone’s views on what should happen with gun control, we can all probably agree that the mental health of everyone needs to be addressed. Many people feel ashamed of any mental instabilities they may have and will cause them to avoid getting the help needed out of fear of rejection and negative judgments. No one in this world is perfect and sometimes we may need help. Please if you know anyone that is struggling, help them find a professional that can help them get adequate help. I understand how difficult it can be to admit needing help, but the following website offers different types of help https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/find-help.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I know how hard it is to read what I shared, but it is important to know what is going on in the country. Yes, it is depressing and tragic, but there is help. Even if we know someone that is struggling, we can try listening to the person, but when it is more urgent than anything you can do and it is too crucial to wait, you can call 911. Feel free to leave comments and I will respond as soon as I am able to. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

May is Mental Health Awareness Month

May is National Mental Health Awareness Month. This was established in 1949 to strengthen an understanding of the importance of mental well-being. It is time to recognize and praise recovery from mental illness for those inflicted with mental illness. Prevention and treatments can work for people. It is an effective way to help people recover from mental disorders and to live a full, and productive life. Unfortunately, in 2022 there is still a negative stigma surrounding mental illness. People are thought to be crazy, incompetent, or dangerous. This is a false understanding of mental illness, which this month is meant to alleviate and correct.

Over the past two decades, the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration and others within the US Department of Health and Human Services have collaborated to increase the importance of comprehending the prevention and treatment of mental health issues. There have been effective efforts to raise awareness regarding the significance of mental health and encourage acceptance, support, prevention, and recovery from mental health conditions which include but are not limited to the following:

Congress provided substantial behavioral health workforce investments in 2022, which included $225 million for behavioral health professionals and paraprofessional education.

SAMHSA supports the development of a Behavioral Health Workforce tracker, which is a new database of over 1 million behavioral health providers. This tracker offers users a visual of available behavioral health providers by geography, provider type, and Medicaid acceptance status.

It would be false to say that the United States has not failed to correct the misunderstanding of mental illness and help those suffering for the past several decades, but changes are being implemented now. The current administration in the United States remains dedicated to addressing the behavioral health dilemma people have been faced with and strengthening the mental health and well-being of all Americans. It has been acknowledged mental health challenges intensified drastically due to the COVID pandemic, including substance abuse, youth mental health, and suicide.

In March 2022, President Biden signed the Lorna Breen Health Care Provider Protection Act into law. This act will invest $135 million over 3 years towards improving mental health in healthcare providers, including suicide prevention efforts.

Our mental health refers to our emotional and social well-being. This can impact the way we think, feel, and behave, which can influence how we connect with others, decisions making, tolerate stress, and numerous other aspects of our daily life. We all focus our attention heavily on our physical health, which is important, but our mental health is just as important and often neglected.

Mental health is crucial for everyone. Taking care of ourselves is vital to prevent mental health from declining. Circumstances such as nutrition and gut health, stress, sleep, relationships, trauma, and much more can produce further poor mental health. While our mental health is strong and healthy, we can practice and learn coping skills to ensure we can handle difficult situations when they occur because we know they can happen at any time.

A mental health condition or mental illness is referring to a set of symptoms recognized by the mental health community. Individuals with a mental illness or condition encounter changes in mood, thinking, and or behavior. This can be extreme and unexpected for some. For others, it can mean they are unable to think clearly and avoid friends, family, and enjoyable activities. Unfortunately, some may hear voices that others cannot hear. For someone to be diagnosed, their changes in thinking and emotions must severely harm their ability to do the things they want to do. It does not matter what kind of mental health condition a person endures because the possibility to recover is possible.

There are many contributing factors to mental health problems. It is extremely likely for many people to have a complex combination of factors. Everyone is different, so some may be much more deeply impacted by certain things than another person would be. The following factors can result in a period of poor mental health:

Child abuse, trauma, or neglect.

Social isolation or loneliness.

Experiencing discrimination and stigma, including racism.

Social disadvantage, poverty, or debt.

Bereavement (loss of someone close to you).

Severe or long-term stress.

Living with a long-term health condition.

Unemployment or loss of a job.

Homelessness or poor housing.

Drug and alcohol abuse.

Domestic violence, bullying, or other abuse in adult life.

Significant trauma as an adult, such as military combat, experiencing a serious incident where you feared for your life, or being a victim of a violent crime.

Various physical causes such as a head injury or neurological conditions.

I plan to do a second post about treatments for mental health conditions because I did not want to make this post too long. One important thing to mention is trying to understand and support those with mental health conditions is going to be much more helpful than judging the person. Everyone around the world, whether they have a mental health condition or not deserves kind treatment and understanding. With the negative stigma people with mental illness face currently, they deserve compassion because we never know what will push them too far.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope the first part of my Mental Health Awareness post was interesting and provided you with a slightly clearer understanding. Life is hard enough already without judging an innocent person battling with a mental health issue, but we need to try to understand how challenging it must be for them. We might not understand the illness, but chances are it is confusing for them as well. I hope you are enjoying a relaxing and safe weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

The Power of Writing

Writing can be an incredibly powerful way to express our emotions and help us come to terms with any given situation. It is a personal and silent way to overcome challenges and emotional pain. We can be inspired by reading the works of others and learning from the way they compose and arrange their thoughts. Viewing and trying to understand the processes of writers, whether they are well-known successful authors or someone who has a love and passion for writing can be thought-provoking and fascinating. Reading what others write seems like a window into their minds and experiences.

The amount of famous and struggling authors is endless, most of which are extremely talented, and others may take a while to catch our attention. We have certain things we enjoy reading and become captivated by the abilities and styles of different authors. Each person that writes has a unique way to put their thoughts together, which is what can make this so intriguing to discover.

Some writers create magnificent masterpieces from their personal experiences, and some come from an incredibly strong and vivid imagination. Are these talents embedded into people from birth or does it come from a supernatural encounter? I understand it takes time, hard work, dedication, and determination, but the talents some authors possess are beyond words phenomenal.

Which authors do you find yourself drawn to and view as the most engaging? I have three authors that I view as the most appealing and they all have different styles. These authors are James Patterson, Nicholas Sparks, and Kelly Rimmer. Out of these three authors, Nicholas Sparks and Kelly Rimmer are more emotional and write from their heart, which can bring someone to tears with their words. Although I do enjoy books from all three of them, James Patterson is the one I am most drawn to because his books keep me on the edge of my seat and unable to put the book down because I cannot wait to see what happens next.

Are there authors you find inspiring and would have a desire to meet someday? Personally, I view James Patterson’s abilities as the most inspiring and would love the chance to meet him and learn how he creates his amazing novels. His series “The Women’s Murder Club” is brilliant. There are currently 22 books in this series, which several years ago I read the first four in about one month. I was unable to put the book down because they were so gripping and riveting. I was slightly obsessed with the books, so there were many times I would read more while I was working, but we will not tell my former manager about that😊!

If I was able to meet and speak with James Patterson it would be a dream come true. The way his mind works is an outstanding gift that no matter how hard I try cannot comprehend. Of course, I can understand he is one of a kind and there will never be another like him. Hopefully, someday this dream will come to fruition, and I can gain some knowledge from this clever author.

Some books are easy to listen to, but others are so engrossing you need to read them so that you do not miss anything. I found that I am unable to listen to any of James Patterson’s books. Maybe it has something to do with the voice of the narrator, but I think there must be a deeper reason that I cannot explain.

I have mentioned in a previous post that my late grandfather wrote for his local paper. As I have said before, he was an amazing man and like myself, he loved to write. Unfortunately, I have not had the opportunity to read much of what he wrote, but I do hope someday I will be able to. Without reading a word of what he wrote, I know it was brilliant and a great read. I am sure he wrote a lot about golf because he was a golf pro and even though I would not understand what he was saying about golf, I still hope to read anything he wrote. I do wonder if somehow, I got my love for writing from my amazing grandfather!

I am interested to know what types of books you enjoy reading and which authors pull you into their magical web. Do you have any blogs that inspire you and which ones do so? Authors do not have to be well-known and famous because I believe anyone that writes is an author in their own way. I have read that many authors also write in a journal, which I assume is a way to connect with their emotions without having anyone read it. I am sure many bloggers also journal as well to write about things they do not want to share, which makes a lot of sense to me. There are several things I will journal about and never blog about because they are issues, I am not comfortable sharing.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have written, and I hope you will leave a comment. It will be interesting to know what you enjoy reading and what authors inspire you. I hope your weekend is starting well and the rest of the weekend is wonderful. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

Happy Friday y’all! I hope you had a great week and you are looking forward to enjoying the weekend! No matter what you decide to do over the weekend, please be sure to do so safely. I know how frustrating it has been to worry about what could happen with COVID and wearing a mask everywhere we go got old three years ago, but unfortunately, things are still slightly unsafe. We do not know what to expect from the new variant yet, but why play Russian Roulette with our lives? This weekend is my last weekend before I start working again and that makes me extremely happy. Not working is more stressful than working, which sounds crazy, but it is so incredibly true!

The weekends are short and we do not want to spend any of it letting anything that occurred over the week ruin it for us, so today we need to learn to let it all go and enjoy our weekend. Too many people want to portray they have a perfect life, but nothing is perfect in life. Being perfectly imperfect and honest is okay and normal. Of course, accepting our imperfections is not easy but it is necessary and it will get easier the more we try. I guess it is letting go of trying to be perfect when it is not possible.

Sadly, I want to ask y’all to continue keeping Ukraine in your thoughts and prayers. They are still living in fear and that is no one for anyone to live. I am glad to see their leader is standing with them and not going into hiding because he thinks he is better and deserves to be more protected than anyone else. What is happening in this country is disturbing and revolting because they did nothing that is deserving of being attacked. Control may be powerful, but can become too much.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have enjoyed what I have shared and it helps you let go of any stress caused by the week, so you can enjoy your weekend. Honestly, starting next week when I begin working I probably will not be doing multiple posts, but I will try staying on a schedule. I know I am going to be in training to learn something new and I will hopefully be successful. I would love to read your comments, which I will respond to as soon as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Do you believe in signs?

Although I may never understand why certain things happen in life, there is a huge part of me that believes there are signs behind what occurs in life. Maybe there are signs that we are sent from a spiritual place or from a loved one we have lost. I am aware that not everyone believes in signs because that is something my husband and I disagree on and that is okay because everyone is entitled to their opinion.

I remember when we were relocating to another city and state a few years ago and I had just finished an interview, which I was not certain about. A beautiful butterfly flying near the car and landed on my window. She stayed there for a short time, showing off her vibrant colors. I have always loved butterflies and thought they held a powerful meaning. I viewed this encounter as a sign the job and the move were the right decision and things were going to work out beautifully. I thought this sign was from my late grandfather watching over me and ensuring life was going well.

Before the encounter with the butterfly, I have always viewed visits from them as a sign from somewhere above. After my late grandfather’s funeral and I was back home on my lunch break at work, which I took outside on nice days to get away from being trapped inside, the same butterfly or at least I thought it was the same butterfly came to visit me every day on my lunch break. Considering how heartbroken and lost I felt after this loss, I viewed this butterfly as my grandfather coming to let me know he was doing well and to continue living my life until we met again. This might sound delusional, but this butterfly offered me comfort during a tragic and painful time in my life.

Recently, I experienced something I feel is unusual. While I was working at my previous job, which of course, was at home I had a daily visit in the window above my desk. This visitor was a small, adorable bird called the Ruby-Crowned Kinglet. He always flew outside my window, kind of hoovering within my view. He seemed to be almost showing off, trying to get my attention and more so on a bad day. During the unpleasant Zoom meeting in December when I was laid off, the little bird stayed in the window for a while showing off his flying abilities, which brought me some joy during an upsetting time.

Out of pure interest and curiosity, I have looked up the meaning behind a visit from a butterfly. No to my surprise, visits from butterflies means angels are approving your actions and you might be on the right path. This can also mean that the angels are guiding you through life. This makes perfect sense to me because I am confident saying my late grandfather is my guardian angels that is always watching over me and carrying me through most struggles in life. Even to this day when I see a butterfly, I feel my grandfather’s presence nearby.

Again, purely out of my curiosity, I had to know what the sign was from the Ruby-Crowned Kinglet. Sure, enough there is meaning or a sign behind them. The spiritual meaning for the Ruby-Crowned Kinglet is fearlessness and calm, which is exactly what I needed the day I was laid off. The amusing part about my Ruby-Crowned Kinglet friend is even when he is not seen for a few months, he always returns and puts on a show by doing his little dance in the window.

When I was younger, I thought when the clocked showed “11:11” you had to make a wish. I did this for years, but when I looked this up, I learned something slightly different. The numbers 11:11 still appear to be a good sign because they are angel numbers. These angel numbers can suggest new beginnings and possibilities. It may be good to pay close attention when these numbers are seen because your guardian angels are attempting to reach out to you with positive energies. These angel numbers can also be interpreted as a sign from the universe guiding you to focus on someone or something.

Is there anything that you believe is a sign and if so, what is it? I know there are many more signs other than the three I mentioned, but I did not want this post to be too lengthy for you to read. I do believe signs can be extremely powerful but also understand some people believe these are merely coincidence. However, I do not  think things happen by accident or coincidence and believe everything happens for a reason.

Thank you for visiting my site and reading this post. I hope you found this post interesting and maybe you believe in signs as well. Monday is never an easy day because we are letting go of the weekend, but hopefully you have an amazing week. I am looking forward to reading your comments on this post and will respond as quickly as I can.  Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Friday eve bliss!

The weeks can be long, but today is Friday eve so the weekend is almost here! Today I want to remind everyone how important it is to be kind and understanding, especially during painful and tragic times like so many are at this awful time. Something critical in life is to know we never can be certain or understand what another person might be facing in life. We are not walking in their shoes and they may try ignoring their feelings, which can make them behave in unusual ways. When we encounter another person that is acting negatively or unpleasantly, STOP and THINK because they could be dealing with extremely challenging times in their life!

Most of us have seen the news and the terrifying issues that Ukraine is dealing with now. We might know someone that has family and or friends living in Ukraine and understand they are fearing for those they care about safety. Now is a great time to try to go the extra mile for others. Life is short and fragile, which is why I have always believed we should live each day as if it is our last because we never know when our time on this earth is going to run out.

The quote I would like to share with you today is meant for every day of our life, not just today. I hope you will see the beauty and meaning in this quote and I would love to know how it made you feel. I have been tired of the hate this world is filled with and want more than anything for it to end. Unfortunately, I am not able to change the world, but I hopefully can shed a little light on this. Maybe this is something you feel as well and want to discover a change. If everyone around the world could work together, there might be a chance!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope what I have shared resonated with you and you want the same things as I do, happiness and love from sea to shining sea, and everywhere in between. Let us not just stand for those in Ukraine, but let us be united together as one with all countries. I hope you have a great afternoon and do all you can to stay safe. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Heavenly Birthday Wish

Today is my late grandfather’s birthday and he would have been 86 years old today. Even though he has been gone for nine incredibly long years, I still think his birthday should be celebrated. He was a great, honest, loving, courageous, powerful, and all-around amazing person. My late grandfather continues to inspire me because I 100% idolized him and thought he could do no wrong. I have prided myself to be as much like him as I possibly can but know without a doubt there is no chance anyone could be like him.

I will never forget his smile and voice because they could make anything going wrong in life much better. He was full of grace and honor. He was a man that never judged another person for any reason and respected people for who they were. He never wanted to change people but did want to help others the best he could. Anyone lucky enough to have known him can understand the impact he had on my life and the ways it destroyed me when lost his battle with cancer. I can say without hesitation that those that knew James “Bucky” O’Brien could always feel his love, even when he was not in the room.

On September 9, 2013, everyone that knew my grandfather lost a piece of their heart when he took his last breath. In my heart I know there will come a day when I see my grandfather again and when I do, I will get back the pieces of my heart and soul that left with him on that September day. The past nine years living in this world without my grandfather have not been easy. As I said, he had a way about him to make everything much better. I can still hear his voice when I close my eyes and I know he is watching over me. I just hope he is proud of the person I am today because I am do keep him with me no matter where I go.

I cannot help but wonder when my grandfather is looking down and seeing the way the world is today, what he must be thinking. My grandfather loved his country and even fought for this country. He did not fight to see things become what they are today. This is one of many reasons why I try being as much like him as possible. I think he would be proud of the way I treat others and how I do not judge anyone for anything more but how they treat others.

Today, just the same as every other day, I will hold my grandfather close to my heart. He lived his life as a golf pro and loved the game! I hope he is celebrating his day on the best golf course in heaven and winning every game he plays with the angels. Happy Birthday to my dear sweet Poppy!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you are having a great week and you are continuing to stay safe. I appreciate your birthday wishes for my grandfather in advance. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

One Year Ago, Yesterday

Yesterday, made one year since we lost our sweet and loving cat, Chloe. I did not write about this yesterday because it still hurts and maybe more than it should. Chloe brought us almost 16 years of love, smiles, laughs, joy, and more than I could ever explain. I know time heals all wounds, but it still stings like it was yesterday we had to say goodbye. The truth is there would never have been enough time with Chloe because she had a heart of gold, and I would trade anything if we could.

For some people, their pets are nothing more than just a pet, but for my husband and me it is so much more. Our pets are more like our children because, for us, they are our four-legged children. We take care of and protect them the best we can. Honestly, I know this might sound insane, but I feel like I failed Chloe because there was not anything I could do to save her. There is no telling if we had taken her to the doctor sooner, they could have done anything, and I am sure if I asked them not, they would say there would not have been anything different they could have done.

This precious girl was stubborn and did as she pleased, but I guess that is the personality of most cats. Sadly, the first time in almost 16 years she listened to me was when I whispered to her when she was laying on my lap that it was okay to stop fighting and it was okay for her to let go. We did not want Chloe to suffer, and I know she was struggling, and Chloe was able to take her final breath at home surrounded by our love. She did not have to go to the animal hospital where she would not comfortable and scared, she was able to leave this world in her time, not anyone else’s time.

I am thankful that we did not have to make that painful decision because I do not think either of us would have had the strength to do so. We loved and still love that little girl more than I could put into words that would make sense to anyone else. There were so many times when I was dealing with pain and Chloe would lay on that area because she was trying her best to alleviate the pain, I was in. When I experienced loss, I remember crying to her and she would sit with me until the tears stopped. She was one of my best friends and I could trust her to keep my secrets.

The day we lost Chloe, the tears kept flowing because how do you let go of something so meaningful? Our other cat, Sundance grieved with us because they were so close. I never in a million years thought that Chloe could have a bond with another animal as she did with him. another animal. We did have another cat before Sundance, but Chloe and Lexi were not as close. This was not because Chloe did not try because she did, but Lexi was unique. Chloe learned from Lexi how to interact with another cat, even if it was different.

It was heartbreaking to see Sundance grieve as much as we were and not know exactly what he was feeling. There were times when I was working downstairs and would hear him crying, which I knew he was looking for Chloe. There was no way to explain to him what happened and where Chloe went or that she was not coming back home. Of course, we hated to see him sad and lonely which is why we went out to adopt one kitten but came home with two. He seems happier now, but as sweet and loving as the kittens are, they will never replace Chloe. You can never replace loved ones, but you can hold onto their memory and be thankful for the memories you have.

I know this post was not uplifting, but it was rather sorrowful. I feel like writing is a good way to release emotions and I thought this needed to be shared. I will never allow for Chloe’s sweet and loving memory to be forgotten. Animals are an amazing creation and should never be taken for granted.

Thank you for visiting my site today. Although this was a sad post, I hope it helped you to understand me a little better and know how much I love all three of our cats. I say this some many times to many people, animals are much better than most humans because they love unconditionally, seldom hold a grudge, and are never judgmental or hateful. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa