Six years ago today, I lost my dear sweet Grandfather aka Poppy. This man had an amazing way to make anything difficult actually bearable. I believe with all my heart and soul he made the world a better place just by being who he was on the inside. I was able to have the opportunity to witness first-hand how he interacted with others and to this day I try to mimic him in every way I can . I will never in a million years be the wonderful person he was, but I will continue to try until my dying day
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Even though this day does bring me much sadness, I know my Poppy would not want me to remain sad. I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt that my Poppy would want me to continue to live my life happily and do what I can to spread cheer and positivity as much as I can. With that said, the quote I am sharing with y’all means so much to me. I remember the day I told my Poppy I had been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and I remember how encouraging he was for me. I made a promise that day to never surrender to this unpredictable illness, but fight against it!
I believe we all live with many difficult times and somehow we manage to pull through it all. Of course it is not easy, but we do not really have a choice and we must refuse to give up! I do look forward to reading your thoughts on this quote and I know your thoughts will be 
very powerful!
I want to thank you for taking the time to stop by my site today. I always appreciate all of your support and encouragement. I hope you have a lovely start to the week and your week only gets better. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, and many positive vibes!
Always, Alyssa
situations make sense and easy to handle. Any problems I would talk with him about, he would always tell me I would make the right decisions and they would be the best decision for me. In the rare times I felt like giving up, he would remind me that I wasn’t a quitter and even though I felt helpless, someone else was facing something a lot worse. This might seem crazy to most people, but I feel the presence of my grandfather every time a butterfly goes by me!
Thank you for stopping by my site today! I hope you have been able to enjoy your weekend to the fullest. I don’t know about y’all, but I am NOT at all ready for the new week to start, but it is going to happen regardless. I am sure it shows from this post, I was a having a slight emotional day. My emotions seem to be heightened when I have increased pain and do not feel 100%. I guess I might be on the mend from not feeling well at all on Friday, but it is taking it’s time. I was able to rest most of the weekend considering I really did not have any plans, but grocery shopping which I dread! Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love 
States. So many innocent people out on a Saturday for back to school shopping and then others just out for an enjoyable Saturday night have had their lives taken from them or changed forever. No one should ever fear going out in public because of the mentally damaged people that want to cause harm to others. 
The shear hate for those that are a different color or ethnicity is wrong on so many levels. The shooter thought there was an invasion of Hispanics in Texas. Logically, where do think this person heard about an “invasion” of Hispanics? What political leader has made similar comments? Unfortunately, this 21 year old man killed 20 innocent people and left 26 injured.
specific type of person; he just opened fire in an open historic area surrounded by bars, restaurants and theaters. Sadly, the 24 year old man killed 9 people one of which included his own sister. 
improvements? What or who is creating the intense amount of hate in the United States of America today? 
which is FAR higher than any other country. The president has made harsh comments about other countries calling them “shitholes”, but these countries have not had anywhere near the mass shootings the United States has had. So how is a country with little to no amounts of mass shootings a shithole and the United States with the most mass shootings a great country to live in? This does not and never will make any sense to me. 
I am sure it is clear by what I have shared the amount of innocent lives lost breaks my heart. I almost went to the local Wal-Mart on Saturday, but for some reason didn’t and chose a different store. It is upsetting to me that I actually fear going out to stores and malls now because it seems very unsafe. You never know when mentally unstable person will decide to go on a shooting rampage. I believe that everyone needs to stand up together and fight back against the hatred in the world. Sadly, if there aren’t policies implemented about gun control in the United States, this is only going to continue to happen.
without you here
It’s been so long without you here
absurd reasons I have ever heard.. My husband and I relocated to a brand new city where I started this new job that I was super excited about. During the course of my employment, even after asking several times I had NO training. The complete lack of training was at no fault of my own, but due to no one knowing the answers to the numerous questions I asked. How wrong does that sound!? It seems like the people I was working for expected me to be psychic, which unfortunately I am not! Any loss is hard to accept, but not understanding what went wrong makes it even harder. Beyond a shadow of a doubt, I did my job to the best of my ability and didn’t deserve for this to happen to me. Anyone that really knows me, knows that I work hard and am good at whatever I set my mind to.
doesn’t make this any easier to accept. Losing a job has made me feel worthless and like a failure, which logically I know probably isn’t true. Even when I felt terrible, I still went to work. Even living with a chronic illness that brings on many issues, I still work and work hard! The hard truth for me to swallow is people can be so FAKE and more often than not the people who seem kind and caring are the direct opposite. I don’t possess the ability to be anything but who I am and that is NEVER fake! Personally, I am always going to just be who I am, which is a compassionate person to a fault. I am and probably always will be the person that cares more about others needs than my own.
doesn’t define who I am as a person, but it does make me feel productive instead of the one sulking around the house without any direction. I am a very strong person and I will bounce back to the positive person I was, it might just take time. I honestly think this situation would be easier to accept if there were valid reasons for this my termination, but there AREN’T ANY valid reasons! Many people have already told me this is their loss and not mine because I deserve so much better, maybe once my mind has healed from this I will see it that way as well.
before I admitted it and I appreciate all the kind and encouraging words you have sent my way. It has only been 4 days, which feels more like 4 weeks, since losing my job and unemployment doesn’t suite me well.
at least start the book of my dreams. One thing I can say with 100% certainty is, I can not and will not allow what I have gone through to send me into a terrible relapse. 
little and of course the time off from work is pretty fabulous! My office is actually closed the entire week of Christmas and doesn’t reopen until January 2, 2019! I have never experienced such generous time off from an employer for the holidays before and I must say I absolutely 
that still feel very fresh years later for myself and my family. It has been nine years since my husband’s dearly loved 
we will always stand true to honor their memories of 
we should all also still remember to rejoice with the family we are still able to spend these days with. The funny thing is, we do not get to choose our family because they are just given to us and we must learn to accept them with their amazing qualities and even their flaws. I mean seriously, no one is perfect and we all have our own faults that may drive other crazy, so we really can’t judge another for similar situations!
grounds. I know I have said this before regarding other issues, but we are all different and have our own uniqueness to us. I guess I believe that all of our unique behaviors and outlooks are what makes us special and like no other!
they might not have and buying products just because they are a hot commodity. I feel that Christmas should be more about family and less about buying gifts! There are no gifts that can take the place of our loved ones. There are way too many people who struggle just to put food on the table and have a roof over their heads, while others rush the stores. In my job now I hear really sad stories that break my heart. Just yesterday we were working with a single mother that was going to be homeless today. Myself and two of my co-workers, one of which being my boss, were trying to find a place that could offer her a roof over their heads and shockingly most were already full and might not be able to help until mid January. I was so sad for her and her 6-year-old child to suffer like this so close to Christmas. Thankfully, we did find an extended stay for them to go to, but I was still shaken by this. This poor little girl will wake up Christmas morning not expecting gifts under the tree, but wanting a bed to sleep in and food to eat.
same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.
was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.
time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.
post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love
