Endless Circle of Change

Life can be a combination of craziness, fascination, and excitement. I think it is the changes that bring these emotions on. Change can be difficult and keep life interesting, but also a little frustrating when they happen too frequently. I think some people thrive on change, while others are apprehensive about any change. It is not necessarily that I dread or avoid change because I do think there is a lot of change needed, especially for those that do not see others as their equal because of irrational reasons. The only time when I dread change is when I am comfortable and happy with the way things are, and it is not causing other distress.

Speaking of change that I dread, two weeks ago, my position changed at work changed. I will be honest when I first heard my position was changing, I was not happy about it because it was all new to me and it made me nervous. I have been with my company for one year and doing the same thing for the entire year, so I knew what I was doing. Within the first two hours in the new position, I was incredibly happy and adored the person I was shadowing, who is the supervisor. It is amazing how much one person can make things so much better.

During my two weeks working with this amazing, understanding, compassionate, empathetic, honest, and all-around wonderful lady I learned so much. She made my work life the best it has been in years, and I never dreaded clocking into work as I have before. I have always believed that people do not come into our life by accident, but there is a reason. Even though I have never met this person face to face, I feel like I have known her for years. I felt more than 100% comfortable talking to her about anything, whether it be work or personal, which was something I needed.

I think most people only view work as a job and their co-workers as just acquaintances, but I tend to view things differently. Of course, there have been jobs and co-workers in the past that I did not find enjoyable and was just doing what I had to do for a paycheck. However, there have been jobs and co-workers that were more than just a paycheck for me, and I cared deeply for them. I became so close with co-workers in the past that I invited them to my wedding! It is not always easy to make strong connections with co-workers and it can be exceptionally challenging when you work from home, but it can be done with enough time, understanding, and kindness!

Are y’all more accepting of change, no matter how frequent they happen, or are you resistant to change? When you are faced with changes, how do you handle them? I think this can cause uncomfortable situations because we get used to things being the way they are, and we sometimes cannot see the silver lining in any change.

There are MANY changes that need to happen in the world we live in but it appears that many disagree with me on this or they cannot see why change is very needed. What do you think should change in the world today? I mean it is 2021 and there is still far too much hatred Aand discrimination that exists. I used to think we “were” doing better before certain powerful people made it normal, which brought hatred to a much brighter light, but maybe I am naïve and want to see the best in people. Or maybe are now just showing their true colors and it is not a pretty color! Often, I do feel like it is better for our own mental health to keep our expectations low, so the chances of disappointments and letdowns are less likely to occur. I know that is probably a negative way of thinking, but I have been caused too much hurt and sadness from being disappointed by someone I trusted.  

I am sure I am not the only one in the world that feels this way, but we need more people that care about others and have empathy for them. Of course, we might not always know the person that is struggling, but we can have a certain level of understanding and a desire to help those that are going through a tragic time in life. No single person can change the world, but that one person can have a positive impact on another and make at least one day better for them.

Thank you for taking the time to read what I have written today. I would love the opportunity to read what your thoughts are, and I promise to respond to all comments as quickly as I can. I hope you enjoy your weekend, but please do what you can to stay safe. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Flooded with Memories

~June 12, 1999~

Sometimes it seems like time flies by us, while other times it feels as though it is standing still. I can only speak for myself when I say this, but I did not enjoy my high school years and some reasons I will not go into. June 12th makes 22 years since I graduated high school and even though I did not go directly to college, I never looked back. I graduated high school at 17 years old because of where my birthday falls in the school year. The choices that I made when I finished high school probably were not the best, but I was young and could not wait to get as far away from the small town I grew up in as possible.

The funny thing is, I was always a dreamer and had thoughts of what I wanted my life to be like after those miserable four years in high school. Of course, there were many dreams I had that might not have come to fruition, but I have always thought that everything in life happens for a reason even if we do not know what those reasons are right away.

One thing I never dreamed of after I got out of high school was to be diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis only two years later. To be honest, I did not know much about this disease all those years ago and only knew one other person that had it, which is my father’s wife. It took me many years to realize that having MS was nothing to be ashamed of and I did not have to hide it from anyone. I do think that this disease has made me a stronger person and of course, I promised my late grandfather that I would never allow it to control me. I also promised that I would never let MS win the fight because I would win the war my body was having within itself.

A dream I had 22 years ago was to be a Broadcast Journalist, which as you know did not happen for me and I do not have any regrets. The reason I do not have regrets about not being in Broadcast Journalism I know I would be able to deal with lies from politicians and would probably get myself in trouble calling them out on their deceitful ways. It does not matter if a politician is a Republican or a Democrat because the truth seems to be a little challenging for all of them to provide. Plus, I also strongly believe that people deserve honesty, especially with issues that impact our lives.

Once I had given up on my Journalism dreams, I thought being a Pediatric Nurse would be an amazing career. Unfortunately, not too long after I decided nursing would be a great option, I had an awful relapse and was worried that it would be a little too challenging to be a nurse if I had mobility struggles. I was a Certified Nursing Assistant (CNA) for a few years on a Pediatric unit and I learned fast that mobility issues would be far less challenging for me than the emotional impact this had on me. There were a few patients I will always remember, but one little girl that even to this day sends chills down my spine. She was a sweet six-old little girl that had been brutally raped by her uncle. Due to the legal issues, her mother was not allowed to be with her in the room, which was for good reason. Part of the job for the nurses and CNAs was to help the little girl with her bath, but she would not allow anyone but me to help her. I would also sit with her and read her the book of her choice. There were a few other children that weighed heavily on my mind and would put me in tears at the end of the day. This emotional struggle caused me to have a lot of stress, which created issues with the MS.

I am an overly emotional and strong-willed person. I am the type that will fight hard for what I believe in and defend anyone unable to defend themselves. I have never and never will allow anyone to change my mind on something I am passionate about, which can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on the issue. I think it is safe to say I would have made one hell of an attorney if I had wanted to be in school that long and have that amount of student loan debt.

Again, as I have already said I do believe strongly that everything in life happens for a reason. We may never know what the reasons are for the things that happen in our life but should try believing there are reasons for everything. The best and most we can all do is be happy in life and be thankful for what life has provided us, no matter what.

It does not matter what I have gone through in life because I know I am who I am from all of it. I have a quiet and happy life with my husband and three cats. Y’all may remember that in early February we lost our cat we had for almost 16 years, which was a painful loss for both me and my husband. There are still times today that I think of Chloe and what could have been done differently. I might be an emotional person, but logically I know nothing could have changed that day she took her last breath on my lap. The only good thing about this was she did not have to suffer, and she was able to pass away peacefully in her home.

First, I want to thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I wrote today. For some reason, it had taken me several days to think of what I wanted to write about, which might be because I had a lot of ideas on my mind. Plus, it was a long week for me, and I was feeling very fatigued. Second, I hope you are having a great and safe weekend. Our weekends should be spent doing what makes us happy and helps us to relax to recuperate from the week we just had. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I promise to respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Finally Friday

Happy Friday y’all! How was your week? Even though it was a shorter week, it felt so much longer than the normal week. I do think short weeks feel longer because we are trying to fit everything into the four-day week that we would do during a normal workweek. What do you think? I can say that work is finally getting busier which I prefer because it makes the day go by much faster and when things are slow, the days drag by and feel like they are never going to end.

Now that we made it through the week and are now able to enjoy the weekend, we need to let any negative feelings the week cause go so we can enjoy the insanely short weekend. I do know the quote I am sharing is not what I would normally share on a Friday, but I feel like it speaks volumes and loudly! I have thought this for a long time now, but think it is getting much worse because even though it is 2021, so many are way too judgmental of others. I feel strongly that color, race, ethnicity, sexual preference, and anything else being judged is very wrong. As the years move forward, I think we should be progressing with the times and we should be much fairer, and equality should be for everyone!

The numbers of COVID are suggesting there is a decrease in the spread, which is probably because so many are getting vaccinated. Unfortunately, there are so many that are resistant to getting vaccinated. Of course, some are avoiding getting vaccinated because they do not believe it is serious or maybe it is political reasons, which make no sense to me, but it is those refusing the vaccination that are dangerous. I have had both vaccines, but I also have not been tested to ensure I am safe. I cannot help but worry a little, but nowhere near as much as I was when COVID first was introduced.

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you have a wonderful and safe weekend doing what brings you the most joy. I would love to read your comments, which I will respond to as quickly as I can. I am still trying to get back into my normal routine with posts, but I have felt so exhausted lately, which is probably because of the temperatures. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

FINALLY, HAPPY FRIDAY Y’ALL

How has your week been? My week has felt all over the place from work changes and craziness to going back to the dentist. My appointment with the dentist yesterday was just cleaning, x-rays, and coming up with a treatment plan for all the issues with my teeth. With the combination of my insane and irrational fear of the dentist and all the medications I have had to be on due to the MS, there is some work to be done. Thankfully, the dentist is a very nice lady and her assistant is also very nice and they took their time going through things with me and explained things as needed.

Honestly, the changes and craziness with work are good. I have always been able to get along with most everyone else, but I am not my team lead’s biggest fan (I am not a fan at all). She is one person that I will try to avoid as much as I can because she is very unpleasant and creates a little too much frustration making me feel like I do not know what I am doing. Obviously, if I have a question about something, it is because I have not seen the issue before, not because I am not good at my job.

The large one is Willow and the little one is Luna
Our 11 year old boy, Sundance

Very soon, I am going to be taking our two new kittens to the vet. All three of our cats have adjusted very well to one another and there has never been any fighting. I will say that our boy cat is about 11 years old and the most passive, good-natured, and loving little boy ever. The only issue with his passive nature is, the two girls will walk all over him and he lets them. I give the three of them their special Fancy Feast treats twice a day and if he walks away from the treat, one of the girls will start on his treat (mostly the little girl). The smaller of the two girls is absolutely fearless and very feisty, but the poor girl has breath that will clear a room out, which is why I want to take her to the doctor. The larger one of our girl kittens is about 11 months old and the smaller girl is about 7 months old, but the way they play with each other is hilarious! Poor boy cat runs away from both of them and he is not a small cat.

Now that we have finally made it through this week and the weekend will be here shortly, I think today is the perfect day to let go of any negative feeling the week brought on. The weekends are so short and we should be able to enjoy them the best we possibly can! Do you have any plans for the weekend? I know you will not be surprised, but I do not have any plans besides ordering groceries, cleaning house, hopefully writing some, and making progress with the book I started. I did want to share a quote with y’all that I hope will help you let go of any negative and unpleasant feelings to help you enjoy your weekend a little easier.

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you enjoyed this post and I am looking forward to reading your comments, which I promise to respond to as quickly as I can. I hope whatever y’all have planned for the weekend, you will continue to stay as safe as you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

My Weekend…..

I hope y’all are having a good weekend and you are staying safe. I know we all look forward to the weekend because it gives us time to rest and recuperate from a long week. How is your weekend going so far? Did you have a good week? I do hope last week went well for you and your weekend is everything you want it to be. Last week was a mixture of stress and more stress for me, but at least that is in the past now!

My day on Thursday was a little stressful because it started at a consult with the endodontist that will be doing my root canal next week. I did not like this doctor right away because he was a little rude and extremely offensive. His assistant was sweet and told me that doctor was a straight shooter, but there is a fine line between being honest and rude. I told him right away that I knew my mouth was a mess because of all the medications I have been on due to my MS, mainly steroids when I had a relapse, and I was only concerned with the two teeth that were in pain. Instead of addressing my reason for being there, he went onto telling me I needed a good dentist that was not going to be terrified when they looked in my mouth. For someone that has HIGH anxiety with the dentist, this was not a good start.

My weekend did not start in the best way because our older cat, Sundance was not acting right on Saturday morning. I think it is safe to say that y’all know how much I love my cats and that I would do anything in the world for any of them, so seeing him being lethargic was extremely. Every morning Sundance gets two medications for his asthma and he takes them in a pill pocket, which he never has a problem with because he thinks they are treats. He would not eat the pill pockets and would not even purr like he always does. While in complete panic, I called his doctor’s office. The veterinarian called me back about 15 minutes later and said there was a cancellation and to bring him in. Typically, Sundance fights me when I try getting him in the carrier, but he did not fight me at all. His doctor’s office is only 1-2 miles from our house, so it does not take but a few minutes to get there, but he cries the entire way. Today, he did not make a peep, but I made it in record time because I might have been speeding.

With COVID, owners are not able to go into the office. So, I texted the number when we got there and waited. The vet tech, Sarah, is one of the nicest people I have ever met, and she was there last week when Sundance had to go for his yearly check-up. She came out and with her kind and understanding personality said to him, “Sundance, you were just here baby, what is going on?” Through my tears and hysteria, I filled her in on what was going on. She told me they would take good care of him and that I did the right thing to bring him in. She told me that she understands worrying about my baby because she is the same way and that she has an older cat that is going through chemo. I cannot even imagine how stressful that must be, but I appreciated her kindness and empathy.

After waiting about 15 minutes, but it felt more like an hour, Sarah came back out to explain what was going on with Sundance. She said his heart and lungs sounded great, but he had an exceedingly high temperature of 104.9. Sundance has a UTI, which could have been caused either by the stress of the two new kittens or the car ride last week to get to the doctor’s office. As I said, he hates being in the car and hates going to the doctor and he is a baby about things, especially when I cannot be with him. They gave him an antibiotic by injection, so I would not have to give him more pills. The antibiotic will work for 2 weeks and he should start feeling better soon. They also gave him pain medication, just to keep him comfortable. The vet tech and doctor said he will be sluggish from the pain medication, especially because this is the first time, he has had one.

My poor baby feels yucky

Once I got Sundance home, he just laid around and looked very confused. He still would not eat or drink, but just wanted to sleep and rest. The new kittens, Willow and Penelope tried getting close to him because they seemed concerned, which was sweet to see. I have tried leaving him alone because I did not want to upset him, but I did put his water dish close to him so he could drink when he wanted to.

I have always taken great care of our cats and it was torture seeing him not feel well. I hated not being able to help him feel better. I have never felt so helpless because there is nothing, I can do to speed up Sundance’s healing. I am glad we never had two leg children because I think I would be in the ER every other day. Of course, Sundance is not able to tell me how he is feeling, but I can tell from the look out of his eyes that he does not feel well.

Thank you for visiting my site today and reading what I have written. Please keep Sundance in your thoughts and hope he feels better soon. I will keep an eye on him throughout the night and hope he is back to his normal self in the morning. Sundance has a huge personality and even though he is 10 years old, he still plays like a kitten. I think because of what we went through with Chloe in early February, I am overly cautious and on top of things. I have always been the type that worries, but our cats are like our children, so I worry even more. I will keep y’all updated on Sundance’s healing from his UTI and pray he gets better soon!

I hope the rest of your weekend goes well and you stay safe! I would love to know what you thought about this post and I will respond as quickly as I can. Considering I have been a ball of stress because of Sundance, the only way I can stay calm is to write about it. We all need an outlet in life, and this is mine! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes.

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

~Congratulations! It Is Finally Friday~

Happy Friday y’all! How was your week? I hope you had a great week and you are looking forward to the weekend! I am so happy the weekend is finally here and I have two days of not waking up early and then staring at a computer screen for eight LONG hours! I sometimes think that the computer ends up causing some nasty headaches or maybe it is “some” of the people I have to deal with. You will not be surprised that I do not have any plans for the weekend. I even already did my grocery store delivery, so I do not have to do that. I know I told you the other day that there were a few more posts I wanted to do about Multiple Sclerosis, which I hope to complete this weekend!

Now that the weekend is almost here and the weekend is upon us, it is time to let go of any negative feelings the week may have caused. Our weekends are so short and the work-week is so long, we need to be able to enjoy our weekends to the fullest, but please do so safely. I hope the quote I am sharing with y’all today will provide you with the means to let go of the negative and embrace the positives in life! For all the things we may regret we did during our life, we should use them as learning experiences, not do them again, and let them go. It is important to live, learn, grow, and move on!

I hope your weekend is full of nothing but happiness and enjoyment. Y’all already know that we are not completely out of the water yet with the fears of COVID, so please be sure to stay safe. I would love to know how your week went and any plans you have for the weekend. Unfortunately, I still believe the United States is still going through many difficult and tragic times, but during times like these, we need to do our best to be understanding, compassionate, empathetic, and kind to others. The truth is, we never know what someone else is going throughand their troubled times may alter their personality. I do believe in that old saying “Kill them with kindness”.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed the quote I shared with y’all and do look forward to reading what you thought. I do promise to try responding to all comments as quickly as I possibly can. Also, please know that I will be working on the posts to share a little more information about Multiple Sclerosis. I know March is over and it was Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month, but just because the month is over does not mean those living with MS are free of it! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Finally, some good news!

Good afternoon y’all! I was not able to do my normal Let It Go Friday post, but do have an even better one to share with y’all! I hope you had a good week, and you are ready to enjoy your weekend safely! Do y’all have any plans for the weekend? We were thinking about going to look at kittens, but I think we are putting this on hold for a little while. We might hold off for summertime because there is a ragdoll mama that will be having kittens and they will be available!

There is always so much bad news we hear about daily, so when we finally get good news it is something to celebrate and share! I believe I told y’all that I was waiting for my reapproval for my Gilenya copay assistance. This medication had worked very well keeping my Multiple Sclerosis at bay, which is wonderful. The only problem with this medication is the cost. With insurance, but without copay assistance, this medication would cost $8,000 per month. Logically, who can afford something this outrageous?

I had mailed the application to the Gilenya Go Program about 2 weeks ago because I do not have a fax machine at home, we all know how slow mail is! Anyways, last week I received a request for additional information from the Gilenya Go Program. Thankfully, while I was at my doctor’s appointment last week, the nice ladies there faxed the paperwork that was requested for me. Today, I heard the BEST news I have heard all month, and my application was approved. Instead of paying $8,000 per month for this medication, I will pay nothing!

Of course, I have not had an appointment with my Neurologist to go over the results from my MRI, but I did read the report. From what I read and not having a medical license, it appeared that the results were stable, and nothing had changed from the previous MRI I had a few years ago. In my naïve and not professional thoughts, no change is much better than changes for the worst! This is all thanks to the Gilenya that I take daily for my MS. Previously, after I had an MRI, I dreaded the results because there were normally negative results. 

I have an appointment on March 23rd to hear my neurologist talk about the results in medical terms. I am not dreading this appointment because from what I read, my results are not awful and remaining better than they were in the past! I am just extremely relieved that my application with the Gilenya Go Program was approved and I will be able to get the medication every month, without any delays or problems!

Thank you for stopping by my site today! I know we are all busy and I appreciate you taking the time to read what I wrong, and share your amazing comments. I hope you have a great Friday and a fantastic, and safe weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

~Finally, Happy Friday!

I have some really wonderful and amazing news for y’all! Of course, this week has not been a great one because I went through another loss, my Grandmother passed away last Sunday, but the good news is this week is finally over! It does feel like the weeks are getting longer, but I guess it could be worse. The other issue with this week was, I had an awful headache that started on Tuesday evening and it did not ease up much. I am used to headaches, but they are no fun at all How was your week? I hope you had a good week and you are continuing to stay safe!

Now that the weekend is finally here, do you have any plans? This will not be a surprise to any of you, but I pretty much have nothing planned. The only thing I would like to do over the weekend is finally finishing two posts I started but was not able to complete because of the nasty headache, but I do not want to make any promises. Whatever plans you have for the weekend, please just stay safe. Not only is COVID not under control, but three new variants are evading the United States and many other countries as well.

Now that this week is just about over, we need to take this time to let go of anything negative that occurred during the week, so we can enjoy the short weekend! I am hoping the quote I am sharing with y’all today will offer you some comfort and help to let go of negative emotions. I am looking forward to reading your comments on the quote I am sharing and promise to respond as quickly as I can! I just want to quickly tell y’all why I love this quote as much as I do. Our life is so short and we do not know what it has in store for us. It is crucial to understand that tomorrow is not a promise and we need to enjoy the life we were given!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you had a great week and you have a nice, and safe weekend! I am going to try to finish the few posts I started last week, and stick to my typical blogging schedule next week. Between the nasty headache I had and the loss of my Grandmother, I did not have enough energy to do my normal post, but I am going to get back on schedule. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

~We Finally Made It, Happy Friday ~

I am so glad that we finally made it through this week! I do not know about you, but I think this has been a painfully LONG week! Of course, work has been busy, which I like, but I can use a break from the insanity! I am not sure if it is stress-related or the colder weather, but my pain levels have increased drastically. Yes, I am going to be getting the first COVID vaccine tomorrow morning and if I am being completely honest, I am nervous about it. I am not nervous about getting a shot, however, I am nervous if this vaccine will have a negative interaction with the medication I take for the MS. At least I do not work the weekend and my husband will be sure nothing bad happens to me, and if all else fails the hospital is close to where I am going for the vaccine.

Our work week tends to be stressful and even cause some negative emotions to bubble up. Now that the weekend is so close, it is time to let go of all bad energy and feelings and just enjoy the short weekend. As I get older, I am understanding more and more, we have to do what brings us joy and care much less about what others think of us. As long as we are continuing to be kind, caring, understanding, and fair to others we are doing everything right. I am hoping the quote I am sharing with y’all will help remind you to live your life doing what you love and not trying to impress anyone else!

What do y’all have planned for your weekend? Y’all know I never do anything over the weekend, but you also know I am leaving the house tomorrow! Is it crazy that I am excited to leave the house but nervous about why I am leaving the house? Does anyone reading this post have Multiple Sclerosis, take Gilenya, and have received the COVID vaccine? I know that everyone experiences medication and side effects differently, but it might help relieve my anxiety to hear from someone that can give me a little information about the vaccine.

Thank you for visiting my site today! I really appreciate you continuing to visit and love reading your comments. It might sound silly to some, but I consider all my fellow bloggers friends. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and many positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

~We Made It Through The First Week of 2021~

Happy Friday y’all! I hope y’all had a great week and you are looking forward to the weekend ahead of us! My week has not been awful, but I am looking forward to a quiet and relaxing weekend. This getting up early thing and working at least 9 hours each has been exhausting. It is not any different from normal, but I feeling overly tired this week, and maybe a little stressed. It is possible it has something to do with the weather being so chilly and there still being an obnoxious amount of political drama still. Who would have thought this many weeks after the election there would still be so much non-sense? I almost think it is a little sad that there are this many adult men acting like toddlers.

Life in general can stressful, but work can add more stress. I think there is already enough for us to tolerate and get through, but with COVID still spreading like wildfire and political craziness, we all need a break. Do you ever have days you just want to hide under the covers or bury you head in the sand? I have definitely felt like this lately. I think over this weekend, I am going to try to stay hidden under the covers and just relax quietly by myself!

Now that we made it through this week, it is time to try letting go of any negative emotions the week may have caused. The weekends are so short and it is best to enjoy it the best we can without having it hindered by unsettling feelings. The reason why I chose this quote for today is because we are always going to face the storms of life and all we can do is keep ourselves calm. I hope this quote will offer you some help to let go of things that are weighing on you, but I do look forward to reading your thoughts. I promise to respond as quickly as I can, even if it is over the weekend!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you have a great Friday and a wonderful weekend! Whatever your plans are for the weekend, please just remember to stay safe. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa