Category Archives: Frustration

Resentment, Frustrations, & Pains

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Happy Saturday! I hope you had a good week, but I also hope you can enjoy your weekend! Do you have anything planned for the weekend? One thing I know I must do for my sanity this weekend is to recover from the week and try to forget all the negativity that the week impacted me with. I also know Mother’s Day is tomorrow, so I hope everyone can enjoy celebrating all the mothers out there who gave selflessly and loved unconditionally. Of course, I will not be able to see my mother tomorrow, but I will be sure to remind her how much I appreciate her.

Last week was a little overwhelming and extremely exhausting. Unfortunately, I think many of us get so wrapped up in our everyday lives that we forget some of the simplest things in life. When we get frustrated, it can be easy to forget just how much words hurt. I have said this in another post, but the wounds will heal when we are bruised, but the wounds that words inflict are more powerful and long-lasting. When we forget the way another person feels about a particular situation, and the tears causing another person to shed, they are much more intense and hurtful than almost anything else. Simple apologies can become meaningless, and they do not fix the pain felt. This pain can escalate into increased negative emotions and resentment.

Holding onto feelings of resentment is very unhealthy and can lead to an inability to stop thinking about a specific event or situation. The reoccurring thoughts may linger for days, weeks, months, or even years, and eventually may take over your life. For some people, resentment can begin with disappointment or remorse for something or someone that was lost. Those that battle with resentment may harbor anger and seek revenge, or they might feel that justice was not served for something terrible that occurred. Regardless of why someone feels resentment, it only leads to bitterness and additional anger. These are feelings that do not have a positive outcome and may lead to irrefutable harm.

I know I have fallen into these same patterns in life and get frustrated, and then will say things that I do not mean. Of course, I try to not do things like this, but we are only human, and we make mistakes. I never want to cause anyone any harm with harsh and unkind comments because it will only make matters worse. Words and carelessness cause too much pain and it can be almost impossible to overcome them. The only thing I know to do is avoid talking in the heat of the moment or when I am already past the point of frustration and anger. Sometimes, silence is the best course of action.

How do you handle anger? What is your first reaction when you get upset? Do you find it easier to yell in a fit of rage, or do you walk away from the situation, and ignore how you are feeling? I feel it is better and easier to ignore things and walk away from the situation. I know many will not understand, and some professionals would say this is wrong, but I find it to be the best way for me to survive this insane world. Yes, this does mean that I tend to bottle up my feelings and it does cause something like a volcano eruption at times, but it is not often. I do not like confrontation, but even with that said, I will stand up for myself, those who cannot defend themselves, and for what I believe.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope that even if you do not agree with me, I hope you enjoy what I have shared. I am so thankful for the weekend, but after the past few weeks, I think a little more time to recuperate. If you have struggled with feelings of resentment, how did you overcome this? I am looking forward to reading your comments, and I will respond as quickly as possible! I hope you have a wonderful, and safe weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

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Tranquil Tuesday

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Tuesdays are not too bad, right? This does mean we survived another frustrating and chaotic Monday! How was the first day of the week for you? I cannot say that I can remember a Monday that was so busy, frustrating, and full of nothing besides nonsense! I enjoy days that are busy, but yesterday was something other than just a busy day, and I certainly hope today is better and not even a little like Monday! The saving grace to days like yesterday is a few of my work friends because they do know how to turn the craziness into something a little amusing.

I cannot say the weeks are not way too long, but the truth is, things could always be worse. Another fact is that there will always be those types of people that know how to push our buttons and are trying to get a response. Most of these types of people are wanting us to respond negatively, so they have something to complain about. Now may be the time to try a different approach, to not dignify their distaste with anything and ignore them. Another approach that would really confuse those trying to get a reaction from us is if we respond to them in a kind and compassionate way!

No matter how the week started, at least today is not Monday again! I do not think I could handle another day like yesterday, but I guess we shall see how the day goes. If you could change anything about the weeks, what would you change? I am sure I will regret saying this, but I think it would be great if we could work four 10-hour days and have three days off! Yes, ten hours would be a long day, but I think having three days off would be worth it. Of course, having three days off in a row would be preferred!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed the quote that I shared and it was helpful to read. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope you have a wonderful day and it is not overwhelmingly busy or stressful because I know how terrible that can feel. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Inspirational Wednesday

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We are halfway through this week, which is an amazing accomplishment. I do not know about you, but this week has been very challenging, and exceedingly frustrating. I thought Monday was a difficult day, but my goodness, yesterday was twice as bad. Please do not get me wrong, I am glad my work is getting busier, but it would be nice if people could be a little nicer and more understanding. I am starting to think that is asking too much of people though, which does not make any sense to me, and I do not think it ever will. The good thing is that I do have several people that I can lean on when I get overwhelmed and aggravated enough to cry!

Although we have made it through the first part of this week, we still have the last half to survive! I hope the quote I am sharing provides you with enough inspiration to get you through the next few days. No matter how people will try to portray their lives as perfect, no one has a perfect life. We all have struggles, and it is important to deal with them the best we can. It is crucial to have at least one person you can trust and depend on when you need someone to vent your frustrations to. Trust is a sensitive issue because it can be lost in less than a second, and it may take years, and sometimes not at all to gain back.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you are having a good week and not allowing anyone to steal your sunshine, like I have done this week. I try to believe when another person has an unpleasant attitude, they are just unhappy in their life and it is best to kill them with kindness. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Midweek Thoughts

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Happy Wednesday, y’all! We have made it halfway through this week, which means we are so much closer to the weekend that we all look forward to. I want to stop trying to rush the weeks because life is already extremely short. If we rush the weeks, will that not make life even shorter? I do not know the correct answer to this question. However, something I have noticed is that so many people forget to appreciate the things and people they have in their life. We tend to forget to focus on the great things in life and instead only focus on the negative. Why do we do this? Of course, we all deal with complications in life, but there will ALWAYS be another person that is dealing with something much worse.

Maybe we are dealing with a difficult or frustrating job. The better way to view this is at least we have a job because there are still so many unemployed and struggling. Maybe we are battling with other challenges such as pain, which believe me, I know this awful is, but it could be so much worse. Look at all the people that have lost the ability to walk due to an accident or illness. Are they giving up and surrendering to their challenges, probably NOT! It makes me so sad how selfish and self-absorbed people have become in the world. None of us were promised an easy life, and none of us are owed an easy life.

So many people that I know and care about have struggled with various illnesses, including cancer. Unfortunately, some of these people have already lost their battles. Is this fair? Absolutely, NOT! Would any of these people dwell on this? Absolutely, NOT! I am bringing all of this up in this post because I want to help people see the benefits they have in life and never dwell on any of the terrible things. There is NO point in this because we still have a life we must live. Honestly, I get so frustrated with the thoughts that some people seem to have, which is they are entitled to more. I do not know what makes anyone believe they are entitled to anything.

Although I want to be informed about things in this world, I must try my best to avoid the news. There are so many awful things that happen every day. How many mass shootings have already happened in the United States? Too many! Too many innocent people and children have lost their lives due to gun violence. It is senseless and never should have occurred. Why should children have fears about going to school? Why should parents fear sending their children to school? Why should anyone fear being out at a grocery store or mall? None of these fears should be in our minds. Yes, I do understand too many think it is their right to have a gun, but it is no ones right to kill innocent people! We all have a right to live life without fear!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope what I have shared has resonated with you and I would love the chance to read your comments. What do you think about the way things have been in the world? Do you believe there needs to be massive changes in order for life to be better and if so, what changes? I hope you are having a good week. My week did not start off great and Monday was a terrible day, but it is getting better. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Finally, good NEWS!

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After over two stressful weeks of dealing with my Neurologist’s office and the Gilenya program, I FINALLY got good news late yesterday! Of course, it took me calling Gilenya at least once a day, sometimes more, and speaking to numerous different people all of which continued giving me the runaround. I have never experienced awful customer service as I did with Gilenya, but at least it is over for the next year and my medication is being overnighted to me. Of course, they made me run out of medication, but thanks to the nurse at my Neurologist’s office who also made several phone calls and faxed the prescription several times, all is behind me now.

Does it sound like I am asking for too much? The only thing I was requesting was to get the medication that I need for Multiple Sclerosis shipped to me in a timely manner so that I would not be forced to go without it. This medication is not something that I am wanting, it is something that is a need for my health, to keep the MS under control or at least under control as much as possible. It is not like Gilenya is some kind of recreational drug, so I will never understand why it took so much work for me to get this taken care of. What I have always known is, my cats do not like to see me cry and they have seen me in tears too many times lately.

When medication is required for someone’s health, it should not cause as much stress as Gilenya caused me. There are several things that can cause issues with Multiple Sclerosis to worsen, stress is one of them. Do you know how many other fully developed countries, like the United States, offer free healthcare? As far as I know, the United States is the ONLY fully developed country that charges a ton of money for health insurance and then charges more money for doctor’s appointments and medications. It is the most ridiculous nonsense I have ever heard of. Then these doctors, who I am sure are in the pocket of the pharmaceutical companies wonder why patients are so frustrated and their health fails!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I appreciate the kind words many of you have shared during the past few weeks, while I was dealing with this stress. I hope you are having a good week and you are feeling as well as possible. I do look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Medical Stresses

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The past several weeks have been filled with stress worrying about getting the medication I need for Multiple Sclerosis. I am not sure anymore which one is worse going without the medication, or the stress I have been under because of the medication. I know both could be bad, but the only one that could be detrimental to my health is stress. Plus, stress is terrible for everyone, but even more so for those with Multiple Sclerosis because stress and MS are not friends!  It is not like this is a medication for fun, it is necessary for my health.

With the Gilenya, I am not able to go without it for no more than 7 days, or I would be forced to start the long process again. Of course, since this medication has been helpful with keeping the MS at bay and semi-under control, I do not want to be without it for any length of time. This has been something that I have been on top of for weeks, and cannot understand why the doctor, who is supposed to care about her patients, has not been caring at all. Instead of doing what was needed, my doctor delayed this process for way too long.

I think it might be time to find a new doctor, one that cares about her patients! Doctors take a hypocritical oath. This oath requires a physician to swear upon a number of healing gods that he will uphold a number of professional ethical standards. I think my doctor might need a refresher on what this means because she seems to have forgotten! I do not think I am asking too much, I just want the medication that has been a lifesaver for me. All this does is make me miss my former doctor because he cared and would have already taken care of this.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you had a nice week, and you have a wonderful and safe weekend. For those of you who must deal with doctors, remember how important it is to stay on top of them to ensure your medical needs are met. It is awful how much we must advocate for ourselves when our doctors fail us. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

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I am so happy to finally be able to say, HAPPY Friday, y’all! I hope you have had a good week and your weekend is filled with nothing, but joy and relaxation! When our weeks start to feel longer and we look forward to Friday on Monday morning, the weekend should be spent only doing what we want. I have been feeling a little more fatigued lately, which I assume has something to do with the weather being unpredictable and frustrating. It seems like Mother Nature cannot decide if it is going to be spring, summer, or winter like it should be. I did take a short break from the paper I am writing for the competition but need to get back to it and I hope to do that this weekend!

I always think that Friday being the end of the week, is a good time to let go of any negativity caused by the week. There is NO use for us to carry negative emotions into a weekend that is already too short. People often know how to push our buttons and stir up negativity, but sometimes the best thing to do is to walk away to avoid saying anything you might regret. I think the quote I am sharing today is one of the best pieces of advice anyone could get or give. A long time ago, my husband told me his grandfather would tell him, to keep his mouth shut and his eyes open. This has always stayed in my mind because it was the BEST advice, so when I came across this quote, I had to share it!

What does your weekend have in store for you or are you just going to take it easy? Honestly, I think after a long week, taking it easy and having nothing planned sounds perfect. The medication I must take to keep my Multiple Sclerosis at bay is very costly, if it were not for the Gilenya-Go-Program. I have been dealing with them for over a month and think I finally got things handled yesterday. They claimed they did not receive the fax I sent them last month, so I sent the paperwork via UPS mail, which can take a long time. They finally received my paperwork but said they did not have the information from my doctor. Of course, I was frantic and sent my doctor an email and they “claimed” they would get it faxed. We will see!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and the quote resonates with you. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope you have a wonderful and relaxing weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Sunday Thoughts

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Happy Sunday, y’all! I hope you have been able to enjoy your weekend😊! It is so amazing how short the weekends are, but how quickly the months pass by. It feels like January just began and yet we are more than halfway through the month. Were you able to do anything you wanted to over the weekend? Honestly, I have tried spending the weekend doing nothing. Unfortunately, I have been experiencing the VERY unwelcome. MS Hug again. I am not sure why this MS Hug was not made aware of social distancing because it has gotten WAY too close for me. I have always been uncomfortable when people get too close to me because I appreciate my personal space. I know that it will pass, but it is not passing soon enough. A heating pad helps some and no number of tears make will it go away any faster☹.

Even though things did not go the way I would have hoped the first time I tried, I am considering doing another writing competition. The difference in the one I am thinking about doing is I have a choice to either do a personal essay or I can do an article based on something I have researched. I have always enjoyed researching and think this would be an exciting adventure. The bad part about trying this is that I have always questioned my abilities and never thought that I was good enough. Of course, I also think that if I do not at least try I will always wonder what could have been. Do any of you have any advice or suggestions?

For most people, Sunday is a day to rest and prepare for the week ahead of us. Normally, I try getting laundry done today and anything else I was not able to do during the week. Today, where I live is rainy with a slight chill in the air, but I will still finish the one load of laundry I did not get done yet and relax with the cats on the couch. I am also going to think about writing ideas for the competition that I may or may not participate in. Who am I kidding? I do fully plan to do the competition because if I do not, I will always wonder what might have happened.

What do you think about change? Do you think that in 2023, the world should be more accepting of others and the way they choose to live THEIR lives? Do you think we should have evolved much more than many have? I am not trying to push my views onto anyone else, but I do not think anything should trouble our lives unless it negatively affects our daily lives. It does not affect my life if two people get married out of love, even if they are of the same sex. Another thing that does not affect my daily life is transgender. The United States is SUPPOSED to be a free country and unless we have been lied to for decades, we can all live our lives the way we want, which means we are allowed to love who we love, be whoever we want to be, follow the religion we want and read the bible associated with that religion, and anything else as long as it does not harm another person!

Do you think that our governments tell us the truth? Would it be so hard to believe that we are not being told the truth about things in this world? Why are many of us not being treated fairly and able to have healthcare that is the best for us, which would be free or at least a lot more affordable? Why do so many have to suffer from an illness we are told there is no cure for? Would it be so hard to believe that there are cures for many of the diseases in the world, but only for an extremely HIGH amount? I do believe anything is possible!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and that you are having a good weekend. I know some of what I have written can be a little controversial and some of you may disagree with me, which is completely within your rights. I would love the chance to read your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Life is a Journey

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Life is a journey that is filled with wonderful experiences that we will always treasure and enjoy the memories. Life is not meant to be picture-perfect because we live in the real world. The hard part of facing reality is we are forced to encounter various challenges and struggles. The negative situations we endure and may wish never occurred or desire to alter the outcomes can create a learning experience we should not ignore. These situations do not have to be a permanent roadblock and can provide us with a strength we never knew was possible.

One of the many crucial things to understand is hatred and resentment only hinder us from living a happy and fulfilling life. Of course, there will always be others that cause us pain, sadness, disappointments, frustration, and even anger, but allowing those feelings to control us does not affect the other person as much as it does us. These feelings are poisonous and painfully infectious and are extremely unhealthy and dangerous way.

Many of the things that cause us the most anger and frustration are things we have no control over. If you think about the things that have caused you the most pain or aggravation, are you truly able to change anything besides the way you react? Even if one of the issues that cause you the most anger revolves around politics, we are told if we vote we can correct the issues we are witnessing. Logically, how true is this? Politicians are going to do as they please and have a way to convince voters they have their best interests at heart, but they have their own interests above anything else.

Volatile situations we encounter in our daily lives can create a sense of powerlessness and helplessness. We need to be able to determine the things that we do have control over and focus on those things and move past what we cannot control because they will suffocate us in the long run. Wasting time trying to change something we never had any control over is wasting precious time as life is short.

Once we understand what we can control, we might be able to make a difference in our lives and those around us. Things take time, patience, and pure determination. It is important to not give up if we fail on the first try but stand back up, dust ourselves off, try again, and learn from past experiences. The only true failure is giving up on what we can accomplish. We are powerful and can accomplish anything we set our minds to!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed this post, and it made you understand what you are capable of! I hope you are having a nice relaxing weekend. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Saturday Thoughts

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Today is Saturday, which I have been waiting for since Monday. How was your week? My week was rather long, and I am still adjusting to the cooler temperatures. Last week, I was unable to do a post on Monday due to the leftover migraine issues from Sunday and I also did not do a post yesterday, which was due to my lack of energy. I have had several ideas in mind of things I want to write about, and I am hoping to be able to do so this weekend as I do not have anything else pressing that I need to do besides laundry😊!

How do you enjoy spending your weekend after a long week? I would have preferred to sleep in longer this morning, but our older cat, Sundance had a different plan. Sundance did not think it was a good plan to let me fall asleep last night and kept walking on me and from what I guess trying to play. He drove me crazy for over an hour last night when I was trying to sleep, which almost caused me to just get up at 2:00 AM☹. He started again at 6:30 AM with the same shenanigans. I think overall, last night I think I was able to sleep for about five hours! It is a good thing I love our cats 😊as much as I do, or I would have been much more frustrated.

Next week is Thanksgiving (which I will talk about in another post), so I will only have to work four days, instead of five. I always say this and stand by it, but the shorter weeks always seem much longer. Honestly, last week things were a little slower at work so it is possible next week will be the same. I tried last week to help a newer person understand the work more clearly, which was honestly a little frustrating because I do not understand her miscomprehension. There are things about this person that I do not like, which is mostly due to her political views and something she said to me about it, but I was trying to ignore all of that. I know how unprofessional it is to discuss politics at work and tried to change the subject when she brought it up.

Over the years, I have realized how much common sense is lacking at least in the United States. It seems many do not know what common sense is anymore and it is not something that can be taught. I do not understand where it went or if people ever had common sense, to begin with, but it is easy to understand if people could just try! Common sense is simply just a practical judgment concerning everyday matters, or a basic ability to perceive, understand, and judge in a manner that is shared by most people. Sounds easy, right? I think politics has made people lose their ability to think for themselves and have even a smaller amount of common sense!

Are there certain things that you hold onto because you believe strongly in them? Do you find that people that disagree with you will try to change the way you feel? The most important thing that I hold dear is treating people fairly. I do not care about unimportant things, such as the color of someone’s skin, who they love, where a person is from, or anything else that is superficial and does not matter. I think that a person shows their true colors in their treatment of other living human beings! I think that letting go of anger and resentment over things you never had any control over is very important in life because when we hate, it only diminishes the light in our lives. Why let another person have that much hold over you in your life when you cannot change anything that has happened? I have a lot more to say about this, but it will be in another post as this one is getting a little too long.

Thank you for visiting my site today and reading this post. I hope you are enjoying your weekend and doing things that bring you joy! I know there are things in this post that many will disagree with, and that is completely understandable, and your personal right. Regardless of if you agree or disagree with things I have said in this post, I would love to read your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa