Thoughtful Tuesday

Posted on May 7, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Tuesday! I hope you are having a good week so far, and your week will get even better each day. I have mentioned before that I dread going to a dentist, and I know it is an irrational fear, but I have felt the same even for minor visits. I typically avoid going to the dentist until I do not have a choice, and today, unfortunately, I must go to the dentist. While simply brushing my teeth on Sunday, one of my teeth on the bottom broke. Thankfully, I am not in pain, or maybe I have a higher-than-normal tolerance for pain, but at this point, the only problem is the tooth broke, and there is an annoying sharp point on my tooth. I hope the dentist can do something simple to fix the issue, and once I am employed again, I can do a crown or whatever else she thinks should be done. I know I am being irrational because I do not enjoy going to get a typical cleaning, but these people always find something else they think I should do. If they were paying for everything they think should be done, I may feel differently. In my defense, the problems with my teeth are not because of anything I did, but because of the massive amounts of steroids I had to take due to a relapse.

I received an intriguing phone call yesterday from our veterinarian, which caught me off guard. They know how hard I took it when we lost Sundance, and I was unsure when or if we would get another cat because I did not want to go through that terrible loss again. I might have mentioned when I went there to donate the food we purchased for Sundance’s special diet because our cats had no interest in the food and something about wanting a bunny and maybe someday a kitten. Okay, that is not true because I know I did😊! Anyway, one of the kind ladies at the front desk called me to let me know someone had dropped off a kitten to them they had found and wanted to be sure the poor baby had a good home, and she wanted to see if I would be interested. Honestly, I might be more inclined to say yes if it was a boy because we already have two girls, and I do not think they would appreciate another female, and I do not think I could convince my husband to get the kitten. In a way, I think it was a compliment because she knows me and that I would provide this kitten a good home, but at the same time, I am not even sure I am ready for another kitten right now because it might be too soon.

I am excited that my class will begin in less than two weeks. I have been looking forward to this since I enrolled in the class, and the wait has felt like a year. I have purchased my books, and everything needed, which would have been much more challenging if it were not for the help of my mother and her husband. They graciously helped pay for the expensive books and will be forever thankful. All I must do now is pass the class and the state exam. Considering I understand the basics of the class and not working, I do not think I will have any issues accomplishing this, but I know I will still be extra hard on myself. One of my biggest problems is that I never think I am smart or good enough, so hopefully, after passing everything I need to pass, I will be more confident.

How do you find ways to stay inspired when you have always been your worst critic and many things have gone wrong? It can be challenging, but the only thing we have control over is how we react to issues in life. Often, we must inspire ourselves to keep pushing forward and refuse to give up. Before we can be inspiring, we must learn to believe in who we are and our many strengths. We do not have to lead anyone else, but many will follow our lead if we display strength, courage, determination, and resilience. I will admit that believing in my abilities is something I struggle with and continue to learn, but I can promise I will never give up and know someday, things will go the right way. The moment we give up and surrender is the moment we fail ourselves. We should always strive to be better than we were yesterday and realize the strength it has taken us to get to where we are today because we have all gone through hard times.

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you are doing well and feeling the best you can. What do you think about the kitten idea? My husband did not say “NO” right away, so maybe he is considering the idea. There is no telling because he was starting work about fifteen minutes before I mentioned it to him, and he might come to his senses. The unfortunate thing is, I love animals and would take more in if I was given the green light🚦 to do so! I have several weaknesses, but my love for animals is not too bad, is it? I look forward to your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Motivational Monday

Posted on April 29, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Another weekend has ended, but I hope you enjoyed every minute. Hopefully, you created found and lasting memories. At the beginning of a new week, you must decide to embrace and tackle your goals. Each week offers a fresh start to try again without dwelling on anything not accomplished. Goals from last week do not matter because that was then, and this is now. Think only about what you want to achieve this week and focus solely on those goals. I am still searching for a job, but my focus is on my class starting in three weeks. Once I complete the class and become certified, finding a job will be much easier, and things will work out for the best. This afternoon, I will be going to a follow-up appointment with my pain doctor. These appointments always go the same way. Nothing has changed in the past three months and will not change, so I get the excitement of a miserable drive on the most obnoxious interstate with way too much road construction. Some enjoy driving, but I am sure even those who do would despise this road. For someone like me who hates driving, it is the worst way to spend three hours total driving to the appointment and back home.

Last week, I decided to involve myself with positive affirmations because we must strive for more positivity and less negativity throughout life. We can try doing this daily, which might seem like a lot to do, or once a week, whatever works best for you. Today, I will share five positive affirmations I will focus on this week and why they are critical to me. I am doing this because the affirmations I choose will help me become more positive and motivated for success. Trying to adapt to not having a full-time job and relying on others is challenging because I am a very independent person, and finding ways to be positive during a relatively negative time is crucial for my mental health. I am sharing my five affirmations separately so I can explain the importance of each. Please note, that these are not in order of importance because I feel they are all important😊!

I accept my imperfections. I think imperfections create who we are without filters. When we can acknowledge and accept our imperfections, they can provide us with more strength, courage, and resilience. Many try pretending their life is perfect and without any imperfections, but this behavior is a facade and only displays weakness. Of course, my many imperfections do not define me, but they are a part of what makes me who I am.

I heal and strengthen daily. Life has knocked me down many times, and some of those knockdowns were more vicious than others. No matter how vicious and challenging getting knocked down was, I will never surrender and always get back standing straight. Challenges, disappointments, and times of suffering can either make or break you. We can choose which to go with, and I decide that they will make me because I know I get stronger every time.

I trust my inner wisdom will guide me. We should listen to our inner voice because it will lead us in the right direction. Throughout our lives, we are constantly learning lessons, and they will remain in our thoughts so we can make better decisions. I have learned that my initial thoughts about any given situation are the correct way because the more I overthink something, the higher the chances are my decision will be the wrong way to go.

I can forgive myself. During life, we will make bad decisions, and something goes wrong. We might cause another person emotional pain, or we do something that causes us long-term issues, but we are only human, and mistakes will be made. We must learn from these experiences and not be hard on ourselves and beat ourselves up about a mistake made. If we cannot forgive ourselves, why would we expect anyone else to be forgiving?

I am not pushed by my problems, but I am encouraged by my goals. This is something important to me because I let the negative aspects of my life control what my future looked like. I experienced several losses over the past few months, and it was painfully challenging. I could not see a clear and bright way forward. Although it took me several months, I can finally see a bright and encouraging future ahead, it just takes determination, patience, and resilience.

I would also like to share a quote with you that I found motivating and hope you will too. We should fill our thoughts (cup) with positive and motivating thoughts daily instead of thinking things are going wrong. Yes, we will face challenges and everything we want will not go according to plan, but in time everything will work out for the best. We might not have control over every aspect of our lives, but we can control our thoughts and how we want to deal with life in general. We can decide to be happy and positive, or we can decide to be miserable and negative. Seems like an easy decision.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed my five positive affirmations and the quote I shared. I am not going to pressure anyone, but I would love to know if you can think of any positive affirmations for yourself. If you do not want to share, that is okay, and you are entitled to your privacy. I hope you had a wonderful weekend and have an amazing week. Please never forget I am always sending you LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes.

Always, Alyssa

Positive Affirmations Monday

Posted on April 22, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Good day, and welcome to the beginning of a new week😊! Our views of Monday set the tone for the entire week, so we must try not to oppose Monday because it will never change and will return. Our views of Monday are simply a matter of perspective, and we should try to embrace it. Each day, including Monday, is just another day in our journey in life. Even though it was short, we had an opportunity to enjoy a weekend, and hopefully, you could take advantage of each day! My post on Mondays used to be “Motivational Monday”, and can be viewed similarly, but there is a slight change. I want to help everyone, myself included, make positive affirmations. Everyone can start this on Monday to set the tone for your week, or you can try doing this daily and hope it makes a positive change in life. There are many fabulous things about this and explain what they are and a few ways to get started.

First, positive affirmations are phrases we can repeat to ourselves, describing how we want to be. They can help us through challenging situations and negative thinking. Positive affirmations can help us to improve our mental health and our overall well-being and overcome depression, anxiety, and any other challenges we face. These only need to be straightforward statements we utilize to accomplish goals, overcome negative thoughts, and improve self-confidence. Positive affirmations can also reduce stress and encourage motivation. We only need to discover a routine that works best for our lives. We can start this slowly and gradually, such as at the beginning of the week. You can add additional affirmations daily or more days. If you feel comfortable and ready, you can jump right in and do this daily.

Today, I am going to think of three positive affirmations. Feel free to share yours if you feel comfortable, but I will not pressure you to participate. I decided to do this because it has been a challenging year, and I have allowed myself to get discouraged, which is not how I typically think. Even though I know things will work out, the job search has been very difficult and discouraging. My list is not in any specific order, but all three are what I will focus on this week. 1. I am optimistic because today is a new day. 2. I have encountered challenges, but overcoming them has made me more resilient. 3. I am turning DOWN the volume of negativity and turning UP the volume of positivity. If you decide to participate, you can repeat your affirmations to yourself several times a day, write them on a sticky note, and place them where you will see them, or you can write your affirmations several times so they will stick in your mind!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed my new type of post for Monday and that this helps you begin your week with the most positivity and motivation. I look forward to reading your comments or positive affirmations. I will be responding to all comments as quickly as possible. Please let me know if this kind of post using positive affirmations brings any additional positivity to your day and if you want me to continue doing this with you. Whether I continue doing this on my blog or not, I will continue to journal about positive affirmations. I hope you enjoyed your weekend and are ready to tackle this week with determination and dedication. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Pick-Me-Up Friday Eve

Posted on April 18, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Friday Eve😊! I hope your week is going well and you have not encountered anything that discouraged you because you deserve better than that. I understand life can feel overly complicated, but no matter what happens, you can overcome anything and succeed with what you want. None of the struggles you experienced during this week will end, and you will move forward to better things. It might not seem that way right now because you might still be struggling with the emotional after-effects, but please remember nothing lasts forever. Although in the challenging moment of your struggle, it seems like it will never improve your situation will be at the perfect time, and you will find the brightness in life again. Next time you talk with someone in the thick of their struggle, try passing this message along, and it offers them a life-changing concept.

The week is almost over, and everyone can hopefully enjoy the weekend soon. Trust me when I say I understand how challenging the weeks can be. If we are not dealing with something in our personal lives, we hear insanity on the news. Anytime you decide to watch any news segment, that alone can be discouraging and upsetting. This is the reason why I do my best to avoid the news. I never watch the news willingly, but rather partially listen when my husband has it on. Considering it was another difficult week, we could all benefit from a pick-me-up quote. I hope you find as much meaning in the quote I am sharing as I did. For me, this quote speaks volumes because anytime something in our lives ends, something better could be around the corner, and now that we are free from what has ended, we have the necessary time to embrace something new and incredible.

Too often, we can get discouraged when something in our life does not go according to our plans, and we want to give up. We are all only human, and it is easy to become discouraged, which takes a great deal of strength to push forward, but we can do this. It helps when we have someone in our corner and supporting and encouraging us because, without that, many do not know how to continue. People might get lost in their disappointments and forget they can accomplish anything, but only if they push themselves further. Without trying and carrying on with life, how would anyone accomplish anything? If people stop trying and making changes to their lives, no one will ever accomplish anything, and we will all be stuck. It takes a lot of strength, determination, and power of pure will accomplish anything worth it in life, so I never give up on your dreams, and things will work out in time!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I shared, and it has provided you with everything needed to get through the rest of this week. Never allow something to discourage you from anything you know in your heart you can conquer. Think about everything you have already overcome in life and let that prove what you can do. You are the only person who gets in your way and hinders your success. I am looking forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Mid Week Inspiration

Posted on April 17, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Wednesday and making it halfway through another week! How has your week been so far? It seems to have been a crazy week. I mentioned Monday was the beginning of the former president of the United States criminal trial, and I am sure even though something should come out of it, the trial will amount to nothing. I am not sure why I am surprised anyone in powerful positions can get away with doing illegal things, but I do not foresee any changes. Monday was also the final day to complete taxes in the United States, and it was another miserable and stressful experience, but it is a yearly issue in the country. I would not mind paying as much taxes as we all must pay if the money was going towards something helpful for American citizens, but the money is not helping anyone. Yesterday, I completed the final exam for the Anatomy & Physiology class, and I am happy to report I got an A! The only thing I can do now is practice patience with the job search and the start of the next class on May 20th.

At the halfway through the week point, knowing we still have the second half to get through, I think it is a perfect time to share an inspiring quote. Without being able to remain inspired, encouraged, and optimistic, the negativity that occurs in the world can destroy our mental stability. If we cannot admit we are wrong, apologize when we have done something we should not have, forgive those we should forgive, love deeply, and live life without regrets, we are not living a fulfilling life. It is easy to hold a grudge against someone who has caused us pain, but forgiving their wrongs and letting go of the hard feelings will only make us happier. We do not forgive others for their sake; it is only for ours. Showing kindness, respect, love, and support is better for everyone involved and creates more harmony and happiness!

It may be easy to be critical of yourself, but does that help you succeed in life? I will admit that I have always been very critical of anything and everything I do, but I know I am hindering my success, which will never be a good thing. Being your worst critic will never help you to overcome things you find challenging, but if you can acknowledge what you need to improve on and work towards change, you will be a better and stronger person. If we were as critical towards another person as we are towards ourselves, how would that make that person feel? It would probably destroy any of their self-confidence and cause them emotional distress. Anyone who criticizes themselves should start trying to say one good thing about themselves each day and see if that improves their confidence and mental well-being.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I shared and found the quote inspiring. We have survived the most challenging part of the week, so the final part should be easy, especially getting through the tax hardships. I look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. I hope everyone is adjusting to the weather well and doing what you must do to deal with Mother Nature’s changes. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Thoughts of Life Tuesday

Posted on April 9, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Life can become increasingly and overwhelmingly challenging without any notice or warning signs. These feelings can leave you wondering where your well-planned life disappeared because nothing that is going on was part of your plan. Understanding change is necessary and scary, but the changes witnessed never should have occurred as they did not benefit anyone and only caused pain. The tragic losses you wanted to avoid but could not fix the problems were harsh. How many hard times does one have to endure before they have had enough or crack from stress and heartache? Are they supposed to grin and bear it and pretend everything is, okay? How do you move on while still picking pieces from a broken feeling? Even when they are our pets, they are family, and seeing them suffer until their final breath is heartbreaking and tragic. Watching the difficulties and suffering of a loved one unfold before your eyes, but accepting the limitations of what you can do is nearly as painful as a loss. Challenging situations require us to dig a little deeper for the strength we already have, but learning to utilize this strength takes courage and determination.

No matter what we go through in this life, never forget someone else is going through something far worse. This was some of the best advice my late grandfather gave me years ago when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Of course, we can curl up in a ball, turn off everything on the outside, and feel sorry for ourselves, but that will never help anyone and could make matters much worse. When times feel impossible, and you cannot see a way out, do not surrender to the challenges and fight back twice as hard. It is clear that good and easy times do not last forever, but the same is true for bad times. Nothing lasts forever. The truth is, there cannot be love without hate, there cannot be light without darkness, and there will never be good without evil, but we can appreciate love, light, and good when it is in front of us.

As far as we know, we only get one chance at this life and must make the best of it. There is no proof that we will be reincarnated and have a chance to redo life, so we should not waste time on issues that do not matter. We should not try correcting the situations we cannot control because that wastes time and energy. We can control our actions and how we treat others, but nothing else. We do not want our legacy to be someone who mistreats others, is selfish, careless, heartless, or anything else that is a negative way. We should always try to leave a positive mark on the world and hope that positivity will spread and inspire others. Many kind and loving people will not be acknowledged, as the news only shares the terrible things that occur and makes it hard to remember that not everyone is evil. This is not a proven statistic, but for every evil person in the world, there must be a good person! Of course, this is what I hope for!

Thank you for visiting my site today. The purpose of this post was to help everyone understand that no matter what you are going through in life, there is always something that can inspire you and help you get to the other side. It was not supposed to be negative, but I hope you found the true meaning, and something in this post helped you understand no matter the struggles, life can be beautiful, but it might just take a little extra time. If anyone ever said life was easy, I believe they were lying or fooling themselves because nothing about life is easy, but we get stronger daily. I would love to know your thoughts about this post because anything you say will be enlightening. I will respond as quickly as possible, but it might take a few days to respond as I have been battling with headaches this week. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS❤️ of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

Posted on April 5, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Let It Go Friday! I hope you had a wonderful week, and the weekend is everything you hoped for. The weeks are always the same for me, but I hope they will change soon. I look for jobs daily and do schoolwork. I am looking forward to the next class I will be starting in May, but I know I can work and handle the class at the same time. It is crazy how difficult the job search has been, but I guess there must be a reason it is taking so long. I have chatted online with the instructor from the medical coding class I took in January, which I have enjoyed because I think she is a great person. It helps that I know she loves animals, but I cannot understand anyone if they do not have a love for animals because they are all sweet and innocent😊! It says a lot about someone when you can build a connection with them and never meet them in person.

Stress is challenging enough by itself, but adding another condition like Multiple Sclerosis intensifies both issues to a great extent. First, the two cannot get along well and are more like oil and vinegar than anything else. Stress causes everyone to experience terrible side effects, and I know what stress does to me, living with Multiple Sclerosis. Unfortunately, sometimes, stress is unavoidable and comes out of nowhere. It can be something that someone else seems easy to tolerate, but the same situation for me can be completely different and spiral out of control. I do my best to avoid confrontation because I know what it does to my emotional well-being, so I am thankful my husband and I do not argue, which could be because I will avoid the situation for as long as possible. Typically, there is only one thing I struggle to ignore, but I still try. Of course, one day if the same thing comes up at the wrong time, there is a chance I will erupt with frustration.

Do you think ignoring a frustrating situation is a way to avoid a stressful situation? Logically, I know ignoring something only delays the inevitable, which would be to face the issue. I try to never go to bed angry or in a negative mood, but the other night, I went to bed in a terrible mood and woke up feeling the same way. I am unsure what caused the negative feelings, but they would not dissipate, which was super annoying! I know I cannot hide the way I feel because it is always written all over my face, so I guess I should never try going to Vegas to gamble because my cards would show on the expression on my face. It is so obvious I think even my cats know how I am feeling and what I am thinking.

Everyone deals with stress, but we all cope with it differently. Some people might enjoy getting lost in a good book. Others might find journaling helpful to release stressful feelings. Maybe some need to do something physical to get those emotions to lessen. Yesterday, I loaded the car with several boxes that had been in our dining room for donations. I think there were about eight boxes, some were heavier than others, but I managed to get them all loaded. This activity did help my stress some, but it did, of course, cause my back and legs to hurt. I am used to these types of pain, so it was nothing new, just a little more intense. I do have another task I want to do that will be time-consuming and a great stress reliever. I will organize some of our closets and will create more donation boxes. You could probably call this some mild spring cleaning😊!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you enjoyed what I shared today, and I look forward to reading what you thought. If I have learned anything in this life it is that we must hold onto determination and perseverance because they are the things that will keep us moving forward. I know it is hard, but do not get caught up in the never-ending political nonsense going on in the country because it is crucial to keep things in perspective. There is not much we can do to change the situation, but focusing on this too much can be detrimental and unnecessary. I hope you have a wonderful and relaxing weekend and let go of any negative emotions😬 you have felt during the week, and you can enjoy the weekend as much as possible! Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS❤️ of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Stay True Tuesday!

Posted on March 26, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Tuesday😊! I hope your week started great, and each day will get better! I spent too many days stressing about the additional blood work results from my neurologist because I was being advised that my white blood cell count was far lower than they had expected, even though it is a common issue with the medication I must take. I have always believed that I must be an advocate for my body because I know it better than anyone else, including well-educated doctors. I did not need any blood tests to let me know the medicine was doing what it was supposed to be doing and it was not causing issues requiring other medications or changing medications. After numerous messages to my neurologist’s office, I finally received notification that the blood test came back showing there was NO new activity from Multiple Sclerosis. I will never understand why there had to be so much nonsense and stress added to my mind, especially because they should know what stress can cause!

I have never been a person who likes confrontation, but I am slightly frustrated about the way the situation and how she mishandled it. I think anyone who works in a practice dedicated to Multiple Sclerosis should have a better understanding of the condition, medications, and side effects from the medications and not jump to conclusions to pressure someone to take other unnecessary medications. The medication the nurse practitioner ordered and told me I should start taking had some unpleasant side effects. She was also aware I was not willing to change the medication I was taking for Multiple Sclerosis because I felt strong it was helping keep my illness at bay, so to try explaining to me I would either need to try the medication with the negative side effects or change medications was ridiculous! I am sure it is obvious that I am aggravated and have considered looking for a new specialist, which might be my frustration.

I plan to complete my Anatomy & Physiology class within a few weeks and hope to find a job as well, but I will be starting another class in May. The class starting in May will enable me to take the certification test and become a certified medical coder! Yes, it will be a few months, but time will pass no matter what, so furthering my education will not be a mistake. I know I can balance the class and any job due to my sheer determination and motivation! I have more good news as well! I should be able to get a grant to cover the costs of the medical coding class. I will have to pay for books, the certification exam, and a membership fee, but at least I will not have to come up with more money for another class😊!

We all face challenges in life, but we must remember there is nothing that can stop us from achieving our goals. Many things may try to stop us from success, but only if we let them. At the end of the day, there is only one person who can stop us, and that is the reflection we see in the mirror daily. There will always be times when we must advocate for ourselves, especially with doctors, so NEVER forget you know your body better than anyone else! You know what you have already overcome in life, but you know what you are capable of, so NEVER let anyone or anything get in your way! Stand up for what you want and what is best, and NEVER back down.

There has been a lot going on in this post, but I hope you found what I shared motivating and inspiring. I might have been all over the place because I had a lot I wanted to share. It has been challenging to post daily because of things that should not be an issue, but I wanted to share a little about what has been happening lately. It surprises me how much age can change our focus and levels of fatigue, but my goodness, age is evil. I am making myself sound like I am 80, which I do feel was often, but I am far from that age. I think it is safe to blame Multiple Sclerosis and stress for how unfocused and tired I have been lately, but maybe it is something else.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed this post, and it provided you with positivity. I look forward to reading your thoughts and will respond as quickly as possible. I feel like I have gotten to know many of you over the years from the communications we have had, and I have enjoyed this! I do not leave my house often, so it is great to have interactions with you! I hope you have an amazing day with as little stress as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Sunday Thoughts

Posted on March 24, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Good afternoon and another day when Mother Nature forgot to take her meds😉! I realize it is Spring but, the weather continues to change drastically to what appears to be by the minute. Today, there will be a high of around 60 degrees, but next week will range from 50 degrees to almost 80 degrees. Besides how warm it can get, it rains way too much where I live. The city I live in appears to idolize Seattle and tries to be as much like that area of the country as possible, which I do not enjoy. I do not know about anyone else, but the rain causes my pain to intensify. The weekend is not over yet, and several hours remain to do something enjoyable😊! How has your weekend been so far?

I know I mentioned before one of the classes I was taking was over, and I got an A in the class, but I still had two other classes. I am happy to say another class is complete, and once again, I got an A😊! The final class I need to complete is Anatomy & Physiology, and I hope to have it finished with another A in the next couple of weeks! The medical coding class I already finished was not enough to be able to become a certified coder, so I am working on pursuing the class that will enable me to do so! Of course, the class is longer, but I think I could still work (once I get a job) and do the class because I already have the basics down!

Since losing our cat, Sundance, we have missed him daily. There is not a minute that passes during the day when the memories of him do not arise, but I still find myself feeling at fault for his passing♥. I tortured myself after Chloe passed away with the same guilt because I felt I should be able to care for the precious cats and never let anything happen to them. I know I am not God and cannot control or fix everything, but this does weigh on my mind and heart. I will never understand why certain things happen during our lives and why loving animals must be taken away from us. How is it possible they have fulfilled their purpose in the world when they still have people missing and needing them?

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing day! Some days, we need to try putting our needs ahead of anything else because WE matter! Many of us spend our time taking care of others, which can cause us to neglect ourselves. I am very guilty of this, but it has always been in my nature. Today, I am going to attempt to finish another chapter in the A&P class because I am trying to finish it before the other Medical Coding class starts in May or when I finally get a job! I have many goals and I am trying to complete as many as I can! Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Friday Eve

Posted on March 21, 2024 by Positively Alyssa

Happy Friday Eve! I hope y’all have had a good week and things are going how you want them to😊! Everything is the same for me, and I am trying to figure life out. Trying to understand and figure life out seems like an endless road with no ending. Each day, I spend time on the classes I am taking and continue to search for a job. One of the classes is ending soon, and the class has been easy, so I have not had to spend too much time studying. The class that will be remaining is not difficult, and there is a lot of interesting information involved, so it is rather time-consuming. If I could, I would try to take more classes because I have enjoyed how much I have learned, but I am not sure it is something I can afford.

Considering it is still March, which is Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month, let’s talk a little about this unpredictable and frustrating illness. There are many challenges involved with this illness, and even though I would rather not endure it, many of the difficulties are tolerable. One of many things I wish would disappear is the never-ending pain. From the moment I get up in the morning, my entire body has unrelenting pain. It does not happen daily, but there have been days when it took more effort to move. Is this aggravating and frustrating? Absolutely! Do I get up in time and carry on with my day? Absolutely!! Do I want to surrender to this illness and stop fighting a battle I may never win? Absolutely, but I refuse to let this illness dictate my life and control me in any way!

Fatigue and an inability to sleep long and well enough can be extremely obnoxious! I know how critical it is for everyone to get enough sleep, especially when you have an illness that takes up all your energy, but I am never able to sleep enough! I could go to bed at a reasonable time, but I still wake up between 7:00 and 7:30 AM! This time was instilled in me when I was working because my schedule was normal, and I could not get it out of my system. My husband was teasing me the other day and said I could go to bed at 6:45 AM and still get up at the same time. I might not tell him this, but he might be correct! I am assuming one reason I have a hard time sleeping is due to the neuropathy that seems to become more intense at night.

Worrying about the results of tests the neurologist orders and understanding the risks involved with the medication I must take can become overly stressful. I realize stress is one of the worst things to do because stress can induce a relapse. Thankfully, even though I have experienced several stressful times recently, I have not had a relapse. Yes, my pain has been nearly unbearable, but that is expected for my life. Accepting an illness without a cure to be part of my reality is not easy because I need things to make sense, and nothing about this illness makes sense!

With any illness a person must endure, you often need to be good at planning because there are many times the first plan will not work out, and you need a backup plan and even a backup plan for your backup plan. Of course, I have always been a planner, so it is nothing new for me to plan. In my mind, I always have several plans for the same event, just in case something goes wrong. Some people might think this is insanity, but it has been in my nature long before the MS was.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you found what I shared helpful. Life is short and there is no use dwelling on the things that are wrong with our lives, and we should try to find ways to survive life. Nothing is impossible, so we can accomplish anything we want to, but it might take a little extra effort. I look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!