Never Giving Up!

When Life Gets BusyTo simply say that my life has been busy lately and it has very hard to make the necessary time to do what I enjoy is a poor excuse and a HUGE  understatement! Moving to a new city and starting a new job has been exciting, but also VERY overwhelming. I honestly haven’t worked a full-time job in a while because of the constant pain and other issues I struggle with daily, but I have been doing just that for one month now! Yes, the pain has been difficult to deal with, but at the same time I am actually enjoying the job so I just accept the pain for what it is and I don’t dwell over it. I feel that my job helps those that are struggle with making ends means, but they want to improve their lives. In my personal opinion, people who struggle with life but do what is necessary to provide for themselves and their families are pretty amazing and admirable. There are so many that just give up because they feel helpless and feel as there isn’t anything they can do to improve their lives, which this just isn’t true! It may not dc-may18-600seem like it, but I do believe that we can all accomplish ANYTHING we set our minds to!

Like I have said already, I am pushing myself to work a full-time job and lately with the weather change hasn’t been easy at all! Even though my body is on overdrive and going a little haywire, I know things will improve in time it just takes patients, which I tend to lack. It doesn’t matter if the temperature changes from hot to cold or cold to hot, I still react the same way, NOT WELL! It still seems a little crazy to me that I feel horrible when anything goes on with the weather, even just rain. For the first few weeks of every season, I just feel like I was hit by a truck and the mean driver backed over me just for some added fun! You would think that after living with Multiple Sclerosis for almost 19 years I would be immune to these issues or at least be able to tolerate them better, but honestly it is always produces the same troubles!

878da42dde1a95a17c88e6759c5fbcf1I hate that I have been a little MIA for weeks now, but the life changes has been a struggle for me. I still need to find a MS Specialist near me, so when I do have issues, which hopefully I won’t, I will have a doctor to contact. It would be terrible to drive 2 hours back to the doctor I couldn’t care less for, but that might be my only choice for short-term, we will see. We did find a vet for our cats to go to that is really close to our house. Only one of our cats really needs a vet due to his asthma. A lady I work with said she has a great dentist, so I might need to check them out. It isn’t any fun starting all over again with doctors, but maybe it is actually a good thing and I will find better doctors that I mesh well with. I don’t think I am a difficult patient, but I need to feel like the doctor I see, no matter what type they are have required knowledge and the MS Specialist needs to be compassionate. Do you think I am asking too much and I am a little difficult? Of course I want the MS doctor to be honest, but not too harsh like my current one. All doctors should have good side manner, which seems to be hard to find!

daily-fitness-motivation-keep-pushing-your-limits-when-you-accomplish-your-goals-set-new-onesIt feels like it has been WAY too long since I have actually been able to write a post from the ❤ heart ❤ when I wasn’t too exhausted. It is really shocking how difficult it is to work full-time. It seems like there are too many hours away from home relaxing and enjoying life by working, but I guess we all make sacrifices and at least I like what I am doing! I am still continuing to learn and have more responsibilities, which I ❤ LOVE! If I am forced to work, I much prefer to stay busy and be challenged!

I hope y’all are having a great weekend! It is sunny, windy and a little chilly where I am, but it isn’t as bad as yesterday. It really seems that the seasons changed over night. We went from the high 80’s to low 50’s in just a few hours, that might be exaggerating a little, but that is how it seemed! I hope y’all are able to do anything and everything that brings you joy this weekend! Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I will respond to any comments as quickly as I can!! I promise I am working on getting back into blogging again, it is just taking longer than I would have expected. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

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Two weeks has past!

Time-for-an-UpdateGood evening y’all! It is incredibly hard to believe that it has already been two weeks since my husband and I uprooted our lives by moving to a new state and city! Two weeks ago when we made this change I was terrified about the decision we had made, but now I couldn’t be happier we made this fabulous move! I think the new city and my new job have done so much for the sanity I still had left and my massive stress-levels. The new city is a little smaller than where we were living and so far the people are a lot nicer.

My new job has so far been absolutely amazing and the people are SO very kind, which is a huge change for me. I mean don’t get me wrong, there were a few people at the old job that were great, but the bad definitely out-weighed the good there. My new boss is an older man who stays very busy with good things comenumerous meetings and tasks, but when he is in the office he is super kind and willing to answer any questions I might have. So far, my job has been very interesting! I have been learning about what my job entails and how to maintain a schedule for the VP of Finance. There is so much more to this job that I am very excited to learn. I am thrilled that I am going to be traveling with a co-worker for a week of training out of the state. This training will make me become a Certified Housing Counselor. I am looking forward to the chance to build relationships with the home buyers and feel that I will be able to offer a lot of compassion and understanding during a stressful time for them.

I work with so many incredibly nice and understanding people. Of course they only have one name to remember, where I have about 20. Thankfully, everyone is extremely understanding when I have to ask their name again, which has really only happened once or twice. empathy

The moving process was stressful and a lot of hard work, which caused me a great deal of fatigue and pain. I wasn’t the best with resting because I just wanted everything done and organized immediately, which is impossible. It has only been recently I decided that we have plenty of time to get things situated in the new home. There doesn’t need to be a rush on things because thankfully time is on our side with the new house. The only thing that is important  and time sensitive is we MUST get our old home ready to be sold and hopefully sold sooner than later! I look forward to the day we get a phone call saying we have an offer on the house! I am logical enough to understand it will take time before the townhouse actually sells.

As y’all already know, I am trying to find my way to continue blogging because I really do love it, while working a full-time job, which I haven’t done in a long time. This process is afinding-my-way-text-893x1024 trial and error situation, but I am determined to make this happen! I know many people probably will never not fully understand this, but I find writing and blogging a great way to reduce any stress I am feeling. I think most of y’all already know that I battle with stress issues, but I am working to improve this. I think being a walking/talking stress case for 37 years is long enough and now it is time to change my ways.

I do believe that my new job is improving my stress because it is a wonderful place to work. Please know, I am working on getting caught up with reading and commenting on your posts, while also working on my own blogging thoughts. I appreciate all the encouraging words y’all have shared with me over the past weeks and I am looking 6a014e601f2a5b970c014e887a4cfb970d-600wiforward to getting back to a semi-schedule with my site.

I hope y’all have had a great day and I really hope you are feeling well. I am honestly struggling with some pain issues at the moment, but it is possible it is due to the rainy weather☔. I know it is going to be rainy for a few days with the hurricane heading towards Florida and even though I am a few states away from Florida, we are still expecting a lot of rain🌧. My body doesn’t appreciate or tolerate rain very well, but I am going to keep a strong hold on positive thoughts because I think that is important. In a matter of days the rain will pass and hopefully the weather will be calm!

I want to thank you for visiting my site this evening and I do hope you have a lovely evening! I will do my very best to respond to any of your comments as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa ❤

As Friday comes to an end!

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We finally made it through the week! Now it is time to just let go of what was during the week and enjoy what is ahead for the weekend!

Considering I am pretty exhausted, I just wanted to share some positive vibes with y’all with hopes it starts your weekend off with some joy! Always remember to take care of yourself as YOU❤ are very important!

I hope y’all have a restful and lovely weekend! Please always remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of❤ love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Truly A Painfully Long Week!

Good-Night-Quotes-20Good evening y’all! I hope you had a nice day today! I am so beyond happy that tomorrow is Friday because it has been a painfully long week! When I say painfully long, I really mean it has been incredibly painful for me!

Earlier this week I mentioned a goal I had for myself, but did not want to share it because I was honestly afraid I would not achieve my goal. Well now that tomorrow is Friday, I am perfectly at ease to share that goal with y’all! I desperately wanted to be able to increase my hours at work slightly, but it seems that every time I fear of goalssaid it in the past I was not able to succeed. This week I have been pushing myself a little harder to work six and a half hours each day instead of just the six hours daily and not miss one day, I have done this so far and I do not see tomorrow being any different!! Sure pushing myself just 30 minutes probably does not seem like a lot, but my goodness it really has been! I have been so completely worn out every day, I was not even able to do a post. Now on Thursday evening, even being extremely tired and in a terrible amount of pain, I was also very proud of the success I have made and wanted to share it with you! I figured I did give that cliff hanger earlier in the week about a “goal” and I know y’all must have been a little curious and deserved to know more about the goal!

I am not sure what next week will hold, but I do fully plan to keep trying my very best. I really am so glad tomorrow is Friday, so I will have the weekend to recuperate from this past week and only hope I have not caused too much damage to my already hurt body! I falling down is how we growknow I have put myself through a lot of pain and stress which may not have been a good decision, but what is done is done and I made it! I will continue to set achievable goals for myself because I do think it is so important to keep trying, which in turn means trying harder every week!

I want to thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today and really do love to read your comments, which I always will respond to. The blogging community really has been a wonderful and amazing experience for me. I was completely shocked that a fellow blogger that read about me having a difficult day on Tuesday emailed me to see if I was okay. Let me just say that❤❤ Angela Gagliardi is an amazing woman and I am truly thankful for her! Angela also has a blog and if you have not already seen her site, I strongly encourage you to do so, https://fuckms.ca/! Angela has a ❤heart of gold and even when she is struggling herself, still takes the time to care for others. Thank you so much Angela for being a wonderful friend! I hope y’all have a nice relaxing evening and a fantastic Friday. Please know that no matter what I might be dealing with, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Bad night turns to a bad day!

stressOverwhelming stress will only cause literally nothing but a terrible amount of pain! For reasons I can completely acknowledge, I was in so much pain last night and could not turn my brain off long enough to get any sleep. I would just lay in bed worrying about every little thing in life and then look over at the clock and just think, “Well if I fall asleep now, I will get 4 hours asleep”. Then an hour later still be awake and see the time and once again think to myself, “ If I could just fall asleep now, I will get 3 hours of sleep.” This went on all night and in turn I was not able to go to work today. Truthfully I am really disappointed in myself because I had been doing so well this week working six and a half hours, so to turn around and miss an entire day is just discouraging! I did think about just trying to push myself to go into work on ZERO hours of sleep, but I also knew that would not do my health any good and getting that run down would cause my health to deteriorate even more.

I can not say and be 100% sure if my increased amount of pain is due to the crazy stress 1weather or to the unrelenting stress life continues to throw at me! I never was good at dodge ball, so the stress just keeps hitting me hard! I often wonder if I am causing the stress I feel to take control of my life and I am actually the one that is responsible for making it worse. I know that allowing stress to bombard my thoughts is NOT any good for my friend “MS”, but I also do not seem to have the strength to avoid it and let it just roll of my back. It never fails, instead of when I am faced with anything I know will be stressful, I am not able to just fight to find something a little more peaceful to focus on, but I focus completely on what is causing my stressful thoughts! I can give advice all day long to others on how to handle stressful times, but I NEVER take my own advice!

Now that I am home for the day to allow my terribly achy and fatigued body to rest, all I can do is be hard on myself for breaking the success I did make by working more hours Monday-Thursday! How is it possible that I had such a successful week and now I am in so much pain it hurts to move? Did I push myself too hard in the beginning of the week by trying my hardest to work more hours because of how busy it is right now? I do not feel like I i will breatham capable of not being hard on myself because just last year I was working many more hours and I was fine! Why since October am I not able to do more like I use to be able to? Is it possible that I am now just allowing the MS to win the battle and control my life? That is not me and is just not the way I ever planned for my life to be. I had always planned to control this illness as much as I could, but seem to be failing miserably at that lately! I guess the truth is control is really just an illusion and what is going to happen, it just going to happen! We are not able to control things that are really uncontrollable, in all reality we are only able to control how we handle the difficult times in life.

In all honesty, the only thing I can do right now is rest in order to get better before the new week starts again. I will not give up on the progress I was making earlier this week, I will try again next week and just hope for a better outcome! I really need to learn how to handle my stress levels A LOT better than I have been because really all I am doing by allowing the stress to consume me is destroying my own body and my health! I can dont-lose-hope-everything-happens-for-a-reason-you-never-6877637promise myself all day long that I will make the necessary changes, but I do not know how to. Writing is definitely a great way for me to get my thoughts out which does help some, but I need to find even more ways to cut the stress out completely and for good! Do y’all have any suggestions on how to do this?

I hope y’all had a pleasant Friday the 13th and I hope you are looking forward to your weekend! I do really appreciate you stopping by my site today and look forward to reading your fantastic comments, which I promise I will respond to as quickly as  I possibly can! Please remember that no matter what I may be dealing with in life, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Never give up!

Have a peaceful dayGood evening y’all! I hope you have had a pleasant day and you are feeling well! I really appreciate you taking the time to visit my site and definitely do encourage your comments, I do promise to respond as quickly as I possibly can!

No matter the pain and/or discomfort I may feel, this pesky little thing called MS will never control my life! I will make small and simple adjustments to accommodate the MS to remain comfortable in my life, but I am still determined to live my life in ways that bring me the most joy!

This massive heat wave so many of us are experiencing is causing me to feel extremely fatigued, but letting that run my life is just not an option. Like I said, small andheat wave simple adjustments need to be made at times and to not be exposed to the heat too much is one adjustment that I am willing to make! I was able to adjust my hours at work so the initial part of my day isn’t in the extreme heat, well that was not really the reason for the adjustment of my hours, but it does help other issues as well. I get to work around 7 am which is early, but the sun has not been heating the world up quite yet! Usually I will leave work between 1 and 2 when it is pretty hot and my car feels like a mobile sauna, but I will sit for about 5 minutes with the windows down allowing for the a/c to start blowing cold air! I can not drive when it is too hot because I will feel very faint, which is pretty dangerous! If I have to go to the grocery store, I always try to go do not confuseeither early in the morning or later in the evenings when the sun has gone down. These slight adjustments to handle the heat work fairly well for me at least.

On a crazy plus side, my migraine has taken a short break to allow the other pains I feel play their part in my day-to-day life. Honestly I would much prefer my back and legs to hurt rather than having a massive migraine. The pain I feel constantly in my back and legs is aggravating and makes things a little difficult, but at least I can still function. Even though it is insanely hot outside I will still use my “friend” the heating pad when I am in my chilly work office or at my house. It seems a little strange that the heat outside makes me feel terrible, but my heating pad heals my pain! Maybe it is more the humidity outside making me feel all the darn fatigue. Who knows!?

I am truly happy to say that with the migraine taking a vacation I was able to work six and a half hours for the past two days! I have made a promise to myself to never give up dont give uppushing myself to work additional hours each week. Truthfully there might be times I do not have the strength to increase my hours, but that will never mean it isn’t possible.

I hope y’all have a peaceful and relaxing evening! I hope you are feeling well and taking the time to think about your own needs, which we often tend to neglect. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Half way there!

wednesday.jpgGood afternoon y’all!  I hope you are having a wonderful Wednesday! I am beyond excited that this week is almost over and next week is a four-day work week because of the holiday! 

I have honestly had kind of difficult week dealing with pain issues! There is a certain amount of pain that I find tolerable, but then there is another kind that makes me feel absolutely miserable and incredibly fatigued! Even though I have been dealing with a terrible amount of pain that is mixed with headaches and muscle spasms, I have been able to go to work. I did not make it through six hours Monday and Tuesday, but I did today! Of course after whatever hours I do work, I come home and I am absolutely exhausted. But the simple achievements are better than none! There has been another issue I have experienced this week and I have no idea what is causing it. Both Monday and Tuesday while sitting at my desk at work, I had several what seemed to be fainting episodes. It was really scary, but I was thankful I was sitting down. I did call my doctor’s office to let them know about this, but not so surprising they did not call me back. Have any of you ever experienced this before?

I am a pretty resilient person and I never give up on the goals I have for myself!! A while back I had made the goal to work six hours each day, which honestly did not happen at first. However I did not allow that to keep me down for too long  and tried to not view it as failure. I have always been veryresilience1 hard on myself, but seriously that does not help at all. Being too hard on ourselves only sets us up for hard times, which is never good. My goal now is to just continue to always be resilient and keep moving forward! 

I have to say everyone on this blog helps me see the strength I have and keeps me focused on that strength! There are so many incredible people who I have had the pleasure to get to know and I am very thankful for this. There really seems to be so much ugliness in the world today, but y’all allow me to see the good in others!

I hope y’all had a great day and I hope you are feeling well. Thank you for stopping by my site today and I really do encourage your comments. Y’all already know that I do respond as quickly as I possibly can! I hope you have a lovely evening and do what helps you relax! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤