Irritating Sounds!

Each person has unique qualities that set them apart from everyone else. These qualities are not something negative or to be ashamed of, but they can create challenges for the person to handle. Since I was a young child there have been certain sounds that I found extremely irritating, which I thought made me strange. It is not loud noises, but small noises such as people chewing gum, chips, popcorn, ice, or anything else that crunches. I remember a time being in the car with my mother or anywhere else when people were chewing gum and it caused an intense feeling of pure and utter irritation. Are there any sounds that you find irritating?

There is a rare disorder known as misophonia that affects about 20% of the population. Scientists suggest that one in five people suffer from this disorder to some degree and less than 1% experience extreme symptoms. This disorder can trigger emotional or physiological reactions to sounds. Of course, those that do not suffer from this view the reactions as an unreasonable and illogical response to sounds that can range from anger and annoyance to panic with a need to flee.

Those that live with misophonia have explained they are triggered by oral sounds, such as the noise a person makes when they eat, breathe, or chew anything. Other sounds people have found to be irritating can include the tapping on a keyboard, table, or steering wheel, or the sound of windshield wipers or blinkers. Some have said small repetitive motions are the cause, such as someone fidgeting or wiggling their foot.

Those with misophonia have said they respond to visual stimuli accompanied by sounds and have an intense reaction to repetitive motions. It has been suggested by researchers that those with this disorder have issues with the way their brains filter sounds and one feature of “misophonia sounds” would be their repetitive noises, which exacerbates other auditory processing issues.

Misophonia appears to range from mild to severe. Many have reported various physiologic and emotional responses. Mild responses can cause people to feel anxious, uncomfortable, disgusted, or have the desire to flee the situation. The more severe response may include rage, anger, hatred, panic, fear, and or emotional distress. 

Doctors are unsure what causes this condition but have stated it is not an issue with the person’s ears. They do believe it may be related to the way sounds affect the brain and trigger an automatic response in the body. The onset is not known, but symptoms have been reported to begin between the age of 9 and 13 and last a lifetime. This is more common in girls and comes on quickly and does not appear to be related to any specific event.

A recent breakthrough study discovered that misophonia is a brain-based disorder. Researchers have referred to a disruption in the connectivity in parts of the brain that processes both sound stimulation and the fight/flight response. This is said to involve parts of the brain that code the importance of sound. 

If this is something any of you deal with, I am sorry because I know how incredibly frustrating it can be. There have been times I had to cover my ears to avoid the annoying sounds because it causes me massive amounts of frustration and anger. It was so hard to deal with when I worked in an office setting because many people loved chewing gum and that is one of the most annoying sounds in the world. Thankfully, I am not working in an office setting, so I do not deal with this anymore, but my husband does love chewing ice and tries to say it is soft ice. It is NOT soft ice! If this is something you must live with, how do you handle it without losing your mind?

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope what I have shared is something you do not live with, but if you do, please know you are not alone. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope your weekend has started pleasantly and you enjoy these two days! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Halfway to the weekend!

Thankfully, we have made it to the halfway point of this week. How has your week been up until now? I hope your week is going well and you are excited we are getting closer to a long weekend, which I know we all need😊! I do not have anything planned for the long weekend but am looking forward to not waking up early for three days! Honestly, my week has been a little frustrating, so I am in desperate need of a break. My frustrations this week surprisingly enough have not been working-related!

I am curious when you get extremely frustrated and belligerently angry, how do you handle those awful feelings? Considering my damn truck decided to give me a hard time once again and NOT start, I was furious Monday night. I think it is probably just that I need a new battery and maybe the other week when the truck was acting up it was trying to give me an indication of the issue, but it was infuriating because I was trying to go to the pharmacy when it would not start. To avoid yelling at the top of my lungs or crying hysterically, I dug my fingernails into the palm of my hands for about 20 minutes. Yes, it hurt, but the pain was distracting me from my anger. I know this sounds insane, but that is how angry I was. Yesterday, my hands still hurt and had bruises from where I dug my nails into my palms.

I know that everyone handles their anger and negative emotions differently and there are healthy ways, and unhealthy ways of doing so. The only good thing is that I was not destructive towards anything that could break easily and cost money to fix, I only decided to harm my poor hands when I was extremely upset. I know and have seen when some people get upset, they will break things because they hit an object with massive force, which has never made sense to me. I am still very upset about my truck not working because now I have no way to get anywhere that I may need to go. I think it is more frustrating because working from home and hardly leaving the house, I already feel isolated and like I am on house arrest, so now that my only way to leave the house has been taken away from me, my frustrations have increased.

As you can tell, my week has been mildly stressful because of the vehicle issues. I have never claimed that I handle stress well because I am an intense stress case and worry about everything. I know this is something that I need to work on and improve on drastically, but I have failed so far. Does anyone else worry about things and if so, how do you maintain yourself and try to stay calm?

With today being the midway point to the weekend and we still have a few days to go, I think we could all use a little inspiration. Life is not easy, and we all go through struggles in life, which can make it easier to become anxious. I hope the quote I am sharing with you will provide you with a sense of calm and inspiration to make it through the rest of this week!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you found what I have shared inspiring and that it resonates with you. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. I hope you have a great day and the last few days go by quickly so that you can enjoy the upcoming long weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Promises are a commitment

Promises no matter how big, small, insignificant, or even who it was made with, should be valued and sacred. When we make a promise, we should strive to uphold and honor whatever we promised. A promise does not always have to be with another person. There have been numerous times in my life I made a promise to myself and even though they may not understand, I have made promises to my cats😊! Unfortunately, many people make empty promises, but maybe they have forgotten what a promise is and what can happen when a promise is broken. Through the rest of this post, I will discuss the true meaning of a promise, what broken promises cause, and what all of this means to me.

If you Google what a promise means it shows the meaning as a declaration or assurance that one will do a particular thing, or a particular thing will happen. I think our promises are giving our word to another and our word is our bond. It has been suggested that people with strong relationships have higher emotional intelligence and tend to be more likely to stay loyal and true to their commitments. Whether the commitment made is to yourself or someone else, making a promise is a commitment that you will keep your word. It is within commitment that reinforces and solidifies trust.

Breaking a promise can result in an abrupt breakdown of trust. A broken promise can be felt as betrayal and disrespect. Not only does breaking a promise disappoint other people, but it can damage your self-esteem. This can tarnish friendships, destroy marriages, and undermine businesses. Failure to keep your promise leads to declines in personal and professional relationships, creates emotional conflicts, you lose honesty, and your relationships are poisoned with doubts and skepticism. There may be lasting anger towards the one that broke their promise and feelings of shame for trusting the person in the first place.

Relationships are built on trust, so before you make any promises make sure so with the intention of keeping the promise. Trust is not easy to build, and it takes time, but it can be lost in less than a second when there is any betrayal involved. I am doing this post because I have learned through the years who I can count on and who will never let me down, but at the same time, I have learned who does not deserve another second chance. One thing that has helped me is to have low expectations for anyone that has a history of letting me down so that I am not disappointed by the same person over and over again.

We have almost made it through this week with today being Friday eve. I will never know how we made it through this painfully long week, but we almost have. Of course, we all are happy that tomorrow is Friday and then we have the weekend to look forward to, which maybe we have plans or maybe our plans are to just rest and recuperate from the week😊, either way, we are strong, and powerful. I think it is important to remind people of this because it can be easy to forget. I hope this post was beneficial to you and helped you to understand the importance of trust and commitment because those are things no one can take away from us.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope your week has been great and you are looking forward to the weekend. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Remember to stand up for what you believe in and be true to who you are😊! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, support, comfort, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Protect the safety of children

A couple of days ago I heard about a disturbing story on the news. This was a story about a former UFC fighter, Cain Velasquez in California. Cain learned that a repulsive man had molested one of his young relatives 100 times at this child’s daycare, which was owned by this person’s mother. The man that “allegedly” molested Cain’s young relative was released from custody and against the DA’s order without bail, only being forced to wear an electronic monitoring bracelet and remain 100 yards from children under the age of 14. He claims he was on his way to get his electronic monitoring bracelet when Cain found him.

Consumed with nothing but rage, Cain engaged in a high-speed chase following the person that “allegedly” molested his young relative and shot a handgun into the vehicle. Two of Cain’s shots hit two individuals that were in the vehicle, none of which were life-threatening or the man who allegedly molested his young relative.

Unfortunately, shortly after the incident took place, Cain was arrested during a traffic stop. He is being charged with attempted murder, shooting at an occupied motor vehicle, three counts of assault with a firm arm, three counts of assault with a deadly weapon, willfully discharging a firearm from a vehicle and carrying a loaded firearm with intent to commit a felony.

What do you think about this story? I do not think people understand the lifelong effects molestation causes. Of course, children are resilient and mostly do not understand what happened to them, but this type of abuse will live within them their entire life. Children are innocent and trust people they know and sadly it is the people the children know that may take advantage of them. The story I have discussed briefly shows the children knew who their abuser was, but at least they were able to confide in someone and get the help they needed.

I am going to be honest with y’all, I do not think Cain did anything wrong and should not be in prison. Any deplorable man that thinks putting their hands on a child is normal needs to be shown their ways are VERY wrong and should be punished! No man or woman should get away with harming an innocent child and I almost do not think prison is good enough for them. I understand some of you reading this will disagree with me and think that Cain is where he should be because we are all entitled to our opinion.

I think I have shown how I feel about this topic and honestly think we should all do what we can to protect children. This subject does hit a nerve with me and enrages me more than anything else ever could. I know I have voiced my opinions about politics and the vaccine, but the two of those combined will not come close to causing my blood to boil as much. I remember working in a children’s hospital years ago and have seen children that were victims of abuse. Abuse of any kind stays with a person and can haunt them for the rest of their lives.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I know this post is different from ones I have done before, but when I saw this story, it caused me to feel something deep within my soul and I could not even write about it immediately. I do want the chance to read your thoughts on this and I will respond as soon as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Toxicity in families

Family can be a sensitive topic to talk about because there tend to be various types of feelings. Families either are happy and get along well or there are vast levels of drama and ill will. The truth is we do not get to choose our family because it is something we are born into, but the same blood that runs through our veins does not mean we must endure the toxicity that can come along with it. Toxic relationships cause stress and unpleasant feelings, so when life is short, we do have the right to decide when to free ourselves from venomous people.

The reason I am writing about this today is that I decided a long time ago to not associate with my mother’s side of the family. Even as a young child I could see their actions to be deceitful and malicious. I wanted no part of their destructive behavior and know I am a better person because I cut ties with them years ago. I feel that if they had been part of my life all these years, I might not be the happy, kind, loyal, loving, compassionate, caring, and honest person I am today because they are the polar opposite of who I am and who I want to be.

Recently, my mother’s younger sister went to her house for a visit. Despite me saying it was an awful idea because they have always had a toxic relationship and I did not think it would go well. Unfortunately, this is a time I wish I was wrong because the visit went terribly and caused many hurtful feelings. I do not have siblings, but from what I understand siblings should have a bond that was built in their childhood which they clearly never had.

Something people often forget is, hurtful words cannot be erased or forgotten. I have always said although physical bruises can heal, verbal wounds do not heal and can hurt for years. It is important to value yourself enough to never allow another person to attack you verbally or physically because you are worth more than that. Most of the time those that say vicious things are unhappy with their life. We have all heard that saying, “misery loves company” and we need to not welcome their company into our lives.

I do understand that family is important, but no one needs to deal with listening to ugly words from family. Maybe it would be better to say we need to understand how to maintain boundaries with others. We know what we are willing to endure and what we will refuse to deal with. When we do set boundaries, we must never change them to make someone else happy because these boundaries were set for our happiness and mental health.

Thank you for taking the time to visit my site and read what I have shared. I hope what I have written helps you if you are dealing with toxic a family member or other relationships. We all need to learn to value our self-worth and love ourselves before anyone else can truly love us. I do look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Feeling Pessimistic

Happy Friday y’all! How has your week been? Do you have any plans for the weekend? I had planned to start a new job on March 14th but learned yesterday I will have to wait until March 21st. I am not going to lie, I was a little disappointed because I have been unemployed since being laid off on December 9th and miss working. WOW, those are words I never thought I would say, but I do enjoy working and having an income. This disappointment kind of falls in line with how life has been lately, but I will explain why I say that shortly.

Anyone that knows me would say that I am not an angry person, but the way things have been in the past few years has made me angry and frustrated. I hate the way things are in the country I live in and the world we all live in. My anger stems from the incredible amount of hate that has ravished the world and I do not understand why it has become so awful. I cannot understand why people have become so selfish and evil. Even though I have become angrier and more frustrated than I have ever wanted to be, I am still kind and empathetic to other’s struggles. I guess you could say it is a blessing and a curse, but it is something I have no control over.

The heinous issues going on in Ukraine are terrible and heartbreaking. Previously, I worked with two sweet ladies that were from Ukraine. I cannot imagine how they must be feeling worrying about their families. A neighboring country should NEVER torment its neighboring country just because one country wants to control the other. Two countries that share a border, should want to work together, and help one another, NOT destroy the other.

Last week, my husband and I went on our last snowboard trip for the season. Unfortunately, it was not the best trip we have ever been on because anything that could go wrong, did go wrong. The trip started terribly before we made it even an hour from our home. There was a point, I was ready to turn the truck around and head home because things were that unpleasant. I knew it was the last trip of the season, so we went on to the mountains. After a few days, of being in the mountains, my mood had become so negative I was ready to be home. The state we were in do not think the vaccine is a good idea or needed and I ended up getting into a heated debate with someone about it. I guess no matter how nice you are to someone and how logical you are, you cannot change people.

Another reason for my frustration and anger is that my pain levels have been incredibly high. Between the back and leg pain, and neuropathy issues it is hard to move around comfortably. Thankfully, I do not enjoy snowboarding as much as my husband does because the neuropathy issues made it almost impossible. The cold weather always increases my pain, so between stress and cold, I have been in excruciating pain for days. I cannot think of anyone who was dealing with the pain I have been would be overly optimistic.

The truth is that the reasons for my anger cannot be changed until the world changes. I do not enjoy being an angry person and I am trying to see the bright side, but it is getting harder. Always trying to see the good in people is a good thing but can also be painful and challenging for the mind. Even though I have been on the wrong side many times and people have betrayed my trust, I will continue to try to see the good in people. Yes, sometimes are easier than others, but there are still those few and far between times the good we see is beneficial and helps me to be the bigger person.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I know this post was not very positive, but unfortunately, the way I feel is not positive currently. I know things will get better and my mood will change for the better. I do hope your week was great and you have a safe weekend. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Is a perfect world possible?

What would it mean to have peace in our world and is this something that could be possible? Should it be so difficult to have everyone be happy, free, fair, equal, and forgiving? Unfortunately, for centuries this does not seem to have been the case. Through war, people have tried to gain more control and the desire to force everyone to think the same way. War does not do anything but get too many people killed. Attempts to overthrow other countries, killing and destroying the lives of innocent people is complete nonsense in my eyes. 

The amount of hate that erupts between people due to differences that cannot be changed is not solving any issues and only creates more problems. Why should anyone be allowed to judge someone based on the color of their skin, race, national origin, sexual preference, religious and or political following? Who can say the way another person is living, is not the right way to live? I strongly believe if we were all the same, the world would be an incredibly boring place to live. The past several years has shined new light on the way people think because it was made to seem normal and acceptable. These behaviors only spark hate and violence. Why are so many people unable to think for themselves and simply follow others like they are sheep? Why are so many unable to love and treat others with respect? It is 2022 and we all need to start evolving and being much better than we have been.

Do we even understand what peace means? I almost doubt it anymore because it is not something we have seen much of or seen at all. Peace is societal friendship and harmony, in the absence of hostility and violence. There is NO conflict or fear from impending war. We are all human, but no one is perfect so we SHOULD be able to get along. We may not have a lot in common, but we do all have a beating heart and feelings.

If you were able to make changes to the world for the better, what would your perfect world look like? What changes would you to accomplish this? Even though there is no such thing as perfect, changes could be put in place to make the entire world happier.

One MAJOR issue is corrupt politicians need to be replaced and bring in honest people that care about the safety and happiness of the world. People from every country need to rally together and become stronger. If we could support one another with love, compassion, and empathy, HUGE and AMAZING things could begin. Even people within the same country should start understanding each other.

Why does it matter where someone is from? Why does it matter what kind of job someone holds? Why does it matter who another person loves? None of these things should matter to anyone. The reasons people feel hatred in their hearts are unacceptable because most of them are meaningless. Unless someone does something to mentally, emotionally, or physically harm someone, there should not be any animosity. One person is not able to fix the issues we see, but if there was a big enough following and joining together, change is possible, and we could all live in peace!

Thank you for visiting my site today and reading this post. I know some people will not agree with a single word in this post, which is okay because these are my feelings. I will respect how you feel but expect the same in return. I would love to read your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Beautiful Complications

The world is a beautiful, complicated, and challenging place to live in. There are times we may feel like we are suffocating or drowning in the dark and deep waters because the intensity of what we are facing is so strong. We will also experience days that are bright and full of joyful moments. These days are not normally perfectly balanced, but we have a choice to hold onto our optimism and understand it is a necessity.

As children, we depend on our parents to guide us down the right roads and teach us right from wrong. Sadly enough, not all parents teach these lessons to their children, and they go out into the world blind and unprepared. It leaves me feeling confused because there are so many people in the world that want children and would provide a loving, nurturing, and wonderful home, but they are unable to have children. On the other hand, some never wanted children and should not have them, but they do.

It breaks my heart to see the world being where it is today. The sheer levels of hate and anger tear people down and leave them as nothing more than an empty shell. I have always tried so hard to see the best in people but am struggling more and more to find the good in some that I have encountered. I used to think that there was good in everyone, no matter who they are, and I am not so sure about that anymore.

We are all faced with choices in life, one road will be the one that takes additional effort and honesty and another path, that is that easy path and can include dishonesty. Why does it seem like in the world today, people chose that path that is filled with lies, dishonesty, and deceit? It takes more effort to lie, than it does to be honest because once you begin lying, it is like a snowball effect and never ends and causes people to be hurt and disappointed.

I hate thinking that it is possible that the last honest people in the world, were in my late grandfather’s generation. You cannot turn on the news without hearing lies, deceitful, and dangerous misinformation. So many people are too selfish to understand their behavior is damaging and evil. It is not that difficult to be compassionate and understanding towards other, but it seems like people think if they practice these behaviors, it would be the end of the world.

As you can probably tell in what I have written today, I am frustrated with the mindset and behaviors of others. I do the best I can to treat everyone equally and with respect but have been treated like a nobody by people I thought were different and believed they were caring. I am proud to be different from others because I would not feel good about who I am if I were just like everyone else. What others consider normal, I consider mean and evil, so I have no interest in being what normal is to others.

I have been struggling lately with trying to find a job and understand the way people think and act. As challenging as it has been, I think finding my “perfect” job will happen long before I can understand people because most people do not make sense in anyway shape or form. I do not understand where all the hatred is coming from and why it is spreading like wildfire. It is just a sad situation and I do not know how or when it will improve. Maybe when we see the end of COVID, we will also see positive changes to those currently filled with hate. Stranger things have happened.

Thank you for visiting my site today and reading this post. I know it was not filled with sunshine and rainbows, but it was filled with my honest feelings and struggles. I am not normally a negative person, but I am an optimistic and realistic person. I hope you are enjoying your weekend and staying safe! I do look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Bad News Week

I hope y’all have had a wonderful week and you are looking forward to the weekend. I managed to fall behind with my blog and still have a few comments to respond to. The past few days I have been consumed with either a migraine or back pain that was so awful I could hardly do anything. Wednesday morning, my back pain was in a different location than normal. On a typical day, it is my mid to lower back that is in pain, but Wednesday morning it was only in my lower back and it took me at least fifteen minutes to pull myself from the bed. This pain was like nothing I have experienced before and had me mildly concerned. I did not lift anything in the previous days, so it did not make sense and I detest when things do not make sense.

I started having another mean migraine on Wednesday that nothing would help it to ease up. Having a migraine and the unusual back pain was extremely frustrating and nothing was making any sense. I detest when things do not make sense because I am the type that needs logical answers. I guess with Multiple Sclerosis, answers are one thing I may never get.

I would assume I know why there were so many issues with pain and a migraine. I do believe I could make an educated guess because after dealing with this unpredictable and hateful illness and knowing my body better than anyone else. My assumption for these issues is none other than stress. I feel like I continue getting bad news daily almost like there is a sign on my head saying, “Please do something that is going to create more problems in life” on my forehead. I mean getting laid off on December 9th and two weeks later having my truck in the shop with an expensive repair, and then on Wednesday learning that my former company is not paying out for the PTO I did not use threw me into the worst stress tailspin.

I was counting on the PTO payout for bills, my husband’s birthday, and a few other things. I cannot say I am surprised that my former company was going to screw me over again. Apparently, my former company thinks it is perfectly acceptable to basically steal money from me and it seems they can do that legally.

I have been constantly looking for another job and it has been beyond frustrating. Many places are hiring for remote positions, but it has been almost a month and I am still unemployed. Being unemployed is causing my personality to change and I do not like it. I feel like my anger about what has occurred and keeps happening is causing me to be a little hateful. I love my cats more than I can explain, but my mood even has me being angry with them and not wanting to be anywhere around them.

I am trying my best to stay positive, but it is becoming harder every day. I keep trying to tell myself that everything happens for a reason and the perfect job is out there for me and will surface when the time is right. I do not know what I did wrong in a previous life to have to continue dealing with challenges, but whatever it was I am so sorry. I just really need a break and have something, just one small thing happen work out.

I am working on another post and will hopefully have it completed tonight. I have also been working on a short story to help build on the creativity I know that I have inside. Writing has been an outlet for me and even though two of my cats are doing everything possible to not let me write because they want my attention, it is still the only thing that lets me escape from reality.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I appreciate your time and look forward to reading your comments. I will be responding to comments today and tomorrow, so I will be caught up soon. I hope you have a lovely and safe weekend. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Handling a layoff at Christmas

It is extremely unfortunate, but life tends to be accompanied by various challenges. Everything we go through in our life may seem life-altering and impossible to overcome at the time of the situation. It is critical to try seeing each experience in a logical mindset. If we attempt to process and analyze every challenge at the same time, it can become overwhelming. To avoid becoming overloaded with devastation, take your time to process what you have endured before reacting.

There will never be a good time to encounter any type of challenge. For instance, this past Thursday the mortgage company I was working for did a mass layoff. Although this was something I was expecting to happen, it was still traumatic news. Regrettably, I was one of many included in the layoffs.

Of course, there is never a good time to be laid off from a job, but Christmas time is an incredibly awful time. I have gone through so many emotions since Thursday afternoon and still am processing the atrocious news. The good thing is that I was as prepared as one can be to be laid off from their job. When I accepted the job, I knew it would always be a possibility to happen and I knew that I could not go without health insurance, so I am on my husband’s insurance. If I had to worry about insurance on top of looking for a job, my stress level would skyrocket to unhealthy levels.

I am not sure this is a good way to put it, but another reason I am luckier than others that went through this layoff is my husband and I do not have children. We do not have to worry about feeding children and other expenses that come with children. I cannot imagine what those that were laid off are going through losing a job so close to Christmas. I do know one of the people that were laid off was talking about returning the gifts she bought.

As I continue to try seeing the good things with this layoff, my husband and I live within our means. Meaning we do not have several car payments, a high mortgage, credit card debt, and other debts to worry about paying. I have always believed that we should all live within our means and try our best to have savings account for situations like layoffs.

Even though I am doing my best to stay positive, I do have my moments when I am extremely angry about this. My anger is higher than I would prefer it to be, especially because right before the “layoff” meeting I point blank asked my supervisor if layoffs were coming, which she lied about and said she did not even know what the meeting was about. I mean come on, anyone that would believe that is not being realistic. Along with the anger and often at the same time, I am sad and cry. I know anger and tears are not going to fix the issues, but I am working through the emotions at hand. No matter how hard I try to let go of my anger, I still think it is insensitive, selfish, and evil to do layoffs a couple of weeks away from Christmas.

I am trying to continue reminding myself that everything in life happens for a reason and there is something out there waiting for me that is better than the job I had. Of course, with the issues with COVID, I must find a job working from home. I cannot work in an office setting due to my immune system, so that might be a challenge. There was one good thing that came because of COVID and that is many companies are doing remote work because they realized with some industries, work can be done as easily at home as it is in an office and maybe even more effectively.

I was not going to write about my layoff because it is still so fresh in my mind and heart, but I wanted to share my story and hope it would help anyone else that goes through this type of situation. It is normal to go through many emotions when you lose a job, whether it be from a layoff or being fired. I want to tell y’all, any time one door closes another one opens and what is behind that door might be better and make you even happier. It is so important to know how much you are worth and how valuable you truly are!

Thank you for taking the time to visit my site today. I have learned a valuable lesson from this experience and that is no matter how much you think you can trust a supervisor, you cannot because at the end of the day it is just business. I would love the chance to read your comments about this terrible experience and I promise to respond to all comments as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa