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Three Months Ago

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Loss can distort our sense of time and may cause months or years to feel like only days. Although I am sadly aware our sweet cat Sundance passed away three months ago today, I remember every moment as clearly as it was yesterday. It is so hard to wrap my mind around the thoughts that three months ago, I had to witness him struggle in pain and take his final breath. Many have told me I did everything I could to take care of him, but I still feel like I failed him, and the image of his lifeless body haunts me. Sundance had a loving and pure heart and knew only love, kindness, and acceptance. Why did Sundance have to get an inoperable tumor on his lung, and why could the doctors not remove it and give him a donor’s lung? Why do bad things happen to innocent animals, but the vilest humans will continue living without issues? These issues hardly seem fair to me. 

I know the way I am thinking about this loss is due to the continuous grief felt. The never-ending pain from losing our precious cat has been relentless, and his memories are in every part of the house and our hearts. I will always be thankful for our years with Sundance, and there will not be a day that passes that we will not miss him. For reasons I cannot fully explain, our house has an emptiness looming around because this little cat consumed much of the house and our hearts. Even though it has been three months since he passed away, I continue to expect his presence to be waiting when I get home, and although he is not there physically, I can feel the love, kindness, and magical parts of him that will never fade. 

I cannot explain my reasons, but I blame myself for not saving his beautiful life. Of course, I realize I did everything I could to keep him comfortable and loved, but I am not sure that was enough. I might not be able to keep my emotions in check, but I know no human being can stop death from occurring because it is part of life. Mortality is not easy to accept and understand, but it will happen to all of us. Our mortality is much different than that of an innocent animal, or at least it is for me. Animals are one of the only creatures in this world that are purely innocent and deserve more than most receive. Animal cruelty does not make sense to me, and how anyone could ruthlessly kill their pet is a form of narcissism and evilness that is beyond shameful. 

Thank you for visiting my site today. I do not typically do more than one post daily, but this one is an exception because Sundance should always be remembered, and never forgotten. I am thankful Sundance lived a happy life and was treated with love and respect. My husband and I do not have two-legged children, but we treat our cats like they were our children and may even treat them better than some treat their children. Of course, I even treat the outside feral cats with much love and kindness because I do not think they receive it from anyone else, which makes me sad. I hope your day goes well, and you can appreciate how I feel about the loss of our cat, but hope you never go through anything like this. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Thoughtful Tuesday

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Happy Tuesday! I hope you are having a good week so far, and your week will get even better each day. I have mentioned before that I dread going to a dentist, and I know it is an irrational fear, but I have felt the same even for minor visits. I typically avoid going to the dentist until I do not have a choice, and today, unfortunately, I must go to the dentist. While simply brushing my teeth on Sunday, one of my teeth on the bottom broke. Thankfully, I am not in pain, or maybe I have a higher-than-normal tolerance for pain, but at this point, the only problem is the tooth broke, and there is an annoying sharp point on my tooth. I hope the dentist can do something simple to fix the issue, and once I am employed again, I can do a crown or whatever else she thinks should be done. I know I am being irrational because I do not enjoy going to get a typical cleaning, but these people always find something else they think I should do. If they were paying for everything they think should be done, I may feel differently. In my defense, the problems with my teeth are not because of anything I did, but because of the massive amounts of steroids I had to take due to a relapse.

I received an intriguing phone call yesterday from our veterinarian, which caught me off guard. They know how hard I took it when we lost Sundance, and I was unsure when or if we would get another cat because I did not want to go through that terrible loss again. I might have mentioned when I went there to donate the food we purchased for Sundance’s special diet because our cats had no interest in the food and something about wanting a bunny and maybe someday a kitten. Okay, that is not true because I know I did😊! Anyway, one of the kind ladies at the front desk called me to let me know someone had dropped off a kitten to them they had found and wanted to be sure the poor baby had a good home, and she wanted to see if I would be interested. Honestly, I might be more inclined to say yes if it was a boy because we already have two girls, and I do not think they would appreciate another female, and I do not think I could convince my husband to get the kitten. In a way, I think it was a compliment because she knows me and that I would provide this kitten a good home, but at the same time, I am not even sure I am ready for another kitten right now because it might be too soon.

I am excited that my class will begin in less than two weeks. I have been looking forward to this since I enrolled in the class, and the wait has felt like a year. I have purchased my books, and everything needed, which would have been much more challenging if it were not for the help of my mother and her husband. They graciously helped pay for the expensive books and will be forever thankful. All I must do now is pass the class and the state exam. Considering I understand the basics of the class and not working, I do not think I will have any issues accomplishing this, but I know I will still be extra hard on myself. One of my biggest problems is that I never think I am smart or good enough, so hopefully, after passing everything I need to pass, I will be more confident.

How do you find ways to stay inspired when you have always been your worst critic and many things have gone wrong? It can be challenging, but the only thing we have control over is how we react to issues in life. Often, we must inspire ourselves to keep pushing forward and refuse to give up. Before we can be inspiring, we must learn to believe in who we are and our many strengths. We do not have to lead anyone else, but many will follow our lead if we display strength, courage, determination, and resilience. I will admit that believing in my abilities is something I struggle with and continue to learn, but I can promise I will never give up and know someday, things will go the right way. The moment we give up and surrender is the moment we fail ourselves. We should always strive to be better than we were yesterday and realize the strength it has taken us to get to where we are today because we have all gone through hard times.

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you are doing well and feeling the best you can. What do you think about the kitten idea? My husband did not say “NO” right away, so maybe he is considering the idea. There is no telling because he was starting work about fifteen minutes before I mentioned it to him, and he might come to his senses. The unfortunate thing is, I love animals and would take more in if I was given the green light🚦 to do so! I have several weaknesses, but my love for animals is not too bad, is it? I look forward to your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Halfway Through Week

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Today is the halfway point through the week, which might not sound great, but it could be worse, and at least it is not Monday! How is your week going so far? The week has not been too terrible because my doctor’s appointment went well, but I was not concerned about it. I forgot to mention yesterday, while I was at the pain management office, I asked the Nurse Practitioner for her opinion regarding a medication my specialist suggested. The medication strongly recommended had a lot to do with how low my white blood count was, which showed my immune system was weak. She had wanted me to take something that “might” prevent shingles, and I was highly against it. The specialist should understand Gilenya weakens my immune system, but it also keeps Multiple Sclerosis at bay, and I know I need to be cautious. I had decided against the medication suggested, and the nurse practitioner on Monday said she thought I made a good decision. Most people I know have had COVID, but I never got it, so I would say whatever I am doing to stay safe is working without any other medications.

Life will throw curve balls, and we must try to dodge them, or we might face additional bad situations. No matter how many balls are thrown at us and how many of them hit us, we can choose happiness. Not everything we perceive as negative will result in additional negative consequences because they might lead us down a better path in life. When I lost my job last November, I did not know how I would overcome it and find something new, but I believe I have. This experience forced me to consider a new career path, and I am thankful for what I will pursue. I have learned more about myself during the last few months, and besides losing Sundance, I am happier with my life. Please do not get me wrong because there are some people I have missed at my last job, but I cannot say I have missed the job itself or some people I encountered. It is true that some people come into our lives by accident and remain in our lives, while some come into our lives to teach us something we must know.

As we move into another day, there is something we should try embracing more than anything else, which is what makes us happiest. No one has ever said you can force being happy because that is fake happiness and will never last. When we deal with sadness in life, no one expects we will be a ray of sunshine immediately. It takes time to overcome an upsetting situation, and as long as we do not dwell on it for too long, we will get past whatever we experienced. I learned yesterday that someone I know but have never met had lost a dog she had for 14 years. Although I have only spoken to this person once and never met her dog, my heart broke for her loss. I am sure this brought up painful memories of what I went through in February, or it was because I am a highly emotional person. Anyway, even though she lost her dog and is sad currently, she will never forget her dog and be happy for the years she spent with her dog. I hope everything I said made sense because I might have said more than necessary.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you are having a good week, and it continues to get better. I am sure I have said this before, but if you have pets, please remember to treat them with lots of love because unfortunately, animals do not live forever☹. I hope you found the quote I shared positive, and that it helps you get through the halfway point of the week more easily. The first half of this week is over, and the last half is going to go faster, we might even discover some great opportunities! Please let me know what you think about this post, and I will respond to all comments as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Grief and Love

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Grief can be haunting and inescapable because the memories of those who we lost are unstoppable. It has been two and a half months since losing Sundance and four years and two months since we lost Chloe. No matter how long it has been, I can remember the final moments of the lives of these two sweet and lovable cats. Of course, losing a loved one causes so much heartache, but many do not understand the level of pain losing a pet that you love dearly causes. If I could have traded places with either of these cats, I would have without questioning my decision. I wanted so desperately to donate one of or at least part of one of my lungs to Sundance, but the veterinarian shot me down because they said it was impossible. Even though I realized my lung was too large for Sundance, I did not understand why cutting mine to fit into his little body was impossible. Most days, I wake up hoping these losses were a nightmare and I would wake up to find them alive, but every morning, I am disappointed when I come to terms with the fact that it was not a nightmare but a reality. Unfortunately, reality cuts like a knife and leaves so much unknown.

Life imposes so many questions, but with limited to no answers. Often, I wonder why innocent animals must come down with illnesses that in the end, take their lives away. They did nothing to deserve such a grim fate and do not understand what is happening to them. How do you explain to a sick animal what they are enduring? How do you explain to any pets you still have where their friend went and why they are not coming home? Why are there so many innocent children who are living in unfair and dangerous situations? Why are there many kind and loving people who die of a painful and tragic death? People like my late grandfather did not deserve what he endured at the end of his life because he was a kind man and deserved more than he received. Why are there so many cruel people full of hate left in this world to torment others and never face the consequences for their cruel behaviors? It appears many have forgotten what the term justice means and accept the way things are going about in the world.

I try avoiding getting political or religious because everyone has their beliefs, and there is nothing wrong with anyone’s views. I wonder if one who believes in a higher power and that God loves all of us, why would he take those away from us that are pure love? How can anyone decide when anyone has fulfilled their purpose here on earth when so much was left undone? My late grandfather had strong religious beliefs, and I hope those beliefs gave him peace and that he is comfortable now, without any pain or torment. Our cats did not follow or have any beliefs because they only knew love, so why was their life cut short? Many of the reasons that I cannot get past the loss of our cats is because I was left wondering if there was something else, I could have and should have done for them. I blame myself for both losing their lives, and it will always haunt me.

With all the questions we face in our lives, how do you accept facts that there are no answers? Are we supposed to tolerate this and carry on with a questionable existence? For all the why, how, what, and where questions, can we make assumptions about them and deal with them? It has been a while, and I have gotten older; I have many questions and typically ignore them because I understand the things I cannot control and do not want to waste time, but many questions weigh on my mind. There are too many incurable illnesses in the world, and those affected must find a way to deal with their fate. It is complicated and can feel impossible, but everyone finds ways to see the positive in their lives. Many young and innocent children are dealing with this grim fate, but how can they understand this when they are too young and naïve to the world?

With the number of unanswered questions we may have, the best thing to do to survive life is to focus on the positive things we have in our lives. Losing those we love is inevitable and destined to happen. Instead of thinking about this, we must value and appreciate those we care about and ensure they never doubt how much they are loved and treasured because if we fail to do this, and leaves us with regrets. Families can be complicated, but the bonds we share with others go deeper than simply blood. I have never believed that the blood we share with family members is as important as the trust, respect, consideration, and loyalty shared with another human or our pets.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you are having a lovely and relaxing weekend. I know parts of this post were not positive and uplifting, but they are some thoughts I struggle with. Some people say they love another, but do they understand what it means to love with their entire heart and soul? Love is a word that I never use loosely and will only use when it comes from my heart, and I mean it. Too many people tell others they love them, but at the end of the day, it is just another word to them without meaning. When I say I love our cats more than words can say, I mean it and without question. This is the one thing in life I do not question, my love for those I care about and our cats. I hope the last part of your weekend is amazing and you do something special for yourself. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Saturday Thoughts

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Anyone who has read my blogs knows I have a strong love for animals, finding it easy to communicate and form bonds with them. I have mentioned several times I started feeding a couple of what appear to be feral outside cats a few months ago. During the first few days, only two cats were noticed on the front porch, so naturally, I began talking to and feeding them. To my surprise, it seems like the cat is out of the bag, pun intended, and currently, there are between six and eight kitty visitors who come for a good meal at least twice a day. Word has spread quickly through the neighborhood kitty community about the house that always has food, fresh water, a box with a soft towel for them to get warm on the colder nights, and an outdoor kitty house so they can stay comfortable and dry on the many rainy days and nights. Between the adorable cat house and a place to sleep, it should not be surprising numerous cats have adopted our porch as their new home.

From what I have seen, the outside cats get along with each other, at least for the most part. Thankfully, there have only been a couple of altercations between the outside kitty gang. Mostly, the disagreements witnessed were a lot of unhappy and unimpressed kitty language. The cat I know is a boy who is a super sweet tomboy and is typically accommodating with the gang of frequent visitors, but I think it is because they are female, and he could be the father of some of them. One night, there was a visitor I had never seen before. As the new cat ate, the well-known tomboy sniffed around before both cats communicated their unsettling feelings, and the tomboy chased the new cat away. I think the new cat is a boy, and the known cat acts territorial because he is convinced, the porch belongs to him. He marked his territory and only shared with cats of his choosing.

Now that the neighborhood cats have spread the word about where to get a meal, the only thing I can do is to oblige with their demands.  Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on the perspective, I cannot say no, turn cats away, or let the precious cats go hungry because they deserve more and better than that kind of life. I know many people are fine having their cats indoors and outdoors, but too much can happen to them in the wild. Our cats have always been strictly indoors only because I would worry too much and cause myself to have a heart attack if they did not come home for days. I worry now when I do not see the outside cats for more than one day. I might be wrong keeping our cats prisoner in the house, but at least I know they are safe, and it is a cushy prison.

Not only do we have between six and eight cats we feed outside, but we have two inside cats as well. There is at least one possum and one groundhog who eat the cat food on the porch. It seems like we are running a smaller version of a zoo. If I had my way and my husband and two cats would allow it, I would have a house full of animals. I almost think it would be easier to convince my husband that the two cats because the cats can be a little moody and combative, but overall they are sweet little furry angels. Some people want a house full of children, but we have always treated our cats like they were our children, so the only differences are the number of legs and worrying about what those with two-leg children have to deal with.

There are billions of people living in the world, and for reasons I will never understand, struggle with getting along with each other. As I have watched the interactions between our cats and those outside, they have proven to get along with each other. If different animals can get along, why can’t humans get along with each other? Why can wild animals accept one another, but humans cannot do the same? Differences might be confusing to some, but should differences not be intriguing? Maybe if we learned the way others live in different cultures, it would broaden our horizons and teach us something new. Many are scared of what they do not know or understand, but if we approach this with an open and accepting mind, maybe we could all get along and live in peace and harmony.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I shared and you have a wonderful weekend. How do you prefer to spend your Saturday? It is the first day of the weekend, so I hope you spend it doing what brings you the most happiness. No matter how you decide to spend your weekend, remember you do not have to spend the weekend doing anything you do not want to do. People might try to pressure you to do something in your heart you have no interest in, so stand up for yourself and do not allow anyone to pressure you. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Sunday Weather Thoughts

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When you have a health condition where the heat makes it worse, looking at the weather for the upcoming week is an awful idea! Mother Nature has been slightly disagreeable lately and has caused issues with how I feel physically. I am sure I am not the only one who thinks weather plays a role in several conditions, including pain and migraines. What is it about the weather that can trigger issues in someone with medical conditions? Is it all in a person’s mind, or could there be truth to this phenomenon? Between every other day being another rainy day and the temperatures rising, I am ready to move to an area where the temperature does not get above 70 degrees tops, and rain is limited. Sometimes it seems that Mother Nature and Multiple Sclerosis are ganging up against me and are behaving cruelly.

Does anyone else experience allergies? When are your allergies the most severe? Unfortunately, my allergies are not just in the spring, and I suffer from them all year long, which is VERY annoying. I do realize that the medication I take for Multiple Sclerosis is known to cause sinus issues, and many people cannot understand why I do not end that medication and try something different. The simple answer to this is that I would rather deal with sinus issues than the alternative to trying another medication because the last time I attempted to try another medication, I had a massive relapse, which terrifies me. When you have a choice between dealing with sinus and allergy issues or having your illness possibly progress, it seems like a no-brainer to me.

A few positive notes are that I will have my Anatomy & Physiology class completed next week, and I have come a long way with the feral cat warming up to me since she had her kittens. She has not come close enough for me to pet her, but she is starting to trust me more. I am letting her do things on her terms and not pressuring her because I know we will have a trusting relationship. I do not plan to bring her or any of her babies inside the house, but I look forward to getting closer to them😊! The last thing I must do with my class is the final exam, which I have completed already, but I am rechecking my answers because the grade depends on the final exam 100%. Talk about feeling extra pressure with a test, but I know I will do well and pass my class with an excellent grade!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you enjoyed this post, and I look forward to reading your comments. I will respond to your comments as quickly as possible because I always love knowing what you think! The weekend will be coming to an end soon, and everything will be back to normal. Of course, my weeks are all the same as I am still searching for a job. I forgot how frustrating the job search process was, but hopefully, I will find something soon. My husband has insisted I wait until I complete the next Medical Coding class, but I am not sure I can do that because I miss getting a paycheck and feeling independent. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤️, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes🌈!

Always, Alyssa

Thoughts for the week

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On April 10th, it was two months since I watched the bright and sparkly light in our precious cat Sundance’s blue eyes fade dark. He fought so hard for weeks until the very end of his life, and his little lungs gave in. During the last two months, we have tried holding onto the happiness and love this furry angel brought into our lives, which has provided us with some comfort but does not mend our broken hearts. In every inch of our home, there is another memory of Sundance. The place in the dining room where he cried five times and the place in the living room where he took his last breath still hurts my heart. When I would walk through our front door or return upstairs from the basement, I still looked for him because he met me at the door, but sadly, he was not there☹. I continue hoping what happened at 6:46 PM on February 10th, has been a long nightmare, and I will wake up to Sundance’s beautiful face. The loss of Sundance will continue to feel like a terrible and endless nightmare until I learn to cope better with the loss.

During the weeks I knew Sundance was gravely ill, I divided my attention between ensuring he was as comfortable and loved as possible and doing well in my classes. Everyone deals with sadness in different ways. Some people may decide to become overly lost in depression. Others cannot handle their emotions, so they repress their emotions and practice avoidance to an unhealthy level. Unfortunately, my way of dealing with challenging and emotional situations is avoidance and repression. I stayed by Sundance’s side for hours and observed him so I could help him move around and obsessed over his breathing and giving him his medications at the same time daily.

When we lost Chloe on February 7, 2020, it was painful because we were hurting but saw Sundance grieve. He was the type who loved everyone and did not understand where his best friend went. This was why we adopted two female cats, which were only supposed to be one, but the girls were sweet and loved each other, and we did not want to separate them. It does not seem the girls are upset and have carried on with their silly antics. The only change I have noticed with the girls is they are not eating their wet food as much as they used to. Maybe they are still adjusting to the loss and change.

One of the outside feral cats I have been feeding was pregnant. Mama cat continues to come around to eat but has not brought the kittens by yet. I am very excited to see her babies when they are ready to be out and about to eat cat food. I have said I want one of her kittens, especially if she has a male, but the more I think about it, I am unsure if I am mentally and emotionally ready. I think it would be better to wait until I can go more than a week without breaking down in tears, be done with school, and have a job. I cannot guarantee our female cats would be happy about another cat, especially the part Maine Coon, Willow. She is loving and sweet but not too friendly towards other animals. She hissed at me for having the scent of another animal on me.

The healing process when you experience a loss takes time. Unfortunately, there is not a guide to teach you how to heal faster. Many people may not understand how painful it has been losing Sundance, but it has hurt my heart and soul. I love all animals and prefer to be surrounded by animals any day of the week because they are easier to get along with and understand. Do I think there will come a day when we will be over losing Sundance? Maybe, but there will always be something that brings up a good and painful memory. Do I think we will get another male cat someday? The jury is still out on that because I do not know. If we do, the kitty will not be able to replace Sundance because that boy is irreplaceable.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you had a wonderful week and are looking forward to a weekend doing what makes you happiest. If you decide to do nothing over the weekend, that is okay because you need to consider yourself! I rarely do anything over the weekend because I prefer to stay home where I know I am safe and can avoid unfriendly humans, and I love being around our sweet cats. As always, I look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Happy Friday Eve!

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Happy Friday Eve, y’all! I hope you are having a wonderful week and looking forward to the weekend. Do you have anything planned for the weekend? I know certain areas in the United States will see the total eclipse on Monday, which should be a wonderful experience. We had discussed driving to an area where the eclipse could be seen, but after careful consideration, it would be a nine-hour drive there and back, which seemed like too much driving for us, and we decided against going. I cannot say if we will regret this decision, but I will let you know. I had concerns about going that I never mentioned until we made the final decision because I did not want them to impact my husband’s thoughts. I know it might not make sense to others, but being in a large and open area with many people makes me nervous because of the violent issues that have occurred in the United States.

Do you find building a bond and strong connection with humans or animals easier? I can get along with just about anyone, especially if for a short time, but my preference will always be animals. Of course, I have a loving♥ connection with our cats and would do anything I can for them. I ensure they have food, fresh water, a clean litter box, and a safe and happy home to keep them comfortable and sheltered♥. I have found it easy to earn the trust of the cats I have been feeding outside, even the feral cats that have taken more time and patience. One of the cats, I believe, has an owner, but he is at our house several times a day and sleeps on the front porch, either in the comfortable box I put outside for him with a towel to lay on or on the porch in a place he finds comfortable. It almost seems he has either imprinted on me or adopted me as his Mommy😊!

It seems I have a crew of feral cats that come daily to eat because they remember where the food is😊! I noticed one of the female feral cats, I named Sherbert, had been gaining weight and seemed like she must be pregnant again. Well, she disappeared for a few days but reappeared yesterday, not pregnant anymore. The little girl must have given birth, so I am waiting for her to bring the babies over for food, which might not happen for a few more weeks♥. I know there would be many extra costs, but a part of me hopes we can keep one of them. After losing Sundance in February, we only have two cats, and there is a HUGE piece missing that will never be complete, but I would still enjoy having a kitten😊! We will see what happens and if I can convince my husband to take the kitten in! I think it is safe to say that I am the crazy cat lady in our neighborhood.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed this post and I look forward to reading your comments. I will respond to all comments as quickly as possible😊! I find it interesting to know how many people bond easily with animals or humans because we are all different and the reasons are fascinating. I hope you have a fantastic Friday Eve, and it goes by quickly for you! Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Pick-Me-Up Friday Eve

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Happy Friday Eve! My days are all running together, and it is rare I know what day it is anymore. One of the main ways I knew what day was because I was giving our cat, Sundance, who passed away last month medicine. I have put together a memory box for Sundance, so his favorite toys, food dishes, and medication organizer are together. They say out of sight, out of mind, but everything reminds me of the precious boy. I had been doing better and not crying daily, but in the past couple of days, I have experienced minor breakdowns. I cried myself to sleep on Tuesday night because he was weighing on my mind, and I woke up with swollen eyes yesterday. The healing process from loss takes time, and there are no instructions available to heal faster, so I am doing what I can.

Life is fragile, and we must find ways to survive the obstacles. Sometimes the best way to deal with difficult times is to find something funny to laugh about. The other night, I was laughing so hard about two difficult things I could hardly breathe, and my abs hurt. One of the things I was laughing so hard about was hilarious and slightly terrifying because it was that insanity😊! Even last night, it still made me giggle. People tend to make me laugh more when I have not had much sleep, which has been happening too much lately, but at least lack of sleep makes dealing with people easier😊! I do think it is a disgrace for someone who has never shown interest in religion to create a bible, but some people do the most outrageous and ridiculous things.

How has the week been for you so far? Has anything interesting or exciting happened? I have been working on my classes and applying for jobs. Of course, I am taking things with my class a little too far, but it has been interesting, and it keeps my mind busy because when I have too much free time, my mind goes in negative directions. Thankfully, I did get approved for the grant, and I am very excited to begin the new class in May. I am still feeding the outside cats, and there seems to be more visiting the house daily. I believe the boy cat I named, Snowball, is the father of all the kittens, and he keeps doing his boy kitty thing to provide me with more kittens😊! I am sure he is not thinking of ensuring I always have kittens around, but I have a wild imagination!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and found the quote to be a good pick-me-up! I know the weeks can feel long and exhausting, so we all need something to help manage stress and negative emotions. I look forward to reading your thoughts on this post and will respond as quickly as possible. I know the weekend is not here yet, but it is so close, and I hope you are looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Tuesday Thoughts

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Happy Tuesday, y’all! I hope you have been doing well and your week started the best way possible. What have you been doing for the past few days? I woke up on Sunday with a nasty migraine, and nothing helped it, which was frustrating. I am not sure what triggered the migraine, but then again, I never know 100% what triggers them, or I would avoid them as much as possible. Even though I was battling with a migraine, I still applied for a few jobs, took my A&P quiz, and scored a 100! Logically, I should have avoided the computer, but when I do not keep my mind busy, I start down a dark path with my thoughts. Sometimes, I think I am my worst enemy because I overthink everything, spiral down a rabbit hole, and cannot find my way out.

It has been over a month since we lost our cat, Sundance♥, and it still does not feel real. Even though it is not often, anytime I leave the house and come back home, I expect to have him meet me at the door, as he always did. When I am downstairs, either doing my classwork or spending time with my husband while he is working (he does not have to work very hard-working nights😉), I expect to have him meet me at the door with a curious look on his face indicating he wants to know where I was. Although I know he is no longer here with us, it always hits me hard and makes me emotional♥. I keep wondering when the tears will stop, but I do not expect this to happen because I still get emotional when I think about Chloe, and she passed away four years ago.

Love♥ can be wonderful but causes too much pain. I love♥ our cats but cannot say I would get another if we did not already have two girls because I cannot go through the loss again as it is too painful. They bring us so much love, happiness, and laughter, but the pain when they are gone is terrible. I wish there were visiting hours in Heaven because it would be great to see loved ones lost and our loving cats, but this is not a possibility. There are many days I could use some great advice from my grandfather♥, who passed away in 2013 because he could always make the worst days better with a few words. I do not know if we see our loved ones again, but I do hold onto the hope it will happen because it will make all the struggles and pain in life easier to tolerate.

Unfortunately, the older I get, the more I realize the levels of selfishness are high, and I cannot understand this. What causes a person to be overly selfish and self-absorbed? Was it something they learned during childhood, or were they born that way? The only thing that helps me is knowing people come into our lives for a reason, and they do not have to remain a constant in our lives. We can choose who we keep in our lives, and when a person only brings negativity into our lives, we do not need to continue to communicate with the person. We have the power and control to decide who we allow in our lives, and anyone we keep should bring positivity or benefits. However, we should also try to bring positivity and benefits to other’s lives as well because we can make a difference! I have also learned that some friends come and go, but real friends are constant, no matter how many years pass.

What helps you through hard times in life? Do you journal your thoughts, or is there someone you can talk to about anything without fear of judgment? Do bottle your feelings up inside until you burst with emotions? Of course, there are positive ways to handle difficult times, and everyone is different, so whatever works for you is great! I think my way of handling challenging times by bottling my emotions up is not the best, but I prefer not to cause anyone else stress or worry. I talk to my cats about everything, but one of our cats does not handle my tears well. Sundance was the best listener and did not get overly upset if I cried. He was the BEST boy in the world!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I promise to try keeping up better with my posts and responding to comments, which I have failed miserably at lately. I hope you found some meaning in what I have shared today and that it resonates with how you feel or have felt. Even though we have only made it through one day of the week so far, I hope you are doing well and having a good week. As always, I look forward to your comments and will respond as quickly as possible! Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa