A Tribute To My Angel Above

**Until We Meet Again**

I hope today is simply just another Wednesday in September for y’all and does not hold any unpleasant and heartbreaking memories. Unfortunately, this is a day that changed my entire life and even my worldly views on life, empathy, love, compassion, sympathy, equality, death, and so much more. Many times, traumatizing events we deal with in life can have a long-lasting impact on the rest of our life and it can be incredibly emotional and painful.

It was late in the afternoon on this day seven years ago when my entire world was flipped upside down and changed forever. My husband and I were preparing for my birthday and our anniversary vacation; the two are back to back. I was just leaving the tanning salon and was still in the parking lot when my phone rang. I do not speak much to my family on either side and really only talked with my grandfather, so when the call from my uncle came, it was very unusual. I did always adore my uncle, but life always got in the way.

This call completely and totally shook my heart, mind, and soul deep within its core. I heard the words my uncle spoke so gently, but I do not think his words registered right away because he was telling me that my dear sweet grandfather passed away. In my mind my grandfather, whom I called Poppy hung the moon and walked on water and even though I knew he was battling with cancer, he was supposed to live forever. I could not then and still struggle with imagining a world without him in it because he made everything, including the world so much better.

Over the years, my Poppy taught me so much and for that I am eternally thankful and a better person because of him. He was a man that treated everyone fairly and equally. He never judged a person based on the color of their skin or who they loved because love was really all that matter and skin color never mattered. This is the way things should be and for some reason in 2020 still are not.

A great memory of my Poppy that I have is the car rides with him. Normally, this was when he picked me up from my mother and we would visit the family. There was a song he would sing along with and I loved the sound of his beautiful and unique voice. The song he would sing along with was “Seven Spanish Angels” by Ray Charles and Willie Nelson.www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ&ab_channel=WillieNelsonVEVO This song will never be sang the same or feel the same as it did when my Poppy sang it. I hope this link works right so y’all can hear the song!

Something I will always remember is a little more than one month before my birthday, my Poppy called to wish me a happy birthday. At the time it did not dawn on me, but I think he somehow he knew he was not going to still be around for my birthday and wanted to do what he had done for 32 years and wish me a happy birthday. I wish I realized this back then, but it is too late now. I just hope he never doubted how much I loved and admired him and always will.

Although we lived in different states and were miles apart, I loved our phone calls we would have on my drive home from work. I would tell him about my day and ask about his. He would tell me the latest information about the rest of the family and I would ask him to send them my love, which I know he always did. I miss his voice and the reassuring way he had to make even the worst situations bearable.

I know seven years is a long time and I have had many years to heal, but the loss still feels so fresh. Losing someone as special and loving as my Poppy leaves a hole in your heart and it does not mend easily.

My only hope is that my Poppy and my angel watching over me is proud of the person I am today. I hope he is proud of how immensely passionate I am and how much I will defend my beliefs. I am strong and stand by what I feel strongly about and do not back down to anyone and never allow anyone to sway my thoughts in their direction. I feel the need to stand up for people that are not able to stand up for themselves, which is something I know he would be proud of. Like my Poppy, I treat others equally and with respect. I have never and never will judge another based on things that do not matter like skin color, religious beliefs, race, those they love or anything else because in my eyes we are all human-beings. Love is important and it does not matter who you love as long as you love and not hate.

I will spend the rest of my life doing what I think Poppy would have done. I will always strive to make him proud so when we meet again he will welcome me with open arms and never stop being proud of who I am and what I stand for.

Thank you for visiting my site today. This was probably one of the most difficult posts I have written in a while because I miss my Poppy more than words can ever explain. He was a hero, an idol, someone you could always count on when others disappointed you, and he was a loving man with heart of gold. I do appreciate you taking the time to read this and hope you have a good day. Please remember to stay safe always. Also, please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and many positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

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think-before-speakingI find it amazing how a person can make what to them might be a simple comment, but the person hearing the words perceives it as one of the most remarkable compliments they have heard in a while. Today, I was messaging back and forth with my father. Indeed, my father and I do not talk much, but we have been messaging each other more often lately. Anyways, the words I read made me cry and not tears of sadness, but tears of pure joy. My father told me I get my temper, sense of humor (which at times might more of a sick sense of humor), my caring heart, and love for writing from my late grandfather, Poppy.

I think I have made it perfectly clear before that I completely and totally idolized my tribute-2Poppy. He was a man with a heart and saw everyone equally. I don’t think this man knew hate of any kind. I think it is safe to say that in my eyes he could do NO wrong and pretty much hung the moon and stars.

All these years later, I can still remember being in the car with him and listening to him sing. There was a song that I loved hearing him sing. Of course, that song isn’t the same type of music I listen to normally, but it serves as a nice reminder of him. The song is, “Seven Spanish Angels”, by Ray Charles and Willie Nelson. Now days if I hear this song, within the first two seconds I am in tears because I still can hear my Poppy singing the song.

funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555Just knowing that some of who I am today is a result of someone I still love so much and idolize means more than words can ever begin to describe. I feel confident saying that anyone privileged enough to know my Poppy, would agree with me when I say he was one of the most caring, gracious, humble, generous, charismatic, thoughtful, dedicated, amazing, and loving people that has ever walked this earth. I know there are several other great ways to describe my Poppy, but I do not believe there is enough paper in the world to cover all the ways.

I will never forget the day, September 9, 2013, when I received the call from my uncle. poppys-graveThrough no fault of his own, until this say he was my favorite uncle, called to tell me that my Poppy had passed away. For a moment, all the air was completely sucked out of me. People were walking past me happily talking on their cellphone as if nothing had changed and their world was still spinning fine, when mine had just come to an incredibly abrupt stop. Through heartbreak and tears I kindly asked if anyone had notified my father yet. When he said my father was not contacted yet, I offered to be the one to call him.

At this point, it has been a little while Alyssa's HTC One X 2574since I had spoken to my father because of hurt and anger for missing my wedding. It was not ever going to be an easy conversation, but I wanted him to hear the devastating news from someone kind and emotional, not from social media. I did not think the loss of someone as special as my Poppy should ever hit social media first. I don’t know if this was with the help of the newest angel in Heaven or not, but while I was telling my father what happened he was also seeing it on Facebook. The picture above is many years old of my Poppy, father, and myself.

Poppy PicMy beloved, strong, courageous, compassionate, and sarcastic Poppy fought against prostate cancer for too many months for a man as wonderful as him, but he did so with determination. During his battle he never once uttered the words, “Why me?”, instead he was thankful for his family, friends, other golf enthusiasts and colleagues at Country Club he spent decades at. This was a man that only counted his blessings in life and viewed the difficult times as a challenge, not a failure.

Another comment my father made today was anytime I question myself, all I needed to do is look towards my husband and know he loves ❤ me more than anyone else could. I know he said this was because I was uncertain about myself because I know I am sometimes not easy to deal with. The reason I can be difficult is because I never give up on something I believe strongly in. I will argue my point endlessly and never once change my mind. I know this can be frustrating for some people, but anyone that really knows, understands, and loves me, fully knows how to deal with my incredibly stubborn ways. I also tend to become overly passionate when I feel someone has been mistreated and will not give up until the person is treated better and receives a proper apology that they accept. I guess maybe that is another trait I get 337811-I-Miss-Your-Everythingfrom my Poppy! 

The hard truth is, I never got the chance to say, “Good bye or see you later” to my Poppy ❤. I guess not many people ever do get that kind of chance and there is never a good time to lose someone you care so deeply for, but it sadly happens. I am not even sure my Poppy ❤ knows how much I love him or how much I treasured him. To this day I still look up to him and hope that I am making him proud of me. During the difficult and painful times in my life, I still talk to him and must believe he is watching over me. Shortly after he passed away and I was back at work, I would sit outside for lunch and I swear the same butterfly flew around me each day. I think that butterfly was my dear sweet Poppy ❤ letting me know he was okay and I would be as well. These days anytime I am having a hard time in life and see a butterfly, I think it is my Poppy checking on me. He is always in my heart, mind, and soul silently reminding me he will always be by my side.tribute-1

This post was heavily influenced by the comments my father ❤ made to me today. I thought it was good enough to share the overwhelming feelings I had and wanted to know if anything like this has happened to you. Sometimes, people can say one small thing to you during hard times and it can make an enormous difference. I guess this is why I have said several times before everything we say and do can affect another person in ways we would never have thought of. Sometimes, words that seem insignificant are the words that mean everything to someone else.

largeI would really love ❤ to be able to read of a time you have experienced something like this. Any small words you heard or read that made you smile and actually made your day! I also want to thank you for visiting my site today and reading this very emotional post. I honestly did not make it until the end without many tears. I hope your week is going well and you are feeling the best you possibly can. Whatever you do for the rest of the week, please do all you can to stay safe. This virus has not let up yet and can still be very dangerous. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

America Strong

america-strong-taking-back-america-we-are-americastrong-29735632Long before these troubling times we are witnessing currently, I found both the U.S Navy’s Blue Angels and the U.S Air force’s Thunderbirds to be completely breathtaking. I remember the first time I attended one of the Blue Angels airshows; I was not prepared for how powerful of an impact this show would have on my emotions. The abilities the pilots had were indescribable and left me speechless, which is saying a lot for me.

My husband and I were on vacation at the beach several years ago celebrating our anniversary. We knew the Blue Angels were having a show over the beach and were both excited to watch the show. We were standing with our feet in the water when I America-Strong-Flyover-NYC-U.S.-Navy-photo-by-Lt.-Cmdr.-Aaron-Hicks-U.S.-Air-Force-Staff-Sgt.-Cory-W.-Bush-Fheard a thunderous earth vibrating sound coming from behind me. Right as I started turning around to see what was coming, six planes went past us with lightning speed. This might sound crazy but not only was the airshow amazing to watch, but I could also feel the power in my soul.

Recently, the Blue Angels and Thunderbirds joined together for a nationwide show called America Strong. The show was meant to show unity for everyone during these very difficult times. The Blue Angels and Thunderbirds coordinated a sequence of multi-city flyovers over two-weeks. America Strong is a joined salute to acknowledge the selfless healthcare workers, first responders, and all essential workers on the front lines during the COVID-19 pandemic.

The two very skilled teams plan to fly over the locations that were most affected from blue angels and thunderbirdsCOVID-19 until the middle of May. Both the Air Force and Navy are working closely with local governments and media platforms to ensure all spectators are following the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention’s guidelines for social distancing. The teams are executing numerous procedures to support the safety of personnel and the community.

The Navy’s Blue Angels are based out of Pensacola, Florida and the Air Force’s Thunderbirds are based out of Las Vegas, Nevada. Under normal circumstances both teams fly at more than 30 shows displaying American Military Aviation. Unfortunately, the Blue Angels and Thunderbirds have been forced to cancel many of their Blue Angelsperformances due to the pandemic.

I know I have already said this multiple times before, but during tragic times it is important for everyone to be united and working together. Everyone around the world is aware of this pandemic as it has created many difficult and painful times. It is sad that after two months people are still dealing with the struggles of COVID-19. There have been too many lives lost during this awful time and unfortunately the struggles have not let us. Pointing fingers at who is at fault for this pandemic does not solve the problems, but could make things even more difficult. We can ask the questions, what if we knew about this virus sooner or what if there was a shut down earlier, maybe it downloadwould have changed things, but there is no use in doing that because we will never know.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope the information provided was a good read and if you would like to watch any of the flyovers, they are all over YouTube. I hope your day is going well and you are doing all you can to stay safe! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Tribute to Poppy

tribute-2Good evening y’all! I am a little late with getting this posted, but at least it is still on the day of my beloved Poppy’s birthday❤. I am dedicating this post and this poem to him.

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❤My Poem for my Grandfather (Poppy). A man who will never be forgotten.❤

 

It’s been more than 5 years,

Since we lost you

Today will always be your daywpid-screenshot_2015-09-07-16-12-50_1

I will continue to celebrate

this day in your honor

as it was the day your journey began

I think of all the lives you touched

Gracing them with your loving ways

Because of you

the world made sense

It was a better place

poppys gravewithout you here

nothing has been

or ever will be the same

You gained your wings

To be the angel you always were

I still feel your presence

Especially when times get unbearable

You ease my struggles

By being my loving guardian angel

I cry tears of joy and painpet-tombstones-quotes-09

Joy for the times shared

Pain because I will never stop missing you

Talk to you so often

Still hearing voice so softly

Our bond was strong

and will never be broken

tribute-1It’s been so long without you here

but your memory is held close

I know someday

we will fly together

Soaring about the clouds

But until that day comes

your light will guide me

Believing I will be reunited

With the part of my heart

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Thank y’all for stopping by my site. This post was very difficult and emotional for me, but I wanted to honor my dear Grandfather on his birthday. I wish this amazing man Happy Birthday every  year on his birthday and I do believe he feels the love I am sending him. 

I hope your weekend is going well and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of    love ❤ , comfort and many positive vibes.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤