Midweek Recognition!

Happy WednesdayHappy Wednesday y’all! I hope your week is going great so far and you are feeling the absolute best you possibly can. I am sorry because I am a little behind on most everything right now because I have been feeling a little under the weather. I am not sure if I am feeling so awful because I have a cold or it is probably even more likely it’s the massive amount of stress I am feeling right now, Who knows?

As y’all already know I have many fellow bloggers I admire that A-garden-visitordeserve much recognition. I wanted to share each one of them with you so if you haven’t been able to visit their site, maybe you can soon!

The amazing blogger I want to share with you today is very humble and more than likely will not agree with my views, but I am leaving it up to you to determine who is right! Of course I do think you will agree with me that Beth, at http://bethybrightanddark.com/, is brilliant and her honesty is astonishing. 

Without even trying, Beth offers me SO much hope, strength and encouragement. Beth was 1bd08e94a39f2f317ac499110972374bdiagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in December of 2015 and continues to fight a good fight daily. Through the words she is able to share regarding her thoughts and experiences related to this unpredictable illness (MS), disease modifying treatments (DMT), Physical Therapy (PT) and Occupational Therapy (OT) you can feel her determination! I do think it is the combination of her sass and pure determination she can get through any situation life throws her way. 

Beth is a lot like myself, as we both do not like to cry in front of don't let your illness define youothers. This doesn’t have anything to do with viewing crying as a sign weakness, but everything to do with not wanting to add any additional stress to our families. Beth always inspires me with her kindness, ability to care, never-ending amount of understanding and her killer sarcastic personality!

I know I have already thanked Beth many times before and told her how amazing and encouraging I find her to be, but just in case she has forgotten, “THANK YOU Beth for being your incredible self!” Please never lose that fight within you!sending lots of love

I wanted to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. Each and every one of you have been so fantastic to me during my entire time within the blogging community, especially lately as I have been struggling. Your love and encouraging words are appreciated more than words can even begin to say!

I do hope if you haven’t already been able to visit Beth’s site, you will try stopping by http://bethybrightanddark.com/ when you have a few extra minutes. Without a shadow imagesof a doubt, I think you will enjoy reading every words of Beth’s posts and find her to be extremely strong and motivating!

I do look forward to reading your thoughts about this post and I do promise to respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of       ❤ love, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Crocheting helps with curve balls!

quote-inner-power-giant-todaySometimes life can throw a massive curve ball our way that ends up hitting us head on and hard as hell! During the past few weeks while I have been dealing with pain, heartache, disappointment and LOTS of stress it has been great to turn my attention to something that has eased my mind and given me some peace. Do y’all agree that being able to focus on something besides the stress and hardships of life is much healthier for the mind and health rather than to being absorbed by the negative is the best approach? I sure do!

Y’all might remember that during the holidays I was working on crocheting a blanket for our love seat that would match one I made previously for our couch. Well over the past f155b8cbaa1c506f981db978b13ec991few weeks I decided to focus my attention on making another blanket for our space bedroom! This has really helped ease my mind and provided me with LOTS of comfort, all while creating something that I think will be beautiful!!

Many years ago I learned how to crochet what’s called the “Granny Square” blanket. I know the name used to make me feel old, but it is a really easy pattern that you can just get completely lost in!

The one I just mentioned that I am making for our spare bedroom is going to be three 59d475ba81f82ed3c7607d4f45425c97different colors. I started with three rows of deep purple, two rows of grey and then two rows of black and just stayed with that color scheme. It fits well considering the bathroom attached to the spare bedroom is two shade of purple! I bet you can’t tell what my favorite color is! I promise, it isn’t difficult at all to change colors and actually gets easier the more you do it.

I am definitely not a pro with crocheting, but it might be the only thing that actually CsLOs_WWEAElIvNcalms my VERY tense and uptight nerves. I am going to share a few YouTube videos in case you wanted to give this a chance. If you are anything like me and gets insanely stressed out about everything, this might be very helpful for you!  These videos are pretty easy to follow and you will learn how to start a Granny Square and change colors if you want more than one color!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0g1yINMJQyI&t=447s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26ncIHthj_I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ResetFtgRgY

Please do not feel any pressure to try this; I just wanted to share with you what has 1.30.19-phone-300.jpghelped me through many hard times in life. If you are interested, I do know another type that I will share with you soon, but only if there is an interest. I did want to share with y’all the two of the blankets I have made. The brown, tan and black is the one for the love seat and the 1.30.19-phone-305.jpgpurple, black and great is the one that is in progress.

 I hope you are having a wonderful weekend and feeling great or at least the best you can! I am looking forward to reading any thoughts you may have about this post, if you are interested in learning to crochet or if you already know how to! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

Friday Recognition!

Happy FridayGood morning and happy Friday y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and truly hope you have a fabulous weekend! The weather where I live looks like Saturday will be nice, but there is another chance of rain on Sunday. I hope where you live will be full of sunshine and pleasant temperatures!

This is still in absolutely no particular order, but I do still have several more amazing fellow bloggers I want to share with you. Of course, chances are you may already familiar with donkeysome of them, but if you are not I promise you will love all the fantastic people I am sharing as much as I do.

❤Heather and her adorable sidekick Dizzy’s website  https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com/never fails to impress me! Heather has a love ❤ for dinosaurs, donkeys and pictures as long as she isn’t in the pictures, even though she is a really beautiful lady, but I do understand because I too don’t like being in pictures!

Like myself, Heather lives her life with Multiple Sclerosis. Heather doesn’t allow for this bfa0ee13a5cbf740e7fe43df086ccd04unpredictable illness to control or dictate her daily life, which is truly admirable! Heather’s sweet little helper got her name Dizzy, because Heather battles with dizziness and vertigo, which sadly I understand all too well. I did think this was a really cute and creative way to name such a wonderful helper. Dizzy loves ❤the camera and is very photogenic, so she helps Heather share their many Multiple Sclerosis adventures. I remember a few posts they shared about yoga. I loved ❤ seeing Dizzy’s yoga posses and she really did help me!

I have told Heather many times that I wish I had a Dizzy to keep me calm during doctor’s appointments and bring me joy other times. If you have not already had a chance to visit Heather and Dizzy’s site, I do hope you will have time soon to check them out! Each post moment to recognizethey share is beyond amazing and encouraging and I do believe you will agree with me. I truly value ❤ Heather and Dizzy’s friendship, as they do always encourage and lift me up, especially during the hardships I just endured. I hope Heather already knows this, but I have so much respect and admiration of you and really appreciate your friendship. If I could, I would give Dizzy LOTS of ginger cookies because I know they are her favorite!

imagesThank y’all for stopping by my site today! I hope you are feeling the best you can and have a wonderful Friday! I look forward to reading your thoughts on this post and I do promise to respond as quickly as I possibly can. Please never forget, no matter how I am feeling or what I am going through I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Week with a cough isn’t easy

away-from-the-blogI never meant to be away from blogging for the entire week, but this unrelenting cough has been torture! Coughing all day, everyday, plus working full-time, has caused me more fatigue than normal, so I have not had the energy to write at all. Besides dealing with this nasty and evil cough, last week was extremely busy for me.

As I already mentioned, I have been dealing with a cough for well over a week, hell it has been well over a month now! I already know that it takes my body FOREVER  to get over a simple cold, but honestly I haven’t even been to a doctor. Healthy ingredients for strengthening immunityMy reasons for not going to the doctor might be silly, but in my opinion they are valid. One reason is I am in a new city and haven’t established an actual doctor yet. I know this is something I should have already taken care of, but it just isn’t easy. Hell I know there are not many MS Specialists where I am living, which is frustrating! Another reason I haven’t gone to just some random doctor is because they ALWAYS try prescribing an antibiotic and ALWAYS ignore the bright red warning sign that shows up due to the Gilenya. Gilenya interacts with many medications and it can be very dangerous. I just do not want to deal with all the ignorance that comes along with healthcare in the United States. 

home-selling-6Another major thing that happened last week was we closed on the sale of our townhouse! I had mixed emotions about this because it was the first home my husband and I bought together. There are many memories within the walls of that home, some are great and others are horrible, but it was our home. I am beyond happy the townhouse sold in only 3 days, but it is still bittersweet! The  great thing about this is, we are down to only one mortgage payment!

With so much going on, good and bad, I am thrilled we have a three-day weekend! I am hoping that having these days off without any “must do’s” I will get over this pain in the 1264359-georgia-may-jagger-quote-drink-lots-of-water-get-lots-of-sleep-andass cold and start feeling human again! I never would have thought a simple cold could take this much out of me. I mean I haven’t even had the energy to do much of anything, which is very unlike me. For the past two days I basically get out of bed and move to the other side of the house to the couch, where I typically fall back to sleep while watching TV. 

I am making an effort to get over this cold, but my goodness it is taking way too long! I already take a Vitamin C supplement everyday, so I am not sure what more to do. All the congestion that has come along with this cold has completely killed my appetite, but I am staying hydrated, so I guess that is a plus. Let me ask y’all a question, when you get what should be a simple cold, does it take a long time to go away?

I hope y’all are having a nice and restful weekend! I am working on getting through emails, comments and your posts, which hopefully I will be caught up by the end of the long weekend! Playing catch up while my head is feeling very foggy isn’t easy, but I am trying! ❤As always I do appreciate you stopping by my site and your patience with my catch up time. No matter what I might be dealing with, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Pain gets in the way!

tuesdayGood morning y’all! I hope you are doing well today. I am terribly sorry for missing my traditional “Motivational Monday”. I  don’t think I have ever missed this and my reasons for missing this yesterday is because I was feeling horrible and in a lot of severe pain. We all know that pain comes with the territory of many if not most chronic illnesses and I normally fight beyond this issue, but it was just wasn’t possible yesterday. 

Y’all already know that my husband’s birthday was on Saturday and thankfully we werebirthday success able to celebrate his day! I was so happy to be able to make my husband’s birthday special and ensure he had a beautiful cake!! I was so worried about this cake situation because I was use to getting his cake at the local store near are old house, but thank goodness this new grocery store did a fabulous job!

I honestly have absolutely NO idea what in the world could be causing the increase in pain is weakness leaving the bodymy pain, but I am hoping it will end soon and not be a dreaded relapse. The last massive relapse I had was last year and probably due to changing medication and the stress that followed that decision. I am probably going to just blame the weather for my pain and cough issues because that is just easier and offers more hope! Yes, weeks later I still have a nagging cough that will not go away!

Is there anything that helps you when your pain gets out of control? I tend to take kindly to bfa0ee13a5cbf740e7fe43df086ccd04my trusty heating pain because that does help some, but still doesn’t completely eliminate the pain. I know I have mentioned previously that I get pain in my back and legs, but normally one is worse than the other. Right now, I couldn’t possibly say which one is hurting me worse. What I can say for certain is the leg pain is making it hard to walk far, but I am doing what I can and still refuse to allow this illness to defeat me!

Thank y’all for visiting my site this morning. I appreciate all of your support more than I can even explain. I am truly sorry for missing Motivational Monday, but I promise I will not miss Pick-Me-Up Thursday! I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of ❤love, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Crazy decisions and side effects!

side effectsI have always thought it was a little crazy and extremely frustrating that medications meant to slow the progression of illnesses down, are accompanied by a long list of possible side effects. I know that the Gilenya I take daily is supposed to slow the progression of my Multiple Sclerosis, but it has a really LONG list of potential side effects and at one point that was what pushed me to want to make a change in my treatment plan.

The middle of last year I was having so many issues with terrible sinus headaches and migraines that I wanted to find out what was causing them. After reviewing what side images (2)effects Gilenya posed, I saw somethings that were common was headaches and sinus troubles. I was not just looking the side effects up on Google, but I was on Gilenya’s actual website, so I took this very serious as I am sure most people would. I went to my doctor with these concerns and she pretty much dismissed my thoughts claiming that it was not all that common with this medication and that I shouldn’t be doing this kind of research because it was “false” information. I argued back asking how it could be false when it was on the manufactures real website!? Of course I was frustrated that my valid concerns regarding my health was being ignored and not even willing to discuss more at that oral_therapy02time, so I decided to ignore her medical advice and demanded that I try a new medication immediately. It wasn’t until I told her there was another oral medication I read about that I thought would be better for me she finally decided it was worth her precious time to have a conversation with me. She tried her darndest to use the fear tactic, which of course wasn’t working well with me and only caused me to question her logic further. I know it sounds crazy, but I was completely convinced that she was receiving kick-backs from the drug company and me not changing medications would continue to be financially beneficial to her.

In preparation to change my treatment plan from Gilenya to Tecfidera I discontinued the Gilenya last July. I was required to be off medication completely for 6 weeks, so all the 51WIQmA-fnL._SL1000_Gilenya I had taken needed be out of my system and allow the Tecfidera to be able get into my system. In early September I started on Tecfidera which again is an oral medication. During this time my MS did not get better, but much worse! I guess MAYBE the doctor was correct when she said Tecfidera wasn’t going to be strong enough for me or maybe I had the nasty relapse because of ALL the stress I was under. I was so worried about the headaches and the fact that Gilenya could have been the cause and then even more concerned that my MS was progressing way too soon in my life. Whatever the cause was the MRI I had in early October was HORRIBLE, landing me right back to the drug I was convinced was causing my headaches!

It still doesn’t seem fair to me that we have to make the decision if we would rather deal Gilenya+Fingolimidewith the side effects of these so-called helpful drugs or be disabled. As difficult as it is to deal with the massive headaches/migraines, I would much rather deal with them rather than lose my normal abilities, like walking without assistance. I still do not think it is right for anyone to have to make a decision like this, but I guess it is what it is!

I have been back on the Gilenya for a little over a year now and I do still deal with sinus trouble and migraines, but at least the MS hasn’t to have progressed. I do think that until there is a cure for MS, which I must believe will happen in my lifetime, I will not be changing medications! Now that my husband and I have completed our move, I am ms-research-2013-6-638searching for a new MS Specialist, who will hopefully be more knowledgeable and have much better bedside manner. I know I have already shared this with y’all, but I am NOT a fan of my previous specialist. As crazy as this may sound, I want a specialist that is an older gentlemen because I have found they are more understanding and considerate. Of course going with an older person, I run the risk of them retiring, like two of my previous specialist did and I absolutely ❤ LOVED❤ them! I am sure that with the determination I have, I will find one that is best for me and my personality. I guess it shouldn’t be as important to have the warm and fuzzy with a doctor as it is for the doctor to be knowledgeable, but I need to feel comfortable with them in order to trust the doctor.

I always appreciate you taking the time to stop by my site today and I always love reading your got-hope1comments! I hope y’all are having a nice weekend and you are feeling as good as you possibly can! I must say having a long weekend is absolutely wonderful and I have been able to rest, but still do things that needed to be done! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of ❤ love, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Always continue living!

nobodysaidNo one has ever said that living with a chronic illness was easy, but so many of us do. Some of us find ways to live through the pain caused from our illness with dignity, grace and determination. After all many illnesses do not YET have a cure, so it is just best to push through the best we can.

If we allow ourselves to remain focused on whatever illness or illnesses we struggle with, I believe we would miss out on all the good things life has towhen-life-gives-you-reason-to-cry-smile-stars offer us. It isn’t worth losing the happiness our life can hold by dwelling on the struggles we face. It is difficult and yet possible to turn all the pain and hardships we wrestle with into something beneficial, I know how crazy that might sound but it is true. Some of the ways we battle through life can be very inspiring and encouraging for SO many others.

Y’all already know that I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis for 19 very long and painful years, which is more than half of my life! If I had just given up all hope when I was first never-give-up2diagnosed, I would never be where I am today. Yes, life gets really complicated and frustrating, but overall I am in a very good place. My husband and I have moved to a new city, as y’all already know. We are living in a great home that is where my husband’s amazing grandparents raised their family. There is so much love ❤ built into the walls of our home and I swear you can still feel his grandparent’s spirit in every inch of this house❤! This is a very comforting and reassuring feeling that I am thankful for.

I am pretty sure y’all already know this about me by now, but just in case you ever questioned it, I believe holding on tight to positivity ❤ can go a long way. If you are constantly in a negative frame of mindimages (2) nothing good will ever really happen in your life, which could just be because you aren’t able to see something great that is right in front of you or you aren’t allowing yourself to feel it. Staying negative all of the time just creates a dark cloud over your head that follows you everywhere you go and there is no way to hide from it. Negativity can create a blind spot to anything and anyone that could actually be wonderful.

I know that it is completely impossible to be positive 24/7 365 days of the year, but it isn’t healthy to remain negative all those days either. There is always a manageable balance 26550426-balance-bad-or-good-scales-on-white-isolated-background-3dbetween the good and the bad; we just need to acknowledge the differences and keeping moving forward!

I hope y’all have had a lovely weekend and you are feeling well today! It has been a sunny and chilly weekend, which is MUCH better than chilly and rainy. Thank you so much for stopping  by my site today and I do really look forward to reading your comments. I promise y’all that I will respond as quickly as I can, I am getting better at balancing work and life again! Enjoy the rest of what is left of your weekend. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of ❤ love, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤