Gratitude, Appreciation, & Love

76710407-always-be-thankful-hand-lettering-calligraphy-Unfortunately, it seems like far too many people are living in a perpetual state of always wanting more and it’s never good enough. Material things have become more important than just simply being thankful for what we do have. The never-ending desire for more only decreases happiness and never changes how satisfied with life someone is.

Most people think someone who is rich is happier because they have more money and xB255605all the things an outsider wants. The truth is, no amount of money can buy happiness. Just because someone has a large bank account doesn’t mean they are happy and satisfied with their life, we never know what goes on behind closed doors and fake smiles. These people end up spending less time doing enjoyable activities, less time with family and friends, and stay stressed because they still want MORE!

The way society is in 2020, I wonder does anyone know what gratitude and appreciation mean? The definition of gratitude is, “the quality of being thankful, readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.” Gratitude has the ability to help people feel positive emotions, Seeing-The-World-With-Eyes-of-Gratitude-1enjoy life more, improve health, and have the ability to build strong and meaningful relationships.

People are satisfied with family and friend relationships more when they are grateful. The ability to be grateful actually can create more happiness, less stress, and less depression. This can also make people feel they have more control over their lives, have the ability to cope with difficult times, and have higher self-esteem.192360d23eb5e2295bc4fef40081ad65

For many of us, Monday through Friday is almost the same, with little to no change. It almost becomes the norm and we perform out of habit, assuming it will always be that way. But things can and do change without any warning.

unnamed (2)What do you do when in less than five minutes everything in life changes? It is a feeling of being lost in the darkest room when your entire world was turned upside down and shook vigorously. You are left to miss the normal mundane life that most probably would think is boring. It makes it much worse when there isn’t a logical reason for this change.

This post has been a little about gratitude and then random thoughts from something I recently went through. After this past Friday, I have not felt my normal self or even think my normal self is worth anything. It is upsetting, disturbing, and offensive when you feel that an illness you didn’t ask for creates even more problems with jobs. Honestly, it has felt like tumblr_lxnjfoOObg1qmdjeto1_500_largethis many times before, like everyone looks at you with pity. The people you work with think because you miss a day or two of work that it is going to be a common thing, but that isn’t true. I think if some of these hateful and judgmental people had to walk in my shoes for one hour, they would not be able to.

I have said this numerous times, but I am going to say it again, everything in life happens for a reason! Sometimes, the things we view initially as a punishment might actually be a reward. There are so many times we may unnamed (1)not fit in with the so-called normal people, but that is okay! Fitting in with people in a society as we have is not a good thing! Also, sometimes when one door closes another one will open, opening this door might lead to wonderful and amazing things!

First, I want to thank Bella at https://thoughtsnlifeblog.com/for the amazing  blogging party she had this weekend! This was a wonderful opportunity to meet some pretty outstanding fellow bloggers! Second, thank y’all for stopping by my site today. Your never-ending kindness and support mean so much toimages (1) me! And finally, I hope y’all had a lovely weekend and you are feeling well. I do look forward to reading your comments for this post, no pressure though! Please never forget that no matter what I might be going through, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Let It Go Friday!

bf6b8213b838cde60cb574777611ef90Happy Friday y’all!! I hope your week has gone well and your weekend will be FULL of nothing but happiness and relaxation! I am especially happy the weekend is so close because my week was filled with many changes, learning new things and meeting new people at my new job. All I can say is, I am completely and totally worn out and need to recuperate from a very LONG week!dont-overthink-just-let-it-go-i-nicki-galper

Using Friday as a day to LET GO of anything that didn’t go the way we wanted or just LET GO of any negative energy we may feel will allow for us to enjoy the weekend that much more. Something I already knew, but yet still struggle with is, overthinking everything I do. I tend to overthink every move I make and most of the time, which  really isn’t necessary. I plan to stop overthinking every move I make with my new job because I typically am doing the tasks correctly. 

The quote I am sharing with y’all today is something I need to continue reminding myself of and I hope it will be helpful to you as well!let go 19

First of all, I want to thank you for stopping by my site today. I hope the quote I shared will look on the bright sidemean something to you and y’all know I look forward to reading your comments. Second, I am SO sorry that I am behind yet again on responding to your comments and reading your posts. I have so many posts that I plan to read this weekend when I am not exhausted and can focus. 

I hope you have a fantastic Friday and you enjoy your smileweekend! Y’all have been so understanding and encouraging with me for a long time and I appreciate each and everyone of you. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Very random thoughts!

life-is-like-a-roller-coaster-it-has-its-ups-and-downs-but-its-your-choice-to-scream-or-enjoy-the-ride-quote-1There are many times when life feels like a roller-coaster that has fallen off the tracks. It seems like one bad thing happens, just to be followed by another and it ends up turning into a vicious cycle of events. Often times you are just getting through one of lives difficult event when something else comes up. It is hard to catch your breath, but you are also forced to keep going.

We have all heard people say that life is short, but is it really? I have always believed that everything in our life happens for a reason and we may never know what those reasons are, but they are there. I think our story was written way before we were even born and we are just here to play the part.

It kind of seems like I have lived a year that was full of changes, some were good and 4others were not. I have no regrets about moving to a new area with my husband and two cats. It was a good choice and I do not miss the area we moved from. The move was a new chapter in our lives and it is not complete yet!

I have always known that you can’t run away from your problems because they will always follow you, no matter where you go. I am not saying there are any problems in my household, but I can’t go anywhere to hide from the pain caused from Multiple Sclerosis or the stress that seems to go everywhere I do. Stress is just something that has been a burden on my mind and haunted me for years.

maxresdefaultThere are many times I think about a place that has less pain and is stress-free. I find the beach to be a magical place where my pain seems to be less and stress is not welcomed and is blocked from the beach! I think the sound and smell of the ocean clears the mind and lightens to burdens to the soul. What do y’all think?

Y’all already know that I left my previous job a few weeks ago and do not start my new job until Monday. This did give me a break from work and allowed me to recuperate 06e6cb98-9eac-4eb5-a6c4-26efd7cde98c_logofrom that job because it really was a terrible place to be. The job was full of negativity and ended up being a very hostile environment. During my time off I was able to reunite more with something I am truly passionate about. I have made the decision to try getting into freelance writing. I know it is going to be a lot more difficult because I will be working full-time, but I will still put forth the effort. Of course it is going to take me longer to get everything setup, but it is a real possibility and I will make it happen!

Most everything about the job I start on Monday will be very new to me, but I catch onto images (9)things fast. I do not see it as be a difficult job, but hopefully it will be a great new adventure. There was a time I was very naïve and thought all people had good intentions, but as I have gotten older I know this isn’t always true.Don’t get me wrong, I know there are many wonderful people out there, but with some it isn’t easy to know if their intentions are good or if they plain evil hiding behind fake sincerity. I plan to go into this new job with my eyes wide open and no real expectations, good or bad. I guess if I do not have any expectations for the new job, I will not be disappointed!images (7)

So this is my last weekend before starting to work full-time again. I thought it would be best to get plenty of rest to prepare for next week, so I have not done much of anything! Either today or tomorrow I need to go to the grocery store to get a few things so I can make my lunch for the week. I think I am going to try to start eating healthier and think it will make me feel better all around. We are also getting our new kitchen appliances deliver on Saturday, so I can try cooking dinner more than we eat fast food. It has been over a year since we had a stove and surprisingly enough, I am SUPER excited about it!

smileI hope you are enjoying your weekend so far and you are feeling the best you can. I am still planning to keep my same schedule of posts and continue to try doing additional ones, but it might take me a little longer to respond to comments. We are approaching winter and it is already pretty chilly where I live. The craziest thing is, I actually grew up in the north where there are very cold and snowy winters. I guess living in the south for 20 years has made me forget what cold really is! Now when I say it is getting colder where I live, I think low 50’s is cold!  

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. This post was kind of all over the positive vibesplace, but I guess I just have a lot on my mind and writing about it helps! I do hope you leave a comment because I love reading what your thoughts are on everything. I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

Pick Me Up Thursday!

Happy Friday EveHello y’all! I hope your week has been a good one and you are feeling as good as you possibly can. My week has been a little crazy and it has given me some mixed feelings. I will say that my pain levels have been much higher and it is probably due to stress. I would love to say that I will have the weekend to make sense of this week, but I am actually working the weekend. I kitty friday evedo not know if it is good that I am working the weekend because it will keep my mind occupied or if it is a terrible thing because I need time to process life difficulties. One good thing is HUGE, I will be working on my own over the weekend and not have to deal with my ignorant co-workers! 

What I am sharing with y’all today to serve as a pick me up isn’t really a quote, but the words are meaningful or at least I think they are! Even though my mood isn’t at it’s best, these five very simple words have lifted my spirits some and I hope they will for you as well! Sometimes it is the simple things that are the most meaningful ❤!dream image believe

Friday eveFirst of all, I do appreciate you visiting my site today! I really enjoy reading your comments on what I have shared and find your thoughts to be pretty amazing! Second, I hope your week hasn’t been too difficult and you have a great day! Even though I may be dealing with some struggles right now, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Our Choices…..

download (6)The choices we make today, may impact us tomorrow, next week or even next year. We will never really know when or how the impact will occur, but it will. All of the choices we make will have either negative consequences or provide us with a reward of some kind.

 Maybe I am wrong, but I do believe when we face various situations there are two roads we can choose to travel down. I am not saying the two roads are crystal clear nor do they2 roads have sign indicating which road is the correct way to go. However, I think we all know the difference between right and wrong, but we are all human-beings that make mistakes and may not choose the wrong road the first time around.

After taking the wrong road numerous times throughout our life, this teaches us many valuable lessons we will cherish. If you are anything like me, you beat yourself up for days because you made an incorrect decision. It takes me much longer to forgive myself than it does for me to forgive someone else. Sometimes we might make the wrong choice images (2)several times, but the lessons learned from this will stick with us.

Have you ever tensed up and or panicked when asked a question about something you may have done wrong? This can pretty much be considered a “fight or flight” reaction and the end results more often than not, are not a good one. I do not believe anyone reacts well when they are badgered with the same damn thing for days or even weeks! I don’t know about you, but this type of situation makes me shut down completely. This often brings up SO many negative emotions and memories for me which I have tried so hard to forget themimages (5).

Life works in mysterious ways and there are so many struggles that come along during our lifetime and normally without any warning. No matter what trials and tribulations I may face, I still believe that everything happens for a reason. I know I will never understand why I am forced to deal with certain things, like living with MS, but what I can say is, as long as I am breathing I will never surrender or give up. I have always believed firmly that the only way we can fail is to give up and this is something I will always refuse to do!

ff309e10cdfddaaae004ed16f196e947.jpgI remember, when I was first diagnosed with MS at the young age of 19, I wondered what I did so wrong to deserve this as my punishment. Although as I have gotten older, I do not view living with MS as a punishment, but I see it as a way to prove my strength and determination to survive! I also view living with MS as a way to help others realize that life does go on, but some adjustments may need to be made. I strive to show others living with a chronic illness and even those not battling an illness, that there is still hope and how remaining positive will be a benefit!images (3)

Thank y’all so much for visiting my site today! I hope your weekend has been lovely and you were able to do things that made you happy. After the crazy week I had, I treated myself to a manicure and pedicure. I can say without a doubt that the pedicure helped the pain I was feeling in my feet and lower part of my legs. I think a pedicure a month should be required and even prescribed from my doctor! Even if it is short lived, it is amazing how much the foot massage helps my pain. I hope you are enjoying the final days of the weekend and you are prepared for the week ahead. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Crazy week of change!

busy weekY’all may have noticed that I have not been all that active with the blogging community because last week was pretty crazy for me. There were many changes, but they were all positive changes. I often don’t care much for change, but they are going to happen whether we want them to or not. To make life a little easier I decided to just embrace the changes and carry on!

You probably remember that my previous job was not working out for several very valid reasons. The main reason was how expensive insurance was going to be for just myself. images (1)The person that hired me, may he rest in peace, knew why I needed to have insurance, but he never told me how ridiculous the cost would be. I was not necessarily lied to, but I also was not provided with appropriate information. I do not think this experience was all that fair to me, but it is what it is. I guess we live and learn, so there is no reason to dwell on the negative feelings from that experience.

On a much more positive note, Monday I started a new job. In the past I worked as a leasing consultant, assistant manager, marketing manager and a property manager for beauty in changeapartment communities. I have been out of this type of work for many years, but I was able to adjust rather quickly. I guess somethings are like riding a bike! I am working for a nice community and my co-workers so far are great! The entire staff gets along rather well and we are able to have a little fun! Working a full-time job means we are working 40 hours a week. Working 40 hours a week seems like we are at work more than we are at home, so it is important to enjoy what we are doing and our co-workers. It has only been 5 days, but I find the people I work with a little crazy in a good way! The new jobother great thing about this new job is insurance for both me and my husband is far less than it would have been for just me at my previous job. The insurance also will start on July 1st and at the previous job I would have had to wait three months. It will be a stress relief having insurance again!

The car accident I had about a month ago was scary, frustrating, time- consuming, discouraging and sad! My car ended up being totaled and the only good thing about this was what the insurance company paid out for the loss of my car. I was forced to try finding something to replace my irreplaceable car. This was a little emotional because that was the car my husband and I left our wedding in, but we will always have 38b54588f572221f762636ac3fc4671cthose amazing memories. Unfortunately car shopping was a real eye-opener to how dishonest people can be. Thankfully my husband was extremely helpful with this aggravating process. My husband did n great job searching for what I wanted and made sure all my requirements were met! I was able to travel with him a few times times, but he did on his own as well and he even went with his mother to once. I am very thankful for everyone that helped find the right vehicle for me. We did finally find the right one at the end of last week and brought it home late Friday night! I had been awake more than 24 hours and it did a number on me. I am still trying to feel normal and alert. My new car is actually an SUV and it so pretty and I just love it! I wanted a Chevy Tahoe that was a dark grey or black, had a sunroof and heated seats, which the one I ended up with had it all! My Tahoe is an unusually pretty dark grey that just sparkles! Even though I understand this SUV isn’t accident proof, I am thankful it is a lot safer than my little car was.

I am slowly getting adjusted to working full-time, getting enough sleep so I do not get sickdownload (3) and or run rundown and of course the nasty southern heat. Honestly I am not great at the getting enough sleep thing, but I am trying. The temperatures have been very hot, which causes my energy level to be rather low. It is not even summer yet, but it has already been in the high 90’s, which means summer might be more like hell!

I definitely want to try to figure out how to continue blogging while working full-time. I have always heard that when you really want to do something bad enough, you will find a way to do so. I am very behind right now, so please forgive my late responses to what you share and my own site. There are no doubts in my mind that I will get everything figured out and I will be back on schedule!

Beautiful Sunday Morning Quotes and + Beautiful Good Morning Sunday Messages - FreshmorningquotesI hope you are having a wonderful weekend and you are feeling well! I think you already know this, but in case you forgot, I appreciate you taking the time to visit my site! I promise if you leave a comment, I will respond as quickly as I can. With the weekend coming to an end soon, I hope you are able to enjoy what is left to the fullest! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Accepting realities!

acceptanceSomething that I have had a really hard time admitting and accepting is that Multiple Sclerosis is a disability. Whenever I have applied for a job, there is always that annoying question “Do have or have you had a disability.” I mean what kind of BS question is that to ask someone? Of course I want to say “NO”, but Multiple Sclerosis is listed as a disability on the darn application and I can’t falsify anything on an application because that could result in me being disqualified for a position I applied for and want. I think this is so invasive and completely ridiculous, but I guess it is what it is in life!

For some strange reason the words disabled and disability shatter my heart into aimages million pieces and cause me to feel like a useless failure . I do realize how irrational this may sound, but that is how I have been feeling. It made me incredibly sad when I had a difficult time walking through a store last weekend because my legs and feet were experiencing SO much pain and weakness. All
hashtag person not disabilityI wanted to do was cry, but I couldn’t because I view that as letting this illness win the never-ending battle we have been in for years and that will NEVER be an option for me!!

I know I already shared with y’all that I figured out I am gluten-intolerant without the expensive tests a doctor would want to run. It seems like a punishment to have to deal withlife isn't fair the issues Multiple Sclerosis comes along with and then add gluten-intolerant to the mix seems quite unfair. I know we all deal with random issues and keep on moving forward because we do not have a choice. I am also very aware that many others deal with SO many other struggles that are far worse than what I am, so I am really not complaining. I am going to share more about this gluten-intolerant situation in a later post.

tired.jpgThe truth is, because I am always so exhausted during the week after working 8 hours every day of the week, I often don’t have the energy to write as much as I would like to. I end up with so many random thoughts running around like crazy in my mind; it gets so hard to keep track of them all and have those thoughts come together for a good read and one that I am proud of.

For the past week or so, I have been experiencing an increase in the number of horrible do not confuse bad days as weaknessdizzy/black-out spells. I have had these issues happen before, but never so many in just one day. At least 2 days last week, there were several moments when the room went completely dark and there NO were sounds at all, which under other circumstances would be great. There was one time I was talking with a co-worker at her desk about work and all of sudden I felt weak, light-headed, hot as hell and dizzy. Luckily I was standing very close to the wall, which kept me standing upright. It might have been pretty embarrassing if I all of sudden fell to the floor at this new job.

I am not really sure which of these issues are more images (3)terrifying; dizzy spells, black-out moments or the combination of the two. Of course I would say the combination of dizziness and black-out would the most terrifying because you are dealing two different disturbing issues at the same time. I have dealt with dizzy spells for so many years now, but I have found ways that help me limit the duration of my dizziness, most of the time at least.

Truthfully my experiences with black-out spells aren’t plentiful in comparison to dizziness, but I have enough sense and knowledge to download (6)understand how horribly upsetting they can be. I remember a few years ago there was a period of time when I had a several short black-outs throughout the week, but they weren’t anywhere near as severe as they are now. I am not sure if its stress, lack of sleep, weather changes or something else. The list of possible reasons really could go on and on and on, but I really just wish they were STOP!

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. I will never pressure you to leave a download (7)comment, but I do encourage your comments if that makes any sense, but I know your thoughts will be amazing. I promise to respond to your comments as quickly as I can! I hope you are feeling well and enjoying your weekend! Sometimes I think the best part of a weekend isn’t getting out and staying busy, but not having any plans at all so there aren’t any time requirements. My days are set in stone during the week with work, which I tend to strongly dislike, but I guess it is just the life of adulthood. I enjoy spending my 2 very short weekend days living in the moment and not doing anything that might cause unnecessary stress. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤