Very random thoughts!

life-is-like-a-roller-coaster-it-has-its-ups-and-downs-but-its-your-choice-to-scream-or-enjoy-the-ride-quote-1There are many times when life feels like a roller-coaster that has fallen off the tracks. It seems like one bad thing happens, just to be followed by another and it ends up turning into a vicious cycle of events. Often times you are just getting through one of lives difficult event when something else comes up. It is hard to catch your breath, but you are also forced to keep going.

We have all heard people say that life is short, but is it really? I have always believed that everything in our life happens for a reason and we may never know what those reasons are, but they are there. I think our story was written way before we were even born and we are just here to play the part.

It kind of seems like I have lived a year that was full of changes, some were good and 4others were not. I have no regrets about moving to a new area with my husband and two cats. It was a good choice and I do not miss the area we moved from. The move was a new chapter in our lives and it is not complete yet!

I have always known that you can’t run away from your problems because they will always follow you, no matter where you go. I am not saying there are any problems in my household, but I can’t go anywhere to hide from the pain caused from Multiple Sclerosis or the stress that seems to go everywhere I do. Stress is just something that has been a burden on my mind and haunted me for years.

maxresdefaultThere are many times I think about a place that has less pain and is stress-free. I find the beach to be a magical place where my pain seems to be less and stress is not welcomed and is blocked from the beach! I think the sound and smell of the ocean clears the mind and lightens to burdens to the soul. What do y’all think?

Y’all already know that I left my previous job a few weeks ago and do not start my new job until Monday. This did give me a break from work and allowed me to recuperate 06e6cb98-9eac-4eb5-a6c4-26efd7cde98c_logofrom that job because it really was a terrible place to be. The job was full of negativity and ended up being a very hostile environment. During my time off I was able to reunite more with something I am truly passionate about. I have made the decision to try getting into freelance writing. I know it is going to be a lot more difficult because I will be working full-time, but I will still put forth the effort. Of course it is going to take me longer to get everything setup, but it is a real possibility and I will make it happen!

Most everything about the job I start on Monday will be very new to me, but I catch onto images (9)things fast. I do not see it as be a difficult job, but hopefully it will be a great new adventure. There was a time I was very naïve and thought all people had good intentions, but as I have gotten older I know this isn’t always true.Don’t get me wrong, I know there are many wonderful people out there, but with some it isn’t easy to know if their intentions are good or if they plain evil hiding behind fake sincerity. I plan to go into this new job with my eyes wide open and no real expectations, good or bad. I guess if I do not have any expectations for the new job, I will not be disappointed!images (7)

So this is my last weekend before starting to work full-time again. I thought it would be best to get plenty of rest to prepare for next week, so I have not done much of anything! Either today or tomorrow I need to go to the grocery store to get a few things so I can make my lunch for the week. I think I am going to try to start eating healthier and think it will make me feel better all around. We are also getting our new kitchen appliances deliver on Saturday, so I can try cooking dinner more than we eat fast food. It has been over a year since we had a stove and surprisingly enough, I am SUPER excited about it!

smileI hope you are enjoying your weekend so far and you are feeling the best you can. I am still planning to keep my same schedule of posts and continue to try doing additional ones, but it might take me a little longer to respond to comments. We are approaching winter and it is already pretty chilly where I live. The craziest thing is, I actually grew up in the north where there are very cold and snowy winters. I guess living in the south for 20 years has made me forget what cold really is! Now when I say it is getting colder where I live, I think low 50’s is cold!  

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. This post was kind of all over the positive vibesplace, but I guess I just have a lot on my mind and writing about it helps! I do hope you leave a comment because I love reading what your thoughts are on everything. I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

Pick Me Up Thursday!

Happy Friday EveHello y’all! I hope your week has been a good one and you are feeling as good as you possibly can. My week has been a little crazy and it has given me some mixed feelings. I will say that my pain levels have been much higher and it is probably due to stress. I would love to say that I will have the weekend to make sense of this week, but I am actually working the weekend. I kitty friday evedo not know if it is good that I am working the weekend because it will keep my mind occupied or if it is a terrible thing because I need time to process life difficulties. One good thing is HUGE, I will be working on my own over the weekend and not have to deal with my ignorant co-workers! 

What I am sharing with y’all today to serve as a pick me up isn’t really a quote, but the words are meaningful or at least I think they are! Even though my mood isn’t at it’s best, these five very simple words have lifted my spirits some and I hope they will for you as well! Sometimes it is the simple things that are the most meaningful ❤!dream image believe

Friday eveFirst of all, I do appreciate you visiting my site today! I really enjoy reading your comments on what I have shared and find your thoughts to be pretty amazing! Second, I hope your week hasn’t been too difficult and you have a great day! Even though I may be dealing with some struggles right now, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Our Choices…..

download (6)The choices we make today, may impact us tomorrow, next week or even next year. We will never really know when or how the impact will occur, but it will. All of the choices we make will have either negative consequences or provide us with a reward of some kind.

 Maybe I am wrong, but I do believe when we face various situations there are two roads we can choose to travel down. I am not saying the two roads are crystal clear nor do they2 roads have sign indicating which road is the correct way to go. However, I think we all know the difference between right and wrong, but we are all human-beings that make mistakes and may not choose the wrong road the first time around.

After taking the wrong road numerous times throughout our life, this teaches us many valuable lessons we will cherish. If you are anything like me, you beat yourself up for days because you made an incorrect decision. It takes me much longer to forgive myself than it does for me to forgive someone else. Sometimes we might make the wrong choice images (2)several times, but the lessons learned from this will stick with us.

Have you ever tensed up and or panicked when asked a question about something you may have done wrong? This can pretty much be considered a “fight or flight” reaction and the end results more often than not, are not a good one. I do not believe anyone reacts well when they are badgered with the same damn thing for days or even weeks! I don’t know about you, but this type of situation makes me shut down completely. This often brings up SO many negative emotions and memories for me which I have tried so hard to forget themimages (5).

Life works in mysterious ways and there are so many struggles that come along during our lifetime and normally without any warning. No matter what trials and tribulations I may face, I still believe that everything happens for a reason. I know I will never understand why I am forced to deal with certain things, like living with MS, but what I can say is, as long as I am breathing I will never surrender or give up. I have always believed firmly that the only way we can fail is to give up and this is something I will always refuse to do!

ff309e10cdfddaaae004ed16f196e947.jpgI remember, when I was first diagnosed with MS at the young age of 19, I wondered what I did so wrong to deserve this as my punishment. Although as I have gotten older, I do not view living with MS as a punishment, but I see it as a way to prove my strength and determination to survive! I also view living with MS as a way to help others realize that life does go on, but some adjustments may need to be made. I strive to show others living with a chronic illness and even those not battling an illness, that there is still hope and how remaining positive will be a benefit!images (3)

Thank y’all so much for visiting my site today! I hope your weekend has been lovely and you were able to do things that made you happy. After the crazy week I had, I treated myself to a manicure and pedicure. I can say without a doubt that the pedicure helped the pain I was feeling in my feet and lower part of my legs. I think a pedicure a month should be required and even prescribed from my doctor! Even if it is short lived, it is amazing how much the foot massage helps my pain. I hope you are enjoying the final days of the weekend and you are prepared for the week ahead. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Crazy week of change!

busy weekY’all may have noticed that I have not been all that active with the blogging community because last week was pretty crazy for me. There were many changes, but they were all positive changes. I often don’t care much for change, but they are going to happen whether we want them to or not. To make life a little easier I decided to just embrace the changes and carry on!

You probably remember that my previous job was not working out for several very valid reasons. The main reason was how expensive insurance was going to be for just myself. images (1)The person that hired me, may he rest in peace, knew why I needed to have insurance, but he never told me how ridiculous the cost would be. I was not necessarily lied to, but I also was not provided with appropriate information. I do not think this experience was all that fair to me, but it is what it is. I guess we live and learn, so there is no reason to dwell on the negative feelings from that experience.

On a much more positive note, Monday I started a new job. In the past I worked as a leasing consultant, assistant manager, marketing manager and a property manager for beauty in changeapartment communities. I have been out of this type of work for many years, but I was able to adjust rather quickly. I guess somethings are like riding a bike! I am working for a nice community and my co-workers so far are great! The entire staff gets along rather well and we are able to have a little fun! Working a full-time job means we are working 40 hours a week. Working 40 hours a week seems like we are at work more than we are at home, so it is important to enjoy what we are doing and our co-workers. It has only been 5 days, but I find the people I work with a little crazy in a good way! The new jobother great thing about this new job is insurance for both me and my husband is far less than it would have been for just me at my previous job. The insurance also will start on July 1st and at the previous job I would have had to wait three months. It will be a stress relief having insurance again!

The car accident I had about a month ago was scary, frustrating, time- consuming, discouraging and sad! My car ended up being totaled and the only good thing about this was what the insurance company paid out for the loss of my car. I was forced to try finding something to replace my irreplaceable car. This was a little emotional because that was the car my husband and I left our wedding in, but we will always have 38b54588f572221f762636ac3fc4671cthose amazing memories. Unfortunately car shopping was a real eye-opener to how dishonest people can be. Thankfully my husband was extremely helpful with this aggravating process. My husband did n great job searching for what I wanted and made sure all my requirements were met! I was able to travel with him a few times times, but he did on his own as well and he even went with his mother to once. I am very thankful for everyone that helped find the right vehicle for me. We did finally find the right one at the end of last week and brought it home late Friday night! I had been awake more than 24 hours and it did a number on me. I am still trying to feel normal and alert. My new car is actually an SUV and it so pretty and I just love it! I wanted a Chevy Tahoe that was a dark grey or black, had a sunroof and heated seats, which the one I ended up with had it all! My Tahoe is an unusually pretty dark grey that just sparkles! Even though I understand this SUV isn’t accident proof, I am thankful it is a lot safer than my little car was.

I am slowly getting adjusted to working full-time, getting enough sleep so I do not get sickdownload (3) and or run rundown and of course the nasty southern heat. Honestly I am not great at the getting enough sleep thing, but I am trying. The temperatures have been very hot, which causes my energy level to be rather low. It is not even summer yet, but it has already been in the high 90’s, which means summer might be more like hell!

I definitely want to try to figure out how to continue blogging while working full-time. I have always heard that when you really want to do something bad enough, you will find a way to do so. I am very behind right now, so please forgive my late responses to what you share and my own site. There are no doubts in my mind that I will get everything figured out and I will be back on schedule!

Beautiful Sunday Morning Quotes and + Beautiful Good Morning Sunday Messages - FreshmorningquotesI hope you are having a wonderful weekend and you are feeling well! I think you already know this, but in case you forgot, I appreciate you taking the time to visit my site! I promise if you leave a comment, I will respond as quickly as I can. With the weekend coming to an end soon, I hope you are able to enjoy what is left to the fullest! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Accepting realities!

acceptanceSomething that I have had a really hard time admitting and accepting is that Multiple Sclerosis is a disability. Whenever I have applied for a job, there is always that annoying question “Do have or have you had a disability.” I mean what kind of BS question is that to ask someone? Of course I want to say “NO”, but Multiple Sclerosis is listed as a disability on the darn application and I can’t falsify anything on an application because that could result in me being disqualified for a position I applied for and want. I think this is so invasive and completely ridiculous, but I guess it is what it is in life!

For some strange reason the words disabled and disability shatter my heart into aimages million pieces and cause me to feel like a useless failure . I do realize how irrational this may sound, but that is how I have been feeling. It made me incredibly sad when I had a difficult time walking through a store last weekend because my legs and feet were experiencing SO much pain and weakness. All
hashtag person not disabilityI wanted to do was cry, but I couldn’t because I view that as letting this illness win the never-ending battle we have been in for years and that will NEVER be an option for me!!

I know I already shared with y’all that I figured out I am gluten-intolerant without the expensive tests a doctor would want to run. It seems like a punishment to have to deal withlife isn't fair the issues Multiple Sclerosis comes along with and then add gluten-intolerant to the mix seems quite unfair. I know we all deal with random issues and keep on moving forward because we do not have a choice. I am also very aware that many others deal with SO many other struggles that are far worse than what I am, so I am really not complaining. I am going to share more about this gluten-intolerant situation in a later post.

tired.jpgThe truth is, because I am always so exhausted during the week after working 8 hours every day of the week, I often don’t have the energy to write as much as I would like to. I end up with so many random thoughts running around like crazy in my mind; it gets so hard to keep track of them all and have those thoughts come together for a good read and one that I am proud of.

For the past week or so, I have been experiencing an increase in the number of horrible do not confuse bad days as weaknessdizzy/black-out spells. I have had these issues happen before, but never so many in just one day. At least 2 days last week, there were several moments when the room went completely dark and there NO were sounds at all, which under other circumstances would be great. There was one time I was talking with a co-worker at her desk about work and all of sudden I felt weak, light-headed, hot as hell and dizzy. Luckily I was standing very close to the wall, which kept me standing upright. It might have been pretty embarrassing if I all of sudden fell to the floor at this new job.

I am not really sure which of these issues are more images (3)terrifying; dizzy spells, black-out moments or the combination of the two. Of course I would say the combination of dizziness and black-out would the most terrifying because you are dealing two different disturbing issues at the same time. I have dealt with dizzy spells for so many years now, but I have found ways that help me limit the duration of my dizziness, most of the time at least.

Truthfully my experiences with black-out spells aren’t plentiful in comparison to dizziness, but I have enough sense and knowledge to download (6)understand how horribly upsetting they can be. I remember a few years ago there was a period of time when I had a several short black-outs throughout the week, but they weren’t anywhere near as severe as they are now. I am not sure if its stress, lack of sleep, weather changes or something else. The list of possible reasons really could go on and on and on, but I really just wish they were STOP!

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today. I will never pressure you to leave a download (7)comment, but I do encourage your comments if that makes any sense, but I know your thoughts will be amazing. I promise to respond to your comments as quickly as I can! I hope you are feeling well and enjoying your weekend! Sometimes I think the best part of a weekend isn’t getting out and staying busy, but not having any plans at all so there aren’t any time requirements. My days are set in stone during the week with work, which I tend to strongly dislike, but I guess it is just the life of adulthood. I enjoy spending my 2 very short weekend days living in the moment and not doing anything that might cause unnecessary stress. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Puzzle of Life!

Good afternoon y’all! I hope your weekend is starting off great and only gets better moving forward! Weekends provide much comfort and relaxation, which is often very needed and well deserved. I am still trying to get adjusted to this working full-time thing and still maintaining household duties, my blog and anything else that comes my way. Honestly it isn’t easy, but I also think I can handle it!

Over the past week or so, I have been thinking about how much our lives actually resemble a huge jigsaw puzzle. Sometimes we have a piece that fits together perfectly and other times nothing at all fits the way we expect or want  it to. It really is like when you try putting a large puzzle together, but some of the pieces you have in front of you become difficult to place because of their shape and size. We all face the same situation daily when we are confronted with people with different views and behaviors. We may strongly disagree with others point of views, but we are all entitled to our own views and perspectives. As long as these  thoughts do not cause physical and or emotional harm to another it should be accepted. 

Personally I think I am very capable of getting along with everyone and anyone, as long life-is-like-a-puzzle-stop-trying-to-place-people-where-they-dont-fit-quote-1as they are respectful of me and my beliefs. I have never tried changing another person or their views because that is just wrong to do! I feel that if we were all alike the world would be downright boring and we need diversity! I enjoy being around people who are different from myself and find learning about how they view things pretty fascinating!

All relationships and even jobs can be like putting a challenging puzzle together. When you start a new job, there will be some that51accc1426746b8fa9976fe7436086f5  co-workers you mesh well with and others whom you don’t and that is perfectly okay! You really can’t force the pieces of life together, things just fit when it’s meant to be! I have always believed that everything in life happens for a reason and when it is supposed to. Of course I tend to forget this often and get frustrated because I just want things to work out perfectly. I guess that is the part of me that is controlling, but we all have our faults and we deal with them as needed. 

Other parts of life, like dealing with a chronic illness or other difficulties just adds to thepuzzle-pieces-of-life-2-stock-illustration_csp34374889 puzzle of our life. It can be incredibly frustrating and test our strengths, but at the end of the day we can be proud of what we have accomplished. It is so important to never give up and know all the pieces will fit perfectly eventually.

I did try the new Editor version of WordPress, but did not do all that well with it. I will puzzle-piece-quotekeep trying and I am sure I will understand how it works soon. Have y’all tried it yet and do you have any advice for me?

Thank you for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate your words of wisdom and kindness. I am still working on getting caught up on reading and commenting on your posts and should be caught up before the weekend ends. I hope the rest of you day is amazing and you are feeling the best you can! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

New job and LOTS of fatigue!

butterfliesGood afternoon y’all! I hope you had a good week and you are enjoying this beautiful weekend! It is finally trying to warm up where I live and no rain at the moment. Rain can be relaxing when I am at home and even though it does increase my pain, it also provides a calming sound. I definitely prefer to not be out or at work when it is raining only because it makes me even more tired than normal.

I am sorry that I didn’t share a pick-me-up Thursday this week, but I was way too tired totired-cat do much of anything after being at work in front of a computer for 8 hours. The new job is an actual full-time thing and it is pretty exhausting. I know my previous job was also full-time, but I was salary and it wasn’t actually 40 hours. My energy level has been rather low as I am getting adjusted to this, but hopefully I will get there soon and be able to be active with my blog way more than I was this week.

saltines-and-ginger-aleNot only did I start this new job, but I am also still battling with some kind of stomach issue that has been here well over a month now! Considering I do not have insurance yet, I can’t really afford to go to a doctor that will only want to run a ton of tests on me. I knew I would have to deal with my chronic illness without insurance for 90 days, but this stomach issue I wasn’t expecting. Currently there are only a few things I am able to eat, so my diet at the moment is crackers and ginger ale, not very exciting I know!

The people I am going to be working with seem rather nice and laid back, but we will see how long that lasts. I have gotten to know one girl and we like the same kind of music, sowallpaper-full-hd-x-smartphone-music-pic-mch0111838.jpg that is always a good talking point. The person that hired me understands what MS is because his sister battles with this as well. He has actually been great and told me to take breaks when I needed to. Typically breaks are every 2 hours, so  at least I know I can do them more frequently if needed. 

I am very behind with reading and commenting on all of your incredible posts, but I will try to catch up this weekend. I am not going to make any promises though because I am not sure how much I will be able to catch up on or what I am going to be capable of moving forward, but I will tell you I will do my positive-energy-feat-740x494best. I always enjoy being able to blog because it really is the best therapy ever!!

Thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today and I do appreciate your understanding during my adjustment period. I hope y’all have a fabulous weekend and you are able to do what brings you the most joy! Please remember, even though I am dealing with an adjustment at the moment, I am always sending y’all LOTS of ❤ love, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤