Life is not always fair, and we feel like we need to pretend everything is fine and normal. Does anyone even know what normal is anymore? I do not think I know what normal is anymore because we have lived through so much that is anything but normal. Why do we feel forced to act like they are not angry, frustrated, and or in pain? It is not easy to understand that it is NOT complaining when we share how we are feeling on the inside because keeping things bottled up will never end healthily.
It is not easy to realize that it is okay to not be okay. We do not need to put on fake smiles and should feel comfortable expressing our emotions. We are often smiling on the outside but crying on the inside while we process how we are feeling. I have learned how damaging bottling up feelings can be but failed to stop this bad habit. Most of the time I think I care too much and while that is not a bad thing, it can be exhausting and even frustrating.
Logically, I know how awful stress can be and have not learned to not worry about everything and everyone. When I get overly stressed or upset about things, instead of addressing what is wrong I try avoiding it at all costs. I also either have no appetite or want to eat the most fatting foods possible, none of which are a good decision.
Yesterday I was extremely frustrated with several things and did not want to eat anything. I will not get into everything that was troubling me because the list is rather long. Not eating is an awful idea because then I get nasty headaches and even more dizzy spells. There was only one thing that helped slightly, and that was turning the music up loud to a song that was exactly how I was feeling! For a few minutes as the song played, my mind was at ease, and I felt much calmer.
I guess I decided to write about all this to help anyone else that might be feeling the same way. There are times in our lives when all we want to do is scream at the top of our lungs just to vent our frustrations. Unfortunately, some people when they are at the end of their ropes with aggravation let their feelings out in unhealthy and possibly violent ways, but there are better ways. There will never be anything positive that can come from violence because that will only create many more issues.
Thank you for visiting my site today and reading my rant of frustrations. I do not mean to sound so negative, but yesterday was an awful day. I hope your week went well and you are looking forward to the weekend. I am looking forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!
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When I have shared setbacks related to my TBI, the response has been encouraging. Simply having someone tell me what set them back recently means I’m not alone and they aren’t alone in their struggles. Honesty gets past the public masked wear.
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