Life is complicated

There have been many challenges we have faced during the past few years. All of this takes a lot of courage, perseverance, dedication, determination, and a great amount of internal strength. I completely understand how this can feel overwhelming and we might want to throw our hands up and give up on what we need and want. Sometimes it might feel like the battle within is too demanding, but if we do everything we possibly can and continue fighting we will eventually win the war.

For all of us that are living with a chronic and incurable illness, the obstacles may seem like they are endless and maybe they are. However, if we do not keep pushing through with all we can, we will never know what we are capable of. I have always believed that behind every door we close, something better is waiting around the next corner. We will not be able to know our full potential if we do not at least try.

All the small or large issues we deal with in life provide us with an opportunity and a learning experience. It might never seem like it at the time, but surviving these issues makes us the strong people we are today. It is crucial to view the struggles we face in life as a building block to the incredibly strong people we were meant to be instead of as an inconvenience.

If you take a few minutes to think about your life, would you be who you are today if it were not for what you have been through? Honestly, I do not know who I would be if I did not have the experiences I did have. Of course, not all our experiences have been pleasant and sometimes we do not want to remember them because they may have been awful. The hardest things we have gone through gave us the most valuable lessons.

You do not have to answer this question but at least think about these questions. What were a few of the most hellacious, painful, and complicated things you have gone through in life, and what did you learn from those experiences? I am not going to go into detail about one of my experiences that was like this, but I will tell you this ordeal taught me to be strong and to never allow anyone to mistreat me. For the most part, we can decide who we allow in our life.

It is extremely important to understand that trust is something that is earned and not given immediately. It is not easy, but we should try to at least give others the benefit of the doubt, but without putting too much trust into that person. The hard part about this is, we are all human and sometimes people will do something to betray our trust. Once trust is lost, it is not easy to get back because it takes a lot of work and healing from whatever hurt the betrayal caused. There is not a timeline to when we “should” heal from times when another’s deception because we are all different and heal in various ways.

It is a little ironic that I started a post about headaches and have been dealing with one ever since. I am hoping for the headache I have had for several days will get better soon, so I can finish the post to share with y’all. I think the information that I have so far will be beneficial to anyone that experiences headaches more than just occasionally. Considering I have been dealing with headaches most of my life, I would have thought I would be used to them by now, but unfortunately, I am not. Even though I deal with pain 24/7 the pain does not stop me from doing what I want in life, but a headache will stop me completely. I guess no one has or could get used to them though.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I am sorry that I have been a little absent lately, but hopefully that will change soon, and this headache will go away. I am looking forward to reading your comments, which I will respond to as quickly as I possibly can. Even though I know the COVID cases as decreased greatly, I hope you are all continuing to stay as safe as you can. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Battle For America’s Soul

I want to give y’all a fair warning before you begin reading this post. It is definitely longer than my typical posts and about something WAY different than anything I have ever written about before. I am proud of what I have written, but it is controversial and I typically tread lightly on this type of topic.

The state of the world has and continues to be engulfed in extremely challenging times. Many of these issues we consistently see have blanketed the world for decades and are not displaying any of the changes we desperately need. Unfortunately, there have been massive levels of deception, hidden agendas, and misinformation shared with us, especially within the government.

While this is an election year, everyone has their own opinion of what is right and wrong. The levels of division throughout the United States, is increasing steadily and continues to bleed into the rest of the world daily. All of the political drama is even creating high amounts of tension and hostility between family and friends. I am telling y’all this and am very ashamed to admit, even though I detest politics, I do have incredibly strong views that are very opposite of some people that I know. Of course, this has caused some frustration and arguments with those who think differently than I do.

We have all heard there are some topics we should avoid discussing with family and friends, which couldn’t be truer. The two main topics that we have been told to avoid are religion and politics. Considering my strong and very passionate beliefs that everyone should be treated equally and with respect, I do not ever allow anyone or anything to sway my thoughts. Maybe I am too passionate about some issues, but that is just who I am.

I have tried the best I can to never to a post that was fueled by politics, but there are only 3 more days until Election Day. This year’s election might be the most important election of our lifetime because the lives of human beings depend on it. The lives of human beings must become a much bigger priority than politics and politicians feelings. Lives need to be more important that wherever you stand politically.

Now is an important time to really think and remember ALL the innocent lives that have been lost under the painfully failed leadership of Donald Trump. How do you think a strong leader should and would respond when faced with a deadly virus? Instead of warning the American people about this virus when he was first informed about it in January, he decided to downplay the virus. He continued saying it was a hoax and not that serious, and never admitted that wearing a mask was crucial. The man that is responsible for the deaths of over 229,000 Americans, still isn’t doing anything to help the people that he “works” for because he cares more about his failing pole numbers. A “man” that cares more about his ratings in an election than he does about the lives of the people he is supposed to protect is NOT a leader!

In my opinion, a strong, compassionate, honest, genuine, and true leader would care far less about being reelected and more about the lives of the people voting. Instead of foolish and immature name calling, a leader should stand up and do what is right! Constantly blaming China and calling COVID-19 the Chinese virus, the president should take some responsibility and admit to the world his wrong doings and fight to make it right. By the president calling his virus the Chinese virus, there are too many Asian American’s being harmed and bullied, which is wrong!

Tuesday November 3rd is the Election Day! Even though the virus causes major concerns for safety, it is SO important everyone find a way to vote this year! I am not and will not tell you who to vote for or tell you who I voted for because no matter where you stand politically, every vote matters. We all have a chance right now to do what is best and needed for the lives of everyone around the world.

Whoever the president is, whether Donald Trump is reelected or Joe Biden becomes the next president of The United States, he will have a huge and awful mess to handle. It is going to require time, patience, dedication, selflessness, and pure determination to recover or at least begin healing from the pain and tragic years we have endured.

Over the past few years it seems like the amount of hatred, disrespect, lack of accountability, division of people, complete disregard for the lives of others, bullying, and many other unkind behaviors are increasing rapidly. While this is happening, the important things in life such as truth, kindness, respect, compassion, and love are diminishing. Now, not as a Republican, Democrat, or Independent, we need to stand together as human beings and DO what is right for the county.

It doesn’t matter if you vote in person or by mail, just as long as your vote is in. The 2020 election is the MOST important election we have ever been part of. I do firmly believe the outcome of this election will make or break the United States. Of course, the United States is not a perfect country, but it has the potential to be much better than it is right now.

I am sorry if any part of this was offensive because that was not my intent. I am also sorry that this post sounded negative, but this is real life and I fear for the lives of other people. It seems pretty clear to me that the president does not care the way he should about human life. In fact, the president is holding rallies for hopes for his reelection and yet not enforcing any safety measures. Many people that have attended these gatherings have either ended up with COVID-19 or hospitalized due to extreme heat or cold, but that does not stop this man.

Whether you agree or disagree with anything I have shared in this post, you are entitled to your opinion. The one thing I know we will all agree on is, lives of others matters and keeping ourselves, our loved ones, and anyone with a beating heart safe MATTERS! Of course, I welcome your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. All I am going to ask is, I respect what your views are, so please respect mine as well.

Thank you for visiting my site today! This was definitely something very different from what I normally write about, but I felt it was time to let my voice be heard. It is time that we all need to unite, despite politics. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and many positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Feelings that have built up

Beware in advance, I want y’all to know this post is the most personal I have written and extremely emotional. It is also rather long, but not as long as at least one another post.

Everyone’s life unfolds in unique and often challenging ways. No matter how things appear on the outside, no one has the “picture perfect” life. Our lives are full of happy times and hard times, which might not be equal. When someone experiences something that is painfully difficult and they somehow overcome those times, others may not know how in the world they overcame such tragic times and they never ask. How many times have we been asked in life if there was anything we would change? I can recall countless times, but my answer will never change. Anything that occurred in life that was hard, I feel that I am strong because of the hardest times in life and therefore would not change anything at all.

How would you respond if I were to ask you, what would you change in your life if you could? Sure, there are probably hard times you might wish you did not encounter. If those hard times never happened, would you still be the person you are today? Maybe you would, but maybe you wouldn’t. I say this because things I went through in life, I don’t know if I would be who I am if those things didn’t happen.

2020 has been a difficult year so far and we do not know when or if things will improve. I want to believe that what the United States has witnessed will open everyone’s eyes to the state of our nation. We have NOT had ANY leadership over the past three and a half years. We have watched what feels like the fall of a country that was supposed to be “strong”, “fair”, and “equal”. The entire world was exposed to COVID-19 and most other countries acted in a way that protected the citizens when the United States acted late which caused hundreds of thousands of people to unnecessary lose their lives. There is no way to know if the government had acted sooner, those lives lost could have been saved, and sadly that is what these individual’s families must live with.

Unfortunately, there are still way too many people that believe the lies the president says and tweets. These are the same people that follow their “leaders” example and fail to wear masks when out in public and seem to not understand what is meant by social distancing. I guess it makes sense because we all saw the president and the crowd on the 4th of July close together possibly spreading the virus to one another and yet somehow magically neither the president nor vice president seems to get the virus. Y’all already know that I am terrified of the virus and I do have a weakened immune system because of the medication I take for Multiple Sclerosis.

I will say that finally, several states have made masks when out in public mandatory. Those that fail to comply with wearing masks will be fined. I hardly leave the house these days but did go to the pharmacy on Friday. They had in huge sign in bold letters saying that all customers entering the store must wear a mask or they will be asked to leave immediately.

It has also been made painfully clear that the United States has enormous problems with racial injustice and police killing unarmed black people. I am not naïve enough or blind to the fact that not all American’s are treated equally and it makes me feel shame for the country.

All my life I have always treated everyone the same and never judged anyone based on anything besides the way they treated others. I appreciate the beauty in the differences others show and find those distinctions fascinating. I think if we were all exactly the same, this world would be rather boring and we would miss out on some incredible opportunities.

We are already more than halfway through 2020. The news has put a lot of focus onto either COVID-19, politics, police brutality or the latest with the Epstein insanity. For starters, the United States knew about COVID-19 on January 20, 2020, but did not act on it until March. That left about a month and a half for the virus to spread throughout the country. How many months did the president say this highly contagious and deadly virus was a hoax or not that serious? The answer is just simply way too many and it should have been taken seriously starting back in January.

I am sure my feelings are pretty clear throughout this entire post. I am ashamed of how the country I was born and raised in has behaved for the past three and a half years and honestly probably many more. It will not come as a shock to anyone, but I am not and never have been a fan of Donald Trump. I think the way he blames everyone else for what has gone wrong in the world, how he disrespects everyone that disagrees with him and the media for doing their job, the revolting names he calls others, the way he refers to other countries “shit holes”, the way he has absolutely has no respect for the country he represents or the people living there, and so much more than just repulsive. This man cares so much about his pole numbers that rapidly dwindling and of course, he is blaming the democrats, when truthfully it is his own fault.

I think y’all know I always try my best to be optimistic and believe that positive thoughts will lead to a positive outcome. I also know how incredibly negative this post might seem, but these feelings have built up for a while now. I want to apologize if anything I have written was offensive to you and hope you know that was never my intent. I am a very sensitive person so hearing about the countless people that are dying daily because of COVID-19 breaks my heart and tend to have me in tears. Of course, I do not know any of the people that lost their lives to this virus, but they meant something to someone else.

I also have never been a political person and found most if not all politicians to be dishonest. Trump and Pence have proven my views of dishonest politicians. It is hard for me to understand how anyone could know about how many people have died because of a virus and how it would not affect them. It will never make sense to me how anyone that represents a country and not care about the people. How they sleep soundly at night is a mystery to me.

Since the news first broke about Jeffrey Epstein in 2005 it has made me sick. I then read a book by one of my favorite authors, James Patterson wrote about Epstein which made my feelings even more intense. After Epstein was arrested I thought that justice had been made for his victims.

Of course, he ended up committing suicide while in prison which could be viewed as a good thing, but it was an easy and selfish way out for him and his victims did not get to testify and feel the closure they may have needed. The latest with the Epstein situation was his long-term confidant and associate a female was arrested. This woman helped find Epstein young girls to become another victim and she also participated. Any woman that is capable of doing this kind of harm to a young and innocent girl is vile and appalling and should feel shame for the ways they ruined the child’s youth.

I do realize this might have not been the most positive thing I have written, but this is how I feel. Again, I am sorry if I have offended anyone reading this and hope I did not discourage you from reading future things I write.

This post was very personal and full of raw emotions. I do appreciate you taking the time to read and I encourage you to leave a comment, which I will respond to as quickly as I can.

Y’all know I am starting my new full-time, work from home job tomorrow and I plan to continue blogging as much as I can. No matter how busy I get I will continue doing Motivational Monday, Pick Me Up Thursday and Let It Go Friday! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, and many positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa