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Catching-Up-and-My-Favorite-ThingsWOW, it feels like it has been forever since I did anything in the blogging community! While I was on my much needed vacation with my husband last week, I took a short break from doing anything involving a computer. The two of us went to my happy place, the BEACH, not only to celebrate my birthday, but also our 8 year wedding anniversary ❤. We had an amazing time together and had absolutely beautiful weather! It was so great being far away from the stresses of work and be able to just sit back listening to the ocean waves! I honestly find the sight and sounds of the ocean 🌊, while reading a great book to be the best way to relax and refresh!

I am very far behind on reading all of your posts, which I already know are fantastic. its-been-a-whileUnfortunately, I do have to work the weekend so I can’t say I will be able to catch up, but I will still try.

Considering I have been away for almost 2 weeks now, how have y’all been doing? I hope you are feeling well and your month has started off great! October is beautiful and my favorite month, which I am not just saying that because it is the month I was married in. I have always enjoyed the change in weather during October. Normally it isn’t too hot and not that cold, it is just right! Sounds kind of like Goldilocks and the Three Bears, but yet so true! Of course the southern states are not always on the same page with my thought process and it was in the high 90’s ☀ for the first week of October, but thankfully over the weekend the temperatures are going to drop! It is crazy though because when I say the temperatures are going to drop, I mean drop more than 20 degrees in one day!

Like I already stated, my husband and I had a wonderful vacation. Of course it wasn’t long c620x376enough and it was painful to return to work. The insane thing is we didn’t get home until the early morning hours and I had to work that day. I was so exhausted; nothing bothered me at all because my mind was still at the beach and maybe I was half asleep still. Of course things not bothering me only lasted half a day and I will tell you more about this later. My boss is still the same idiot he has always been!

For my birthday we had a lovely dinner at a restaurant that was oceanfront 🌊! vacation and celebrationConsidering we were at the beach during the off season it wasn’t overly crowded, which was great! Thankfully my husband did not tell the waitress it was my birthday, so I didn’t have to deal with the wait staff singing happy birthday to me and embarrassing me. I do not like to be center of attention and would prefer to go unnoticed! 

The day after my birthday we went to another oceanfront restaurant to celebrate our 8 year wedding anniversary ❤! Back to back celebrations were nice and peaceful! It is so hard to believe we have already been married for 8 years ❤, I mean where does the time go? I still remember the day my husband proposed like it was yesterday and that was 9 years ago!

Sunrise at the beachI don’t know about you, but before last week there were times I was awake at sunrise, but never actually watched the sunrise. Standing out on the beach in the early morning hours watching the sun come up was a beautiful sight and pretty powerful! It really is amazing to watch as the sun slowly makes its way up to shine light on us all around the world! To think the sun I watched come up will also be seen on the other side of the world at some point. 

The weather was so clear we were even able to watch the sunset! The sun sets slowly over sunset at the beachthe horizons and it is quite magical, especially near the ocean! Of course I do think everything is magical and hypnotizing when I am at the beach!

I hope y’all have a wonderful weekend and you are able to enjoy every moment of it. I will be back to my normal routine next week and maybe even some extra surprises. I want to thank you for stopping by my site today and please know that I always appreciate your comments. Please never forget that no matter how busy I am, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Doctors gone BAD

maxresdefaultI recently had to deal with my specialist’s office, in regards to the medication I take to limit the progression of my Multiple Sclerosis. Since the doctor that diagnosed my condition retired, the office he was at has been on a downward spiral. The amount of incompetence and lack of compassion are the only things that are steadily increasing, which is terrible.

Whether it be a nurse, nurse practitioner, or physician, they all should know how awful stress is for someone with Multiple Sclerosis. Being forced to battle with a nurse with a terrible attitude 71NwQ3YsJDLto get a refill for my medication caused me nothing but massive stress and frustration. This would have been  difficult regardless, but when the nurse decided to be ugly the situation escalated unnecessarily. All I am trying to do is anything necessary so I do not have a nasty relapse, especially without insurance.

I know I mentioned in a post I did a few days ago, the flaws within healthcare in the United States, but with what I just experienced trying to talk to my doctor’s office makes it even more frustrating! For a country that has insanely high costs for health insurance, you would think patient care would be top-notch, but it is the direct opposite.

downloadThe medication I take to slow my progression down is Gilenya. I have been on this same medication for a long time, so I know the processes and the ridiculous out of pocket with NO insurance. Honestly, I do not believe any normal person could afford this medication and I definitely can’t.

Basically, I guess I am not in the right tax bracket to be able to have insurance that I can afford or at least affordable medication to keep my condition at bay. Maybe I also missed the tax bracket where kindness, respect, understanding, and empathy exist. I feel strongly that health insurance should be a RIGHT, NOT a PRIVILEGE, but surprise the powers that be don’t agree with me. I do not think anyone should have to worry about how they are going to survive without 21a1d2783f3596243d4cd630893e7e7dinsurance and without access to life-altering medication.

First, thank you for taking the time to read this post. Second, I hope none of you ever have to go through anything like this. Third, I hope your weekend has started off great and continues to bring you happiness. I do want to encourage you to leave a comment; I definitely need advice on how to deal with the ignorant people at my specialist’s office. Lord knows I can’t take too much more, especially if it is just images (2)going to be a bunch of bull shit!

I hope you enjoy every moment of your weekend and hope you feel great! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

 

Let It Go Friday!

happiness fridayHappy Friday y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and your weekend is spectacular because you deserve nothing but the best! Of course, being a stress case is something I am really good at, but I have been enjoying the extra time I have had on my hands to write more. Between writing daily, with music in my ears, I have had the time to think clearly. I have considered what it is I want out of life and what makes me happy, but also what I do not want any part of. 

Sometimes taking a step back from everything in life to clear your mind, offers clarity to where we want life to be. Always having a full-time job, really stalled my dreams. I never had the time to take that large step into what I want out of life. Over the past few weeks I kept telling myself no 600x600bfmatter what BS reason I was given or even what I think the reason is for losing my job was, it was bigger than both of those things. The reason may have been the kick in the butt I needed to stop talking about it and just dive into trying to build my freelance career. I must admit it seems a little (OK A LOT) overwhelming because I can’t just focus on one piece at a time. I keep looking at everything I need to do all at once and then get stuck on one thing. Right now I am stuck on finishing my overview and struggle with what to write so potential clients will see my skills. If y’all have any suggestions or advice, please let me know!

The quote I decided to share with y’all for “Let It Go Friday”, pretty much goes along images (1)with the first part of this post. I do think it takes courage to continue on, especially when you feel like the rug was pulled out from under you. Sometimes we will succeed in life and  sometimes we will fail, but no matter how many times we fall, we always find a way to get back up, dust ourselves off, and continue on! Sometimes being stubborn pays off and will help get us where we desire in life!

Thank you so much for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate your text-art-believe-in-your-dreams-follow-your-heart-melanie-violakindness, support, friendship, and encouragement! No pressure, but I am looking forward to reading your comments and know they will be amazing! I hope you have a wonderful day and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

What do you think?

imagesEven though things are slowly getting a little better, I am still feeling way too much anxiety and stress. I am glad that my unemployment was approved because that helps with the financial stresses, but not having insurance when dealing with Multiple Sclerosis is making me feel a little crazy. I do think this would make anyone feel like they were jumping out of their skin, which is the way I feel right now.

My husband keeps telling me that I need to relax and everything is going to be okay. I am a very optimistic person normally, but I do not see life the way he does right now. Medications are stupidly expensive and so are doctor’s anxietyappointments. One of the medications I take daily that is supposed to slow the MS down is Gilenya. Y’all will be surprised how much this one medication would cost me each month without insurance. For simply a month supply it would cost me $7,500. Seriously, who can afford that?

Something that I find frustrating is, health care in the United States costs a lot of money and then there are still additional fees that need to be paid. The United States is the ONLY developed country that does not offer FREE health care, which I find crazy! Of course, I have never lived in a country where health care was free, but from my perspective, it can’t be any worse that what we have now. Sure, you might have to wait longer to see a specialist, but for me to get into the neurologist in the states I wait at least 2 months. free-and-universal-health-care-universal-health-care-free-but-65307278With all the costs between the price of insurance, the costs for appointments, the price of tests that need to be run, and then medications, people could just about go bankrupt. Our brilliant politicians try their best to convince the American people why we do not have free health care and that it would be an awful thing! The sad thing is, some believe everything they hear on the news and all the lies that come out of the politician’s mouths! I strongly believe that health care should be a RIGHT, not a PRIVILEGE. No one should ever have to choose between food and their health!

I know some of you reading this post live in a country with free health care, so want to get your input! What are the pros and cons of having free health care? Do you fe62d503ebdec18d58277ced8257e5e9_survey-citizens-for-plainfield-township-trails_631-313like having free health care or would you rather have it like the United States does? On average how long do you have to wait to see a doctor? Are the physicians intelligent and knowledgeable?

I hope your day is going well and you are feeling the best you can. Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I am looking forward to reading your comment! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Pick~Me~Up~Thursday

images (1)Happy Friday Eve y’all! How was your week? I hope you had a fabulous week and you are ready to enjoy the upcoming weekend! My week did start off sad with my aunt passing away, but now she doesn’t have to live in pain anymore. Thankfully, her passing was peaceful and she had family around her for comfort. I guess in the last moments of life it is best to be in the comfort of your own home with family near, instead of in an uncomfortable hospital setting.

I did finally receive good news regarding my unemployment status yesterday. I could have already 2042c37730f6bfb6bbd9a7c4adcbea75told y’all that my termination was done illegally and I did absolutely nothing to deserve it. I am relieved to say that the state did agree with me and my employment was approved, which will help the struggles I was dealing with. The past 3 weeks have been a mixture of MASSIVE stress and also believing that everything happens for a reason and it was time to follow my dreams. Now that I am not in complete and total panic, my stress level will go down drastically. Of course I am going to continue looking for another job, but more important I can focus on diving into the freelance world.  Y’all already know how passionate I am about writing and how much I want that to be my career! 

music-quotes-music-gives-a-soul-to-the-universe-wings-to-the-mind-flight-to-the-imagination-and-life-to-everything-plato-wisdom-quotesWe have almost made it through another week and although my stress level will be coming down, I think it would have been a lot worse if I had not kept music in my ears. Of course, I love the quote I am sharing with y’all today, but I am going to love reading your thoughts on it as well. For the past few weeks, while I was insanely stressed and frustrated, I reduced some stress by writing more and always had music playing in my ears. I do think that there are some songs that are great to soothe the soul and then others that can take you somewhere else completely! 

I want to thank y’all for visiting my site today. I always appreciate you taking time to read what I share and enjoy reading your fabulous comments. c41b1c4f51883bfb4d67649ca5fa3228

I hope your Friday eve goes well with as little stress and pain as possible. Remember taking care of yourself is important and if that means taking breaks, take them! Your health is the most important and most other things can wait! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

National Cancer Prevention Month

Disclaimer***Before you start reading, I have a disclaimer. I am not a physician nor am I a medical professional. This information is mostly from hours of research. Also, this is slightly longer than most, if not all of my previous posts. I did not mean to write a small book for y’all to read, but I do think the information is important!

We just celebrated New Year’s, not too long ago. This tends to be a time many of us want to make changes to get healthier. Honestly though, how many times have you tried thisdepositphotos_110108908-stock-illustration-healthy-body-helthy-mind-healthy and never stayed with for long-term? This is a great thought, but really can’t just be for one day, week, or even for a month, and should to be something we stay committed to. February is National Cancer Prevention month which gives us another opportunity to get focused on making sure we put our health first and we do everything within our powers to maintain good health.

I am glad that there is a month dedicated to cancer prevention because it is needed. In 2019, a staggering estimated 1.76 million new cases of cancer and 607,000 deaths due to 0345ebfac6e071e5a9cd46f91f1ef5b2cancer in the United States. In my lifetime, cancer has already taken too many people I care about. As a matter of fact, cancer is what took someone very special to me, my dear, sweet, and loving grandfather lost his battle to cancer almost seven years ago. My aunt fought her war against cancer, until before the sun came up on February 18 when the struggle became too much to bear and she couldn’t fight any longer. Even though this is a sad day, my aunt went peacefully in the comfort of her own home surrounded by family.

 It is terrifying how many different forms of cancer there are and how many of the risk factors are the same. I am not going to go through and list all types of cancer because it would probably feel like you are reading a short story and I don’t want to torment you like that. However, I am going to detail 11 different forms of this horrible disease.

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  1. Breast Cancer is a form of cancer that is easily treated, especially when it is detected early enough. This cancer does not discriminate and can affect men or women equally. This disease develops in breast tissue when the cells begin to grow out of control. Cancerous cells can form a malignant tumor that is felt as a lump and should be seen on a mammogram. Once cancer begins to progress, it is possible for an invasion of surrounding tissues and nearby lymph nodes to occur, which is a phenomenon known as metastasis.

Besides simply being a female, there are many other risk factors you might want to learn about.

  • Genetic mutations (BRCA1 or BRCA 2)
  • Family history
  • Early menstrual period
  • Late or no full-term pregnancies
  • Menopause after age 55
  • Overweight or obese post menopause
  • Dense breasts
  • Race or ethnicity
  • Combination or hormone therapy
  • Oral contraceptives
  • Previous radiation therapy
  • Consuming alcohol

stock-photo-national-cancer-prevention-month-february-text-in-heart-cycle-of-multi-color-lavender-purple-370540424Symptoms

  • A lump or hard, painless mass with irregular edges
  • Some masses may be tender, soft, or painful
  • Swelling and/or skin irritation
  • Nipple pain, turning inward, redness, or scaliness
  • Thickening of nipples or discharge other than breast milk
  1. Lung Cancer is the 2nd most common form of cancer and the leading cause of cancer-related deaths. There are three main types of lung cancer, which include:
  • Non-Small-Cell Lung Cancer (NSCLC) which consists of 80-85% of lung cancer
  • Small-Cell-Lung Cancer (SCLC)
  • Lung Carcinoma Tumor

This type of cancer causes more of a risk to men than it does women.

Risk Factors

  • Tobacco smoke is the leading risk for developing lung cancer. 2nd hand smoke can also cause lung cancer
  • Family history
  • Exposure to radon gas, asbestos, arsenic, and diesel exhaust3605083_0

¼ of all people that are living with lung cancer do not display symptoms and do not show until cancer has progressed. However, when symptoms do appear, they may include:

Symptoms

  • A new cough that will not go away or changes in a chronic cough or coughing up blood
  • Reoccurring infection, such as bronchitis or pneumonia
  • Shortness of breath, hoarseness, and or wheezing
  • Chest pain, fatigue, and or weakness
  • Loss of appetite or unexplained weight loss
  1. Prostate Cancer is slow growing-cancer, but also the 2nd leading cause of death among men. The prostate is a small walnut-sized gland that produces seminal fluid.

Risk Factors

  • Family history
  • Diet high in red meat
  • Chemical exposure
  • Sexually transmitted infection
  • Having had a vasectomy

KC_8319__67367.1447864369Of course, several symptoms should not be ignored. Typically there are no symptoms during early stages tumors are small.

Symptoms

  • Frequent urge to urinate or difficulty urinating
  • Blood in urine or semen
  • Difficulty getting an erection
  • Pain in lower back and hips
  1. Colon and rectal cancer develop when cell growth becomes out of control in the colon and rectum. This form of cancer affects men and women equally, but black men and women are 25% more likely to develop colon cancer.

 Risk Factors

  • Family history5d41946f3e13e.image
  • Diet high in fat and red meat
  • Long-term inflammatory bowel disease
  • Obesity and lack of activity
  • Tobacco use and alcohol consumption

Symptoms

  • Changes in bowel habit ( diarrhea or constipation)
  • Blood in stool
  • Persistent abnormal pain or cramps
  • Unexplainable weight loss
  • Iron deficiency~ Anemia

 5. Melanoma (Skin Cancer) is a form of cancer that begins in the cells making up the pigment which gives skin color. Skin cancer seems like too broad of a category, so let me help break this down into the 4 different forms. (*The first two forms are more common than the last two forms*)

  • Superficial Spreading Melanoma grows horizontally and slowly across the top layer of skin before moving into deeper layers. This form accounts for 70% of skin cancer.
  • Nodular Melanoma is dangerous and grows fast. The appearance can look like a flat,750x,075,f-pad,750x1000,f8f8f8.u3mole, bug bit or a round black (but can have other colors) bump. Nodular Melanoma accounts for about 15% of cases.
  • Lentigo Melanoma is an early form when the malignant cells are confined to a tissue of origin.
  • Acral Lentiginous Melanoma (ALM) appears on the palms of hands, soles of feet, and under the nails. This is not very common but does affect African Americans the most.

Symptoms

  • Sores that do not heal
  • Pigment, redness or swelling that spreads outside the border of a spot to surrounding skin
  • Itchiness, tenderness, or pain
  • Changes in texture or scales, oozing or bleeding from an existing mole

At the first sign melanoma, there is typically a new spot on the skin or a change one that already existed. Follow the ABCDE Method to determine if an abnormal skin growth may be Melanoma.

Asymmetry- the mole has an irregular shape.cancer-screening

Border- Edge isn’t smooth and is irregular or notched.

Color- Mole has uneven shading or dark spots.

Diameter- Mole or spot is larger than that of a pencil eraser.

Evolving or elevation- The spot changes in size, shape, or texture.

  1. Bladder Cancer happens when the cells become abnormal and then begin to grow out of control. Over some time a tumor will form. Just like everything else, there are certain risk factors associated with bladder cancer.

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  • Family history
  • Smoking
  • Exposure to certain chemicals
  • Being white and or being a male
  • Chronic bladder infections

I am going to share some of the symptoms you would want to pay attention to and once noticed discuss with your physician.

Symptoms

  • Changes in the color of your urine
  • Burning or pain when urinating
  • Unable to urinate or only produce a very small amount
  • Feeling the urge to pee, when your bladder isn’t full

When bladder cancer starts to spread, there are some additional to notice and report back to your physician.cancer-ribbons-banner

Additional symptoms

  • Lower back pain
  • Losing weight when not trying
  • Not as hungry as normal
  • Swollen feet
  • Extreme fatigues and or weakness
  1. Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma starts in the lymphatic system, which is our body’s disease-fighting network. Tumors form in the lymphocytes, a type of white blood cells.unnamed

Risk Factors

  • Being over age 60 increases the risks
  • Exposure to certain chemicals which include benzene, herbicides, and pesticides
  • Previous chemotherapy or radiation treatments
  • Immune system deficiency and HIV Infection

Symptoms

  • Painless, swollen lymph nodes in the neck, armpits or groin
  • Abdominal pain and or swelling and chest pain
  • Coughing and difficulty breathing
  • Persistent fatigue
  1. Kidney Cancer also referred to as Renal Cell Carcinoma. This occurs when healthy e0bd9877f04a0f946d31b64a0c7d2f18cells in one or both kidneys start growing quickly, which ends up forming a lump (tumor).

Risk Factors

  • Smoking will DOUBLE the risks
  • Men are 2-3 times more likely to develop kidney cancer than women
  • Poor nutrition and overweight
  • High blood pressure

Symptoms

  • Blood in urine
  • Lower back pain on one side
  • Mass on the side or lower back
  • A fever that does not go away
  1. Endometrial Cancer begins in the uterus, so this is for women only.

images (1)Risk Factors

  • Changes in the balance of female hormones
  • More menstruation years and or never pregnant
  • Older age and obesity
  • Inherited colon cancer syndrome

I know none of us enjoy going for yearly exams, but that appointment just might save our life by discovering cancer early.

 

Symptoms

  • Abnormal vaginal bleeding or discharge
  • Difficulty or painful urination
  • Pain in the lower abdomen
  • Painful intercourse
  1. Pancreatic Cancer starts in organs that lie behind the lower part  the stomach and typically spreads to other organs rapidly.4407244_0

Risk Factors

  • Gender, this is more common in men, than women
  • Family history
  • Smoking age and obesity
  • Diabetes
  • Rare inherited condition

Symptoms

  • Jaundice, which is yellowing of the eyes and skin
  • Belly or back pain
  • Nausea, vomiting and weight loss
  • Enlargement of gallbladder or liver

Now that we have learned a lot about cancer, I have just a little more information that I think we will helpful. Considering it is National Cancer Prevention Month, I now have helpful tips to prevent cancer.

  1. The use of tobacco products can drastically increase your risk of cancer. With that said, I think it is time to find a way to QUIT!!!!
  2. Eating a healthy diet is vital for good health. I healthy diet may include plenty of fruits, vegetables, and other plant-based foods. According to a report from the
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  4. International Agency for Research on Cancer, a large intake amount of processed meats can increase the risk of some cancers.

**An important fact is women who eat a Mediterranean diet have a reduced risk for breast cancer. A Mediterranean diet consists of mostly plant-based foods such as fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and nuts. Those that follow this diet choose healthy fats, like olive oil instead of butter and fish as opposed to red meat.**

  1. You can reduce your risks of breast, prostate, lung, colon and kidney cancer by maintaining a healthy weight and staying active.

For adults that are aiming for substantial health benefits, they should try for at least 150 minutes weekly of either moderate aerobic or 75 minutes weekly of vigorous aerobic activity. The general rule of thumb is to try including at least 30 minutes of physical activity to your daily routine.'

  1. Be sure to keep yourself protected from the sun. One of the most common and preventable forms of cancer is skin cancer. I am going to share 5 simple tips to prevent yourself from the sun.
  • Sun rays are the strongest between the hours of 10:00 am and 4:00 pm. It is best to avoid the midday sun!
  • If you need to be outside, stay in the shade the best you can, plus sunglasses and hats will help.
  • Choose dark or bright, tightly woven, loose-fitting clothing because they reflect more ultraviolet radiation than pastels.
  • Even on cloudy days use at least SPF 30 sunscreen. Apply generously and reapply every 2 hours, more if you are swimming.
  • Tanning beds cause just as much damage as the natural sun, so try to AVOID
  1. Discuss vaccinations with your doctor for cancer prevention and protection against some viral infections. Some might be good for you, but there are some may be toxic for you.
  2. It’s important to avoid risky behaviors that can lead to infection and increase your lost-battle-with-cancer-quotes-In-loving-memory-of-every-cancer-patientrisks for cancer.

-Practice safe sex

-Do not share needles!

  1. Perform regular self-exams and get regular screenings for various forms of cancer. There are screening available for skin cancer, colon, cervix, and breast cancer (you can do this one yourself)!

Thank you so much for visiting my site today and taking the time to read this rather long post. This took me a lot of time to research and put together. It has been a rather sad day with my aunt passing away. The only good thing is, she left this world peacefully and is not in pain anymore. This post is dedicated to my husband’s amazing Grandfather, my Poppy and my aunt.share-the-love-eps-vector_csp59691544

I hope you had a good day and you have a lovely evening. I am not pressuring you but I would love to read your thoughts on this post. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Motivational Monday!

new-monday-new-week-motivational-gym-quotesHappy Monday to y’all! I hope you enjoyed your weekend and you were able to do the things that bring you joy. At times, life can feel excruciating long, especially when you are dealing with extreme pain and changes in life. Then again, life can also be very short and unfortunately we never know what’s around the next corner. I guess the only thing we can do is, live life to the fullest and never stop reaching for our dreams!

Monday tends to be a difficult day because of alarm clocks brian-tracy-inspirational-quoteand the days being set-up for us. There is a schedule and things that must be done, but it could be worse. Right now, I do not have this and I actually miss that set in stone schedule. Monday, is the start of a new week when we can work towards correcting the wrongs from last week to create a better outcome! I find the quote I am sharing with y’all today, not only motivating, but empowering because there is nothing we can’t do if we just try! We try to never put limits to what we can accomplish in life, because we are fearless and full of determination! Are there goals you did not get to last week, but want 51LF0zzAaDL._SX331_BO1,204,203,200_to achieve this week? What is one goal you are setting for yourself this week?

I hope your week starts off great and only gets better! May all your goals and dreams begin to become your reality! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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Always, Alyssa

Painful losses

140096-Eckhart-Tolle-Quote-Loss-is-very-painful-because-any-kind-of-lossIt does not matter if this is something that is expected or if it happens unexpectedly, a loss is painful and tragic. Losing someone you care for is hard and it takes time for those wounds to heal, but the piece of your heart that is missing is irreplaceable. It hurts losing a loved one, friend, pet, or even a co-worker.

Today, February 16th is my grandfather, better known as Poppy’s birthday. Losing him almost 7 years ago caused me hqdefault (2)more pain than I have ever known was possible. I know I have written about him before, but my Poppy was my hero. There has never been and never will be another like him. He was special and love just radiated from this man. I believe if there were more people like him in this world, it would be a much better place.

I still remember when my husband’s grandfather passed away. It has been almost 11 years and the memories of him still shine bright in the eyes of the family. This was another man that was special and had a heart of gold; I do not believe he ever met a 98bd649d6231caf150d6324a4e2f8353stranger and everyone loved him. It has been almost 6 years since my husband’s grandmother passed away. His grandmother was a kind, loving, and beautiful woman that I still feel honored to have known. Until my husband’s grandparents, I had never known two people that were so devoted to each other and their family, which I am so glad I have been part of. This strongly devoted and loving couple was reunited again in Heaven, which is powerful! I do hope our grandparents met and the trio is watching over us.

I know I shared with y’all that my aunt on my mother’s side of the family has been battling cancer. She was told a few weeks ago that she had six months left to live, but it seems like that six-month time frame is changing way too fast. After working a 13-hour shift as a nurse, my mother received a call from my uncle to give her an update on my grief-4aunt’s condition. On Saturday, February 15th, my uncle shared that my aunt was not eating and was non-responsive. Hospice did come to my aunt and uncle’s house to assist with supporting my aunt with keeping her comfortable. My mother flew north for what will probably be the last time she sees her sister. It is terribly sad how what started off as my aunt having six months left to live, to what might be six days. My heart goes out to my uncle, cousin and my cousin’s children.

I am glad that my mother has been able to see her sister before her life comes to an end. goodbyes-are-not-forever-wooden-block-decal-sticker-graphic-91528-1-pI think having the last time you see a family member or anyone for that matter in the coffin, is probably the saddest and most traumatic image anyone can have. I was not able to see my Poppy before he passed away and that image of him looking peaceful in a coffin, haunts me still today.

I started my day wishing my dear Poppy Happy Birthday in heaven and then learned about my aunt’s battle, so it has been an emotional day. I promised myself that I will celebrate my Poppy’s life every year for his birthday and I also honor his life every day love-is-a-learned-behavior-a-person-cant-show-what-23519374by trying my best to continue making him proud of the person I am. Between my husband’s sweet grandparents and my Poppy, the losses have been painful, but having these amazing people in my life has added so much love and hope for me. I know that I will never be the person my Poppy was or the wife that my husband’s grandmother was or have the strength my husband’s grandfather had, but I will give all I can to being even half of what these amazing people were.

I hope y’all had a nice weekend and you are feeling well. Please, if you have a free fb373774f99eed9530f5aba2ca325708moment, say a prayer for my aunt who is saying her goodbyes, my uncle who is losing the woman he has been married to for 25 years, my cousin that is coming to terms with losing her mother, and my mother who is trying to be strong with saying goodbye to her older sister. I appreciate all your kind thoughts and hope your weekend was pleasant. Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤