Weekend of loss

lives lostOriginally, I had decided I wanted to write something about dreams, partially because of the awful ones I have been having lately. I was very curious to find a reason behind these dreams because they felt so real, which was a little scary! However, due to the horrifying tragedies that occurred this weekend not even 24 hours apart, my heart and mind is consumed with sadness and heartache for all those affected by these tragedies.

I cannot even begin to wrap my mind around what has happened, yet again in the Unitedel paso States. So many innocent people out on a Saturday for back to school shopping and then others just out for an enjoyable Saturday night have had their lives taken from them or changed forever. No one should ever fear going out in public because of the mentally damaged people that want to cause harm to others.

Everyone always wants to know what the motives are for these mass shootings. The shooter in El Paso TX is said to have published a manifesto an hour and a half before the shooting happened about his reasons. el paso 2The shear hate for those that are a different color or ethnicity is wrong on so many levels. The shooter thought there was an invasion of Hispanics in Texas. Logically, where do think this person heard about an “invasion” of Hispanics? What political leader has made similar comments?  Unfortunately, this 21 year old man killed 20 innocent people and left 26 injured.

The shooter in Dayton, OH was clearly very unwell. It doesn’t appear he was targeting adayton specific type of person; he just opened fire in an open historic area surrounded by bars, restaurants and theaters. Sadly, the 24 year old man killed 9 people one of which included his own sister.

It is incredibly heartbreaking that there was 13 deadly hours this past weekend, leaving 29 dead and dozens injured. How can this continue to happen with no one taking any action to make dayton 2improvements? What or who is creating the intense amount of hate in the United States of America today?

It really does seem that there is at least one deadly incident every week and this needs to stop. I do think many have almost become desensitized to the insanity, which is something we should show a lot more sympathy for. When I heard about the first shooting on Saturday morning, I cried for those that lost their lives or lost someone they loved.

It is August 2019 and there have already been 250 mass shooting in the United States,2042563-Anonymous-Quote-Death-leaves-a-heartache-no-one-can-heal-love which is FAR higher than any other country. The president has made harsh comments about other countries calling them “shitholes”, but these countries have not had anywhere near the mass shootings the United States has had. So how is a country with little to no amounts of mass shootings a shithole and the United States with the most mass shootings a great country to live in? This does not and never will make any sense to me.

asasfasfI am sure it is clear by what I have shared the amount of innocent lives lost breaks my heart. I almost went to the local Wal-Mart on Saturday, but for some reason didn’t and chose a different store. It is upsetting to me that I actually fear going out to stores and malls now because it seems very unsafe. You never know when mentally unstable person will decide to go on a shooting rampage. I believe that everyone needs to stand up together and fight back against the hatred in the world. Sadly, if there aren’t policies implemented about gun control in the United States, this is only going to continue to happen.xBpZ8970

Thank you for stopping by my site today. I am sorry if anything I have written was offensive, but the tragedies that continue to happen are hard to accept. I strongly feel that everyone’s life matters and no one should ever live in fear. As unpleasant as this post has been, I hope your weekend was as lovely as possible. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of      love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes.

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A few things that break my heart

downloadHow often do we try doing everything we can for everyone else, but forget to care for ourselves? I can be very guilty of this and even on a daily basis because I only want the best for everyone. It breaks my heart ❤when I see a homeless person that is kindly asking for a few dollars just so they can have food to eat. It enrages me when I witness a homeless person being disrespected and or belittled by an ignorant individual that knows nothing of their struggles. Even though I wonder how such an awful thing can occur, people do fall on hard times and end up hungry without a images (1)comfortable place to lay their head at night. There is only one person that knows their struggles and no one should ever judge because it can happen to anyone at any time!

How do you feel when you meet someone that is trying their best to dig their way out of a dark time? For instance, a single mother of 3 who is working 2 jobs just to put food on the table and a roof over their heads? Now it isn’t only a mother that plays the mother and father in this situation, there are single fathers out there as well. They are trying their hardest to care for their children, while trying to 28d5d07106bdc9e8dd8c2833142a1e19be the mother and father. 

Why does it seem the number of people who are self-centered and have an entitlement attitude increased so drastically? How is it possible so many people have lost the ability to have empathy for others? There is not a person on the face of this earth that is better than the next person, but yet so many feel they are superior. In a perfect world, everyone would be treated equally and fairness would not be a privilege, but it would be a right!

Another thing that bothers me terribly is the way animals are treated. Animals are innocent and 51T1MAPcg0L._SX258_BO1,204,203,200_depend on their owners for common needs like; food, water, love ❤, a safe home, etc. How many animals have you seen that hold a grudge and only know hatred? I do kind of think one of our cats holds a grudge for a short time after her nails are clipped, but that never lasts more than a few minutes! Unlike the human race, animals love ❤ unconditionally and without ulterior motives! Maybe if humans tried living the way animals do, the world would be download (8)much happier place with far less wars.

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I hope you had a wonderful weekend filled with LOTS of happiness! I cannot believe there is only a few hours left of the weekend before we are starting another 40 hour work week. I guess all we can do now is appreciate short time we have left and be thankful! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

How can this be happening?

images (2)Good evening y’all! Before you continue reading, please beware this is a very emotional post with how I feel about what is going on at the moment. I do hope this does not offend anyone that reads. 

hateHate is a useless emotion that can end up controlling our lives and what good does that really for anyone? Not a damn thing! I will never understand how anyone could be so incredibly full of hate and actually want nothing more but to spread those negative feelings to as many people as they can. Maybe I am the one in the wrong, but I feel we are ALL human-beings with a beating heart ❤ and have real feelings!

If I am being 100% honest with y’all, even though I do my best to not allow hatred to takehate 2 control of my life, I failed miserably last night after watching a horrifying news clip. Seeing the way US Border Protection and Custom Agents are treating immigrant woman and children is disguising and that is putting it mildly. These people being detained are seeking asylum because of the dangers in where they are from.

download (4)I am at a total loss for words that anyone could watch what I did last night and it not leave them full of not only sadness, but pure rage. I sat here in tears for hours because I want to do something to help these innocent people. Woman and children being forced to live with a limited amount of food, water and place to lay their heads, is heartbreaking. It did get even worse than this because children are being separated from their parents and in turn have no one to actually care for them. Sadly the detainees are being treated worse than those in maximum security prisons and even being abused by US Border Protection and Customimages (1) Agents. I would be able to understand what is happening much more if those being detained were causing harm to others, but all they are doing is searching for a safe place to call home.

I have several questions for these immoral US Border Protection and Custom Agents starting with, whose direction are you following? What has caused you to be so malevolent? How the hell would you feel if your wife, mother or child was treated in the horrific way you are treating xrZq6007others? How do you sleep soundly at night and not be haunted with guilt?

For some reason I was under the impression that the United States of America was sanctuary country and was willing to help those in need, but unfortunately I was very wrong about this! There are actually 7 US states that are sanctuary states which include: California, Colorado, Illinois, Massachusetts, New Mexico, Oregon and Vermont. I want to clarify what sanctuary means. The term sanctuary jurisdiction refers to a city, country or state that has enacted policies that limit local officials’ involvement in the enforcement of federal immigration law.textgram-5

Currently I feel completely helpless with my desire to help those being harmed at the border. I told my husband I wanted to somehow send food, clean water, pillows, blankets, clothing, daily hygiene products and anything else these people could benefit from. It about broke my heart when he informed me that others have tried that, but the products never make it to those in need.

Maybe I am just way too emotional of a person, but my heart bleeds for those that I am unable to help. I do not know any of the people that are suffering under the care of US Border Protection and Custom Agents, but that does not mean a thing. These people are trying to escape their own Spread-lovecountry because of the dangers they encountered and come to where they think they will be safe, but are still in fatal danger. I am having a hard time being okay with this and just saying “All well there is nothing I can do.” At the moment, all I am able to do is spread word of this terrible issue and hope for change.

Thank y’all for visiting my site and taking the time to read this highly emotional post. I do encourage your comments and promise to respond as quickly as I can, download (4)but I am also not pressuring you to comment. I know everyone has a lot they are dealing with in their own lives and we all have our own opinions on everything, which is the way it should be! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Chronically Hopeful Award!

ChronicallyHopefulAwardI was completely blown away that the lovely Heather and Dizzy at https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com thought to nominate me for such a beautiful award. I find both ❤ Heather and Dizzy to be so encouraging and battle MS with nothing but grace! Considering I have been adjusting to working full-time again, blogging has been a little difficult for me. I had actually told myself that I would not be able to do award posts until I had fully adjusted, but this one is very special and holds a place in my ❤heart because I think all of us living with a chronic illness need to hold on tight to hope! I mean, without hope, what do we really have? Thank you from the bottom of my ❤ heart Heather and Dizzy ❤ for this incredible nomination! I do encourage anyone that has not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site to check it out https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com, I know you will love it as much as I do! And thank you Pamela ❤ for creating this amazing award for those that are able to have hope for the future!

The wonderful Chronically Hopeful Award has been created by Pamela, “to recognize the incredible people who blog about chronic illness, mental health and disability.”

THE RULES:

  1. Thank your nominator
  2. Recognize Pamela from There Is Always Hope as the creator of this award and link her URL – https://pamelajessen.com
  3. Use the Chronically Hopeful Award logo somewhere in your post
  4. Copy these rules onto your post
  5. Answer your nominator’s questions
  6. Write 5-10 of your own questions (they don’t need to be illness related)
  7. Nominate 5-10 other chronic illness, mental illness, or disability bloggers
  8. Comment on each of your nominees’ latest posts to tell them they have been nominated

Heather & Dizzy’s Questions and my answers:

 1, What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned from your illness?

 I think the biggest lesson I have learned since diagnosed with MS at age 19 is, life can be painfully difficult, but giving up should never be an option. We are meant to live the life we are living and must always fight with everything we have.

2. If you were a dinosaur, what dinosaur would you be and why? download (4)

This was actually a very difficult question to answer, but I think I would have to say a Pterodactyl because they can fly! I think it would be amazing to have the ability to fly away when you need time alone!

3. What is your most embarrassing moment? 

I know I have had many embarrassing moments, but I have done my best to forget them. One embarrassing moment I haven’t been able to forget is tripping while walking on rocks at the beach. It was a simple accident, but so many people watched it happen.

4. What is your favourite flower?download (3)

My absolute favorite flower is the Stargazer lily. I got married in early October when these flowers were not really in season, but I just had to have them. Thankfully, the florist was able to get them for me! It was probably the only thing that I just had to have for my wedding!

5. What makes you happy? 

There are several things that make me happy. First, my two adorable and very loving ❤ cats bring me so much joy. They can be little terrors at times, but they misbehave in the cutest ways possible! Being able to write also brings me so much joy.

 

❤❤My amazing nominees are: Now, my nominees are in no specific order and I also do not want to add any additional stress or pressure to your life, so please do not feel obligated to participate, I will understand if you choose not to. On the other hand, I do look forward to reading your answers to the questions I have come up with!

https://simplychronicallyill.com/

https://autoimmunewarrior.org/

https://mymsrollercoasterride.wordpress.com

https://fuckms.ca

https://bsingthroughms.home.blog/

https://invisiblyme.com/

https://brokenlifesite.wordpress.com

https://beckiesmentalmess.blog/

https://msichchronicles.blog/

❤My Questions For My Nominees Are:

1, What inspires you?

2. What brings you the most joy in life?

3. What do you struggle the most with?

4. If you could be an animal, what would you be and why?

5. What has been your greatest achievement in the past year?

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I hope y’all are having a fabulous weekend and you are feeling well. Please, if you have not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site, check them out if you have the time, I know you will never regret it! Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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Pride Month

imagesThere are various things that are celebrated and or recognized during the month of June. I have already discussed Scoliosis Awareness because it holds a lot of meaning for me, considering my mother recently received this diagnosis. In the past I had worked with children that battled this disease, but I only knew and remembered the bare minimum about it. The research that I did recently was very interesting and I was glad I was able to share this knowledge with y’all.

The month of June is known for being “Pride Month” and I wanted to share some images (1)information about what this means and how the name came about. Pride Month is celebrated every year in June to honor of the Stonewall riots.  On June 28, 1969, police raided the Stonewall Inn located in New York City’s Greenwich Village area. This was the first major demonstration for gay rights in America and had a lot of support in doing so. The patrons at this bar were all gay men and drag queens that joined together to fight back against the police, which I find admirable!

What I have learned regarding the Stonewall Inn was very eye-opening and extremely Stonewall_Nasdaqinformative. For starters, the Stonewall Inn was operated by a mafia organization known as Genovese. This crime family viewed the LGBTQ community as a profitable group. During this time it was pretty much illegal to be a lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, or queer. I find the laws in place during this time were invasive and absolutely awful. There were actual laws on the books prohibiting same-sex public display of affection. The police would arrest a person for simply wearing too many gender related articles of clothing, which still makes absolutely NO sense to me. Gay-friendly bars were a problem because officials would actually withhold liquor licenses from the bars which of course caused a major problem for the bars. Once the Genovese organization purchased the bars, they would blackmail city officials to tip them off prior to a raid which gave them a chance to hide all liquor. Sadly, homosexual activities were deemed illegal in most states, but that only made bars like this a lot more appealing to the mafia!images (2)

Brenda Howard, also known as the “Mother of Pride” is a bisexual activist. Brenda is the one that organized a march and other events to commemorate the one year anniversary of the Stonewall riot. Today Pride Month around the country includes educational and awareness events and even parties to celebrate gay pride.

For some reason on June 28, 1969 the mafia was not tipped off about the raid. The police allegedly targeted the Stonewall Inn for its lack of a liquor license and potential GettyImages-141510668.0.0blackmail attempts on the gay attendees present. Not only did the police confiscate all the bar’s alcohol, but they arrested 13 people present for violating the statue on inappropriate gender apparel, which heck that could have been holding hands.

It wasn’t until witnesses saw an officer strike one of the patrons being arrested on the head when all hell broke loose. Patrons and residents lashed out with anything they were able to get their hands on such as bottles, stones and even loose change. With things getting a little out of control, there were even some thoughts of starting a fire. Crowds grew into the thousands rather quickly, which made the police scared for their own lives. I will be nice and not say how I feel about that kind of coward behavior. As more reinforcements arrived, crowds started to get under control during the first night of the riot.2700103_0

On night 2 of the protest, things grew much more intense creating many more aggressive and hostile feelings from both sides. The level power that was felt was something that wasn’t seen before from the protestors, which made them feel their voices were finally being heard!

Several days after the protests had ended; the local paper “The Village Voice” published two demeaning articles. The homophobic slurs infuriated the protesters and once again they started their protests. Protesters took to the streets and this time it included the office of “The Village Voice”. If the newspaper had not been so ignorant and left things alone, there probably would not have been another massive protest.

images (3)During the many demonstrations, the protesters had decided to opt out of any kind of violence. Trying to keep things as calm and safe as possible, the protesters simply formed Rockettes style kick lines with the protesters on one side and police on the other, while chanting “Liberate the bar”. We all know that way too many protests lead to violence which NEVER solves the problem, but creates a lot more issues!

The Stonewall Inn is now a National Monument and considered an important and historic venue for the new era of gay rights. On June 24, 2016 former President Barak Obama made the inn and surrounding areas officially designated to National Park services for appropriate care!images (1)

During 1970, Martha P. Johnson who was a participant in the protest for the Stonewall Inn, started additional acts for the LGBTQ community. Martha started the Street Transgender Action Revolutionaries (STAR), which was an organization dedicated to helping the LGBTQ youth. Martha wanted to help those living on the streets who were also dealing with hateful and judgmental people.

download (4)Today the Stonewall Inn is still in operation. Unfortunately patrons are still facing harassment from the police departments finest. It is possible I am being a slightly facetious because I just cannot understand what kind of person would attack another emotionally and or physically because of their sexual preference. I think y’all know by now that I strongly believe in treating everyone equally and with respect!

Since the riots the Stonewall Inn has changed several times. Just a few months after the riots had settled the Inn became a juice bar. Then between the 1970’s and 1980’s what images (4)used to be the Stonewall Inn had become a bagel shop, Chinese restaurant and even a shoe store. To me it seems as though business in this location was not doing all that great and it is probably because of all the chaos that had occurred. In 2007 the owner decided to renovate the inn and once renovations were complete it turned back into a bar and club once again. This time there were no restrictions on who was allowed as it was open to everyone!

I know this post is rather long, but I have one more thing to say about this. June 26, 2015 maxresdefaultthe US Supreme court ended all states ban on same-sex marriage and legalizes it is all 50 states! The US Supreme court also required all states to honor out of state same-sex marriage. I never knew this, but Massachusetts was the first state to legalize same-sex marriage in 2003.

It really upsets me that in 2019 those that are part of the LGBTQ are still mistreated. Personally I have several friends that are part of this community and they are great people. These people are NOT harming anyone and just want to love who they lovedownload (3) without judgment! The United States have come a long way with how people are treated, but we can keep trying to do better and be better! We are all FREE      to ❤ love whoever we want and should be respected when we make our choice.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I always appreciate and value your comments and do look forward to reading what you think! I hope you are having an amazing weekend and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

A Day of Remembrance!

memorial-day-1.jpgMemorial Day, is an American Holiday that is observed on the last Monday of the month of May. This holiday is to honor the men and women who lost their lives while serving in the United States military. This day did not actually become an official federal holiday until 1971. Memorial Day was originally known as Decoration Day in the years that followed the Civil War.

I still cannot understand how any war can be referred to as “Civil” because 620,000 people lost their lives in this war. This “Civil” War or the War Between the States went Memorial Day Tributeon from April 12, 1861 until April 9, 1865. The absolutely absurd thing about this war is, it was fought between the United States of America and the Confederate States of America. The Confederate States of America was 11 southern states that left the union in efforts to form their own country and consisted of; South Carolina, Mississippi, Florida, Alabama, Georgia, Louisiana, Texas, Virginia, Arkansas, North Carolina, and Tennessee. The Confederate States of America were fighting to freedom isnt freeprotect their so called rights for slavery.

For me this is a shameful thing to even fight about because I do not believe slavery should have ever existed. Y’all already know this about me, but I strongly believe everyone should be treated equally regardless of their skin color or anything else some might judge on. In 1865, the United States of America defeated those that were part of the Confederate State of America and slavery was abolished.

 Of course in 2019, people are using this day to visit cemeteries, memorials, hold family gathering and participate in parades. Today is aimages (14)day to honor those that fought for equality and to not have anyone referred to slaves. The real meaning behind this day is something honorable and should be recognized. To really honor this day, those that are still judging people need to make a true attempt to change their hateful ways and just share love ❤ with all. So many people risked and gave their lives so we could have the opportunity to live among each other. All of us have a beating heart ❤ that feels and has real emotions. With that said, why do so many people still seem to live to only hate? My hope for today is, everyone will realize and understand that love ❤ is the only way to live and hate images (16)should not be allowed to cloud our thoughts.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have a wonderful day and send a little kindness and love ❤ to another that may really need it. We never know what someone else is going through and it is very possible kind words will not only bring them joy, but it may also make their day! Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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It wasn’t meant to be easy

life has a funny wayLife has a funny way of throwing random things in our direction when they are least expected and often VERY unwanted. It definitely isn’t easy, but these are the times we must pick ourselves up, dust off the difficulties and strive to carry on!

For the most part, I think that the troubles we get faced with happen to remind us just how strong we truly are. We all go along through the motions of any given day and never stop to give ourselves the much deserved credit for the accomplishments we have made. Our daily routines have become so embedded into our minds that we just naturally react to every situation in the best way possible. Sometimes things will work out right the first time around and other times we have to try again! The best way to handle these situations is, NEVER GIVE UP! As long as we choose to not give up and remain determined to succeed, we will never fail.download (3)

What happens when something occurs that was so unexpected; it throws major a wrench in our day to day activities? Of course the process we need to go through may be challenging to figure out, but our minds will lead us in the right direction, if we just listen to our own intuition.

Sometimes life becomes more like a movie that is just set to automatic repeat, or at least it is for me. Monday-Friday every day is the same, which is perfectly fine and preferred. What some might call boring and predictable, I call calm and drama-free! With all the insanity that goes on in this world, who really needs additional drama? I actually love coming images (14)home to be greeted by my ❤ husband and two adorable cats❤! We eat dinner while watching our favorite shows and then just spend good quality time together. I will read, write or crochet in the evenings, so it is very calm, happy, and peaceful!

When I stop to think about how precious life is and how quickly things can change, I am thankful for what I do have in my life. Sure maybe life may have been easier if I didn’t have MS, but I do and I choose to continue living! I try to NOT think about what could have happened or what should have happened because really, what is the point? 63449-Life-Has-Many-Ways-Of-Testing-A-Person-s-WillAnything that did happen did so for reasons I may never know and that is okay. Hell, if it was not MS it may have been something far worse.  

My heart breaks for the people out there that do not have the faintest idea of what actually makes them happy. It almost seems as though these people got lost somewhere along the way and never managed to find themselves. I cannot say they did not try, but I might say they gave up the search. I have known people that went through some pretty severe depression, but even in their darkest hours knew a couple images (15)things that did bring them joy. Of course, those joys did often get shadowed over by their negative thoughts and bad situations, but they were still able to recognize a few positive things in their life. Unfortunately, I have also learned that I do not have the power to turn someone’s mind around when it is clouded with depression. In times like these, there is only one person that can create happiness and that is themselves. For instances, my mother has been struggling lately and neither herDPere-vWAAAeBey husband nor myself can make her truly happy, she needs to do that on her own. I hate to put that so bluntly, but it is the truth and I do think that any legit therapist would agree with me on this for anyone.

The sad reality is life can be harsh and painful, but it is how we handle it that counts. Challenges happen to everyone, no matter how you are or where you live. Unlike so many other things in this world, hard times do not discriminate and will try destroying anyone images (16)and anything that stands in the way. The good news is, if you never surrender and continue fighting back, those hard times will move onto its next victim.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I do encourage you to take a moment to leave a comment because I love knowing what you think of what I share. I hope you are having a pleasant day and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤