Motivational Monday!

Featured Image -- 7497Good morning y’all! I hope you had a nice restful weekend and you are ready to start a new week with positive thoughts! This is the last weekend that I will have to work all week and then finish up some left over moving, I am looking forward to a weekend that I will be able to just rest and enjoy the new house!

I am sure y’all heard about the devastation Hurricane Michael did last week to a few. The havoc those in Florida experienced is truly heartbreaking to me. Personally, I know several people who live in Florida and even sending hopethough they lost so much, they didn’t lose their lives which is SO important. Houses and personal belongings can be replaced, but lives can’t be replaced. Please, help me with sending hopeful and loving ❤ thoughts/prayers to all those that were affected by Hurricane Michael. I feel like many are in need this and if we join together we can help with our thoughts.❤❤ 

The quote I want to share with y’all today has a lot of meaning to me and I really hope you find some meaning and hope in it. We all go through difficult and dark times in life, which often allows us to forget there is a light out there that will help us through.beautiful butterfly

Thank you for stopping by my site this morning. I always appreciate the support you offer me and I can’t thank you enough for your thoughts and prayers for those in the states affected by Hurricane Michael.

I hope y’all have a great start to a new week that has so much potential. Today allows for us to let go of what happened or didn’t happen last week and just start over again. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love  ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Never stop believing in hope!

hope-quotes-wallpaperI think in the world today, it can be very easy to give up hope. There does seem to be so much negativity and hatred surfacing daily, but not allowing these thoughts into our lives is possible! As long as we keep only those around us who offer happiness and nothing but optimism, we all could spread those emotions instead of negativity. If enough believe in love❤ and hope, we could out power the hate.

It could be easy for me or anyone else that lives with a chronic illness to want to give up any hope for a cure. Living with any illness that causes daily pain is without a doubt frustrating, hope-quotes-about-life-09especially when it seems to be never-ending. Being required to take numerous medications several times a day to slow any progression down, is not any fun! Making decisions of what the right medications are is like playing a game of Russian Roulette, you never know what the outcome is going to be. All of this takes determination to beat the odds and hopefully win the game of life!

Making decisions on what the right medications will be for yourself is extremely difficult. This takes having a lot of confidence in your choices. It also takes doing a lot of research on the medications to choose from. Since being diagnosed with Multiple hope seeing brightSclerosis 18 years ago, I have been on numerous different types of medications that are meant to slow the progression down. The first several were not right for me and I was able to move onto something different. The great thing is, none of the medications need to be permanent if they do not work well with your body chemistry, you are able to keep moving on with something else. This process was frustrating for me, but I never gave up hope that something would work well for me. Thankfully, I had a very understanding and tolerant doctor during this time which helped me make the best decisions!

I want to share a blog post from a fabulous fellow blogger❤ with y’all. Jenny at https://trippingthroughtreacle.com has lived with Multiple Sclerosis for many years and still keeps up her fight! I always find everything Jenny shares to be beyond amazing and she continues to give me hope for better times. I want to share with you her recent post because it was so brilliant and very informative https://trippingthroughtreacle.com/2018/09/07/multiple-sclerosis-and-its-symptoms/#comment-1981. This post alone will make you want to read even more of 2-19-life-1024x792Jenny’s posts!

As difficult as life gets, we all have the choice to hold onto HOPE! If we continue believing, HOPE will never die! We have a choice to challenge the potential for continuing to better ourselves and even all around us. 

Thank y’all for visiting my site this morning. I always appreciate your support and love to read your comments! I hope you have a wonderful Tuesday and you are feeling well! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Motivational Monday!

happy-monday-good-morning-wish-image-pics-happy-monday-imageGood morning y’all! If you live here in the United States and had a three-day weekend, I hope it was wonderful! I must say that I do really enjoy the three days off and then four on schedule, I think that allows for us to enjoy life a little more than working five days a week! For someone who feels like she always needs to always be doing something, I managed to spend the majority of my long weekend doing as little as possible, which was absolutely amazing. I love not being forced to follow a certain schedule and having the chance to just relax!!

I hope you are ready to start a new week that will be full of new opportunities. If you 0have today off of work, I hope you do what makes you happy because that is what you deserve! Today can be a day to prepare yourself for getting back to the normal work schedule. I have always been a planner and my goodness when things get out-of-order, it drives me crazy! However, I am learning how to alter and change the order of my plans and just keep moving forward with life!

Whether you are off from work today or you have to work I think we all need a little motivation to start the week off on a good and positive note. I find so much meaning from the quote I am sharing with you today because like Michael J Fox, my sweet step father has Parkinson. Michael has such a strong passion for life and I try my best to keep those passions alive in my very loving step father.Michael J Fox

Seriously, my step father might not be blood to me, but I love ❤ him dearly just the same as if he was and probably even more! Blood relationships do not mean as much as I once thought. Strong relationships are built from more than simply just blood, they are built 0514a05ea6ab068572226ebce0a632fc98daf7-wm.jpgfrom trust, love❤, compassion and understanding which is what I share with my step father. My step father treats me as if I was his own daughter and this is a great feeling! Now my step father and I do disagree on some important aspects of life, but we are all entitled to our own opinions. Just because you disagree with someone doesn’t mean you can’t care for their well-being!

Thank you so much for visiting my site this morning and I hope you found meaning in the quote I shared. I always appreciate your support and love your fabulous comments, which you know I do always respond to as quickly  as I can. As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

The world keeps spinning!

The world keeps spinningThe world seems to keep spinning around me so fast, but I feel like I standing still. I think it might be important to just accept the things in life that we have no control over and just embrace life for what it is. There really is so much about life that we might want to change, but I think whatever we might be living with or dealing with is in front of us for a reason. The reasons might be unknown, but there are reasons that we will discover someday!

If you sit down and really think about the way your life has played out, is there any outcome you would want to be different? All the struggles we might have encountered have not made us weak by any means, but they have all built our strength to continue onstruggle is real fighting a good fight! Sure none of us want to have a chronic illness or financial struggles or anything that might appear to be a negative aspect of life, but if we did not go through all the trials in life who would we be? I would like to think that everything we go through in life creates who we are and how we treat others, but maybe we would still be the same person if we did not go through any hard times. No one can say and be 100% sure!

Personally, I have always been very empathetic towards others and sympathetic to other’s needs. Everyone’s thoughts and emotions matter to me❤! I guess I am and probably always will be a very sentimental and sometimes overly emotional person. The way I am now has not changed since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, I am just me!

There are so many people we all encounter that never learned how to be empathetic, which if you think about it is pretty sad for them. I guess for some people, especially in the world we live in frederickdouglass1today, if you have never experienced a life altering illness that causes many different issues, they are unable to understand. It is okay for people to not fully understand, but they should never judge another because how they say they are feeling. Pain is VERY REAL! Migraines are VERY REAL! Instability when walking is VERY REAL! Mood changes are also VERY REAL! Everything we deal with in life is VERY REAL! None of us asked to have a chronic illness and I am sure we all wished we didn’t. But considering we have one, we face the world with a different perspective that involves a lot of acceptance and willingness to make changes at a moment’s notice. Our days are typically never the same, but most of never complain about it, we just manage it the best we can.

Basically I have taught myself and I am still learning how to accept the fact that I haveaccept what we can not control no control over many things in my life. I know I can control how I view situations and how I react to them, but that is all!  As a person that might have some control issues, this isn’t easy for me. I have always had a strong desire to make the lives of those I care about better. Learning that I have NO control over how someone else’s life works out for them is hard! I have learned that there isn’t anything I can do to make life easy for anyone because I do not think life was meant to always be easy! We all just need to live our life to the fullest and never dwell on what we think or wish would happen!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read my sometimes random thoughts and really LOVE reading your comments! I hope y’all are having a wonderful weekend and I hope you are feeling well. Please always know that I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Very Special Man!

PoppyWhen I was younger there was always ONE voice that could make ANY situation better with just a few simple words. There was that ONE person who I held so dear to my heart❤ that could find the positive side in anything and everything in life. I had that ONE person that made everything better with his wise and very loving words. I admired this man more than words could ever even begin to describe because he knew ONLY love❤ and showed it with all he did in his life. My beloved Grandfather, who I actually called ❤Poppy, was literally the most amazing, admirable and loving people in this entire world! He touched the lives of so many with his kind and loving heart! 

Way back 18 years ago when I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis terrified and extremely sad, I called my Poppy in tears.  He calmly listened through my tears and offered his never-ending support, love❤ and great advice. The words he spoke has stuck with me through the years as he said, “Alyssa, you are strong and can handle anything this illness may inflict on you. But always remember no matter what struggles you may endure, someone else is always going through something worse, so stay strong.” I know just how true his statement is because even when things feel really bad, they could definitely be far worse. At this time I did share with him my fears that I could lose my ability to walk and be wheelchair bound and at the young age I was that was frightening. But he told me to never put thought in something negative until I am actually faced with it and that was wonderful advice.

My sweet Poppy passed away September 9, 2013, but I still remember all the words ofpoppys grave encouragement he shared with me through the years. In the times I am in a terrible amount of pain or feel a massive amount of stress, I hear his voice in my mind with all of his healing powers.

For some reason these past few weeks have been very difficult for me. My pain levels have been elevated drastically and the stress weighing on my mind has been at a HIGH! Some of this stress is the upcoming MRI that I found out today needs additional information from the MSAA. I have sent several emails to the person that was helping me, with NO response yet. But staying logical, I will try again tomorrow as this MRI has already been scheduled! I guess it is possible that some of the stress is I am over thinking EVERY aspect of life and have a difficult time letting go! I am very passionate about many things in life and do not accept “It is what it is and there is nothing we can do!” If I keep remembering my Poppy’s words, if we all stand strong, there is always something that can be done! I guess this is where I got my notion to NEVER GIVE UP!

I think it is very clear that my Poppy was my role model in life and I will always strive to be as much like him as I possibly can! There will never be another man like him, but I My Poppyguess that is what makes him so special. You know that being diagnosed with a chronic illness is tragic and life altering, but losing him was twice as hard on me. I know it has almost been 5 years, but it feels like yesterday when I got the call from my Uncle to tell me Poppy had passed away. I honestly felt as though my world came to a complete halt! If I had just one wish, which I know most people would think I would wish the MS away, but I would wish I could have just one more day with my Poppy. I would rather live with the struggles of Multiple Sclerosis for the rest of my life, if I could just have him here with us again. I would love to be in the car with him listening to him sing “Seven Spanish Angels” by Willie Nelson & Ray Charleshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ as those were the best and most memorable days for me. 

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading this extremely emotional post. I must say this was the hardest post I have written and could not make it through without many tears. I truly wish that my Poppy would not only be proud of this post, but also of all the others that I have written. Always remember to cherish those you love❤ and make sure they know how you feel because unfortunately there is a time they are meant to move onto the next level and be in Heaven. I hope you have a nice and relaxing evening. Please always remember I am sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Calming Sunday!

happy sundayGood evening y’all! I hope your weekend has been very pleasant and enjoyable! Considering I am still feeling so much pain and fatigue, I literally have done NOTHING today! Doing absolutely nothing for one entire day has been both calming to my out of control nerves and peaceful! I can not believe I have missed out on this feeling for so many years! I am always one who wants to be on the constant move no matter how I am feeling, partially because when I am still, I feel pain a lot more!. Doing things around the house, organizing my week ahead and ensuring that everything that needs to be completed is done by the end of the day on Sunday has always been the way my weekends flow. It sounds SO crazy when I think about that a little deeper because things will always get taken care of when they are meant to, so why rush things along?

I think everyone is already very well aware that I am very disturbed by how the United States has been behaving lately. I feel strongly that the behavior of those in charge is setting a very BAD impression and example for all Americans, as some of us do still struggles and frustrationsbelieve in EQUALITY and LOVE❤! Of course there are still some Americans that blindly follow those in charge, which is sad and unfortunate! I find it extremely hard to relate to anyone that does not see what is really happening in this country! I am sorry if anyone finds this statement offensive, but it is how I feel everyday of my life. I have and always will see everyone as just human with no other judgement! I do not appreciate being constantly lied to from those in power of the country I live in because I feel that honesty is the best and only way to live!

I want to apologize for the slight tangent I went off on. I try to stay hopeful that things are going to get better and not any worse, but there is no guarantees with those making the decisions that inflict damage on our lives daily! Currently I feel that I am living in a your patienceconstant state of fear that I am going to end up losing health insurance because I have a pre-existing condition that I never choose to live with. I do not feel that I should be punished for living with a chronic illness, as that alone is punishment enough, so for our government to decide I may not qualify for insurance is absurd! This has not happened yet, but I do think it is in the works! Hell I think I already pay WAY too much for insurance! But it is scary for me  to think that Trump could easily have a bad day and have a temper tantrum that will eliminate healthcare for those with chronic illness! 

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for visiting my site today! I do encourage your amazing comments and promise I will response as quickly as I possibly can! I know some of what I have written is a lot different that what I normally write about, but my frustrations have been elevating drastically each day and every day I hear of what is going on in the United States. Trying to find the positive in what is going on is difficult, but I am sure it is there somewhere! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing evening! Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

** I forgot to ask y’all! Do any of you have Facebook as well? As of August 1st, all my blog post do not link to Facebook any longer and I kind of want them to still link to Facebook. Do you by chance know what I need to do, so I do not have to continue posting to Facebook manually?**

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