Very Special Man!

PoppyWhen I was younger there was always ONE voice that could make ANY situation better with just a few simple words. There was that ONE person who I held so dear to my heart❤ that could find the positive side in anything and everything in life. I had that ONE person that made everything better with his wise and very loving words. I admired this man more than words could ever even begin to describe because he knew ONLY love❤ and showed it with all he did in his life. My beloved Grandfather, who I actually called ❤Poppy, was literally the most amazing, admirable and loving people in this entire world! He touched the lives of so many with his kind and loving heart! 

Way back 18 years ago when I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis terrified and extremely sad, I called my Poppy in tears.  He calmly listened through my tears and offered his never-ending support, love❤ and great advice. The words he spoke has stuck with me through the years as he said, “Alyssa, you are strong and can handle anything this illness may inflict on you. But always remember no matter what struggles you may endure, someone else is always going through something worse, so stay strong.” I know just how true his statement is because even when things feel really bad, they could definitely be far worse. At this time I did share with him my fears that I could lose my ability to walk and be wheelchair bound and at the young age I was that was frightening. But he told me to never put thought in something negative until I am actually faced with it and that was wonderful advice.

My sweet Poppy passed away September 9, 2013, but I still remember all the words ofpoppys grave encouragement he shared with me through the years. In the times I am in a terrible amount of pain or feel a massive amount of stress, I hear his voice in my mind with all of his healing powers.

For some reason these past few weeks have been very difficult for me. My pain levels have been elevated drastically and the stress weighing on my mind has been at a HIGH! Some of this stress is the upcoming MRI that I found out today needs additional information from the MSAA. I have sent several emails to the person that was helping me, with NO response yet. But staying logical, I will try again tomorrow as this MRI has already been scheduled! I guess it is possible that some of the stress is I am over thinking EVERY aspect of life and have a difficult time letting go! I am very passionate about many things in life and do not accept “It is what it is and there is nothing we can do!” If I keep remembering my Poppy’s words, if we all stand strong, there is always something that can be done! I guess this is where I got my notion to NEVER GIVE UP!

I think it is very clear that my Poppy was my role model in life and I will always strive to be as much like him as I possibly can! There will never be another man like him, but I My Poppyguess that is what makes him so special. You know that being diagnosed with a chronic illness is tragic and life altering, but losing him was twice as hard on me. I know it has almost been 5 years, but it feels like yesterday when I got the call from my Uncle to tell me Poppy had passed away. I honestly felt as though my world came to a complete halt! If I had just one wish, which I know most people would think I would wish the MS away, but I would wish I could have just one more day with my Poppy. I would rather live with the struggles of Multiple Sclerosis for the rest of my life, if I could just have him here with us again. I would love to be in the car with him listening to him sing “Seven Spanish Angels” by Willie Nelson & Ray Charleshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ as those were the best and most memorable days for me. 

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading this extremely emotional post. I must say this was the hardest post I have written and could not make it through without many tears. I truly wish that my Poppy would not only be proud of this post, but also of all the others that I have written. Always remember to cherish those you love❤ and make sure they know how you feel because unfortunately there is a time they are meant to move onto the next level and be in Heaven. I hope you have a nice and relaxing evening. Please always remember I am sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort.

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Calming Sunday!

happy sundayGood evening y’all! I hope your weekend has been very pleasant and enjoyable! Considering I am still feeling so much pain and fatigue, I literally have done NOTHING today! Doing absolutely nothing for one entire day has been both calming to my out of control nerves and peaceful! I can not believe I have missed out on this feeling for so many years! I am always one who wants to be on the constant move no matter how I am feeling, partially because when I am still, I feel pain a lot more!. Doing things around the house, organizing my week ahead and ensuring that everything that needs to be completed is done by the end of the day on Sunday has always been the way my weekends flow. It sounds SO crazy when I think about that a little deeper because things will always get taken care of when they are meant to, so why rush things along?

I think everyone is already very well aware that I am very disturbed by how the United States has been behaving lately. I feel strongly that the behavior of those in charge is setting a very BAD impression and example for all Americans, as some of us do still struggles and frustrationsbelieve in EQUALITY and LOVE❤! Of course there are still some Americans that blindly follow those in charge, which is sad and unfortunate! I find it extremely hard to relate to anyone that does not see what is really happening in this country! I am sorry if anyone finds this statement offensive, but it is how I feel everyday of my life. I have and always will see everyone as just human with no other judgement! I do not appreciate being constantly lied to from those in power of the country I live in because I feel that honesty is the best and only way to live!

I want to apologize for the slight tangent I went off on. I try to stay hopeful that things are going to get better and not any worse, but there is no guarantees with those making the decisions that inflict damage on our lives daily! Currently I feel that I am living in a your patienceconstant state of fear that I am going to end up losing health insurance because I have a pre-existing condition that I never choose to live with. I do not feel that I should be punished for living with a chronic illness, as that alone is punishment enough, so for our government to decide I may not qualify for insurance is absurd! This has not happened yet, but I do think it is in the works! Hell I think I already pay WAY too much for insurance! But it is scary for me  to think that Trump could easily have a bad day and have a temper tantrum that will eliminate healthcare for those with chronic illness! 

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for visiting my site today! I do encourage your amazing comments and promise I will response as quickly as I possibly can! I know some of what I have written is a lot different that what I normally write about, but my frustrations have been elevating drastically each day and every day I hear of what is going on in the United States. Trying to find the positive in what is going on is difficult, but I am sure it is there somewhere! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing evening! Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

** I forgot to ask y’all! Do any of you have Facebook as well? As of August 1st, all my blog post do not link to Facebook any longer and I kind of want them to still link to Facebook. Do you by chance know what I need to do, so I do not have to continue posting to Facebook manually?**

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Looking back over last year

never look backDeciding to read back over the posts that I made over this past year has been a little scary, upsetting and satisfying all at the same time, if that makes any kind of sense. This past year really has been pretty darn hellacious and that is putting it mildly! There seems to have been so many ups that gave me hope, but then the falls that followed were just that much more discouraging. Getting back up after a failed attempt at something may seem like a daunting task, but it is also a necessity in life. Allowing for anything to keep us down for long is just not an option in my mind because if we stay down, we are only allowing for what brought us down to win the ever so long battle.

I think that in the past, I have had a faithful dedication to believing blindly in hope. I was naïve to think that hope could change everything and still do believe that to a lesser extent. Honestly I think one of the reasons for me losing hope is because of just how Hope-1-100Pedalshorrible the world has become in a very short amount of time. The negativity and pure hatred that has been bred by those leading the country has been incredibly upsetting and terribly shocking! Living in a country that was once known for its freedom and justice for all, has made a drastic change at becoming the polar opposite and that is quite frightening to me. The downward spiral happened so painful fast and building the beliefs we all once stood for back up seem almost impossible. I feel this country started to become much more equal for everyone once upon a time, but now it seems like everyone is against everyone else for no real apparent reason besides becoming way too passive and folding! How can you change the thoughts of others that are just stand upsimply following what the leaders are doing?

I think in a world so full of chaos it takes kind-hearted❤ and loving people to stand up for what they still truly believe in their hearts! Is that difficult? Possibly yes, but it is for the shear fear of ridicule and not be accepted by our peers. But, really who wants to be accepted by those that have so much hate in their hearts? I honestly do not have any desires to be accepted into that world. I would much rather stand-alone if it means I am not giving up the beliefs I hold dear in my heart and soul!

So when I said that I have started to lose faith in hope, it is because hope sometimes feels like a foreign object that many others lost a long time ago. Hope is a like fragile piece of don't lose hopeglass that if it is pushed around too forcibly can and will break under the pressure that is forced on it. I like to believe that the strength I have deep in my heart and soul is powerful enough to defeat the constant negativity I have been faced with daily! I am only one person with a strong voice when pushed into a corner, but I will always stay true to my beliefs and passions!

I know I started this off by talking about looking back over the past year and kind of got off on a different tangent. What I can say is this past year has helped me grow stronger happiest momentsas a person. Last year was the start of a pretty nasty relapse that is still in the healing process. I do not know if all the pain I have been struggling with is ever going to subside, but I do plan to keep the fight moving forward and not allow it to defeat me or threaten my courage. There is absolutely NOTHING I can do to change what happened in the past leading up to the relapse, but I can decide how I am going to handle it from this point on. I do not truly think I can go back to where I was or who I was last year at this time, but that person I was is still in me somewhere just a little more rattled by the torture of MS. No matter how beat down I might feel at times, I am still just me!

I hope y’all have had a nice and restful weekend. After the hellish week I had, I have done my best to recuperate so I can tolerant the week ahead of me. Do I plan to push myself to the limits again? Probably not as forceful, but I will still test my limits because that is what living is all about. Thank y’all for visiting my site today and every other day. Y’all always leave me with the best comments and I do treasure what you have to say! I hope y’all are able to enjoy your Sunday and prepare yourself for the start of a new week, leaving behind anything that happened last week! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Already half way through the year!

half way through 2018Good afternoon y’all! Can you believe tomorrow is already July and we are half way through 2018? I had so many expectations for this year, but unfortunately nothing has really changed since 2017. I kind of feel like I am trapped in the quick sand of life and can not seem to find my way to the better side!

Have you ever felt like you were drowning in the struggles that life throws at you? There are some days that I feel like I am just treading the waters of a painful life and sinking relatively fast! I have heard the saying, “Life does not give you anything you can’t handle”. But I mean come on there does not seem to be an end in the amount of tests I am given daily. I do like to believe that I am a pretty strong person, but everyone has a breaking point and they need some easy days!

How has your year been thus far? Did you set goals for 2018 and have you been able to Goals without a planreach them? I am not saying for even one second that if you have not accomplished your goals by now that you won’t be able to, it is just all a matter of never giving up and believing you can do anything you set your mind to! When we fall down and feel like we have crashed and burned, we just have to stand back up, brush ourselves off and keep moving forward! There are still six more months to go to achieve any goals we had for this year, but it just seems like Keys-to-Setting-Goalstime is flying by and not giving a moment for us to catch up.

Do you remember where you were last year at this time? I do remember where I was and it was not a great time for me at all. I was debating with myself if I should let the medication I had been on for 6 years go and try something new! Through a lot of internal discussions and against my doctor’s advice, I ended up dropping the Gilenya to give Tecfidera a chance. The combination of the stress I put on myself and changing medications, I ended up with the worse relapse I have had since being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. It was a terrible time in life and I am honestly still feeling some of the consequences now. Of course I did end up going back on the Gilenya because it was apparently strong enough to help control the progression of the Multiple Sclerosis. Even though this difficult time in my life has lasted a long time, I still believe that giving up is just not an option for me and never will be! I am still trying my best each an every day and little by little I do believe I livelaughlovewill get back to my “normal” self again, whatever that may be. 

Now honestly do you sometimes feel that for every step forward you take, there are always two steps backwards in return? In situations when you feel like this, it is just always important to pull yourself together and just fight to take more steps in the right direction! Life was never meant to be full of sunshine and rainbows, but it is all just a learning experience that can be down right painful at times. I do believe that each struggle we face in this journey of life is just a building block that enables us to be a lot stronger than we would have been! We seldom get to choose what our difficulties in life are, but we do always get to decide how we are going to handle them!

Thank you so much for visiting my site on this beautiful Saturday! I hope your weekend is starting off lovely and you will be able to enjoy the rest of it! Remember that this is the last Saturday of June, so make it wonderful! I do always encourage your amazing comments and I will respond to you as quickly as I possibly can! I do not have too many plans for the weekend, but I do have 2 award nominations and 2 tags to work on, so hopefully I will get them done by the end of the weekend! As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

1,000+ Amazing Supporters!

1000 followersI started my blog on July 17, 2017 to raise awareness about Multiple Sclerosis, but also to encourage and inspire those that suffer from any chronic illness or just difficulties life has to offer us that we really do not want. I was just learning about the blogging community and I had only 3 followers, my husband, mother and mother-in-law. Since that time my blog has grown to over 1,000 amazing followers❤! I have learned so much from each and every one of you and I really hope that I have been able to do some good for you as well. I am so very thankful for y’all!!  I never thought that blogging would be so incredible but I am really glad I made the decision to start my blog!

I hope y’all are having a good week! I know you are probably happy that tomorrow is kindnessFriday and then we have the weekend to enjoy! I am definitely really glad the weekend is near considering I have not been feeling all that great. Y’all already know that I have been dealing with a lot of pain and headaches for weeks now without any help from my doctor! I reached out to my doctor on Monday to inform her about the fainting spells I was having, but there was NO response. Unfortunately the lack of caring from my doctor does not surprise me at all and it only makes me more excited to move soon and find a new doctor that will hopefully be more attentive!

I would really like to thank y’all for always being so amazing and caring! In our society kindtoday it is so hard to find people who really truly care about more than just themselves. It seems as though so many have adopted a selfish behavior, but none of you have gone that way in life! All of you are so caring, compassionate, sympathetic and empathetic for others and I appreciate this more than words can even begin to describe! Y’all have given me so much hope that love❤ and kindness still exists in this world!

Thank you for stopping by my site today! I always appreciate you taking the time to read and make fabulous comments, which I will always respond to as quickly as I can. Again, thank you so much for your continued support. I value all the friendships I have been able to make through this blog! As always I am sending you LOTS of❤ love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Dismiss the judgments and embrace compassion!

Good afternoonGood afternoon y’all! I hope you are enjoying this beautiful Saturday! Of course it is insanely hot where I live today, but I have learned to accept it because that is the way it will be for the next several months.

 

So much is going on in the world and it has really affected me emotionally. Life can be viewed as short or even painfully long at times! But, however we view life, why waste any of our precious time passing judgments on others? I do believe too many people judge a book by its cover and fail to see the bigger beautiful picture that each individual is in their own unique way.

I do feel that it is extremely important to always treat others the same way we would likeBe kind to be treated! I do not have any room in my life for hateful and judgmental people. It seems like there are far too many out there that do not view things the same way I do and that is incredibly unfortunate. I am not saying that everyone should follow everything that I do because I am not perfect in any way, but I do feel that we should all try to spread as much love and compassion as we can! I know y’all already do an amazing job with this, but there love is absenseare still so many others that do not!

When I look at the way the country I live in is behaving, it is very troubling to me. It seems that some think it is perfectly acceptable to use innocent children as a bargaining tool, which in my opinion is anything but acceptable! Anyone that has children or use to be a child, which we all were at some point, should not think it is acceptable to use children like they are pawns on a chessboard. It is just incredibly disturbing to me. There are children being taken from their parents and put into cages like animals. These parents and children that are being tormented did not ask for this treatment and definitely DO NOT DESERVE IT!

I will never understand why some people will continue mistreat others just because of the color of their skin, sexual preference, religious beliefs or any other thing that may too many criticsdiffer from them. It is 2018 and we should all be evolving instead some are devolving at an incredible fast pace. We are all entitled to our own opinions, but everyone is also entitled to never have to fear being ostracized for being who they are. I know it is probably obviously, but I strongly believe everyone should be treated equally and with respect. 

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading how passionate I truly am about equality for all❤. I am sorry to go off a rant about how horrible people are treated in the United States, but it is something that I feel is not right in any way! We all have our own opinions and it is perfectly fine if you disagree with anything that I have written. I do look forward to any comments you may have and I will respond as quickly as I possibly can. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and I hope you are feeling well! As always I am sending y’all LOTS of❤ love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

First Friday of Summer!

Be someones sunshineGood morning🌅 and happy Friday y’all! I hope you had a pleasant week and I know you must be looking forward to the weekend!! I want to wish you a wonderful day and remind you to stay cool as you can in the summer’s unrelenting heat!

I hope today we can all try to be the☀ sunshine for another person that might be in a darker place in their life. All it takes is one person to make a dramatic difference to someone else that might be suffering. After all, we never really know what the person standing right next to us is dealing with, so maybe we can help bring them some happiness they were lacking.  Spreading love❤ and compassion can go a long way and maybe this could end up being a chain reaction that inevitably spreads throughout the entire world! Wouldn’t that be absolutely fabulous? I think the world we live in would be a much happier place to continue living in, if only we could all embrace each other without any negative thoughts and or unfair judgments! Kindness, solicitude, empathy and 💝love can go a long way, if only everyone would encompass these thoughts into their daily life! Believe it or not, it does not take a fancy magician to accept others for who they are, instead of what we may think they should be! The only person we can change, is ourselves! It obviously just makes me so💧 sad and disturbed when I hear of anyone not being treated fairly. We are all just human-beings and deserve to be treated with respect!

 

I hope y’all have a wonderful Friday! Your comments are always encouraged and appreciated! I will respond to all of your amazing comments as quickly as I can! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤