Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentines DayHappy Valentine’s Day to all! I might be wrong, but I do not believe we need a holiday to show our significant other that we love them. It seems like Valentine’s Day has become more of a consumerism day to buy cards, flowers, jewelry, balloons and candy when it was supposed to be all about love! My husband and I do not need a designated day to show how we feel about each other, we show our love and appreciation for one another every day of the year!

Valentine’s Day can also be a sad day for some. What about those who have lost a loved one recently? Or what about those whose relationship has come to a bitter end? Or those that are single and are not going home to a loved one? I am not saying we need to hide our love for our significant others to shelter those that are not enjoying Valentine’s Day, but we should not go to huge extremes on only one day to prove our love. images

I truly hope y’all have had a good day! I do not mean to sound so anti Valentine’s Day, I just feel pretty strong that love should be shown and felt everyday of the year! I do my best to always make sure my husband knows just how much he means to me and he does the same!

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading my thoughts. Whether you agree or disagree with me, I would love to hear your own thoughts about Valentine’s Day. Is it a holiday that you love or hate? I am sending each and every one of you lots of love and comfort, everyday not just today!!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

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Positivity can be motivating!

challenges-make-life-interesting.pngThroughout our lives we are faced with many challenges. At times we may feel defeated by these challenges when in fact they are making us stronger. It is often very difficult to see the bright side of a bad situation because everything seems so dark and hopeless. But I do believe in some way these trials that leave us questioning life are building our strength for the next step in life.

In my opinion it takes a lot more energy to stay negative than it does to be positive. I am also a firm believer that positive thoughts can change our lives for the best! Whatever our struggles are in life we were dealt this hand for a reason. One reason without a doubt is we are strong enough to handle it! Maybe we were meant to help others that might be having a difficult time accepting the same ordeal. We might be offer sound advice or offer a lending handle to someone in need.

Many people each day are being given life altering news that they are trying to learn to cope with. More than likely the news is causing some fear and anxiety in their lives. Most of us have experienced this before and we probably have people in our lives currently dealing with something similar. It is astonishing how much a phone call or doctor’s visit can change your life completely. It is in times of bad news where having a positive attitude can be very beneficial.garden

Life will never change if you spend all of your time focusing on the negative aspects life can have. Negativity can be emotionally and physically draining. Please tell me if you feel different, but I find that when I am down and negative I feel so much worse. I can remember back when my flare up started in October, I was so down about it and felt so cynical about everything I hardly wanted to get off the couch. During my pessimistic time, my condition did not improve at all but persistently got worse causing me so much additional pain. Now that I am thinking with a more optimistic mind, I am starting to feel better each day. I still face a terrible amount of pain daily but it could be much worse than it is now.   

It is so important to always remember the good things in your life. Try taking a few End day positiveminutes everyday to appreciate your life and what you love! Sometimes all it takes is enjoying the simple pleasures our lives offer to bring us happiness!

Thank you for stopping by to read and comment on my thoughts for today! I hope y’all had a great day and are staying warm. Continue holding onto your positive thoughts and fantastic outlooks on life. It really is amazing just how much these happy and positive views can impact your life for the better! Much love y’all!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

Chilly Sunday

Sunday 1Sunday can be such a nice relaxing day, until you realized tomorrow is Monday. I am really not ready to start another work week so soon! But, it is good to look at another Monday as fresh start to a new week that is full of possibilities! Regardless of the chances for great things to occur, I do not look forward to that nagging alarm going off!

Sometimes weekends are a time to catch up with family, friends and do all the things you were not able to do during the week. But, sometimes weekends are a great time to just catch up with yourself. After we spend all week in an office, it is so wonderful to not have any expectations for a couple of days. I like weekends when there are not any plans made, no expected or unexpected visitors, no must do items and I can do things on my time without watching a clock like I do during the week. Sometimes I think the clock is the enemy and is just there to control us!

This next week I am planning on trying to push myself a little more. I do feel as though I am getting much better and stronger. I do still have a ton of pain but it is almost pain I can handle. Most days now I am not experiencing the pain that would literally bring medak_you_are_braver_than_ to tears. I am still coping with the relentless back and leg pain but there is no use crying over it because that will not help at all! I have made the decision to ignore to irritating pain and keep doing what I want to do and what needs to be done! Making the decision that I am stronger than the pain and the MS is a smart way to handle things!

I hope y’all are feeling well and handle a fantastic weekend! Enjoy the rest of your Sunday as you prepare for an exciting Monday! Okay, I know there is not many people out there that believe Monday’s are exciting but at least it is another day to live your life to the fullest! 

Thank you for visiting and reading my short thoughts for the day! I always welcome and appreciate your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can! No matter what happens in life continue to stay positive, you may not be able to see the difference right away but it makes for positive changes! Much love y’all!!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

Miss the ole days

rainy dayThere has been a threat of rain today but it has yet to rain! It is horrible when you can feel the rain through the cold air. The rain makes most people feel so fatigued and all you really want to do is sleep. There are times that the cold weather is comforting because you can wear sweaters and boots when you go out in it and come home to a nice warm blanket! But, the cold weather does make me tense up which causes additional pain.

I started thinking today that I really miss days before MS was part of my life. I do realize that MS is not my entire life but it is obviously a big part of it. I still stand by my thoughts of this illness does not control me, it is just a pesky uninvited visitor. Even though I did not ask for this I do try to manage the best way I can. Everyone has days when they want to ask “Why me?” or “What did I do to deserve this?” and I do believe that is normal, good old daysbut sadly those questions will go unanswered. Considering there really are no answers to these questions the only thing we can do is embrace it, stay positive and strong! Even if I could go back in time, there is nothing I could do to change the fact that I have this illness to live with. The energy we have whether it is positive or negative, does impact our lives to great extents. I have made the choice to try to only put out positive energy, it may not take my pain away, but it does give comfort to my mind and soul!

I received a message today from my Specialist that was a little upsetting. It really does not make sense that her message upset me because I did already know that an exacerbation can last weeks or months and I did know there could be residual issues even after I heal. I think the part that was most upsetting was she said that I may never be 100% again. That just made me think that this pain and numbness I deal with is going to just be my life. In all honestly since all of this started I am getting better, I may not be 100% but I may end up getting there! With her saying that I may never get back to 100%, it sparked my determination to win this battle. In my mind I know I will at least my bubbleget back to where I was before this flare up, it may not be perfect but it is my 100%! I do miss the days when I did not have to take any medicine every day and did not have to really worry about anything. Life use to be easy and fun without any troubles! I never thought about politics or had to hear about so much hatred. But now, no matter where you go or who you talk to unpleasant topics always come up. It is almost like my happy peaceful bubble where there was nothing but love and happiness burst. However, even though the bubble is missing, I am still a very happy and positive person! 

Thank you for reading and commenting on my thoughts for the day. I do not think we are facing rain tomorrow but it is going to be cloudy and cold. Even though it has been a slow process, I really am healing. I am planning to continue working 6 hour days because right now it is really all I can handle. On the positive side at least things are improving instead of getting any worse. I hope y’all had a great day and you have a fantastic evening! Take care and continue to be your strong and positive self!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa

 

 

Awesome Blogger Award Nomination!

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I feel so honored, privileged and thankful for you to consider me a nominee! Thank you Mackenzie for nominating me, I really appreciate this and you more than words can say! Mackenzie is a very passionate writer that is full of positivity and handles her illnesses with such grace! I encourage everyone to check out her blog lifewithanillness.

Rules For This Award:

  • Thank the person who nominated you.
  • Include the reason behind the award.
  • Tag it under #awesomebloggeraward in the Reader.
  • Answer the questions your nominator gave you.
  • Nominate at least 5 awesome bloggers.
  • Give your nominees 10 new questions to answer.
  • Let your nominees know that they’ve been nominated.

 

Mackenzie’s Questions

  • What is your biggest goal in life?

My biggest goal is life is to someday be able to write a book! I even have a plan for what my book will be able!

  • What is your favorite food?

If I am being honest, my favorite food is very unhealthy but it is pizza.

  • Cats or dogs?

I do love all animals but I guess I would have to say cats!

  • Why did you start blogging?

I started blogging because of my love and passion for writing and also to be able to help others that battle chronic illnesses. I want to be able to provide positive thoughts to illnesses that are not fun to live with and show everyone that there is a way to make it through even the hardest times in life. I want to be able to encourage others to never give up on dreams, even when you feel like all the cards are stacked up against you.

  • Where is your dream vacation?

My dream vacation would be to travel the world. I would start off in Hawaii! Then, I would go to Australia, Ireland, Sweden, Italy and then Denmark. I have big dreams for an amazing vacation!

  • What advice would you tell your 13-year-old self?

The best advice I could give the 13-year-old me would be to never give up on life and dreams because anything you set your mind to can be achieved in time.

  • How many pets do you have?

I have two amazing cats that truly bring so much happiness to me everyday!

  • Who inspires you?

The person in my life that has inspired me the most would be my Grandfather. The reason he was the most inspiring person to me is because he knew nothing but love and always treated others with respect. My Grandfather had no room in his life for hate or discrimination. 

My Nominees:

  1. Create Space
  2. Army of Angels
  3. Fuck MS
  4. Robyn’s Reflection
  5. Just a Quiet Girl, Living in a Noisy World

 

My Questions:

  • What made you decide to start blogging?
  • What is your biggest dream in life?
  • Do you have pets?
  • What is your favorite color?
  • Who or what is your greatest inspiration?
  • Where was your best vacation?
  • What is your most challenging goal in life?
  • What did you want to be as a child?
  • If you could give advice to the 15-year-old you, what would it be?
  • Who is your idol in life?

First, I want to thank all of my nominees for all your amazing posts and for all of your support since I started my blog! All of you are absolutely amazing and have great writing abilities. I have loved getting to know all of you and I am really looking forward to reading your answers! Thank you again to Mackenzie, livewithanillness, for nominating me for this incredible award! I hope y’all have a great day and keep your amazing blogs going! 

Love 2

Much Love, Alyssa

Restful Sunday!

Monday to awayHappy Sunday Y’All! I hope you had a nice weekend! I tried to do as little as possible so I can start feeling better. For my birthday yesterday, my husband and I did make it to my favorite restaurant! We had a very nice time together and the weather was amazing! I am definitely NOT emotionally or physically ready for Monday, but I will do my best! 

Today, was a wonderful day! Despite my pain being insanely high, today is my anniversary! My amazing and supportive husband and I have been married for 6 years today! I can remember just how amazing our wedding was and just how thankful I am for him everyday! Jon understands me completely. He knows when I am feeling bad, sad, happy or stressed and will do anything under the sun to make things easier for me!

I know I told you I have an MRI on Saturday, however, I have decided to postpone the MRI. I have a few reasons that either will make sense or they won’t. Even if I do the MRI and there are new lesions, I am not going to do steroids. I have been on steroids way too many times and all the steroids do is make me feel worse. Plus, the steroids do so much damage to our bodies and our organs. It may make a flare up heal faster, but the issues will heal in a matter of time! I also do not want to hear the doctor tell me I need to be on a medication stronger than the Tecfidera. I understand that Gilenya is strong but I was not able to tolerate the full amount, so how do it make sense to be on something Hopestronger? I am giving the Tecfidera a chance to do what it is supposed to. I was off Gilenya for a month and a half before starting the Tecfidera and I have not even given the new medicine a month yet. So, I am going to stay on my medicine and do all I can to control my stress. I feel strongly that reducing my stress will have a huge impact on the MS! My other reason for delaying the MRI is because all the results do is upset me and cause a lot more stress. That does not make sense to put myself through that right now. My plan is to, reduce stress, get rest, take better care of myself and stay on my current medication! If things are not better in a few months, I will consider doing the MRI.

Some of you may think I am doing too much and causing myself more stress by committing to do one blog everyday, but I strongly feel different! Being able to write about how I am feeling has offered me stress relief. Blogging and communicating with Optional Mondayothers who understand what I am dealing with has been great for me! I have made friends with so many people all over the world that can give me advice on how to deal with a certain issue and I have honestly been able to provide positivity for so many. I have received many comments and messages thanking me for my positive attitude! It means a lot to me to be able to show others that even though I do have a chronic illness, I am strong and determined to never let it defeat me!

I really appreciate everyone that has wished me a happy birthday and anniversary! All of you are so incredible and I do feel as though I know some of you! I have had personal communicates with several of you and y’all have provided me with a tremendous amount of encouragement! Many of you have taken the time to share things with me by email and I have built an amazing connection with Hopeful butterflyyou! I truly hope you had a great weekend and I hope you have a great week! Please leave a comment below and I will respond to you as quickly as I can! Also, never hesitate to email me directly as again, I love being able to communicate with you! Oh and I am sure you already can tell by my posts, I absolutely love purple and butterflies! Butterflies to me have a magical power that we may never fully understand!

Love 2

 

Always, Alyssa

Stress-Free Birthday!

stressfree birthdayGood morning Y’all! I hope you are having a good morning! As y’all know, today is my birthday! Boy am I starting to get old! You also may know, that I have had a stressful and painful few months. Yesterday, I had a very upsetting and stressful day, which only added to my pain issues. Today, I want to just relax and have absolutely NO stress in my life! All I really want is, one day with no complaints and or stress! I think this will actually help me get to feeling better. 

As most of you already know, I have been having these horrible flare up like symptoms for a few months now. I Birthdayhave had a ridiculous amount of pain, that just will not quit. This weekend was supposed to be wonderful, with today being my birthday and tomorrow being my anniversary. It seems like my MS did not get that message and acted up anyway! But, even with the pain I am having, I am going to try to enjoy today and tomorrow with my husband and cats! Hopefully later today, my husband and I will go out to lunch at my all time favorite restaurant! Later tonight, we will rent a movie and relax at home with each other and of course our sweet cats! I am not sure what movie will rent, but hopefully it will be a good one!

I have only been up for a few hours and my pain is unfortunately still pretty damn bad! I do not understand why is will not leave me alone for a few day. I am going to be getting the MRI next weekend and I have rested for several days now, what more can I do? It is so frustrating when nothing seems to relieve the pain, at all! Normally, laying down helps the pain, but lately that has not even helped. I just really need a break from pain, even if it will let up for a few hoursbirthday break would be wonderful! But I guess maybe that is asking too much! I have learned over the past 16 years, you can not reason with an illness. The MS is going to do what it wants, when it wants to, with no thoughts of what I need! But, I will get through this at some point!

I hope that y’all have a great day today and are able to do something that you find enjoyable! It looks like it is a beautiful day where I live, so I hope it where you are as 6601871244d8d3798da7c92b540e2044--dont-give-up-quotes-dont-give-upwell! We all should be able to enjoy this short life we have to the fullest! Even though I am in a lot of pain, I am very determined to have a good weekend! I am not and never have been one that will surrender to anything, even to the pain and Multiple Sclerosis. I can not allow these things to control my life, at all! Thank you for all your continued support and reading my posts daily! I love all the comments I get from so many of you! Again, have a great day and stay positive and strong! Take care!!!

Love 2

 

Always, Alyssa

Ready for the New Week?

Lazy Sunday 2Happy Sunday Y’all! I hope you have had a great weekend! Even though I did not work Friday, the weekend flew by! Are you ready for a new week that is going to bring about wonderful changes? I know I am! Y’all know already that the past few weeks for me have been unfavorable. I am very hopeful that the week of my birthday and anniversary to my amazing husband, will be full of nothing but happiness and to have a decrease in my pain!

Even though Monday does bring in a new week that may possibly be full of positive changes, I am still not really ready to start a new week at work. Most days, I push myself hard to get through the day. I can not help but get frustrated and a little disappointed when I start hurting so bad that it causes me to be unable to focus as well as normal. I am however going to be optimistic that this week will not be nearly as bad as it has been. I should get some answers from my doctor on Monday or maybe Tuesday. Hopefully, she is going to be able to say what has been causing the increased and unbearable amount of additional pain. No matter what the outcome of my tests are, I am refusing to take anymore Not ready for Mondaymedications that I am not comfortable with. As I already told you, she has me taking something that should help with neuropathy pain, but from the start I was not comfortable with this type of medicine and it has not helped me. I have been gradually weaning myself off of it and never want to take anything like it again! I try hard to listen and do what the doctor says, but she does not know my tolerance to medication. When I say very bluntly that I am uncomfortable with something and give solid reasons as to why I feel that way, that should be taken into consideration and not ignored. But you know how doctors can be, they think that they know everything and the patient should blindly listen! I am not able to do that!

These past few days have been brutal for me. I did not even have to energy to go do something I was so excited to do, my nails. Today, I slept a little later and then when I woke up I just rested on the couch with my cats for a little while. I finally got up and got myself ready, so I could get my nails done and get the grocery shopping done. Getting my nails done was great and the lady that did them, Katie, was so sweet! I had planned to do a pedicure today as well, but decided it would be a lot more fun to wait until Friday and relax butterfly 2go with my mother while we celebrate my birthday! I am planning to schedule an appointment with Katie for my pedicure! I wish I could say my trip to the grocery store was as wonderful, but it was not. I got about half way through the store and started hurting something fierce! I had to use the shopping cart to help me continue walking. Thankfully, the store was not busy because the football game was here in Charlotte. It is the absolute best time to go to the grocery store, because most people love football and go to the stadium! 

I am happy to say, I only have to work four days this week! I am off on Friday to start my weekend celebration of my birthday and my anniversary! Friday will be a fun day because my mother and I are going to lunch and to get a pedicure! Pedicures can be so relaxing and then your feet will feel so amazing!

My plan for the rest of my Sunday is to relax and get my mind ready for the dreaded go awy painMonday, if that is even really possible. I am really hoping this week is going to be better and that the pain myself and my husband have struggled with is going to just go away! We did not ask for this but we are asking it to leave! It is like that annoying neighbor that comes to visit, there is only so long you can deal with them before they have to go back to where they came from!

I hope your weekend was everything that you wanted and that your week starts off great! Remember, positive thoughts bring positive events. I want to thank all of you for continuing to come back and read my posts. This blog has become a huge part of my life and I love every part of it! I know I set myself a challenging goal of posting once a day for at least one month, but it has been helpful for me when I am struggling! Please never hesitate to contact me if you need someone to chat with. You can visit my contact page to get my email address, so it can be a little more private, if you want! I hope your night goes great and you are able to get yourself ready for the new week! Take care!

Love 2

 

Always, Alyssa

Another Day Down, 3 To Go!

TuesdayI hope y’all had a great day today! WOW, I can not believe it is ONLY Tuesday. Just think, we are pretty much half way through the week! I am very excited for this weekend for several reasons. One reason is easy to figure out, I don’t have to work the weekend and I can sleep in! Another reason is, I am getting my nails and toes done. I love having my nails and does done! It is so incredibly relaxing and makes me feel so good!!!                                                                           1079 

Today, even though I was still in a lot of pain, I worked almost 9 hours! My goodness, it was so difficult getting through the day, because all I really wanted to do at about 11 am was lay down, considering that  actually takes some of pressure off my back. In all honesty, my pain level right now in my back, legs and shoulder is above a 10. But, at least I made it through an entire day without having to cut my day short, which I consider a success! I am so thankful to be home now with the ability to rest with my wonderful husband and sweet cats. One of the best parts of my day is, coming home to be greeted by both of my cats at the door and changing into my comfortable clothes!

I am very excited that my manager approved my PTO request for next Friday! I am going to be spending the day with my mother to celebrate my birthday, which is next Saturday. My mother and I will have a nice time going out to lunch and maybe going to the mall. Next weekend is an exciting time for me and my husband. My birthday being Saturday, September 30th and Sunday October 1st, being mine and Jon’s Love6th wedding anniversary! October 1st is also the anniversary of 7 years since Jon proposed to me on stage with The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. It should be a great weekend and I can not wait! It is hard to believe that it has been 6 years already. My wedding day was the most relaxed that I have ever been. I knew I was marrying the love of my life and soul mate. For someone who is always stressed, my wedding day when most brides are a little on the stressed side, I was very relaxed. I was a little emotional because my Grandfather could not be there and my father choose not to be there, but everyone else that matters to me was there supporting us!

I am very hopeful that by making it through an entire day at work, maybe my pain will Pain 1start getting better. I think I have been suffering for long enough and it is time for it to start decreasing. Even though it was hard to get through the day, I did it! Maybe tomorrow will be easier, but we will see. I have been pretty frustrated because it doesn’t seem like people really understand and probably think I am blowing things out of proportion. One of my co-workers asked me today if I was feeling better. When I started to explain how I was feeling, they changed the subject. I mean, why ask if you don’t really care to hear the answer? Others that claim to be a friend, didn’t even bother asking. But truth is, none of that really matters. I know that I have the love and support of my husband!

I hope y’all have a great evening and a fantastic Wednesday! Tomorrow, when you are ready for the day to be over and the clock is not moving fast enough, think positive, it is almost the weekend! Sometimes finding the positive in every situation will make you feel better. Earlier today, my boss was talking about how much extra work we have and will continue to have because of the Hurricanes and I said, “Well at least we are not dealing with the tragedies the victims are dealing with.” all he could say was “I guess that is true.” Turing negative to positive is a good thing to be able to do! Next time someone says something truly negative to you, try flipping things around and saying something positive to them and see what their response is!

Love 2

 

Always, Alyssa

 

 

Happy Relaxing Monday!

Monday 4I am happy to say that I have  had a fantastic long weekend, I hope y’all have as well! Yesterday, I finally was able to go to my favorite restaurant with my husband for dinner. We had a great time, eating dinner outside in the fresh air. The temperature was perfect as well! It is always nice to get out of the house and have a nice dinner together, where we can chat about various things in a different environment. I think it is important to be able to have sweet quality time with your significant other, plus it is so relaxing to just be together!

Today, was another nice day that I spent going to lunch and shopping a little with my Monday 3mother. Over lunch we were able to catch up with each others lives and have some mother daughter time that we have not had in a little while. As I get older, I realize how important it is to make time for family. We all have busy lives and get so caught up in what we have to do we sometimes forget what else is important in our lives, which is make time for family. So, I am making a promise to myself and my family to start making more time to spend with them. 

On another note, this is probably the week I am going to be starting the Tecfidera. I am a little nervous about a new medication, but I know the risks and what to watch for. I am going tomorrow afternoon for blood work to make sure my counts have balanced out from being off of the Gilenya for close to two months. Hopefully, my blood count will Monday 6come back normal and I can start my new adventure with Tecfidera. Again, I am going into this new treatment with a positive attitude that it will work and I won’t have any issues. I just want to ask my fellow bloggers, have any of you been on Tecfidera before and if so, what was your experience with this? I honestly hate having to take medication everyday, but I also know that it helps slow the progression of this disease so I can remain as healthy as possible for as long as possible. I really hate side effects because sometimes I swear they are worse than the alternative, but hopefully I won’t have any horrible side effects. 

I truly appreciate you coming back or just starting to read my posts. I love being able to connect with all of you and have found it so incredibly helpful. I do put my heart and soul into writing these posts, as it was hard for me in the past to be so vocal about my MS. Even though I battle through life with MS, I am still and always will be me, not just MS! I really appreciate and value all of your comments and I do always respond to you as soon as I am able to! Thank you again for all of your support! I hope you have a great week!!

Hope for cureAlways, Alyssa