What is Multiple Sclerosis?

27b889827d7b041c766fd1b5e7ba47faWhat is Multiple Sclerosis?

March is Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Awareness Month. Multiple Sclerosis is an incurable neurological condition that affects the brain, spinal cord, and optic nerves.  The body’s immune system attacks the protective myelin sheaths that cover the nerve fibers which cause areas of scarring, known as sclerosis. The immune system also attacks and destroys the fatty myelin coating that surrounds and insulates nerve cells which is a process 348sknown as demyelination.

Experts suggest there being 250,000-350,000 people in the United States currently living with this illness. There is an indication the rate of the disease is increasing regularly in the 20th century with approximately 200 new cases each week. Those of Northern European descent have a higher risk for the disease, but Native Americans of North and South America and Asian Americans are at a lower risk. The disease is much more common in colder climates.

There are four types of Multiple Sclerosis, all having different characteristics.

  1. Relapsing-Remitting Multiple Sclerosis (RRMS). This is the most common form, RRMSbeing that 85% of those with MS are initially diagnosed with. Patients with this form will have relapses and periods of stability in between the relapses. Relapses are the episodes when new or worsening symptoms that are not caused by fever or infection appear. These episodes typically lase more than 48-hours. Between relapses are periods of remission where there is no clinical evidence of disease progression. Periods of remission can last for years, but this can range from person to person.
  2. Secondary-Progressive Multiple Sclerosis (SPMS) can basically be considered the SPMSsecond phase of the disease. Most people that are initially diagnosed with RRMS will transition to this form at some point. Symptoms with SPMS will worsen steadily over time with or without occurrences of relapses or remission. There may or may not be times of relapses caused by inflammation, but will continue towards the progressive phase indicating nerve damage or loss. With this form of MS, the disability only continues to get worse.
  3. Primary-Progressive Multiple Sclerosis (PPMS) is less common than the ms_disease-course_PPMSother forms and only affects 10-15% of those with MS. On average people with PPMS start having symptoms between 35-39 years old. There is a slowly worsening of symptoms from the beginning with no relapses or remissions. With this type of MS there can be times of short-term, but temporary, minor improvements, however the decline of neurologic progression is constant. Symptoms of PPMS include pain, electric-shock-sensation running down the back and limbs when the neck is bent, trouble walking, vision problems, muscle weakness, trouble balancing, paralysis, numbness, prickling feeling, dizziness, shakiness, trouble thinking clearly, mood changes, depression, sexual problems, and trouble with bowel and bladder control.
  4. Progressive-Relapsing Multiple Sclerosis (PRMS) is a rare form of MS. There will PRMSbe a steadily worsening of the state of the disease from the beginning with acute relapses, but no remission will occur. The symptoms of this form are the same as those with PPMS.

The first neurologic event suggesting MS is known as Clinically Isolated Syndrome (CIS), which usually lasts at least 24-hours. The symptoms will indicate a single lesion (Monofocal) or more than one lesion (Multi-focal) in the central nervous system (CNS). There are many symptoms involved with Multiple Sclerosis some being common and others being less common.

Common Symptoms Associated with Multiple Sclerosis86665331_3276961818997285_6990907139438936064_n

  • Fatigue (Mental and Physical)
  • Pain
  • Tingling or burning sensation in the arms, legs, trunk of body or face
  • Vision issues (blurred or loss of vision)
  • Stiff muscles
  • Attention and memory issues
  • Dizziness, vertigo, and clumsiness
  • Trouble walking

Less Common Symptoms Associated with Multiple Sclerosis

  • Migraines
  • Speech problems
  • Body tremors
  • Seizures
  • Hearing loss
  • Itching for no reason
  • Mood changes such as depression or euphoria
  • Ability to concentrate or multi-task effectively
  • Difficulty making decisions, planning or prioritizing

Secondary Symptoms that can develop

  • Bladder and bowel problems
  • Difficulty breathing
  • Osteoporosis
  • Muscle weakness
  • Difficulty swallowing
  • Sexual health issues

ms awareness marchWith all the possible symptoms one can experience, there are ways to manage most of them. Bladder control can be something one can experience and this can be rather embarrassing if it happens out in public, but there some suggested strategies to manage this.

  • Drink enough fluids. The kidneys need at least 2 liters of water daily in order to flush waste products. Do not try rationing intake because this could increase the risk of infection.
  • Time your drinks. Try to spread fluid intake evenly throughout the day.
  • Limited caffeine and alcohol intake. Both of these can increase the amount of MS Painurination.
  • Special exercises such as exercises that strengthen the pelvic floor.
  • Continence aids such as disposable pad can be beneficial.
  • Medication can be provided to reduce the urgency to urinate and help the bladder empty itself.

Pain with MS can be primarily due to the neurologic condition. Pain could also be due to secondary conditions, such as musculoskeletal issues as a result of altered posture or spasticity. The weakening of leg muscles tends to trigger aches and pain in the back or knees. The unfortunate truth is, people with Multiple Sclerosis can feel pain anywhere, but there are ways to help manage the pain which includes medication, physical therapy, and relaxation techniques.27b889827d7b041c766fd1b5e7ba47fa

Every person that lives with Multiple Sclerosis is different and deals with this illness in a way that serves them best. A person can experience similar issues as another but at the end of the day, we all handle it differently. Each symptom, relapse, remission, and medication affects each person vastly different but yet can understand what another person is going through. It is vital that no matter what stage the illness is, there needs to be an understanding of what our limitations are and to never push beyond that.

Thank you for visiting my site laughtoday! I hope the information I provided to you was helpful. There is a chance I have stated the same thing in previous years, but I do feel it is important for us to spread as much awareness as we can because it does not seem like this illness is going away anytime soon. I do want to believe that someday in our life time there will be a cure, but until then we must continue to live our lives the best we can. I hope you are having  a great day and feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes! 

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

P.S I will be doing additional posts about MS during the month, but felt they needed to be separate posts because there is SO much information available. The crazy thing is, no matter how many years I have lived with MS, reading about it is a little upsetting.  

 

 

 

Doctors gone BAD

maxresdefaultI recently had to deal with my specialist’s office, in regards to the medication I take to limit the progression of my Multiple Sclerosis. Since the doctor that diagnosed my condition retired, the office he was at has been on a downward spiral. The amount of incompetence and lack of compassion are the only things that are steadily increasing, which is terrible.

Whether it be a nurse, nurse practitioner, or physician, they all should know how awful stress is for someone with Multiple Sclerosis. Being forced to battle with a nurse with a terrible attitude 71NwQ3YsJDLto get a refill for my medication caused me nothing but massive stress and frustration. This would have been  difficult regardless, but when the nurse decided to be ugly the situation escalated unnecessarily. All I am trying to do is anything necessary so I do not have a nasty relapse, especially without insurance.

I know I mentioned in a post I did a few days ago, the flaws within healthcare in the United States, but with what I just experienced trying to talk to my doctor’s office makes it even more frustrating! For a country that has insanely high costs for health insurance, you would think patient care would be top-notch, but it is the direct opposite.

downloadThe medication I take to slow my progression down is Gilenya. I have been on this same medication for a long time, so I know the processes and the ridiculous out of pocket with NO insurance. Honestly, I do not believe any normal person could afford this medication and I definitely can’t.

Basically, I guess I am not in the right tax bracket to be able to have insurance that I can afford or at least affordable medication to keep my condition at bay. Maybe I also missed the tax bracket where kindness, respect, understanding, and empathy exist. I feel strongly that health insurance should be a RIGHT, NOT a PRIVILEGE, but surprise the powers that be don’t agree with me. I do not think anyone should have to worry about how they are going to survive without 21a1d2783f3596243d4cd630893e7e7dinsurance and without access to life-altering medication.

First, thank you for taking the time to read this post. Second, I hope none of you ever have to go through anything like this. Third, I hope your weekend has started off great and continues to bring you happiness. I do want to encourage you to leave a comment; I definitely need advice on how to deal with the ignorant people at my specialist’s office. Lord knows I can’t take too much more, especially if it is just images (2)going to be a bunch of bull shit!

I hope you enjoy every moment of your weekend and hope you feel great! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

 

What do you think?

imagesEven though things are slowly getting a little better, I am still feeling way too much anxiety and stress. I am glad that my unemployment was approved because that helps with the financial stresses, but not having insurance when dealing with Multiple Sclerosis is making me feel a little crazy. I do think this would make anyone feel like they were jumping out of their skin, which is the way I feel right now.

My husband keeps telling me that I need to relax and everything is going to be okay. I am a very optimistic person normally, but I do not see life the way he does right now. Medications are stupidly expensive and so are doctor’s anxietyappointments. One of the medications I take daily that is supposed to slow the MS down is Gilenya. Y’all will be surprised how much this one medication would cost me each month without insurance. For simply a month supply it would cost me $7,500. Seriously, who can afford that?

Something that I find frustrating is, health care in the United States costs a lot of money and then there are still additional fees that need to be paid. The United States is the ONLY developed country that does not offer FREE health care, which I find crazy! Of course, I have never lived in a country where health care was free, but from my perspective, it can’t be any worse that what we have now. Sure, you might have to wait longer to see a specialist, but for me to get into the neurologist in the states I wait at least 2 months. free-and-universal-health-care-universal-health-care-free-but-65307278With all the costs between the price of insurance, the costs for appointments, the price of tests that need to be run, and then medications, people could just about go bankrupt. Our brilliant politicians try their best to convince the American people why we do not have free health care and that it would be an awful thing! The sad thing is, some believe everything they hear on the news and all the lies that come out of the politician’s mouths! I strongly believe that health care should be a RIGHT, not a PRIVILEGE. No one should ever have to choose between food and their health!

I know some of you reading this post live in a country with free health care, so want to get your input! What are the pros and cons of having free health care? Do you fe62d503ebdec18d58277ced8257e5e9_survey-citizens-for-plainfield-township-trails_631-313like having free health care or would you rather have it like the United States does? On average how long do you have to wait to see a doctor? Are the physicians intelligent and knowledgeable?

I hope your day is going well and you are feeling the best you can. Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I am looking forward to reading your comment! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Stress is NOT your friend! It is the ENEMY!

beating stressHow many times throughout your life has someone told you that you stress and worry too much? I am not proud to admit this, but I can’t count how many times I have heard those words and normally from various people. I have always asked myself one question, is everyone else right and I am the one that is in the wrong? Truthfully, I tend to always answer this same way, half of the time they are dead wrong, but half the time I am the one in the wrong.brain stitch

I am about to be brutally honest with myself and y’all. One thing I find completely impossible is turning my brain off. It seems that my brain has only two speeds, fast and overdrive without the ability to sit on idle. I feel like my thoughts are always running in circles, kind of like that hamster at the pet store and their wheel. When I am faced with a difficult situation, I managed to think of a million complex ways to approach the circumstances and just as many potential outcomes. It is kind of like I am always in the middle of another war with myself.

No matter what anyone else says, there will always be a few situations that are going to cause me a colossal amount of stress. These stressors can range anywhere from mild, which could be viewed as positive stress, to massive resulting in negative stress.

stress cycleRecently, I gained some valuable knowledge that I wanted to share with y’all and I do hope you will find this information to be beneficial and helpful in your daily life.

I started this post off discussing stress, but I wanted to dig a little deeper into this topic that impacts all of our lives at some point. My entire life I have only viewed stress as a negative and unhealthy behavior. While stress does have many characteristics that can be viewed as negative, it can also have a positive side. Positive stress can be referred to as eustress which is short-term and even a little exciting. This type of stress is a motivator 1caqbkGtsDhv4qN4ujcBtmALthat can improve our performance. A few examples of eustress are starting a new job or receiving a promotion, getting married, buying a new home, moving, going on vacation, and many more things we look forward to. Overall, this occurs when situations are viewed as an opportunity that will pave the road to good results.

On the other hand, negative stress also known as distress has an entirely meaning and happens to be the type I am more familiar with. This is any negative emotions we feel such as anger, fear, anxiety, and or frustration. This type of stress is typically felt when we feel threatened and lose control of the situation.

Negative Stress CycleNegative stress is followed by so many other factors that can be masked and even dismissed, but it does not go away that easy. This stress can be a short-term or long-term challenge that can cause anxiety to overflow, like when you share a coke bottle. Negative stress can decrease creativity and impair problem-solving and decision-making abilities. By allowing pent-up energy from stress to build up, it will only continue to escalate causing even more damage to the brain-mind body.

This form of stress also has the potential to create a fight or flight response. Our bodies images (1)go through many awful changes when we experience this reaction including increased blood pressure, heart rate, and perspiration, slowing indigestion, and a great deal of tension in our muscles. Things can get worse when in distress leading to mental and physical problems.

I am going to share just a few examples of negative stress which include a death of a loved one, divorce, separation or relationship issues, unemployment, legal troubles, financial problems, and there are many more issues that can lead to difficult and painful warning signs of stresstimes.

For those of us that live with a chronic illness, stress does nothing but add extra difficulties to our already heavily burdened life. No one can avoid stress because it can and does impact everyone’s life at some point, so we need to try finding ways to heal ourselves and each other relax a lot more. Logically, we all understand that the pressures from stress can potentially create additional health risks and issues at any moment, so let us work together with ideas that may help us to relax and stay calm.

Y’all probably already have ways thimages (1)at help you stay calm, but I am going to share with y’all 6 ways that may help maintain a relaxed state of mind!

  1. Thank y’all for stopping by my site today. Not only do I hope you enjoyed this post, but I hope it provided you with some helpful information. There is no doubt about it life often Try to worry less by identify what you do and don’t have any control over. After you have determined what you have absolutely no control over it, focus your attention on anything that can distract you, even if it is only for a short time. Sometimes simple distraction can give you just the right amount of peace and comfort.artworkimage-medium-21902316-7336573
  2. Know what your limits are and set boundaries. Once you have established your limits and boundaries focus only on what you can do and be proud of this accomplishment. Small accomplishments can lead to HUGE success!
  3. Learn how to forgive yourself. Any regrets you have from the past needs to be left behind, that is what the past is for. Moving forward leads to where the future is and considering the past can’t be changed, worrying about it isn’t going to fix anything and it just isn’t worth it!stress-ball
  4. Remind yourself it is okay to say “NO”. if you are feeling unwell, exhausted, or both, pushing yourself will only result in negative consequences. Family and friends will understand if you need to back out of plans at the last minute and if they don’t, that is on them, NOT you!
  5. Daily exercise is good for the mind and soul. The exercise doesn’t need to be anything more than you can tolerate, just know and remember your limits. Exercise is not a competition, so try to enjoy!
  6. Stimulate your mind. We all tend to stress a lot more when we have nothing to500_F_83041762_zLXgfHNOy8FfY0aJ59mCCB0DJi2W4YRt focus our attention and energy on. This is a perfect opportunity to find a new hobby. The sky is the limit with this, so have fun and enjoy this!

adds additional stress to our lives, but we must find ways to handle it better and without causing us extra health issues. I have always heard that stress is a silent killer and I believe that now more than ever. Y’all already know that my week did not start off the best due to a nasty headache/migraine, but it ended even worse than itstress-my-silent-killer started. I am okay, but I am not ready to talk about it yet. I have not processed everything yet and it is still way to fresh, but I do promise as soon as I am ready to share, I will. I hope your weekend is going great and you are feeling well. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

 

Donations do help!

NMSS_FY20_YE_Interstitial_r1_mobileI think y’all already know that I have battled with this unpredictable, not so fun autoimmune disease known as Multiple Sclerosis for almost 20 years. For nearly half of my life, I have wanted to not only help others struggling with this disease but also do all I can to help find a cure or at least find easier ways to get through this life.

I may not care much for the news because there is hardly ever anything positive being reported on, but I have heard about how awful the treatment of Amazon workers is. Even though I do find it disgraceful for anyone to be mistreated so we can shop, I am also still a guilty Amazon shopper. Although I am sure there are many issues within the company that starts but doesn’t end with the owner’s corruption and poor treatment of employees, at the same time this company has good as well.

Everyone that shops on Amazon have the opportunity to choose a charity they want to download (5)raise money for through Smile Amazon. The Amazon Smile Foundation will donate 0.5% of the purchase price to the charity of your choice. I received an email at the end of last week informing me that the charity I chose, The National Multiple Sclerosis Society received $258, 617.47 year to day in donations because of Smile Amazon. Of course, it still upsets me to think that any Amazon workers are mistreated, but I am still thankful for the donations made to a cause so close to my heart. I can only hope 41jnsvmBEML._SY365_BO1,204,203,200_the donations Smile Amazon has made to the National Multiple Sclerosis Society will help find a cure for this awful disease.

I have been somewhat familiar with The National Multiple Sclerosis Society since being diagnosed all those years ago but recently wanted to know more. I was very interested to find out how this organization began and what more they were doing. I was completely blown away to discover this organization was brought to fruition from one woman full of determination, Sylvia Lawry.download

Ms. Lawry was one of four children to Jacob and Sophie Friedman. While she was in school at Hunter’s College pursuing her law degree, Ms. Lawry’s younger brother Bernard began experiencing visual and balance issues. It was at this time these symptoms were proven to be early signs of Multiple Sclerosis. The family tried for years without success to find a cure for their imagesdear family member. In 1945, the strong-willed and very determined young lady, Ms. Lawry, placed a small classified notice in the New York Times, “Multiple Sclerosis. Will anyone recovered from this disease please communicate with patient.”

Once she received more than 50 replies, Ms. Lawry realized more funds for research, treatment and finding a cause were desperately needed. On March 11, 1946, she pulled together 20 of the nation’s most honored research scientists to form the National Multiple Sclerosis Society.27b889827d7b041c766fd1b5e7ba47fa

As Bernard’s health continued to worsen, she was seeing there were millions of others like her brother that needed help. At this time she gained assistance from Senator Charles Tobey from New Hampshire whose daughter was fighting against Multiple Sclerosis.

Until her dying day February 24, 2001, she continued her war on Multiple Sclerosis. She was a huge loss to the organization, but her legacy will never be forgotten. She did so much to help discover more about this disease and I believe all of us living with Multiple Sclerosis, should always be thankful for this amazing woman!

348sThank y’all for visiting my site today. I hope this post was eye-opening and helpful. Even though we may not be able to help with these causes as much as we would like, if you shop on Amazon or know someone that does, you can set it up so the company will donate portions of your purchase to any charity you want! I hope you have had a lovely weekend and you are ready for the holiday next week. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of     love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

 

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       

MS & Temperatures are difficult!

imagesIt is a nasty, rainy 🌧 and chilly day out today and I have no plans at all to leave the house! This kind of weather makes me feel pretty awful and honestly hurts too much to walk around. It is rather frustrating, but I guess we all deal with life’s obstacles the best we can. I do wish I could sent this rain to Australia where I know they are dealing with some struggles at the moment. 

Heat and high humidity can make Multiple Sclerosis symptoms worsen, even though it is only temporary, it feels like an eternity. Doctors believe that this is due to heat causing nerves, whose myelin cover was already destroyed by MS, toacupuncture-for-multiple-sclerosis-755x429 conduct electrical signals far less efficiently. Doctors have told me for years that hot baths and hot showers are terrible for me, but there are times this is the only thing that relieves some of my pain. Even though a hot bath is only a short-term relief, it is at least a half hour of comfort!

Crazy thing is, I have been told more times than I could count that cold temperature are actually good for me, but is this the truth? I do not think so! Extreme cold temperatures and season how-cold-affects-symptoms-of-multiple-sclerosis-2440834-6eb83234820b49a991e4f07ab6f872a1changes can also worsen MS symptoms. If I understand all of this correctly, hot temperatures can causes MS issues and so can the cold, so I am not sure where that really leaves us.

What to do to ease MS Symptoms:

  1. Avoid ALL extreme temperatures
  2. Avoid exercising on hot and humid days
  3. Utilize the beauty of the air conditioners and cooling vests. Home a/c’s may actually be tax deductible for some people with MS. I think it is definitely worth a chat with doctors! The link I shared regarding cooling vests is just one option, the MS Society has more and you might be able to get it for free!

Even though climate can worsen MS symptoms, climate changes do not create any additional nerve damage.

5 Tips for staying warm during the winter months:

  1. Try to get moving! Of course there are times when living with MS it isn’t as easy to move around the way you would like. However, on day it is easier to get up and moving, attempt to get some moderate physical activity in. This will actually help cold-feet-and-multiple-sclerosis-2440826_v2-1a595343ecfd4dbdaee165a88eab7c40you burn energy and moving around can keep you warm.
  2. Dress in layer. It is rather easy to remove clothing if you get too hot, so dressing in layers might help. When you know ahead of time it is going to be extremely cold, it will be wise to wear a hat, thick socksand or lined boots. Wearing a hat and thick socks will keep the heat from escaping through the head and feet.
  3. Keep your hands and feet warm. Doctors think that MS can cause the blood vessels in the hands and feet to overreact to cold temperatures. Those with MS may also be at risk for Raynaud’s phenomenon, which is a condition where your fingers and toes lose heat.Raynaud’s Phenomenon can not only cause the color of hands and feet to be white to blue, but also cause numbness, pain and or the feeling of pins and needles. In effort to protect the hands and feet, you could use hand warmers and a heating pad. The warming vest I shared is just an option and I am sure there are many others out there!
  4. Warm your insides. A few easy ways to heat your insides is eating a hot meal, hot soups and hot drinks, such as coffee, teas and hot chocolate.
  5. Get some sunshine! Go outside and soak up the sun 🌅! Even on a chilly day the sun will still work to heat you up. By getting outside in the sun 🌅, you are also gaining some much needed natural Vitamin D.thumb_to-danc-terties-msnubutterflies-multiple-sclerosis-blog-page-47269722

Thank y’all for visiting my site today. I hope where you living is bright and sunny 🌅 with NO chance of rain 🌧! If you have the time I do look forward to reading your comments. I promise I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope you are feeling well and your weekend has started off great! Please know I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

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My Open Letter to Pain

pain go awayDear Pain,

Our relationship started so many years ago and let’s be honest it has never been a healthy relationship. I have tried to break free from you for years, but somehow you manage to always find a way to sneak back into my life.

At this point I do not even remember exactly

when all of this pain started. It is both sad and crazy it has been that log and I can’t pinpoint a day! It seems as though you just creeped on me until you pretty much consumed my days. You have always been an unwelcomed intruded who wanted to invade my life and almost control me. Unfortunately, the harder I fight you, the more persistent you are.download (5)

When I sit here thinking about our history I do know you slowly started causing me pain in my only my legs. While having consistent pain in both legs wasn’t easy, I felt like in a strange way a little more control of you. I don’t remember you causing me as many tears back then, but this was just the beginning of a long relationship.

download (7)As our very toxic relationship progressed, my pain travelled through more areas in my body. Let’s see, the next area you tried to take over was in my mid to lower back. This was still early on and was absolutely horrible. It seemed like no matter what I did, I was still in excruciating pain. Nothing was really helping this type of pain, but early on a heating pad did help some. Of course I still deal with this now, but it is SO much more intense. Yes, heat does still help some, but not as much as it used to. I do the best I can to ignore you, but you just never take a break!

In addition you are trying to make my massive headaches/migraines to take me out of commission because you know it is the only pain I can’t handle. These miserable 895ff6a44348f4a668000c879dd12480headaches/migraines have become more frequent and much more severe! The only thing that seems to help a  little is a dark, quite room with an ice pack on my head for hours. Unfortunately, I can’t really do this while at work and I have to go home early.

These days not only do I feel you in my legs, my mid to lower back and the head, but you are now trying to attack my neck, shoulders and arms. Did I just not pay you enough attention and that upset you? Do you just need me to acknowledge you and allow you to take the wheel of my life? Well this isn’t going to happen because I am not going to allow you the control me anymore.

Oh and I almost forgot the lovely MS hug! What is the point of this anyways? That originalhorrible feeling that the life is being squeezed out of you is so mean! You already know that nothing helps this at all, so why force me to deal with at various times?

All the years that have gone by, I need to break free from you. It is now time to separate and just END this relationship. I am sure you think I am going to give up, but I refuse to! Our relationship is OVER and you need to just walk away and accept it! Please leave me alone!

Goodbye pain, this is the end!

Alyssa

Thank y’all for visiting my site today and reading my letter to pain. I think I have lived with this pain long enough and it is time for it to stop. I have been reading more books about MS and even though I have lived with this illness for almost 2 decades, these books were helpful. I do believe they would be beneficial for anyone that either lives with this illness or has someone close them with MS. I think the books I have read give a pretty good explanation of this unpredictable illness. Please never forget that no matter what I am dealing with I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤