Just Another Day

just-another-day.jpgGood afternoon y’all! For me today is just another day of resting trying to get past this incredible amount of pain I have been dealing with for WAY too long! This obnoxious pain is mixed with that burning sensation that will not cool down, tingling throughout my entire body, numbness which sounds like it would be better than pain, but it really isn’t it is almost worse and a headache that seems never-ending! The nurse practitioner I normally deal with is off today and the doctor that I do my best to avoid is in clinic today, which makes her pretty much unavailable. The only thing the nurse I spoke with was able to say is rest and staying hydrated is important until I can get the MRI, which I was still waiting to hear back from the assistance program. I did just email the Multiple Sclerosis Society of America, which is the company that will either approve or deny assistance for me to get MRI assistance. Now the response I got back from my email was quite upsetting, which is something I really did not need today. They stated the doctor did not provide an order for the MRI, which made no sense to me considering I did send them everything I was instructed to by the doctor’s office, imagine that another miscommunication from them! To hopefully make things actually work out for me, I emailed the nurse requesting the MRI order. Honestly the nurse has been the ONLY person at this office that has been at all helpful to me.  Maybe I will get that back from them sometime this week!!

It is a little frustrating when you are doing everything you possibly can to get well, but itbutterfly-3054736_960_720 just isn’t working the way it should be! I am resting, staying hydrated and taking all the medications the doctor has prescribed, but there is still NO relief yet! My guess is the stress this issue is causing me is not helping me get better, but it is in fact making things so much worse! Isn’t it crazy when we know what is causing our problems to become worse, but yet we still change absolutely nothing with our thought process? Obviously I know exactly what is making all my pain more intense, but I am still getting myself worked up and upset about it anyways!

I think to help get my mind off of my many pain issues; I am going to work more on my bullet journal I am trying to put together. I do not want to start it at the end of the month because I do not think that makes sense, so I am planning this for July! My plan so far is to have a few trackers that will include: symptoms and food I eat in a day (this will be to peace 1see what foods could be causing more issues for me). I want to also include a Hopes & Dreams page, Positive thinking page to really keep my mind in a happy place and a Gratitude page. I might include a page of books that I want to read considering sometimes I think of a book I want to read, but then forget the title! Then lastly I want to include a page of ideas for my blog because I come up with random ideas, but then forget what I wanted to write about when I try to start! I guess I can contribute my forgetful mind to brain fog from the MS.

I really appreciate y’all visiting my site today! Your comments are always appreciate and encouraged because I do love hearing from y’all! I am doing my best to respond as quickly as I can, but with the way I am feeling there is a chance I might be a little delayed, but I will respond!! I hope y’all are having a good day and feeling well! As always no matter how I am feeling or what I am dealing with I am sending y’all LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Happy Long Weekend!

Good morning FriendsHappy Friday Y’all! I hope you had a great week and are looking forward to the much deserved long weekend! Don’t you think if we had these long weekends more often, maybe even once a month that would be absolutely wonderful? I think it is the anticipation of the long weekend that makes the week just drag by or maybe it was also because of all the extremely frustrating pain I was dealing with. Who knows, but I am leaving that in the past and just looking forward to a relaxing and enjoyable long weekend not dwelling on work or my pain issues! Thinking  nothing but positive thoughts that next week will be much better after 3 entire days of rest💤!!

Do y’all have any exciting plans for the long weekend🌼? I am literally over the moon🌜 excited that I will not hear the piercing sound of my alarm clock at that absolutely awful hour of 💤5:30 am!! I still think that is a pretty inhumane time for anything to make such rude and obnoxious sound, but if my alarm went off to music🎶 I would probably ignore it, unless it was a terrible song and that would just make me terribly mad! So, I guess it is really a no win situation for that poor pitiful alarm!

If there is anything that I do over this long and glorious weekend it will not only rest💤 my poor achy body, but spend time with family💞! It is so important to cherish our families as dont-give-up-galaxy-hold-on-hope-Favim.com-1428490sadly, they will not be around forever! Enjoying special and memorable moments can be so good for the heart and soul! I have a very small family, which makes it a little easier to be able to see everyone and not have to drive long distances. Unfortunately, my mother does work the weekends, but maybe we can get together for lunch on Monday, considering I will not be at work🌟!!!

I hope you have a wonderful and not busy Friday! I always appreciate you taking a moment to visit my site and I love❤ reading your comments! The absolute best thing about this Friday is that I am not already dreading Monday!! As always, I am sending you LOTS of ❤love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

When bad days seem to outweigh the good days

bad days and good daysWe all have our good days when we feel border line normal, which is absolutely fantastic and treasured! Then we also have those bad days when we feel anything but normal and maybe even disconsolate. So what do you do when it seems as though the bad days are taking over those precious good days? I guess there is no use crying over spilled milk and we just continue our journey of life the best was can.

Y’all already know that I am typically a very optimistic and positive person, but then you also know how much pain can influence our attitudes. Pain and muscle spasms have funny-pain.jpgbeen making me absolutely and totally miserable, but I was still attempting to fight through how I was feeling because I do not want to allow my illness to win our war. Last night was the tip of the ice burg for me. Between my back hurting fiercely and from my knees to my tip toes achy and burning viciously, I could not get comfortable AT ALL. All I was trying to do was go to sleep so I could go into work today, but it was absolutely impossible! The combination of bad painfrustration, pain and being over tired I lashed out and was being very difficult towards my poor❤ husband, who was only trying to help me. Finally at about 2 am, even after my hateful attitude my sweet 💕husband helped surround my feet with ice packs to ease the horrible burning sensation I was experiencing. Given my miserable night, I ended up missing work today to try to rest and with the help of my husband hopefully start to feel a little more “normal” or as normal as I can be!

I am hopeful that tomorrow will be a better day and I will not be suffering in this much pain! I obviously do not like hurting, but I really hate when my attitude changes and I am just mean or at least I think I am mean. I am truly thankful for how understanding, supportive and ❤loving my husband is. We understand each other as we both live our lives with pain. I promise I am normally a lot more kind and helpful towards him, but last night was just a horrible night and thankfully he has forgiven my terrible attitude! Normally I do not do more than one post a day, but with being at home in excruciating pain it is helpful to let out those feelings knowing that y’all understand fully!

I appreciate you visiting my site today and really look forward to reading your amazing comments. I hope y’all had a great day today and I hope you are feeling well. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Happy Start to the Weekend!

Have a nice FridayGood morning and Happy Friday to y’all!! I hope your week has been great and you are looking forward to a weekend filled with all the things that bring you so much joy😊. So many of us devote so much of our precious time to our jobs, which really invades our time to enjoy life! I know some people really love their jobs❤, but there are many others that just go to work every day for a means to survive and care for families. I congratulate those individuals that are honored enough to love going to their jobs for 40 hours a week or more and do not view their job like so many other do, which is as a burden and a nuisance. But regardless if you love, like, tolerate or hate your job, we all can appreciate the weekend and I hope you have a fabulous weekend!

The great things about the weekends are you do not have to worry about being somewhere on time or going to bed early enough to ensure a good night’s sleep. But honestly one of the best things about the weekend is that obnoxious and intrusive alarm clock⏰ will not make loud noises early in the morning! I have such an incredible distaste for alarm clocks, I somehow typically mange to wake before the alarm goes off, so I get to avoid that troubling sound! But it gets even worse than that! If I must heat food in the microwave, I will never allow for the beeping to go off, it sounds way too much like an alarm clock and is just irritating! Are there any noises that makes your skin crawl and drives you completely mad?

sunI hope wherever you live, you will enjoy nice weather this weekend! The sun has been playing hide and seek lately, but according to the weather channel where I live is finally anticipating some natural vitamin d this weekend and I am absolutely thrilled! I hope you have a marvelous day and a very lovely weekend! As always, I am sending y’all lots of love and comfort everyday! 

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Dreary Sunday

Well spent SundayGood afternoon Y’all! I hope you have had an incredible weekend! I do believe it is important to live each moment to the fullest, as we do not know what tomorrow may hold for us. I am not saying to dwell on what could happen, but love others and life-like tomorrow does not exist, so there is not anything to regret! No one wants to live with the feeling of regret!

Do y’all do anything special on Sunday in preparation for the week ahead? Is Sunday your day to catch up on rest or get everything done you are not able to do during the week? In the past, I made Sunday my day to get all the cleaning, grocery shopping and laundry done, but now I am making Sunday a day to do things I want, no matter what that is. It may be resting or it may be cleaning, but regardless of what I do, it is not planned like the rest of my week! I think we all need a day that is completely unplanned and definitely not full of chaos. 

Lately I have been once again dealing with some extreme pain and as difficult as it is I am trying to not allow this pain to consume me! It is not easy to fight against the pain, but it does not help matters to give up and sit around crying about it. Tears may fall, but there is no amount of tears that will stop the pain I feel. 

Currently, I have been experiencing something new and I am not sure if it is related to Thoughts arrive like butterfliesthe MS or not. I have lost some of my abilities to taste, which seems a little odd. I did read about this and it can occur due to lesions on the brain. Considering I do not want to think there are new or active lesions, I am choosing to ignore this very mild issue. I am not one that enjoys food, so it does not matter that much! I am just accepting it and moving on!

I have heard from so many people who there must be some kind of special diet I can do for the MS to avoid any new issues. I have to say that is a pretty obnoxious thing to hear so often. In all honesty, there is no special diet that is going to cure MS or prevent further issues from happening. It is very clear for everyone that a well-balanced diet is healthy, but it does not offer a cure for anything! Everyone should already understand that over-eating is not a wise thing to do and will cause weight problems. We can all figure out if anything we eat causes us to feel worse and then we can avoid those specific foods. I am pretty stubborn, so when people are constantly talking to me about what I should eat I do the opposite. My doctors have been on my case for years about what I should weigh, but I hover around the same no matter what I do. I do not normally gain any weight and depending on what I am going through lose weight. Even if according to BMI calculators I am under weight, I feel like I am fine! 

Throughout life we are confronted with so many decisions we have to make. Sometimes we might make the wrong decisions, but that does not mean we have to stop living. I believe that the decisions we make that were not the best choice actually makes us Whispers of your heartstronger. Most of us learn from the bad decisions and hopefully do not make them again. I am a pretty emotional person so most of my decisions come from the heart. However, the bad decisions I make come from  negative feelings and maybe some angry feelings I have! Previously all my decisions surrounding the MS were solely based on fear, but now I am able to make rational and logical decisions about my health care because I educate myself on everything the doctors suggest. I do believe that if we listen more to what our heart is telling us, we will feel happier and more satisfied with life! Our heart knows what is right and wrong! 

Thank you for visiting my site today and I would love to read your thoughts! I learn so much from y’all because you are all so insightful! Most of us are battling with an illness, but we handle it with nothing but grace and strength! Who would have ever thought we had resilience and strength to continue fighting even when we are in so much pain? Not allowing an illness to take control of our daily lives is not easy, but we are all doing it every day and for that we should all be extremely proud! I know this post was a little all over the place, but I had a lot on my mind! I hope the rest of your Sunday is spent doing what makes you smile! A smile can make a big difference in everyone’s life! As always I am sending y’all lots of love and comfort!

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Always, Alyssa

Time Away!

downloadIn today’s world it seems we are always rushing to get from one point to another without stopping to enjoy life. I think it is so important to take time to sit back and just try to relax. Planning time to have away from phones, tablets, computers, TV and any other electronic device can provide you with some peaceful quiet time that is much deserved. My job entails working on a computer all day long, so sometimes at the end of the day the last thing I want to do is continue looking at another computer. I always enjoy writing on my blog and reading other blogs, but I am trying to have a cut off time from electronics, really to give my eyes a break because the computer does cause my headaches to increase.

Everyone always says that life is so short, but in the big picture it really is not all that short! If we can make the most of everyday it really may not feel that short at times. There are people out there that live until they are in their 90’s or even until they are 100, but they lived the life they were meant to live as does everyone else. I think most people get so wrapped up in social media it completely consumes their lives and they end up sharing too much with people they do not really know. It is not safe putting your entire life out there on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or any other social media sites.slowdown

What do you do to relax after a stressful day? Do you have certain routines that can to me a little mundane? Funny thing is, I do have those routines that may seem a little boring to some, but I enjoy the peacefulness it brings to my life. Considering I have been trying hard to increase my hours at work it is nice to come home to a tranquil setting! Work can cause stress so if you can eliminate any unnecessary stress at home it is best for your health!

It is really hard to believe we are already into February! It seems like January went by incredibly fast! How is 2018 coming along for y’all? Are you enjoying the year so far? My plans for the New Year were to get learn to reduce my stress levels so that hopefully my pain issues would decrease. I have been trying to not allow other people’s negative outlooks affect my life and quit trying to fix everyone’s problems. It is in my nature to always want to help others, especially those that are close to me, but I have been able to take a step back knowing I can not fix the world! I do wish I had a magic wand and could take the pain away from all that are in pain, cure-all illnesses, not allow anyone to go hungry or not have a roof over their heads and so much more, but all I am able to do is listen when I can and help when I am able.

Even trying to reduce stress from my life my pain issues are still as high as they were last year and I am really not sure why! I do realize that life with MS does come with pain and hne_pain_and_suffering_it will get better in time. It is so frustrating when an illness is so unpredictable and there are really no answers to how to decrease the pain! But even through all the horrible pain I do still try to see the positive because this could all be so much worse than it is! This illness may cause me so much pain but in the big picture it has not taken anything away from me because I am still able to do things I want to do, even if I have to tone it down a little! I find it helpful and SO important to always try to find the good in all situations because no matter what you are dealing with, it could always be so much worse!

I hope y’all are having a fabulous week so far! Looking on the bright side, it is almost Friday! I want to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. As always I do love to hear your comments and will respond to you as quickly as I can! I hope you have a nice relaxing evening! Sending you lots of love and comfort always!

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Always, Alyssa