Let It Go Friday

~Congratulations! It Is Finally Friday~

Happy Friday y’all! How was your week? I hope you had a great week and you are looking forward to the weekend! I am so happy the weekend is finally here and I have two days of not waking up early and then staring at a computer screen for eight LONG hours! I sometimes think that the computer ends up causing some nasty headaches or maybe it is “some” of the people I have to deal with. You will not be surprised that I do not have any plans for the weekend. I even already did my grocery store delivery, so I do not have to do that. I know I told you the other day that there were a few more posts I wanted to do about Multiple Sclerosis, which I hope to complete this weekend!

Now that the weekend is almost here and the weekend is upon us, it is time to let go of any negative feelings the week may have caused. Our weekends are so short and the work-week is so long, we need to be able to enjoy our weekends to the fullest, but please do so safely. I hope the quote I am sharing with y’all today will provide you with the means to let go of the negative and embrace the positives in life! For all the things we may regret we did during our life, we should use them as learning experiences, not do them again, and let them go. It is important to live, learn, grow, and move on!

I hope your weekend is full of nothing but happiness and enjoyment. Y’all already know that we are not completely out of the water yet with the fears of COVID, so please be sure to stay safe. I would love to know how your week went and any plans you have for the weekend. Unfortunately, I still believe the United States is still going through many difficult and tragic times, but during times like these, we need to do our best to be understanding, compassionate, empathetic, and kind to others. The truth is, we never know what someone else is going throughand their troubled times may alter their personality. I do believe in that old saying “Kill them with kindness”.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed the quote I shared with y’all and do look forward to reading what you thought. I do promise to try responding to all comments as quickly as I possibly can. Also, please know that I will be working on the posts to share a little more information about Multiple Sclerosis. I know March is over and it was Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month, but just because the month is over does not mean those living with MS are free of it! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Inspirational Wednesday

~A Little Inspiration, Can Go A Long Way~

We have already made it halfway through this week, which means there is not much long until we see the weekend again! How is your week going? I do hope you are having a good week and you are staying safe! Of course, sometimes the weeks seem much longer than they are and all we can do is keep trying. We might be going through challenging times, but we do still have a lot to be thankful for and just need to focus on that.

Considering all of us are still dealing with various struggles, I think a little inspiration might help us through some of those times. With all the stresses that COVID has put on us all, it is hard to remember that someday things will get better. There are also so many built-up frustrations and hatred blanketing the world, which we can help by being kind and understanding. Of course, no one knows exactly when things are going to improve, but that is where hope and determination come into place. I do realize how difficult it is staying home all of the time and when we do finally leave the safety net of our homes we have to wear masks but all troubles, and struggles will someday dissipate, and we will have so much to be proud of because we made it. It is easy to want to throw your hands up and give up, but the strong people I know we all are will not just give up without a fight!

I hope your week is going well and you are remaining safe, and not having any extra stresses added onto you. Life has never been easy and we do all face numerous complications, but somehow we make it through them all. Our strengthens build character and further perseverance for which we should feel gratification. I know how difficult life can be, I mean I was diagnosed with a debilitating illness when I was still a teenager and did not let it deter me from trying to achieve my goals in life.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed the quote I shared with y’all and it provided you a little inspiration! I am looking forward to reading what you thought about the quote and everything else I have shared with y’all today. I promise to respond to all comments as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Tranquil Tuesday

Happy Tuesday y’all! We have already made it through one day this week and only have a few more to go before the weekend is here again. How has your week been so far? I had to go to a typically follow up appointment yesterday with my pain doctor. I really like the Nurse Practitioner because she is so kind and listens to me when I tell her the way I am feeling. I do not know about you, but I tend to like the NP better than the doctor because they take their time and are better with patient care. The appointment went well and I do not have to go back for three months!

We are all living in troubling times where there are so many hateful feelings and unfair treatment around the globe. It is not easy to deal with, but we do have to find a way to be the better person in some, if not most situations. I chose to share this quote with y’all today as a reminder we need to try to stay as far away from negativity as we can because all it will do is bring us down. During these times, we need to do the best we can to help build others up and help where we are needed because the more this happens, the less hate there will be in the world. I know it takes more than one person, but it has to start somewhere! I am hoping this quote offers you some peace and you will help to spread those feelings to others you come into contact with. I truly believe that a little kindness goes a long way in life!

I think y’all know this about me already, but I have a soft spot for helping others and cannot stand seeing another person mistreated. I feel that everyone deserves to be treated fairly and with respect. I find myself standing up for those that cannot stand up for themselves because I have an extremely strong personality and desire to help as much as I can. I have never felt hate for another person simply for something they are not able to change and see each human being as an equal. It does not and never will make sense to me how or why anyone could hate another person because of the color of their skin, nationality, who they love, or anything else for that matter!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you have a great day and you remain as safe as you can possibly be. I am looking forward to reading your fabulous comments and I promise to respond as quickly as I can. I hope you never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Motivational Monday

~Let Us Start This Week With A Positive Mindset~

Happy Monday y’all! I hope you had a nice, safe, and relaxing weekend, and you are ready to begin this new week! Monday mornings are never easy, but we have a choice to think of Monday as a new beginning. Of course, it does mean getting up earlier and dealing with work, but it does not have to be all bad. My work has been rather slow lately and I am hoping the volume will increase and create busier days. It might just be me, but I think slow days at work drag by, whereas busy days make the day fly by!

Now that we are starting a new week, I think a little motivation can go a long way. I am hoping the quote I am sharing with y’all today will provide you the motivation you need to begin this week and hope each day gets better and better! I am looking forward to reading your comments on this post because what you think is important and more valuable than you could ever know. No matter where we live or what we are doing, everyone is always going through something in life. We might not know what someone we encounter is going through, so it is so important to try being understanding and patient with others. Everyone deals with difficult times differently and some might act a little ugly, but this is when we need to try helping that person because a little bit can go a long way. We never know the impact we have on others, so we should try being kind to all!

Considering we are all dealing with the stresses from COVID, it is a crucial time to do what we can to remain safe. Wearing a mask and social distancing is easy to do and does not only keep ourselves safe, but keeps everyone else safe! Of course, wearing a mask is not comfortable, but I do believe a little discomfort is worth saving lives! Even after we are vaccinated, it is still best to continue as if you have not been vaccinated. I know the United States is saying there will be enough vaccines by May for everyone to be vaccinated, but keep in mind there are other variants that might not be protected with the COVID vaccine.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed the quote and hope my reminder of staying safe was helpful. I sincerely hope you have a wonderful week and you are staying safe. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes! I also want y’all to know that if there is anything I can do to help you, I am only an email or message away.

Always, Alyssa

Pick Me Up Thursday

~Our Week Is Finally Almost Over~

Happy Friday Eve y’all! How has your week been? It is so strange how some days go by really slow and others fly by, but those are normally the weekend days. Do you have any plans for the weekend? No one will be surprised when I tell you that I do not have much planned for the weekend. I will need to go through the drive-thru pharmacy, place an order for groceries, and hopefully clean the house because it really needs some TLC.

As we are nearing the end of the week, but still have one day to go, I think we could use a little pick me up! I really love the quote I am sharing with y’all today, but I hope it offers you the pick-me-up needed to get through one last day until the weekend! I will explain why I love this quote but would love to read your comments about it as well. No matter who they are, most people we come in contact with can offer us some knowledge from what they have learned. We do not have to agree with everyone we encounter, but we can help them just as much as they can help us, we just need to give them a chance!

Life is not easy in the United States right now because there are still so many obstacles we are facing. There are still many issues having to do with COVID, hatred, bias having to do with politics, unemployment, and much more. I do not think I will ever understand why people have an issue with anyone that is not like them because I enjoy meeting and talking with others that are opposite of me. I find some people of pretty interesting. I had to go after work today to the local piercing place because after taking my nose ring out for the MRI, I could not for the life of me get it back in. I met a couple really great people there and they were nothing like myself, which I enjoyed. I even offered my help to a lady there with getting a job with me!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you enjoyed the quote I shared and what I in this post. We do not have far to go before we are able to enjoy the weekend, but please be sure you are staying safe because things are still unsafe due to COVID and the other variants. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Leave Our Mark On This World

We all leave a mark on this world and it is our choice what that mark is. I think it is important to remember that tomorrow is not promised to any of us, so we never know when our time on this earth will end. It has always been in my mind and thought process, we need to live each day as if it were our last day here in this world. The way we treat others might stay with that person long after we are gone and leave that person feeling down about themselves. We need to treat others with respect and love, instead of disrespect and ugliness.

I try to always view things from other’s perspectives. It is noticeably clear that everyone is different, which makes each experience we encounter a way to learn and grow. Of course, we are not going to agree with everyone’s way to view situations, but we can try to understand other viewpoints. Everything we undergo during our lifetime should continue to make us better than we were yesterday and help us to be more compassionate and empathetic.

It is crucial to decide how we want to be remembered because we only get one chance at this life. We do not have a rewind or a pause button, so the way we behave will be our legacy. We often fail to remember how short life is because we become desensitized to reality. In the United States alone, there have been over 510,000 deaths due to COVID-19 and yet there are still so many that are not taking this deadly virus as seriously as it needs to be.

If I were to ask you what you want your legacy to be, what would you say? Without having to think about it too deep, I know I want my legacy to be kind, compassionate, understanding, empathetic, fair, and thoughtful. I have always been the kind of person that puts everyone else’s needs ahead of my own and would stand up for anyone that could not stand up for themselves. In a world that seems to be increasingly full of hatred and greed, I do the best I can to not live my life under those terms.

2020 began under uncertain times due to the pandemic. I feel strongly that people showed their true colors, and they were not pretty colors. We all knew a virus was spreading rapidly throughout the world and to decrease the spread, certain things needed to occur. Staying home for a few weeks should not have been a challenging thing to do. I know how isolating staying at home felt, but it was these small sacrifices that could have made a huge difference.

When most people refused to just stay home for a few weeks, wearing masks was the next step. Of course, wearing a mask is not comfortable and feels rather suffocating, but to keep the spread limited it was necessary. I do not think many people understood that wearing a mask was to help keep others safe from the virus but to keep ourselves safe as well. There were many asymptomatic COVID carriers. This just means they did not have any of the typical COVID symptoms but were infected with the virus and spreading the virus to anyone they encountered.

As we are all still struggling to get COVID under control, many have been able to get vaccinated. Unfortunately, there is still a vast majority of the population that have not been vaccinated yet and are waiting for their time. To add more devastation to the world, the COVID virus has mutated into other variants. Regrettably, viruses naturally mutate over time, so it was not only a matter of when but how many others there would be. At this time, there are already three variants that are being researched. There is no way to know if everyone that was vaccinated from the COVID-19 virus will be safe from these other types or not.

As I just stated, there are already three variants to the COVID virus. Considering they are still new, there is so much to learn and there are knowledgeable scientists doing the research. Of course, wearing a mask is one of the best ways to avoid contracting these viruses, but it is still unsettling. I wanted to share a map of what viruses are in each state as of now. Please understand and remember how quickly COVID spread and know these variants will spread just as fast or faster.

I think if we have learned anything from COVID-19, it is awful things can and will happen. We would probably be naïve to think there will never be another pandemic again because it can happen at any time. At this point, it is not a matter of if it will happen again, it is when and will we be ready. My hopes are the world leaders will act accordingly and operate in a matter to save lives, instead of trying to downplay the situation.

I want to thank you for visiting my site today. I know you might not agree with everything I wrote and that is okay, but I would love the chance to read your comments. I can promise you that I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

~Finally, Happy Friday!

I have some really wonderful and amazing news for y’all! Of course, this week has not been a great one because I went through another loss, my Grandmother passed away last Sunday, but the good news is this week is finally over! It does feel like the weeks are getting longer, but I guess it could be worse. The other issue with this week was, I had an awful headache that started on Tuesday evening and it did not ease up much. I am used to headaches, but they are no fun at all How was your week? I hope you had a good week and you are continuing to stay safe!

Now that the weekend is finally here, do you have any plans? This will not be a surprise to any of you, but I pretty much have nothing planned. The only thing I would like to do over the weekend is finally finishing two posts I started but was not able to complete because of the nasty headache, but I do not want to make any promises. Whatever plans you have for the weekend, please just stay safe. Not only is COVID not under control, but three new variants are evading the United States and many other countries as well.

Now that this week is just about over, we need to take this time to let go of anything negative that occurred during the week, so we can enjoy the short weekend! I am hoping the quote I am sharing with y’all today will offer you some comfort and help to let go of negative emotions. I am looking forward to reading your comments on the quote I am sharing and promise to respond as quickly as I can! I just want to quickly tell y’all why I love this quote as much as I do. Our life is so short and we do not know what it has in store for us. It is crucial to understand that tomorrow is not a promise and we need to enjoy the life we were given!

Thank you for visiting my site today! I hope you had a great week and you have a nice, and safe weekend! I am going to try to finish the few posts I started last week, and stick to my typical blogging schedule next week. Between the nasty headache I had and the loss of my Grandmother, I did not have enough energy to do my normal post, but I am going to get back on schedule. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Tranquil Tuesday

~Life Is Short & Should Never Take It For Granted~

Happy Tuesday y’all! I hope you are having a good week and you are staying safe! Times are difficult for so many around the world right now and it is crucial to always try to show those we care about how much we appreciate them. Tomorrow is not a guarantee, so I am trying to focus on this more. There are still a tragic amount of people losing their lives because of COVID and this is a very unsettling feeling. Of course, this might have something to do with my Grandmother’s passing and my mother traveling to be with her, and the other members of the family, but I have been sensitive to this topic long before now.

Considering there are many awful things that are continuing to occur daily, it is important to try to stay calm and keep yourself composed as much as possible. My hopes are you will find the quote I am sharing peaceful and it even adds a smile to your face! I think one reason I find this quote calming is that it takes a strong person to walk away from an argument and a stronger person to not stay angry when they see nothing is being resolved. The older I get, the more I understand that it is important to pick your battles in life because most things are not worth the extra time. This is something I have found to be even more true in the workplace, especially when you are doing everything the right way! I have always been stubborn about my beliefs and thoughts, but I am wise enough to admit when I am wrong.

I know that at least in the United States, the number of COVID vaccines is limited, which I think is a shame. I wish that everyone was able to get this because it would make everyone that much safer. This virus has already killed more than 500,000 million people in the United States and this still breaks my heart. I am thankful that my husband and myself have received both vaccines, and honestly, if it were not for my husband I would still be waiting. Depending on where you live, I am sure you know what the rollout of vaccines is, but please until you are fully vaccinated continue to be safe. Honestly, even after you are fully vaccinated it would probably be wise to continue wearing a mask because of the other variances of the virus.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have wrote and the quote I shared. I am looking forward to reading your thoughts on this post and will respond to all comments as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Motivational Monday

Happy Monday y’all! I hope you had a nice and safe weekend. I first want to thank y’all for your kind comments about our loss of Chloe. She was a precious and loving little soul, and she will always be missed and live on forever in our hearts. Last week, while going through the painful loss, I was not able to do any posts, but the one I did on Friday. Trying to adjust to our new little life without Chloe has been incredibly difficult, but I am going to try getting back to blogging this week.

As we begin a new week, it is crucial to try to see the best in our life and be understanding when dealing with others. The truth is, we will never know what another person is going through and they might not handle hard times the same way we would. Even though there were so many negative emotions in the United States regarding politics, that is all over now and we can start building on what humanity is meant to be. All the hatred that was incited by these issues needs to be left in the past and everyone can try to get along.

I have always thought a motivating quote at the beginning of the week can help begin the week in the right frame of mind. I am hoping the quote I am sharing today will start your week motivated and positive, but do look forward to reading your amazing and thought-provoking comments, which I promise to respond to as quickly as I can. I honestly feel like the entire world has been so full of anger and hatred for so long, we have all forgotten to look deeper and be true to ourselves. I think sometimes all it takes is a smile to make someone else’s day better. It takes a lot more energy to be angry and mean than to just be kind!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have a great and very safe week. Considering I was away for about a week, I have a lot to tell y’all. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Tragic loss of Chloe

RIP Chloe Jean Bowman 07/07/2005-02/07/2021

Loss creates a profound sense of grief, sadness, heartache, emptiness, and so much more that it may feel unbearable at times. This intense combination of emotions can make everyday tasks quite challenging. There is no way to prepare yourself for loss, because no matter how much time you have with someone it is never enough. This statement holds painfully true with our pets. The connection we feel with our pet or pets is much like one feels towards their child. This fur baby was our child, our life, and our family.

Last week I told y’all about our sweet and precious cat, Chloe, who had two doctor’s appointments related to increased lethargy and rapid weight loss. We were told three years ago she was in the early-stage of kidney failure. Given she was on a doctor recommended kidney diet since that time, we did not understand the reason for her recent decline. After a physical exam, CT Scan, and bloodwork, we were told last Friday, February 5th, that she probably would not survive the weekend. Of course, we brought her home right away, made her as comfortable as we possibly could, and stayed with her every minute. Unfortunately, on Sunday, February 7th at 12:25, our beloved Chloe took her last breath.

We had Chloe since she was just a baby. Since the day we brought her home, she filled out hearts with nothing but love and joy. Chloe was always a petite cat, but she had a huge heart and personality. It is so easy to remember many funny memories of her silly adventures. If I were to share all those memories with you, I would be writing for days if not weeks, but I am going to share a few memories with you.

I can remember like it was yesterday the first day Chloe came into our life. She was the best and sweetest birthday present I ever received. My husband and I picked her out at the local PetSmart, where she stole our hearts. From the second she laid her head on my husband’s shoulder, she had him wrapped around her little paw. We had loaded her up in the truck, in the box, PetSmart provided and drove her to her new home. The minute she jumped out of the box and made the cutest little meow and she made that little apartment her new home! She would run around that small apartment like a bat out of hell and enjoyed every minute of it. We used to play with the red-light toy with her and she would try chasing it up the wall. It was hilarious to watch. That little girl would jump as high as the peephole in our front door to try catching the red dot, but never quite caught it.

My husband used to ball up a piece of paper and throw it for Chloe. She would then fetch the piece of paper and bring it back to him to throw for her again. I had never in my life seen a cat play fetch so well, but the two of them loved the game. Chloe played fetch better than any dog I have ever seen in my life. My husband trained her to do this and it was something great to witness.

I remember we had a fake tree in our apartment, which Chloe would climb when she was a baby; she did this several times as she got older. Considering she was an Indoor-only cat, she never got to experience climbing a real tree. It was a good thing she did not go outside and climb trees because once she was in that fake tree, she waited for one of us to get her down. I can picture Chloe outside climbing a real tree and crying for help and needing the fire department to come with a ladder to get her down.

There was a time we had gone to Old Navy shopping, so we had those huge bags when we got home. Somehow, I still do not know how Chloe got her little body attached to one and went flying through the apartment with the bag flying behind her. This created her fear of plastic bags for the rest of her life. Even though she was terrified of plastic bags, it was hysterical.

Considering I do live with Multiple Sclerosis, this does come with a massive amount of pain. Chloe knew where I hurt and would lay on that part of my body. If I had one of my headaches, Chloe would lay on my head until it eased up. When my legs were in out-of-control pain and tingling, Chloe would make it a point to lay on my legs to help these issues. I still find it amazing how on point Chloe’s instincts were and her strong desire to help me feel better, she truly was an amazing cat.

The numerous memories we have about Chloe are not easing our hurt and how much we miss her. I cannot get the image of her taking her last breath on my lap out of my mind. My thoughts go into a black hole with thinking could I have done something to help her more. Was it my fault she died because I told her it was okay to go and she did not have to keep fighting? If we had taken her to the doctor sooner, would she still be with us? Was her death, something we did or did not do?

Last picture of Chloe on my lap wrapped in a blanket

Not everyone can understand just how devastating the loss of a pet is because they have never had the deep and eternal connection with a pet. Unfortunately, those that have not experienced this kind of love may diss the feelings of someone that has. The truth is the loss of a pet for some people can be just as upsetting and traumatic as the loss of a human family member. When we lose a family member we can take time off from work because there is a leave of absence in place, but there is not the same for a pet. This does not make sense to me because our pets are our family. Getting over the loss is not easy, but so many cannot understand this. This picture is the last picture taken of Chloe.

Just as much as our pets rely on us to take care of them, we rely on our pets as well. Pets love us unconditionally and without stipulations. Our pets know all our deepest and darkest secrets because we trust them and confide in them. When we lose this confidant, it can feel like losing a part of our heart and soul, which can make us feel lonely and almost empty inside.

Considering the loss of Chloe has been so painful, I looked up how to get through this and keep some of my sanity. From what I have read, there are 7 stages of grief when we lose a pet. The stages are shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, depression, reflection, loneliness and adjusting to living without that pet, and acceptance and hope.

I can say that the first stage was on Sunday. Seeing that little girl take her last breath did cause me to be in complete and total shock. I could not believe she was gone and did not know how to go on without her. There was no denying what had happened because I watched it take place. Our sweet, loving, and amazing little girl stopped breathing and there was nothing I could do to help her anymore. I think I am hoovering within pain, guilt, anger, depression, and loneliness right now. I am blaming myself for her death and cannot help thinking there must have been something I could have done.

One part that has been so difficult is, there are no answers. The doctor told us her kidney function was stable and not failing. However, neither of the doctors Chloe saw could say why her health deteriorated so fast. The best guesses the doctors can say is that Chloe had cancer and it took her life before diagnosed. The week before she passed away, she was chasing our other cat, Sundance around the house. The two of them had so much love for one another and he does not understand where she went. Sundance is grieving just the same as my husband and I are.

Writing has always helped me heal when something dealing with difficult emotions, but I have not been able to because it has been too difficult. I do not think I have cried and had this hard of a time coping since my Poppy passed. There are times when I think I am doing better, but the smallest of things trigger my heartache, and I am in tears again. If I can stay busy at work it takes my mind away from what we have lost, but the minute I have time to think all I can think about is Chloe. How do you move on from a loss this tragic? How do you stay positive and happy when you heart just cannot heal? How do you tell everyone that asks that you are okay when you are anything but okay?

We had another cat before Sundance, Lexi who died from cancer. I loved that sweet little girl as well, but do not remember it being this hard. Lexi was cremated and we had Chloe cremated as well, but when the emergency vet called to tell us her remains were ready to be picked up, I cannot go pick her up. The only think I want right now is for Chloe to be back with us and alive, but I know this cannot happen.

Chloe was not just a cat or another pet, she was more like our daughter and this loss has been very difficult for us to deal with. I have been away from blogging to try healing from this, but felt it was time to tell y’all about Chloe. We will never stop missing or loving Chloe, but someday we will heal from this. Sundance has never been an only cat and I know he is lonely, and there will come a day we get him a friend, but right now is too soon.

I want to thank you for taking the time to read this long and emotional post. I did start on this a few days ago, but could not keep it together. I hope you had a good week and you are continuing to stay safe. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes.

Always, Alyssa