Truly A Painfully Long Week!

Good-Night-Quotes-20Good evening y’all! I hope you had a nice day today! I am so beyond happy that tomorrow is Friday because it has been a painfully long week! When I say painfully long, I really mean it has been incredibly painful for me!

Earlier this week I mentioned a goal I had for myself, but did not want to share it because I was honestly afraid I would not achieve my goal. Well now that tomorrow is Friday, I am perfectly at ease to share that goal with y’all! I desperately wanted to be able to increase my hours at work slightly, but it seems that every time I fear of goalssaid it in the past I was not able to succeed. This week I have been pushing myself a little harder to work six and a half hours each day instead of just the six hours daily and not miss one day, I have done this so far and I do not see tomorrow being any different!! Sure pushing myself just 30 minutes probably does not seem like a lot, but my goodness it really has been! I have been so completely worn out every day, I was not even able to do a post. Now on Thursday evening, even being extremely tired and in a terrible amount of pain, I was also very proud of the success I have made and wanted to share it with you! I figured I did give that cliff hanger earlier in the week about a “goal” and I know y’all must have been a little curious and deserved to know more about the goal!

I am not sure what next week will hold, but I do fully plan to keep trying my very best. I really am so glad tomorrow is Friday, so I will have the weekend to recuperate from this past week and only hope I have not caused too much damage to my already hurt body! I falling down is how we growknow I have put myself through a lot of pain and stress which may not have been a good decision, but what is done is done and I made it! I will continue to set achievable goals for myself because I do think it is so important to keep trying, which in turn means trying harder every week!

I want to thank y’all for taking the time to visit my site today and really do love to read your comments, which I always will respond to. The blogging community really has been a wonderful and amazing experience for me. I was completely shocked that a fellow blogger that read about me having a difficult day on Tuesday emailed me to see if I was okay. Let me just say that❤❤ Angela Gagliardi is an amazing woman and I am truly thankful for her! Angela also has a blog and if you have not already seen her site, I strongly encourage you to do so, https://fuckms.ca/! Angela has a ❤heart of gold and even when she is struggling herself, still takes the time to care for others. Thank you so much Angela for being a wonderful friend! I hope y’all have a nice relaxing evening and a fantastic Friday. Please know that no matter what I might be dealing with, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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93 thoughts on “Truly A Painfully Long Week!

  1. Alyssa, I’m so sorry you’re still in such a huge amount of pain. I wish I could do something to take it away. Congratulations on meeting your goal this week. I know it has been tough, but you managed to stick it out. You should be very proud of yourself! You definitely need to take care of yourself and rest this weekend now. It’s looking like you might be getting some rain (the weather map looked like the whole state was green) over the weekend – good sleeping weather.😊

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    • Thank you Terri! I guess the pain is just part of life and I need to figure out how to control it better. That probably depends on how far I decide to push myself! Just one more day to go and then I do plan to rest this weekend! Oh goodness rain is coming our way? Rain is great for sleeping, but it causes pain. Maybe if I do not acknowledge it, I won’t feel any different!! Well at least it is over the weekend and I do not have to do anything!!

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      • I actually think we are supposed to be getting rain over the weekend and it kind of looks like it wants to share some wet weather tonight. It will be okay if it rains over the weekend because there is nowhere I need to be and can stay on the couch all weekend!!

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  2. I understand where you’re coming from. It’s a battle we create ourselves in creating unrealistic expecting for ourselves thinking that they’ll make us feel more human and less sick – I won’t say ‘normal’ because there is no such thing as being normal. We’re all unique living our own unique circumstances. I do that in my ‘mom role.’ I wan to do what other moms are doing with their kids, going to the park, going to the mall, going for a simple walk – no way! Those things, although I’d love to do, they’re so incredibly challenging and out of my reach for me. Maybe not forever, but for now my physical limitations force me to listen to my body before setting goals. This will prevent further damage to the already painful body I have. Many blessing to you dearest Alyssa! 😊🙏🏽

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    • Thank you so much for your comment! I do agree with you, we create our own battles and sometimes set unrealistic goals for ourselves. A few weeks ago I was wanting to work 7 hour days instead of 6 hours, but that was not a realistic goal, considering my pain sets in harsh about the same time every day. I still think that 6.5 hours is a good and realistic goal, but then I need to come home and rest for a while! I have always been SO hard on myself and just want to be able to do what I was able to do last year, but it doesn’t seem possible right now and that makes me terribly sad. Even though you might not be able to do everything some other mothers are doing, I am sure you are also doing things for your children that those mothers are not. You continue to try staying strong for you and your children and with that you are showing your children what strength and passion can do!!

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      • Thank you! Likewise Alyssa, you’re doing the best you can to stay strong. You have more strength than you think you know. And even though things for you have changed in a years timespan. Take it with a grain of salt. Things happen, life happens and all we can do is change with it, don’t compare your life to what it was because it will only continue to disappoint you. You’re different now, and not bad different! It only means you’re a new version of yourself. 😊🙏🏽

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      • That is what is SO incredibly hard for me to do, I am always comparing the way I was before to how I am now and it is not helpful! I need to learn to focus more on what I know I can do now and not think about last year. I get a little upset with the new version of me, but I am learning to live with it all!! I really do appreciate your kind and very encouraging words!!! You are a pretty amazing woman and I am thankful I have been able to get to know you!

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  3. Aw I love Angela, she’s awesome.
    As are you – I think you’ve done incredibly well!! I don’t doubt that the extra half an hour has been a challenge, and it’s no wonder it’s been a damn looooong week. I know the usual advice would be “don’t push yourself too much” but there are times we have to, to challenge ourselves, to see what we’re capable of. The emotional impact of doing this alone was pretty big, and the fear of it not working and not being manageable, and yet you’re doing it. Huuuuge congrats for that Alys, you rock! Bet you can’t wait for the weekend and time to rest and recuperate…!! 🙂
    Caz x

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    • Thank you Caz! Yes, Angela is a pretty amazing young woman and I just love her! The extra half hour has been difficult, but I felt I owed it to myself to try and not give up! You are right, we do need to push ourselves at times just to see what we are truly capable of and I learned that I was able to do this!!! Thank goodness my week is over and I am looking forward to 2 days of not having to get up SO early and go to a place that is not that exciting! My weekend goal is to rest and not give work or next week a minute of thought!!

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  4. Congratulations on meeting your goal of 6.5 hours this week! 🙂 Just remember, don’t push yourself.
    This week I actually completed my first 8 hour day! Huge achievement for me. 🙂
    Hope you have a lovely and restful weekend.

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    • Thank you! I know to many people 6.5 hours is easy to do, but my pain has been so severe and kicks in pretty hard at the same time everyday!
      Congratulations to you as well for completing an 8 hour day!! That is very impressive!! I hope you have a restful and nice weekend!

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  5. Oh Alyssa! WELL DONE! This is an amazing achievement. Such strength and determination and coyrage. I do know the feeling of pushing your body and yourself, and wondering if you are doing the right thing. Been there. Mput myself back in bed doing it. I slso know ohtsucal pain, and pain that gets worse on pushing yourself. But there is something in our spurits that wants to do it. But yay, it is FRIDAY Alyssa. Yippeee!

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    • I could not be any happier that it is finally Friday and I made it through the week! I did not miss one day of work due to pain or other issues and worked more! It is never easy to push through the pain, but it is important to test ourselves! I hope you have an amazing weekend and keep writing your beautiful poems!!

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      • I know exactly what you mean about it being impirtant to test ourselves. I did that too much u fortunately, when I was warned not to. But it was deep within me to try. Mind you, our two conditions are very different. I am so happy that you achieved your goal Alyssa. It is not mean feat. God bless you.

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      • Oh goodness no worries! I do always appreciate what you have to say. Yes, our conditions may be very different, but we can also understand how we both want to fight to succeed. You are doing absolutely amazing. I am in complete aww of you and what you do every day! You are a brilliant writer and I really do love your skills!

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    • I know that pushing myself too hard isn’t a good idea, but I wanted to prove to myself I could work a little more. I am SO happy that my work week is officially over and now I can do nothing but rest over the weekend! I plan to destress my thoughts and not give goals and thought and definitely not think about work again until Monday morning! I hope you have a great weekend!!!!

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  6. Thanks for sharing… you may have to make adjustments from time to time, but the main thing is follow your dreams, you can do it… 🙂

    “The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it.” – Michel Angelo

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  7. Awesome job Alyssa!! You never cease to amaze me. Your determination will always keep you striving to do better. Just keep your health #1, because you are most important. Never push yourself too much. Nothing is worth setting yourself back. All my Love & Support, Mom💜💜💜💜

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    • Thank you so much for your very kind comment Mom! I think there are times, well that is most of the time, my stubbornness gets the better of me. I remember last year at this time I was struggling, but I was getting through longer days at work. After my relapse in October things seem to have taken a downward spiral and I want to feel like I did last year. I know life throws curve balls at all of us, but I do not really accept the new version of me and will continue to get the old me back. Frustration overwhelms my mind because I am doing what the idiot doctor says to do, but nothing has changed after that mean relapse. I really do appreciate your continued support!!!

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  8. Aww, Sweetie… I am so sorry that I missed reading so many posts. Here you are being my cheerleader, and I was semi-conscious for over two weeks.
    It’s one thing to set goals for yourself, but if the pain is too overwhelming, is it really that worth it? I can only imagine the pain your in, and I certainly appreciate all the kindness and positive vibes you say to me daily. You’re not only my cheerleader but my hero as well! Love ya! 💗

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