A few things that break my heart

downloadHow often do we try doing everything we can for everyone else, but forget to care for ourselves? I can be very guilty of this and even on a daily basis because I only want the best for everyone. It breaks my heart ❤when I see a homeless person that is kindly asking for a few dollars just so they can have food to eat. It enrages me when I witness a homeless person being disrespected and or belittled by an ignorant individual that knows nothing of their struggles. Even though I wonder how such an awful thing can occur, people do fall on hard times and end up hungry without a images (1)comfortable place to lay their head at night. There is only one person that knows their struggles and no one should ever judge because it can happen to anyone at any time!

How do you feel when you meet someone that is trying their best to dig their way out of a dark time? For instance, a single mother of 3 who is working 2 jobs just to put food on the table and a roof over their heads? Now it isn’t only a mother that plays the mother and father in this situation, there are single fathers out there as well. They are trying their hardest to care for their children, while trying to 28d5d07106bdc9e8dd8c2833142a1e19be the mother and father. 

Why does it seem the number of people who are self-centered and have an entitlement attitude increased so drastically? How is it possible so many people have lost the ability to have empathy for others? There is not a person on the face of this earth that is better than the next person, but yet so many feel they are superior. In a perfect world, everyone would be treated equally and fairness would not be a privilege, but it would be a right!

Another thing that bothers me terribly is the way animals are treated. Animals are innocent and 51T1MAPcg0L._SX258_BO1,204,203,200_depend on their owners for common needs like; food, water, love ❤, a safe home, etc. How many animals have you seen that hold a grudge and only know hatred? I do kind of think one of our cats holds a grudge for a short time after her nails are clipped, but that never lasts more than a few minutes! Unlike the human race, animals love ❤ unconditionally and without ulterior motives! Maybe if humans tried living the way animals do, the world would be download (8)much happier place with far less wars.

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I hope you had a wonderful weekend filled with LOTS of happiness! I cannot believe there is only a few hours left of the weekend before we are starting another 40 hour work week. I guess all we can do now is appreciate short time we have left and be thankful! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

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Crazy day with falls!

images (1)Last Wednesday was a pretty crazy day for me. First, I left work early so I could be with my husband at our older cat Chloe’s doctor’s appointment.  Chloe is 14 years old and always been very healthy, but she has been losing a lot of weight lately and we knew it wasn’t normal. My poor baby was so scared in the short car ride and even more so waiting in the exam room.  Even though Chloe was getting her blood drawn and the doctor got a urine sample from her, she was surprisingly very well behaved. Chloe has a very unique little personality and does not put up with anything she doesn’t like, but she is also incredibly sweet and lovable.

The results from all of Chloe’s tests were not horrible, but they were not great either. My husband and I did some research prior to the appointment, so we would be prepared for the results. However, there is NO amount of 293research that could have prepared us for the results. Our 14 year old sweet baby girl has early stage kidney failure. We are trying to start the new food that will help her, but so far she doesn’t like it. This is just going to take a lot of patience and persistence to get her to eat the new food!

The evening part of Wednesday was not all that great either. Well it was more the late night download (5)part of Wednesday. For the first time in my life, I had two falls. The first fall happened around one in the morning and wasn’t that bad because I landed on my knees. The second fall happened shortly after the first around 1:30 am and it was horrible. I still do not know 100% what I hit my head on, the only thing I can think of is the window panel.

I immediately had a huge lump right above my left eye. My husband was so worried he took me to the emergency room. I was still pretty out of it when we were talking to the nurses and stayed that way when the doctor finally came in. The ER doctor had me wipe the sore that was showing, I guess so he could see if I needed stitches. Thankfully, I did not need stitches. After that, the doctor said we needed to do a CT to makeER sure there wasn’t a brain bleed. I am relieved the CT did not indicate a brain bleed or anything else that could be dangerous. I was released from the hospital with the directions to rest. It seems that the only thing that helps a concussion is rest!

I was having a lot dizzy spells before the fall, but now it is every time I stand up from the couch. I am not sure if the increased dizziness is from hitting my head or from the MS. I am also having some memory issues and tend to get confused easily.

In my 37 years, I have never had a black eye or a concussion. I hate how awful the nasty 17143.jpgblack eye looks and have not been able to cover it with make-up. I am going back to work on Monday, but will be sure to take it easy. Hopefully, the nasty eye will be better by then. Everyone knows my favorite color is purple, but I do not want my eye to be all dark purple! I am trying to listen to what the doctor said about reducing screen time, but I am still trying to do some in the blogging community. I of course will love reading your comments, but it may take me a little longer to respond.

I hope you are enjoying your weekend and of course feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Pick-Me-Up Thursday

163328-Tomorrow-Is-FridayGood morning y’all! I hope you had a wonderful week and you are feeling the best you possibly can🌸! Even though our weeks can cause us stress and additional pain, we always manage to fight through anything to get to the brighter side☀! Y’all know that last week was not that easy for me. There are times when dealing with various personalities can be extremely challenging, but I think it helps to put ourselves in that person’s shoes. Everyone has something they are dealing with and they just need someone to listen to them. Once you show a little empathy🌹, the interaction can become so much images (1)easier!

I am thrilled today is Friday Eve and the weekend🌈 is closing in! I am beyond thankful that I do not work this weekend and have absolutely NO plans! This week work was extremely busy and there was always someone either coming in the office or calling the office with a complaint 🌻. Truth is, what they are complaining about I completely understand and would probably be even more angry than they have been. Seriously, living in the south where it is SO HOT ☀ and not having the air conditioner working is unacceptable and should NEVER happen!

The Pick-Me-Up Thursday quote I am sharing with y’all today is great way to look at life. The reason I find this so amazing is because it almost forces us to look for the positive in any situation we may deal with. when it rains look for a rainbow

First, I want to thank y’all for visiting my site today! I do always appreciate your endless good vibes onlysupport and everlasting kindness! Y’all are beautiful and amazing people inside and out with so much to offer everyone! Second, I wish for a wonderful day for each and everyone of you! Y’all deserve nothing but the absolute best!

No pressure at all, but I would love ❤ to know what you thought about this quote! I know that your thoughts will be fabulous!  Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Coping with Chronic Pain

Sunday-QuoteCoping with chronic pain while still trying to maintain a normal life seems almost impossible at times and even a little frustrating! The beginning of this week was hard for me because I was on my feet way more than I could tolerate. I was truly thankful for the two days off I had, but work on Saturday was absolutely insane!

Currently I work at an apartment community in what should be a low stress position because I am just a leasing consultant. I arrived to work at 10:00 am and at 10:02 I had my first people arrive saying they were supposed to be moving in that day. There was no information anywhere on the other Restartleasing consultant’s desk and the manager keeps his office locked, which makes absolutely NO sense!!I ended up calling my co-worker on his day off, after all this was his lease and should have been handled on Friday. I was not at all surprised that he did not know which apartment the couple was moving into or what they owed. We tried contacting the property manager, who of course did not answer his phone or return the phone call. I ended up having to explain to the couple we would have to postpone their move in date until Monday because I was not able to get any of the information we needed. Thankfully, they did still have their other apartment, so they chaouswould not be forced to get a hotel room for the weekend.

The second person arrived at about 10:30 and this was my lease, so I knew what needed to be done. The gentleman just needed to view the three apartments I had available for his move in date. Consider his move in date was not right away, I was not allowed to hold a normal apartment for him. The three I was able to hold were slightly modified to accommodate a handicap individual, which he is not. Even though I disagreed with this situation, I did this at the direction of my manager! Thankfully he was satisfied with the first one because he wanted to be closer to the front of the community. This was the easiest situation I had to deal with all day!download (4)

Once I got back to the office, after showing the three apartments, there was another person waiting because she was also supposed to be moving in. With no surprise at all there was very limited information on my co-workers desk regarding the move-in, but at least I was able to find what the apartment number was and what the new resident owed. Unfortunately, the important things that were missing were the lease to be signed and keys to the apartment. My guess is the lease was in my manager’s LOCKED office and no one informed maintenance of the correct move-in day. I was able to work around the issues by giving the young lady the ONLY key we had and asking her to come into the office on Monday to sign her lease and get the real keys.

I do not handle things well when simple things do not go well. I remember asking my co-8767492ff9e8b5334f5408fde751e388-thankful-for-grateful-for-300x237worker early in the week to make sure ALL his move-ins were completed, which would have meant walking through the apartment to ensure there were NO issues, the lease was signed and apartment keys were waiting in the file. I gave him several days’ notice to handle things properly and in my opinion how he handled them were unacceptable. I blame him and the manager for how terrible things went yesterday, but I do plan to make some suggestions on Monday morning so this kind of thing NEVER happens again! I do not think this sets a horrible feel for someone moving in to a new apartment when nothing was handled in an appropriate manner!

The entire day was a total disaster and most of the issues could have and should have been images (1)avoided. Another HUGE issue I was dealing with was, phone call after phone call with residents complaining their air conditioner was not working. The maintenance person informed me that the new management company was not allowing them to buy Freon from the vendor they had been using for years, but did not have another vendor lined up. The residents are paying to live these apartment and therefore important things like a working air conditioner when the temperatures are in the high 90’s is a priority and should Work-Quotes-Jim-Collins-in-his-book-Good-To-Great-shares-that-we-need-to-get-the-right-peoplalso be a requirement!

By the end of my day on Saturday, I was not only over-heated, fatigued and in an insane amount of pain, but I was also extremely irritated. It is not fair to force someone to pay for an apartment and then not fix things that break! If I am not mistaken, it is in the lease agreement what each party is responsible for.

It is now Sunday and my last day of the my short weekend before going back to work five days in a row. Unfortunately, even though I am trying to rest, my pain is still rather high. It seems like things have just continued to add up for me and I almost feel like I am trying to walk uphill in quicksand! At this point all I can do is hope this upcoming week will go much better and things will start to ease up.download (4)

Thank you for stopping by my site today! I am sorry this was a bit of rant, but my goodness if only people could act right, I would not have to go on rants! I always appreciate you and your amazing comments! I hope you have had a lovely weekend and you are able to enjoy the last day of it. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

How can this be happening?

images (2)Good evening y’all! Before you continue reading, please beware this is a very emotional post with how I feel about what is going on at the moment. I do hope this does not offend anyone that reads. 

hateHate is a useless emotion that can end up controlling our lives and what good does that really for anyone? Not a damn thing! I will never understand how anyone could be so incredibly full of hate and actually want nothing more but to spread those negative feelings to as many people as they can. Maybe I am the one in the wrong, but I feel we are ALL human-beings with a beating heart ❤ and have real feelings!

If I am being 100% honest with y’all, even though I do my best to not allow hatred to takehate 2 control of my life, I failed miserably last night after watching a horrifying news clip. Seeing the way US Border Protection and Custom Agents are treating immigrant woman and children is disguising and that is putting it mildly. These people being detained are seeking asylum because of the dangers in where they are from.

download (4)I am at a total loss for words that anyone could watch what I did last night and it not leave them full of not only sadness, but pure rage. I sat here in tears for hours because I want to do something to help these innocent people. Woman and children being forced to live with a limited amount of food, water and place to lay their heads, is heartbreaking. It did get even worse than this because children are being separated from their parents and in turn have no one to actually care for them. Sadly the detainees are being treated worse than those in maximum security prisons and even being abused by US Border Protection and Customimages (1) Agents. I would be able to understand what is happening much more if those being detained were causing harm to others, but all they are doing is searching for a safe place to call home.

I have several questions for these immoral US Border Protection and Custom Agents starting with, whose direction are you following? What has caused you to be so malevolent? How the hell would you feel if your wife, mother or child was treated in the horrific way you are treating xrZq6007others? How do you sleep soundly at night and not be haunted with guilt?

For some reason I was under the impression that the United States of America was sanctuary country and was willing to help those in need, but unfortunately I was very wrong about this! There are actually 7 US states that are sanctuary states which include: California, Colorado, Illinois, Massachusetts, New Mexico, Oregon and Vermont. I want to clarify what sanctuary means. The term sanctuary jurisdiction refers to a city, country or state that has enacted policies that limit local officials’ involvement in the enforcement of federal immigration law.textgram-5

Currently I feel completely helpless with my desire to help those being harmed at the border. I told my husband I wanted to somehow send food, clean water, pillows, blankets, clothing, daily hygiene products and anything else these people could benefit from. It about broke my heart when he informed me that others have tried that, but the products never make it to those in need.

Maybe I am just way too emotional of a person, but my heart bleeds for those that I am unable to help. I do not know any of the people that are suffering under the care of US Border Protection and Custom Agents, but that does not mean a thing. These people are trying to escape their own Spread-lovecountry because of the dangers they encountered and come to where they think they will be safe, but are still in fatal danger. I am having a hard time being okay with this and just saying “All well there is nothing I can do.” At the moment, all I am able to do is spread word of this terrible issue and hope for change.

Thank y’all for visiting my site and taking the time to read this highly emotional post. I do encourage your comments and promise to respond as quickly as I can, download (4)but I am also not pressuring you to comment. I know everyone has a lot they are dealing with in their own lives and we all have our own opinions on everything, which is the way it should be! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Our Choices…..

download (6)The choices we make today, may impact us tomorrow, next week or even next year. We will never really know when or how the impact will occur, but it will. All of the choices we make will have either negative consequences or provide us with a reward of some kind.

 Maybe I am wrong, but I do believe when we face various situations there are two roads we can choose to travel down. I am not saying the two roads are crystal clear nor do they2 roads have sign indicating which road is the correct way to go. However, I think we all know the difference between right and wrong, but we are all human-beings that make mistakes and may not choose the wrong road the first time around.

After taking the wrong road numerous times throughout our life, this teaches us many valuable lessons we will cherish. If you are anything like me, you beat yourself up for days because you made an incorrect decision. It takes me much longer to forgive myself than it does for me to forgive someone else. Sometimes we might make the wrong choice images (2)several times, but the lessons learned from this will stick with us.

Have you ever tensed up and or panicked when asked a question about something you may have done wrong? This can pretty much be considered a “fight or flight” reaction and the end results more often than not, are not a good one. I do not believe anyone reacts well when they are badgered with the same damn thing for days or even weeks! I don’t know about you, but this type of situation makes me shut down completely. This often brings up SO many negative emotions and memories for me which I have tried so hard to forget themimages (5).

Life works in mysterious ways and there are so many struggles that come along during our lifetime and normally without any warning. No matter what trials and tribulations I may face, I still believe that everything happens for a reason. I know I will never understand why I am forced to deal with certain things, like living with MS, but what I can say is, as long as I am breathing I will never surrender or give up. I have always believed firmly that the only way we can fail is to give up and this is something I will always refuse to do!

ff309e10cdfddaaae004ed16f196e947.jpgI remember, when I was first diagnosed with MS at the young age of 19, I wondered what I did so wrong to deserve this as my punishment. Although as I have gotten older, I do not view living with MS as a punishment, but I see it as a way to prove my strength and determination to survive! I also view living with MS as a way to help others realize that life does go on, but some adjustments may need to be made. I strive to show others living with a chronic illness and even those not battling an illness, that there is still hope and how remaining positive will be a benefit!images (3)

Thank y’all so much for visiting my site today! I hope your weekend has been lovely and you were able to do things that made you happy. After the crazy week I had, I treated myself to a manicure and pedicure. I can say without a doubt that the pedicure helped the pain I was feeling in my feet and lower part of my legs. I think a pedicure a month should be required and even prescribed from my doctor! Even if it is short lived, it is amazing how much the foot massage helps my pain. I hope you are enjoying the final days of the weekend and you are prepared for the week ahead. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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Chronically Hopeful Award!

ChronicallyHopefulAwardI was completely blown away that the lovely Heather and Dizzy at https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com thought to nominate me for such a beautiful award. I find both ❤ Heather and Dizzy to be so encouraging and battle MS with nothing but grace! Considering I have been adjusting to working full-time again, blogging has been a little difficult for me. I had actually told myself that I would not be able to do award posts until I had fully adjusted, but this one is very special and holds a place in my ❤heart because I think all of us living with a chronic illness need to hold on tight to hope! I mean, without hope, what do we really have? Thank you from the bottom of my ❤ heart Heather and Dizzy ❤ for this incredible nomination! I do encourage anyone that has not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site to check it out https://dinosaursdonkeysandms.com, I know you will love it as much as I do! And thank you Pamela ❤ for creating this amazing award for those that are able to have hope for the future!

The wonderful Chronically Hopeful Award has been created by Pamela, “to recognize the incredible people who blog about chronic illness, mental health and disability.”

THE RULES:

  1. Thank your nominator
  2. Recognize Pamela from There Is Always Hope as the creator of this award and link her URL – https://pamelajessen.com
  3. Use the Chronically Hopeful Award logo somewhere in your post
  4. Copy these rules onto your post
  5. Answer your nominator’s questions
  6. Write 5-10 of your own questions (they don’t need to be illness related)
  7. Nominate 5-10 other chronic illness, mental illness, or disability bloggers
  8. Comment on each of your nominees’ latest posts to tell them they have been nominated

Heather & Dizzy’s Questions and my answers:

 1, What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned from your illness?

 I think the biggest lesson I have learned since diagnosed with MS at age 19 is, life can be painfully difficult, but giving up should never be an option. We are meant to live the life we are living and must always fight with everything we have.

2. If you were a dinosaur, what dinosaur would you be and why? download (4)

This was actually a very difficult question to answer, but I think I would have to say a Pterodactyl because they can fly! I think it would be amazing to have the ability to fly away when you need time alone!

3. What is your most embarrassing moment? 

I know I have had many embarrassing moments, but I have done my best to forget them. One embarrassing moment I haven’t been able to forget is tripping while walking on rocks at the beach. It was a simple accident, but so many people watched it happen.

4. What is your favourite flower?download (3)

My absolute favorite flower is the Stargazer lily. I got married in early October when these flowers were not really in season, but I just had to have them. Thankfully, the florist was able to get them for me! It was probably the only thing that I just had to have for my wedding!

5. What makes you happy? 

There are several things that make me happy. First, my two adorable and very loving ❤ cats bring me so much joy. They can be little terrors at times, but they misbehave in the cutest ways possible! Being able to write also brings me so much joy.

 

❤❤My amazing nominees are: Now, my nominees are in no specific order and I also do not want to add any additional stress or pressure to your life, so please do not feel obligated to participate, I will understand if you choose not to. On the other hand, I do look forward to reading your answers to the questions I have come up with!

https://simplychronicallyill.com/

https://autoimmunewarrior.org/

https://mymsrollercoasterride.wordpress.com

https://fuckms.ca

https://bsingthroughms.home.blog/

https://invisiblyme.com/

https://brokenlifesite.wordpress.com

https://beckiesmentalmess.blog/

https://msichchronicles.blog/

❤My Questions For My Nominees Are:

1, What inspires you?

2. What brings you the most joy in life?

3. What do you struggle the most with?

4. If you could be an animal, what would you be and why?

5. What has been your greatest achievement in the past year?

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I hope y’all are having a fabulous weekend and you are feeling well. Please, if you have not already visited Heather and Dizzy’s site, check them out if you have the time, I know you will never regret it! Never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤, comfort, and many positive vibes!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤