Never Giving Up!

When Life Gets BusyTo simply say that my life has been busy lately and it has very hard to make the necessary time to do what I enjoy is a poor excuse and a HUGE  understatement! Moving to a new city and starting a new job has been exciting, but also VERY overwhelming. I honestly haven’t worked a full-time job in a while because of the constant pain and other issues I struggle with daily, but I have been doing just that for one month now! Yes, the pain has been difficult to deal with, but at the same time I am actually enjoying the job so I just accept the pain for what it is and I don’t dwell over it. I feel that my job helps those that are struggle with making ends means, but they want to improve their lives. In my personal opinion, people who struggle with life but do what is necessary to provide for themselves and their families are pretty amazing and admirable. There are so many that just give up because they feel helpless and feel as there isn’t anything they can do to improve their lives, which this just isn’t true! It may not dc-may18-600seem like it, but I do believe that we can all accomplish ANYTHING we set our minds to!

Like I have said already, I am pushing myself to work a full-time job and lately with the weather change hasn’t been easy at all! Even though my body is on overdrive and going a little haywire, I know things will improve in time it just takes patients, which I tend to lack. It doesn’t matter if the temperature changes from hot to cold or cold to hot, I still react the same way, NOT WELL! It still seems a little crazy to me that I feel horrible when anything goes on with the weather, even just rain. For the first few weeks of every season, I just feel like I was hit by a truck and the mean driver backed over me just for some added fun! You would think that after living with Multiple Sclerosis for almost 19 years I would be immune to these issues or at least be able to tolerate them better, but honestly it is always produces the same troubles!

878da42dde1a95a17c88e6759c5fbcf1I hate that I have been a little MIA for weeks now, but the life changes has been a struggle for me. I still need to find a MS Specialist near me, so when I do have issues, which hopefully I won’t, I will have a doctor to contact. It would be terrible to drive 2 hours back to the doctor I couldn’t care less for, but that might be my only choice for short-term, we will see. We did find a vet for our cats to go to that is really close to our house. Only one of our cats really needs a vet due to his asthma. A lady I work with said she has a great dentist, so I might need to check them out. It isn’t any fun starting all over again with doctors, but maybe it is actually a good thing and I will find better doctors that I mesh well with. I don’t think I am a difficult patient, but I need to feel like the doctor I see, no matter what type they are have required knowledge and the MS Specialist needs to be compassionate. Do you think I am asking too much and I am a little difficult? Of course I want the MS doctor to be honest, but not too harsh like my current one. All doctors should have good side manner, which seems to be hard to find!

daily-fitness-motivation-keep-pushing-your-limits-when-you-accomplish-your-goals-set-new-onesIt feels like it has been WAY too long since I have actually been able to write a post from the ❤ heart ❤ when I wasn’t too exhausted. It is really shocking how difficult it is to work full-time. It seems like there are too many hours away from home relaxing and enjoying life by working, but I guess we all make sacrifices and at least I like what I am doing! I am still continuing to learn and have more responsibilities, which I ❤ LOVE! If I am forced to work, I much prefer to stay busy and be challenged!

I hope y’all are having a great weekend! It is sunny, windy and a little chilly where I am, but it isn’t as bad as yesterday. It really seems that the seasons changed over night. We went from the high 80’s to low 50’s in just a few hours, that might be exaggerating a little, but that is how it seemed! I hope y’all are able to do anything and everything that brings you joy this weekend! Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I will respond to any comments as quickly as I can!! I promise I am working on getting back into blogging again, it is just taking longer than I would have expected. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love ❤ and comfort!

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Pick-Me-Up-Thursday!

friday eve 2Good morning y’all! I hope you are having a wonderful week and I am sure you are ready for the weekend! My week has been pretty decent and VERY busy. I had to deal with making sure my new insurance company had all my information, so on November 1st I would have the coverage that I need. I must say dealing with insurance companies has NEVER been a good experience, but the new company had at least one person that really knew what she was doing and has ensured I will be covered!

With my weeks full with working full-time and still getting adjusted, I am really glad the weekend is almost here! I am still really enjoying my new job and the amazing people I work with, but it is exhausting! I am sure y’all could use a little pick-me-up to make it through today, I know I can. I hope you will find as much meaning as I do in the quote I am going to share with you today. 9706dcc1c64dc6f9c0378f3fe2004a1b--cloud-it-evening-sky

I know we all go through really difficult times in life, but sometimes it does help to turn negatives into positives. The rain is going to fall no matter what we do, whether it be an positive-thoughtsactual rain storm or hardships that feel like they will never end. So I think sometimes looking at the rain clouds overhead and or hard times in a new light may actually be helpful! It isn’t easy, but it really is possible.

Thank y’all so much for stopping by my site today. I really hope this quote will shine new light onto whatever you might be struggling with. I am going to be trying to get into a better schedule with my blog. I do have so much I want to be able to share with y’all and I really miss writing! Always remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love  ❤ and comforting thoughts!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Motivational Monday!

Featured Image -- 7497Good morning y’all! I hope you had a nice restful weekend and you are ready to start a new week with positive thoughts! This is the last weekend that I will have to work all week and then finish up some left over moving, I am looking forward to a weekend that I will be able to just rest and enjoy the new house!

I am sure y’all heard about the devastation Hurricane Michael did last week to a few. The havoc those in Florida experienced is truly heartbreaking to me. Personally, I know several people who live in Florida and even sending hopethough they lost so much, they didn’t lose their lives which is SO important. Houses and personal belongings can be replaced, but lives can’t be replaced. Please, help me with sending hopeful and loving ❤ thoughts/prayers to all those that were affected by Hurricane Michael. I feel like many are in need this and if we join together we can help with our thoughts.❤❤ 

The quote I want to share with y’all today has a lot of meaning to me and I really hope you find some meaning and hope in it. We all go through difficult and dark times in life, which often allows us to forget there is a light out there that will help us through.beautiful butterfly

Thank you for stopping by my site this morning. I always appreciate the support you offer me and I can’t thank you enough for your thoughts and prayers for those in the states affected by Hurricane Michael.

I hope y’all have a great start to a new week that has so much potential. Today allows for us to let go of what happened or didn’t happen last week and just start over again. Please know that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love  ❤and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Time For A Change!

no accidents all is meant to beChange is a wild mixture that can be both exhilarating and nerve-wrecking all at the same time! Change gives us the ability for amazing new opportunities, but sometimes it seems very risky or maybe that is just how my brain works. I know the best way to handle change or changes is to take things one step at a time and not over do it by trying to do all that needs to be done at once. I am a FIRM believer that everything happens for a reason and when it was meant to! Sometimes I also think there isn’t such a thing as something happening or meeting someone by accident!

With moving to a new city in a different state and starting a new job, there seems to be aChange lot to juggle right now in life. The funny thing is, before I went into my interview I saw a beautiful butterfly flying around my car! Of course I thought the butterfly was a sign that I was meant to get the job I really wanted and I DID!!

Now, packing can be a fun at times because you can actually throw away or donate things that you don’t use anymore, this gets rid of unnecessary clutter. I think it is best to donate items not in use instead of throwing them away because those items might be very useful to someone else. You have probably heard that saying, “One man’s junk is another’s treasure.”? Even with that said, it can still take a lot of energy that I seem to be losing change-quotes-5rapidly. I tend to feel overwhelmed because I have the need to do everything myself and hate asking for any help, but I am learning slowly to ask for help more!

I am sure y’all understand how stressful moving and starting a new job can be! In your lifetime, when you have moved, how did you manage to handle it without having a nervous-breakdown? I have always been a bit of a walking/talking stress case, but I am trying to handle it better. Of course I do not want to get myself too stressed out and cause myself to have a relapse! Any tips you might have I would love to hear! I always appreciate all of your great advice and to read how you handle similar situations! 

70502da7ecfb161bf5ee8a42face4478-1050x1050My last day at my current job is this Friday!! I am nervous and excited about this. I have been with my company for over three years and even though I am more than ready for a change, it is the change that is a little scary! I will be starting my adventure with my new job on September 28th and I am very excited about this position! I think my new job is the perfect fit for my personality and the hours are far beyond fabulous!

With moving and packing, I might not be making posts as I typically would. Please forgive me if I fail to respond in a timely manner, but I will still try! I hope y’all are having a great week and feeling the best you can! Please remember that no matter what I am going through in life, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Never stop believing in hope!

hope-quotes-wallpaperI think in the world today, it can be very easy to give up hope. There does seem to be so much negativity and hatred surfacing daily, but not allowing these thoughts into our lives is possible! As long as we keep only those around us who offer happiness and nothing but optimism, we all could spread those emotions instead of negativity. If enough believe in love❤ and hope, we could out power the hate.

It could be easy for me or anyone else that lives with a chronic illness to want to give up any hope for a cure. Living with any illness that causes daily pain is without a doubt frustrating, hope-quotes-about-life-09especially when it seems to be never-ending. Being required to take numerous medications several times a day to slow any progression down, is not any fun! Making decisions of what the right medications are is like playing a game of Russian Roulette, you never know what the outcome is going to be. All of this takes determination to beat the odds and hopefully win the game of life!

Making decisions on what the right medications will be for yourself is extremely difficult. This takes having a lot of confidence in your choices. It also takes doing a lot of research on the medications to choose from. Since being diagnosed with Multiple hope seeing brightSclerosis 18 years ago, I have been on numerous different types of medications that are meant to slow the progression down. The first several were not right for me and I was able to move onto something different. The great thing is, none of the medications need to be permanent if they do not work well with your body chemistry, you are able to keep moving on with something else. This process was frustrating for me, but I never gave up hope that something would work well for me. Thankfully, I had a very understanding and tolerant doctor during this time which helped me make the best decisions!

I want to share a blog post from a fabulous fellow blogger❤ with y’all. Jenny at https://trippingthroughtreacle.com has lived with Multiple Sclerosis for many years and still keeps up her fight! I always find everything Jenny shares to be beyond amazing and she continues to give me hope for better times. I want to share with you her recent post because it was so brilliant and very informative https://trippingthroughtreacle.com/2018/09/07/multiple-sclerosis-and-its-symptoms/#comment-1981. This post alone will make you want to read even more of 2-19-life-1024x792Jenny’s posts!

As difficult as life gets, we all have the choice to hold onto HOPE! If we continue believing, HOPE will never die! We have a choice to challenge the potential for continuing to better ourselves and even all around us. 

Thank y’all for visiting my site this morning. I always appreciate your support and love to read your comments! I hope you have a wonderful Tuesday and you are feeling well! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

 

 

Tribute, to my amazing grandfather!

tribute 2Five years ago today I received a phone call from my uncle that shook my entire world. My uncle called to notify me that my dearly loved grandfather had passed away. Even though I knew he had been battling cancer for years, this call completely took my breath away and left my mind spinning out of control. It was just a few days earlier when I spoke to my grandfather and he wished me a happy birthday. I was really confused because my birthday wasn’t until the end of the month, but I think he must have known he would not be here physically to wish me a happy birthday. Sadly this was the last time I was able to talk to my grandfather and hear his voice.Poppys plaque

During my last conversation with my grandfather we talked about a vacation my husband and I had planned to celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary at the end of the month. I told him that I wanted to postpone that vacation and come see him instead. Being the strong nature person he was, he told me absolutely not and I could go see him another time. I did not want to be too pushy with him because he did sound weak and I assumed he didn’t want me to see him in the shape he was in. As much as I wish I had gone to see him instead going on celebratory vacation, I would never have felt right going against his wishes because I had SO much respect for him.

I am sure y’all already know through some of my previous posts that I absolutely and totally idolized my grandfather. Logically I know that people do pass away, but I didn’t know how to accept the fact he was gone from the world I live in. We hadn’t lived in the funeral-poems-for-grandpa-4-1024x555same state for years, but he was always just a phone call away and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk with him. I remember having saved a voicemail of his and was SO incredibly heartbroken when that message was suddenly gone. I guess it was my fault because I had it saved for so long and my carrier decides to delete messages after 30 days. This was the last chance I had to hear his voice. If only I had known this back then, I would still have that voicemail and be able to hear his sweet Irish voice whenever I wanted to.

I know I have said this before, but my grandfather was the most amazing, encouraging, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate person in the world. He did not know hateful judgmental behavior. He always treated everyone fairly and equally. Even though therepoppys grave will NEVER be another like him, I will always do all I can to come as close as possible to living my life in his image.

 I remember everything about that horrible day five years ago and how I actually swallowed my own pride to call my father with the terrible news. Being the first time I had talked to my father in years, this was not an easy conversation. I even remember all the days leading up to the funeral. Tears flowed like rain during a tropical storm in the middle of the summer at a tropical island. On our flight up to where his funeral was held, I sat on the plane writing to clear my head. I wrote four poems for him that day and I’m sure he knows all the words considering, as always, he was my inspiration.

The last visual image I have of my grandfather was when I had my husband on one side of me and my uncle on the other, and we walked up to where he was resting peacefully in his casket. He just looked like he was sleeping, but it was very traumatizing for me. All I could think tribute 1was this man looks like my grandfather, but this isn’t him and I want him back with us.

I know that my grandfather, my poppy, will always live on in my heart and soul. I will carry the lessons I learned from him and always cherish his memory. As crazy as this may sound, every images (1)time I see a single butterfly and I am feeling totally helpless, I feel that it is my grandfather trying to let me know he is still there and everything is going to be okay. While smiling his golden and very contagious smile he would probably say something like, “Chin up and keep smiling because everything happens for a reason and it all works out the way it is supposed to.” Those are definitely words I live by.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I normally try to not write such a lengthyI will never forget post, but today is a day I will never forget and I am extremely emotional. Y’all know I love all of your comments and will always respond as quickly as I can. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort! The song I am trying to share is “See You Again”, and hope I do it right.  This song helps me when I am missing him as I hope I will see my grandfather someday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

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❤Always, Alyssa❤

Prisoner of my own body

prison bodyIn a previous post I shared with y’all that my recent MRI results showed improvement and there were NO new lesions, which is great news! I felt so incredibly relieved with these wonderful results, but for some reason which I am sure is probably stress related, I still feel an incredible amount of pain and burning in my legs/feet. This pain and burning sensation is constant and unrelenting, which is nothing more than frustrating.

Trying to continue doing all that I want and need to do become trying because it seems like not much really help the issues I continue to struggle with. I feel that my body is trying to hold me as a prisoner from my own illness. Isn’t there normally parole from prison? Unfortunately parole has not been offered to me, so maybe that means I have not stay in painshowed good behavior! I know I do not listen well to my doctor (whom I do my best to avoid to at all costs), but I also continue to ignore the advice from the Nurse Practitioner (NP) that I actually like and respect, considering she worked closely with my first specialist that I just loved! During the MRI results reading with the NP, she encouraged me once again to try things to reduce my stress, considering she seems to believe that is where my pain is stemming from. I am do not agree with her completely on this, but maybe she is right.

Avoiding stress in the world we live in seems completely impossible to me, but maybe and not very likely I am wrong. I mean you are not able to turn the TV on without interruptions from the government, spewing nothing but lies! It is impossible to be out stress everywhereamong people without one them mentioning some lie they heard on the news that they of course believe. Avoiding stressors that I have been aware of for a long time is possible, but then through no fault of my own they seep through and then cause me nothing but frustrating feelings. I have even tried to ignore the stress-factors, but all that does is bottle up hostile feelings which tend to come out in rather terrible and unhealthy ways!

Now considering my MRI results indicated improvement, I am left to wonder if the pain and burning sensation that will not let up is just my life. This is what makes me feel that I am nothing more than a prisoner in my own body. How do you break-free when nothing seems to help? All that seems to be happening is the walls are growing taller and more impossible to escape from.light

Even though the issues I continue to face are frustrating, I will continue searching for the light I know is there somewhere. There must be an end to the pain and burning sensation and in time I am sure I will figure it out. However, by the time I figure out ways to end the pain and burning I am probably going to be very elderly and in an assistant living home, in which they will have to deal with me! I definitely feel bad for those individuals! 

I would like to thank y’all for stopping by my site today. I always appreciate you reading my thoughts for the day and leaving your amazing comments! I hope y’all have had a nice day and I hope you are feeling well. Please remember that I will respond to all comments as quickly as I can, as I really do enjoy the open communication we have. As always I am sending y’all LOTS of love❤ and comfort!

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❤Always, Alyssa❤