Happy Friday Y’all! I hope everyone had a good week and is ready for the weekend! I have had a pretty difficult couple of weeks, so I am ready for the weekend! Now the truth is, my weekend started early as I did not go to work today. It is not all that exciting starting your weekend early, because you wake up in extreme pain, feeling like you have been hit by a truck. I did not even get to sleep in because I felt so awful. But, I have been resting on the couch with my cats all day.
I am not so patiently waiting to hear about my test results from yesterday. The lab tech that did the tests said, preliminary results would show today by 3pm. I really just want to know if all the increased pain I am dealing with is due to a simple infection or not. Infections are easily treated, whereas if this is something worse, I would like to know so I can deal with it! I for the life of me can not see an infection of any kind adding this much pain to my body. I think it is just mean to make someone wait so long for answers!
I think at some point in everyone’s life, they experience some kind of pain. Everyone deals with pain in different ways. Some people can just keep moving and not let it get them down. But other people, their pains are a little more difficult to handle and keep them in bed all day. My husband deals with severe neck pain, along with Migraines. I know from personal experience, pain that is closer to your head is unbearable. When there is pain in your neck and head, it can cause focus and vision issues. I truly hate seeing my husband, who I love dearly, in any kind of pain. I wish that I could take his pain away, so he can be comfortable. Literally, all you can do when you have neck pain that causes a Migraine, is lay down in a dark, quite room with an ice pack on your head. But who are fooling, even that can only do so much. I know that for me, laying flat can ease some of my back pain, but I can still feel that sharp feeling. Any kind of chronic pain is aggravating and you can start to lose hope that it is ever going to go away.
Considering both myself and my husband suffer with pain issues, I think we understand each other better. I can empathize with him when he is in excruciating pain, and he can empathize with me with all I deal with. It is kind of ironic that two people who live with pain meet each other, and then get married. Talk about a match made in Heaven! As difficult as it can be when we are both in a lot of pain, it is good at the same time, because we can be compassionate for one another. I am not going to lie, I hate living in pain, but this is my life and I have to make the most of it. Even though I live in constant pain, I am blessed and thankful that I married an amazing man who understands me more than anyone else! Is it crazy to say that I both love my life and hate it at the same time? I love my life because I have wonderful family, that is so understanding. But, I hate my life because I can not eliminate pain from our lives.
I have a flame burning strong inside me, to never allow anything to control my life. I can not and will not ever allow Multiple Sclerosis to own me. I have the strength to live with MS because of the love I have from my family and the words echoing in my head from my Grandfather, “No matter what you are dealing with, someone else is always going through something worse.” His words resonate in my head when I feel like I can not handle this anymore. Yes, I wish I did not have to deal with this disease, but it is the hand I was dealt in life. Just because you were dealt a bad hand, does not mean you should fold. I will keep fighting through this life, until I can not fight anymore, which will be a really long time! Giving up and surrendering to MS, will never be an option for me!
I absolutely love doing this blog. It has relieved so much stress from my mind. Writing has and will always be my way of dealing with life. As you probably have noticed, I love adding pictures as well. This has not only been a huge stress relief for me, but it has been so much fun. I have made incredible connections with people, not just all over the United States, but all around the world. It is amazing to hear from people in other countries, with how they live. I feel like I have learned so much, which is absolutely fantastic! I have been able to get to know so many people on a personal level and been able to keep in touch with them. I think it is so important to be able to help others by using my own experiences, but also learn from theirs. My goal has always been to be able to not just encourage others, but inspire them with my positive and honest posts. I know sometimes they many not be very enthusiastic, but I am being very real! I do not posses the ability to sugar coat anything, so everything I write it straight from my heart. I do not hide my feelings well.
I sincerely hope that my posts have been helpful for y’all. Please do not hesitate to reach out to me anytime if you need someone to vent to or even just ask questions. I appreciate all of your continued support and very kind comments. I hope you all have a great weekend and do something that makes you smile!!