Happy Monday! I hope y’all had a good start to the week. It is kind of funny saying, “Happy Monday”, when I know there is not one person out there that likes Monday. It is kind of a rude awakening that the weekend is over, and it is time to get back to the reality of our normal workdays. But, we survived it and hopefully will be home relaxing soon!
As y’all are aware, I have been battling a lot of pain for it seems like weeks now. I sent a message to the Nurse Practitioner today, regarding the medication she has me on that is supposed to help with neuropathy pain. Well, that medicine doesn’t help with anything but put me to sleep! I informed her that my pain is only escalating instead of decreasing. Of course, I didn’t hear back from her today. I am going to let her know whenever she does call me back, that I am starting to wein myself off of this medicine, as it isn’t helping. I do not want to be on so many medications, that I feel like an old lady in the mornings and evenings taking ALL my medicines. I would like to be on little as possible, and only those that are beneficial to me. We all have to be our own advocates with our healthcare, because doctors have so many patients, they do not seem to care as much as they really should. I am sure she will try to think of something to replace the one she has me on, but she better have a good reason, and I better feel comfortable with it or it isn’t going to happen. I will get through this pain, it is just going to take time and patience!
No one can see Multiple Sclerosis, we can only feel it. I mean, they can see lesions on an MRI scan, but you can not see it just by looking at someone. It was a struggle to get up this morning and get ready, because I could already feel that the pain was coming on fast. I only worked for five hours today, because I could not sit at my desk all day in pain. I know the people I work with do not understand what I am dealing with, and some just talk about why they think I left early. Even when they do ask me questions, they can not understand the amount of pain I am in, and how much worse it is when I am at my desk all day long typing. I decided today, that it does not really matter what people think, or what they are going to say when I only work for five hours, it is more important to take care of myself. I am not going to push myself too far just to satisfy others. My work gets done, so I am not making anyone else work harder. All that really matters at work is, my manager understands and knows how hard I do work.
In life, it is so important to surround yourself with positive and supportive people. The world has become so full of quick judgments, hatred, negativity and rude behaviors, that you can hardly go anywhere without experiencing at least one of these things. I remember not too long ago when I went to a store and parked in a handicap parking space, because I do have the permit, people walked by me making very hateful remarks. Just because I look perfectly normal to the naked eye, doesn’t mean that I do not suffer. It took every part of me to just walk away and not come back with an equally as hateful remark. But really what is that going to do, beside bring me down to their level. Instead, I walk away teary eyed and left the store shortly afterward. We can not let other people’s ignorance dictate what we do and when we do it. I do my best to only surround myself with people who bring positivity into my life. For those people that know me, I am a kind, compassionate and emphatic person, which I will continue to be so I do not become one of the hateful individuals in this world. I really want to always make a positive difference and encourage others to do the same. I know I can not change the world, but I can always be kind to people, especially those that need it. We do not know what hardships others are going through in their lives, and it is amazing what a smile or kind words can do for someone!
Here is a challenge for all of you and I really would love to hear how you feel afterwards. Next time you see someone out that looks as though they are having a really bad day, just simply smile and say to them “I hope you have a good day!” Or, when you are out at the mall and the person near you sneezes, say “Bless you.” People are really amazed at the kindness you have offered them.
Thank you for always reading my posts and making comments! I have really enjoyed the connections and communications I have had with so many wonderful people. I do always respond to your comments just as quickly as I can. I hope you have a great and restful evening! Y’all continue to remain strong and positive, as it will have a good impact on your life!