As crazy as this might sound, this is something I must do for peace of mind. Four years ago today, we lost the cat we had for fifteen years. It was a sad day for all of us, and I never thought we would face a similar situation so soon. After much thought and debate, we adopted two more cats so the oldest would have a playmate because he was used to having Chloe and his sister through their life together. I want to honor Chloe’s memory and help with the sadness and difficulties we are facing with Sundance, the oldest cat, and I want to write a letter to Chloe♥. She was a loving cat for fifteen years and my confidant and support during painful times, so I am hopeful writing this letter to her will offer me some clarity and help me with the hard times we have been going through since Sundance has been ill and not improving. Please bear with me as this is going to be an emotionally driven letter to Chloe.

Dear Chloe,

It has been four long years since we lost you, and not a day goes by when we do not remember and miss you. Your brother Sundance, your daddy, and I still feel the emptiness from losing you, but we know you fought hard to stay with us as long as you could. You were a loving♥ and wonderful friend for so long, and you deserved to be comfortable and pain free. We know towards the end, you struggled and were in pain, which we never wanted you to go through. We appreciate the years we had with you, and I miss sharing all my secrets with you because I knew you would understand and never tell anyone.

For the past week, your brother, Sundance, has been struggling. As he always does, he got sick, and I took him to the vet, where they gave him an antibiotic that would be used to make him well again. Unfortunately, the antibiotic did not fix the problem, and he progressively worsened. A week ago, the doctor did an x-ray, which showed a large inoperable tumor on his right lung and told him that he had three months to live, and that was the best-case scenario. You already know how hard I fought to keep you comfortable and happy♥, so it will not surprise you, but I have done the same with Sundance. I have gone so far as to call the vet almost daily, and yesterday went to get him fluids, which I must inject into him. It is not something I have done before, but thanks to YouTube and the kind people at the vet’s office, I was able to figure it out!

I know Sundance misses you as much as we all do, but I am not ready for him to leave us to come and see you. Of course, I doubt there will ever be a day I will be ready, but it is too soon, and I am not ready to let him go. If there was ever a time, I needed you and your sound advice, it is now. I am at a loss and have no idea what I should do now. I know Sundance is suffering and miserable, but I am giving him his medicine, inhaler as needed, and now the fluids. Losing you while you were lying on my lap was painful and something I would not wish anyone to endure, but again, I know you were comfortable and surrounded by love♥. Sweet girl, if you can, please get the message to Sundance he must get well and stay with us longer because we love him SO much.

Chloe Jean, even though we did adopt two little girl cats, no kitty could ever replace you because you were irreplaceable. Although we love♥ the little girls we adopted, we will always miss and remember you. The same as you being irreplaceable and loved, we feel the same about Sundance. It has not been a good beginning to 2024, and preparing my mind for Sundance’s fate to be like yours is only making me worse. Whenever he does leave us, please make sure he is welcomed and not scared. You know how he gets any time he is away from his mommy.

Thank you for stopping by my site today and reading this incredibly sad letter to our late kitty. Please keep Sundance in your thoughts and hope his health improves and does not continue to worsen. Anyone who has read some of my posts knows how much our cats mean to us and losing a pet is like losing a close family member because to us, that is what they are. Please never forget I am always sending y’all LOTS of love♥, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa