Reflecting on 2017

dwell on the pastI know there is normally no use dwelling on the past because it is more important to look towards the future, but reading some of my previous posts got me thinking. There was a lot of talk about pain in 2017. Everyone probably already knows that Multiple Sclerosis does come with a fair amount of pain but does talking about it really help? I know that writing about the pain did not make the pain magically go away, but in a way it helps to get those negative feelings out. Sharing my story with many people I unfortunately have not met in person and hearing their stories made the situation a little less lonely.

Living with an invisible illness can make people feel a little isolated at times. Granted for the most part my family understands my illness and is understanding, but when I go to work not many if any of my co-workers really know what I live with. When I park in a handicap parking space at the grocery store, not because it is impossible for me to walkinvisible-illness but because it does cause unnecessary pain to walk far distances, people look at me like I am committing a crime because I look perfectly normal. I have learned to not allow the judgments of others to affect my life but sometimes the looks are a little disturbing. I will never take the last handicap parking space at any store because another person might have a more severe condition and need it a lot more than I do. I always try to be considerate of others even if it does in turn cause me a little extra pain.

I have had Multiple Sclerosis for almost 17 years, but in October I had a ferocious flare up that caused me immense troubles. I was out of work for over a month on short-term disability which caused me some emotional troubles as well. All I could think is why am I only 36 years old and already on short term disability? Is this only going to continue on this path and force me to be viewed as a disabled woman? As crazy as it might sound I strong enoughfelt a vast amount of shame with this. I did not want anyone besides my direct manager to know anything about this so I did not have to deal with any ignorant comments when I did returned to work. Thankfully the short-term disability did not extend and I am slowly getting back into the swing of things at work. I am not working a full 8 hour day yet because it is not worth pushing myself too hard just to have a setback. It is called prioritizing, I am learning to put my health first and put my job second.

Pain is inevitable and continuing to live life is not optional. I still battle pain each day, but I refuse to give up. I want to be able to live a normal life even if my normal is different from others. hne_pain_and_suffering_We are given a chance to enjoy our lives no matter what challenges are we encounter. I am trying to fight my pain and MS with a positive and optimistic mind-set, it might not work every day but I will not allow these issues to control me! 

I hope y’all are having a good weekend! Hopefully you are feeling well and staying warm! These crazy cold temperatures have made me want to stay inside with my blanket and heating pad. According to the weather channel the temperatures will be on the rise next week, but whose to say that will last or really even happen. 

Thank you for visiting and commenting on my thoughts of day! I always appreciate hearing what you have to say and do always respond as quickly as I can! I hope you have a great and relaxing evening!! Much love to y’all!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa


Organizing the Clutter!

Happy Saturday 1Have you ever thought, I have so much to do and do not know where to start? We sometimes have a tremendous amount of things on our minds and it makes hard to get motivated to start anything at all, so we may just sit back and let everything pile up. All the clutter within our daily lives only ends up causing us to feel overwhelmed and stressed to a point that nothing is getting accomplished. But, there are simple ways we all can get some control over that disorder and chaos.

Calendars are not always just for decoration, they serve other wonderful things as well. Here is where you write down all appointments and other important dates, so they do not get accidentally overlooked by everything else that swarms our life. You can have a calendar hanging on the wall that you see every day, use the calendar on your phone which allows you set alerts so you will not miss anything or utilize your computer and tablets calendar!

Once you have your calendar process in place, you can actually make your life even easier by making to do lists! You already know what needs to be done, so write it all calendar (1)down or enter these things in a list on your phone. Once you have written down all that needs to be done you can go back over that list and prioritize based on urgency. You will soon find that some of the items on your list can be postponed until the following day, so you are not overwhelmed and in a panic to get everything completed! Here is an example!

To Do List:

  • Grocery shopping

  • Laundry

  • Clean house

  • Pick up prescription

  • Take out the garbage

  • Plan for dinner

  • Pick up movie from RedBox

  • Clean out liter boxes

  • Decide on Christmas gift for step father

  • Get gas in the car

To Do ListAfter spending a few minutes looking over what I think needs to be done today, I can see there are some that can wait until tomorrow! My new to do list for today would simply be:

  • Laundry
  • Pick up movie from RedBox (considering it is for tonight)
  • Get gas in the car (which can be done when I pick up the movie)
  • Plan for dinner (well we all have to eat)

My to do list for today suddenly went from 10 to 4 because I realized that all of those things were not urgent and could wait another day. Tomorrow it will be easy for me to go to the grocery store and pick up my prescription at the same time, considering the stores are right beside each other and I do not need the prescription today. I do have a little while longer before I have to make a decision about Christmas gifts; Christmas is still 2 weeks away! As for taking the garbage out and cleaning the cat liter boxes, it is perfectly fine to wait just one more day. 

Being able to set priorities to things that need to be done can be very beneficial at work as well. We all know what our jobs entail, so we know how our days will play out. Even if things during our work day changes slightly, we still know what needs to be completed. It takes being able to strategize, focus and commit to all of our tasks in life!

Thank you for reading and commenting on my thoughts for today! I hope you are having a great weekend and staying warm and dry. I prefer to stay inside today because it is both cold and rainy again! Tomorrow is supposed to be a warm day with some sunshine that is much-needed! Much love y’all, stay strong and positive!!

Love 2

Always, Alyssa