Life has a funny way of throwing random things in our direction when they are least expected and often VERY unwanted. It definitely isn’t easy, but these are the times we must pick ourselves up, dust off the difficulties and strive to carry on!
For the most part, I think that the troubles we get faced with happen to remind us just how strong we truly are. We all go along through the motions of any given day and never stop to give ourselves the much deserved credit for the accomplishments we have made. Our daily routines have become so embedded into our minds that we just naturally react to every situation in the best way possible. Sometimes things will work out right the first time around and other times we have to try again! The best way to handle these situations is, NEVER GIVE UP! As long as we choose to not give up and remain determined to succeed, we will never fail.
What happens when something occurs that was so unexpected; it throws major a wrench in our day to day activities? Of course the process we need to go through may be challenging to figure out, but our minds will lead us in the right direction, if we just listen to our own intuition.
Sometimes life becomes more like a movie that is just set to automatic repeat, or at least it is for me. Monday-Friday every day is the same, which is perfectly fine and preferred. What some might call boring and predictable, I call calm and drama-free! With all the insanity that goes on in this world, who really needs additional drama? I actually love coming 
home to be greeted by my husband and two adorable cats
! We eat dinner while watching our favorite shows and then just spend good quality time together. I will read, write or crochet in the evenings, so it is very calm, happy, and peaceful!
When I stop to think about how precious life is and how quickly things can change, I am thankful for what I do have in my life. Sure maybe life may have been easier if I didn’t have MS, but I do and I choose to continue living! I try to NOT think about what could have happened or what should have happened because really, what is the point? 
Anything that did happen did so for reasons I may never know and that is okay. Hell, if it was not MS it may have been something far worse.
My heart breaks for the people out there that do not have the faintest idea of what actually makes them happy. It almost seems as though these people got lost somewhere along the way and never managed to find themselves. I cannot say they did not try, but I might say they gave up the search. I have known people that went through some pretty severe depression, but even in their darkest hours knew a couple 
things that did bring them joy. Of course, those joys did often get shadowed over by their negative thoughts and bad situations, but they were still able to recognize a few positive things in their life. Unfortunately, I have also learned that I do not have the power to turn someone’s mind around when it is clouded with depression. In times like these, there is only one person that can create happiness and that is themselves. For instances, my mother has been struggling lately and neither her
husband nor myself can make her truly happy, she needs to do that on her own. I hate to put that so bluntly, but it is the truth and I do think that any legit therapist would agree with me on this for anyone.
The sad reality is life can be harsh and painful, but it is how we handle it that counts. Challenges happen to everyone, no matter how you are or where you live. Unlike so many other things in this world, hard times do not discriminate and will try destroying anyone 
and anything that stands in the way. The good news is, if you never surrender and continue fighting back, those hard times will move onto its next victim.
Thank you so much for visiting my site today! I do encourage you to take a moment to leave a comment because I love knowing what you think of what I share. I hope you are having a pleasant day and you are feeling the best you can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love , comfort, and many positive vibes!
Always, Alyssa
work on slightly different tasks. Now each person and each different task contributes to the success of the work getting completed accurately. The ultimate goal for everyone on the “team” should be to ensure the client receives their medication that keeps them alive on time. However, it seems like some of these co-workers get angry we with me because I am able to get more work completed in less time than they can. During one of their many complaint parties, I nonchalantly said how much I understood where they were coming. This was just a way to get them to stop their 
complaining and also let them see I also had struggled before. When I was asked how I managed to do what I do as fast as I do it, I said I had to play with different ways of organizing before I had one that was perfect for me! Of course being the person I am, I shared with them my work-flow with details.
information on Thursday morning. If I were to go through my employer for health insurance the cost would be outrageous and that is an understatement. My husband and I decided to purchase our own health insurance policy, well at least until he finds job that offers insurance at a more reasonable rate. We were both very pleased when we saw that the monthly rates and deductibles were far lower than the plan through my job. The plan I would get through my employer was going to only include myself and would cost about half my paycheck. The plan we can purchase would include both me and my husband and cost 21%t less than the one I could get through my employer.
before I started work and he told me that the policy we can purchase will NOT cover pre-existing conditions until January. Y’all already know that I do have a pre-existing condition and I worried the day would come when an insurance company could discriminate against me for something I cannot control! It seems like insurance companies and the government want to punish people more that have a chronic illness and this is just NOT right! I think we are punished enough with what we already have to deal with. Maybe I am too emotionally close to this situation, but how the hell can anyone sleep at night when they are creating an awful situation for many Americans?
Unfortunately, I was wrong because no more than 5 minutes of being in the car, I was in an accident. The accident was not my fault; it was the fault of a young kid. We both had a green light, but he was “supposed” to yield to on-coming traffic.
on the brake. My car is SO little and I know things could have gone much worst that they did, but it was still terrible. The sound the cars made when they made contact with each other, scared the hell out of me. I always act like a lady and try to be polite, but I got out of my car with furry and colorful language. The stupid and ignorant kid never even had the decency to apologize to me. The only thing this idiot said to me was, “We need to move the cars out of the road.” This was the first accident I have ever been in and I basically told him hell no, not until the police arrive. Honestly there were many more words than that, but I thought it was best to keep this a lot cleaner than 
it was!
Another thing I must say is, if my husband wasn’t there with me at the accident scene I would have been way too shaken up to handle it. Even with him there I was inconsolable and just cried and shook. Later he told me he was worried I was going to have a heart attack. In an effort to make me feel better, my husband gave me a new crochet bag and hooks, which are so great!! He has also been very attentive and helpful! I do want to let y’all know that I am okay after this accident and only dealing with extra pain.
getting me something that is much safer and maybe this accident was a push to do so!
million pieces and cause me to feel like a useless failure . I do realize how irrational this may sound, but that is how I have been feeling. It made me incredibly sad when I had a difficult time walking through a store last weekend because my legs and feet were experiencing SO much pain and weakness. All
I wanted to do was cry, but I couldn’t because I view that as letting this illness win the never-ending battle we have been in for years and that will NEVER be an option for me!!
the issues Multiple Sclerosis comes along with and then add gluten-intolerant to the mix seems quite unfair. I know we all deal with random issues and keep on moving forward because we do not have a choice. I am also very aware that many others deal with SO many other struggles that are far worse than what I am, so I am really not complaining. I am going to share more about this gluten-intolerant situation in a later post.
The truth is, because I am always so exhausted during the week after working 8 hours every day of the week, I often don’t have the energy to write as much as I would like to. I end up with so many random thoughts running around like crazy in my mind; it gets so hard to keep track of them all and have those thoughts come together for a good read and one that I am proud of.
dizzy/black-out spells. I have had these issues happen before, but never so many in just one day. At least 2 days last week, there were several moments when the room went completely dark and there NO were sounds at all, which under other circumstances would be great. There was one time I was talking with a co-worker at her desk about work and all of sudden I felt weak, light-headed, hot as hell and dizzy. Luckily I was standing very close to the wall, which kept me standing upright. It might have been pretty embarrassing if I all of sudden fell to the floor at this new job.
terrifying; dizzy spells, black-out moments or the combination of the two. Of course I would say the combination of dizziness and black-out would the most terrifying because you are dealing two different disturbing issues at the same time. I have dealt with dizzy spells for so many years now, but I have found ways that help me limit the duration of my dizziness, most of the time at least.
understand how horribly upsetting they can be. I remember a few years ago there was a period of time when I had a several short black-outs throughout the week, but they weren’t anywhere near as severe as they are now. I am not sure if its stress, lack of sleep, weather changes or something else. The list of possible reasons really could go on and on and on, but I really just wish they were STOP!
comment, but I do encourage your comments if that makes any sense, but I know your thoughts will be amazing. I promise to respond to your comments as quickly as I can! I hope you are feeling well and enjoying your weekend! Sometimes I think the best part of a weekend isn’t getting out and staying busy, but not having any plans at all so there aren’t any time requirements. My days are set in stone during the week with work, which I tend to strongly dislike, but I guess it is just the life of adulthood. I enjoy spending my 2 very short weekend days living in the moment and not doing anything that might cause unnecessary stress. Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love 
shouldn’t ever dwell on them because we can’t change what happened! This is so much easier said than done, but I do try to never forget this, but sometimes fail. I spent most of my weekend thinking about something not so pleasant that occurred at work on Friday, but really what good did this do? NOTHING at all!
offer us. It isn’t worth losing the happiness our life can hold by dwelling on the struggles we face. It is difficult and yet possible to turn all the pain and hardships we wrestle with into something beneficial, I know how crazy that might sound but it is true. Some of the ways we battle through life can be very inspiring and encouraging for SO many others.
diagnosed, I would never be where I am today. Yes, life gets really complicated and frustrating, but overall I am in a very good place. My husband and I have moved to a new city, as y’all already know. We are living in a great home that is where my husband’s amazing grandparents raised their family. There is so much love 
nothing good will ever really happen in your life, which could just be because you aren’t able to see something great that is right in front of you or you aren’t allowing yourself to feel it. Staying negative all of the time just creates a dark cloud over your head that follows you everywhere you go and there is no way to hide from it. Negativity can create a blind spot to anything and anyone that could actually be wonderful.
between the good and the bad; we just need to acknowledge the differences and keeping moving forward!
horrible the world has become in a very short amount of time. The negativity and pure hatred that has been bred by those leading the country has been incredibly upsetting and terribly shocking! Living in a country that was once known for its freedom and justice for all, has made a drastic change at becoming the polar opposite and that is quite frightening to me. The downward spiral happened so painful fast and building the beliefs we all once stood for back up seem almost impossible. I feel this country started to become much more equal for everyone once upon a time, but now it seems like everyone is against everyone else for no real apparent reason besides becoming way too passive and folding! How can you change the thoughts of others that are just 
simply following what the leaders are doing?
glass that if it is pushed around too forcibly can and will break under the pressure that is forced on it. I like to believe that the strength I have deep in my heart and soul is powerful enough to defeat the constant negativity I have been faced with daily! I am only one person with a strong voice when pushed into a corner, but I will always stay true to my beliefs and passions!
as a person. Last year was the start of a pretty nasty relapse that is still in the healing process. I do not know if all the pain I have been struggling with is ever going to subside, but I do plan to keep the fight moving forward and not allow it to defeat me or threaten my courage. There is absolutely NOTHING I can do to change what happened in the past leading up to the relapse, but I can decide how I am going to handle it from this point on. I do not truly think I can go back to where I was or who I was last year at this time, but that person I was is still in me somewhere just a little more rattled by the torture of MS. No matter how beat down I might feel at times, I am still just me!
else with what they are battling internally. I can speak from personal experience that when I am dealing with something that is deeply emotional to me, I do not want to talk to anyone about the issues. I will let most things fester in my own mind, which honestly only causes SO much additional stress. I think that for people who really know me, I am not able to hide when I am terribly disturbed about something because it is clearly all over my face and my demeanor changes drastically. I would make the absolute WORST poker player because I do not do well masking what I feel. The bad part about holding all the emotional struggles inside is, I feel like I am going to explode after a while! Have you ever shaken a bottle of coke vigorously? When you finally open that bottle, the coke will explode all over the place because of all the pressure it felt while being 
shaken. It is not a good feeling to say the least!
that when they are faced with too much trauma and or struggles, they tend to just shut down because it is easier that way. I almost think that shutting down makes it so you just can not feel the difficulties of life and also may not care anymore. In my own personal opinion, shutting down completely is the same as giving up and allowing the internal and physical battles win the war. Call me delusional or just completely wrong, but I do feel the only way we can ever fail ourselves and our loved ones is to give up the fight we were chosen to be in.
weather or to the unrelenting stress life continues to throw at me! I never was good at dodge ball, so the stress just keeps hitting me hard! I often wonder if I am causing the stress I feel to take control of my life and I am actually the one that is responsible for making it worse. I know that allowing stress to bombard my thoughts is NOT any good for my friend “MS”, but I also do not seem to have the strength to avoid it and let it just roll of my back. It never fails, instead of when I am faced with anything I know will be stressful, I am not able to just fight to find something a little more peaceful to focus on, but I focus completely on what is causing my stressful thoughts! I can give advice all day long to others on how to handle stressful times, but I NEVER take my own advice!
am capable of not being hard on myself because just last year I was working many more hours and I was fine! Why since October am I not able to do more like I use to be able to? Is it possible that I am now just allowing the MS to win the battle and control my life? That is not me and is just not the way I ever planned for my life to be. I had always planned to control this illness as much as I could, but seem to be failing miserably at that lately! I guess the truth is control is really just an illusion and what is going to happen, it just going to happen! We are not able to control things that are really uncontrollable, in all reality we are only able to control how we handle the difficult times in life.
promise myself all day long that I will make the necessary changes, but I do not know how to. Writing is definitely a great way for me to get my thoughts out which does help some, but I need to find even more ways to cut the stress out completely and for good! Do y’all have any suggestions on how to do this?
been making me absolutely and totally miserable
, but I was still attempting to fight through how I was feeling because I do not want to allow my illness to win our war. Last night was the tip of the ice burg for me. Between my back hurting fiercely and from my knees to my tip toes achy and burning viciously, I could not get comfortable AT ALL. All I was trying to do was go to sleep so I could go into work today, but it was absolutely impossible! The combination of 
has to offer us all, I just hope y’all get to enjoy this as well!
! I also avoid making plans for the weekend because I never know how I am going to be feeling so instead of disappointing others, it is just best to play things by ear! If myself and my husband are both feeling well we can set up something that we want to do, but if one or both of us is not feeling our best we do not have to do anything at all! It works for us and most people do understand this! 
day from 6 to 7 hours starting Monday. I am hopeful that I will be successful with this goal, but if for some reason I am not I will not be too hard on myself and just keep trying. I think it is extremely important to set goals and try your hardest to achieve those goals, but also not beat yourself up if it does not work out on the first try! Not achieving goals you set is not failure, giving up is the only way to really fail yourself! 
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