About Positively Alyssa

I was diagnosed 18 years ago, when I was only 19 years old, with Relapsing Remitting Multiple Sclerosis. I had gone to my eye doctor because I had lost vision in my left eye. Prior to my appointment, I had prepared myself to have the doctor confirm that I would be blind in my left eye and that was all. Never in a million years did I expect to hear the doctor tell me that after consulting with his colleagues, that I need to go for an MRI that day because they were thinking that with my symptoms that I had MS. Just a couple hours later I went to get the life altering MRI. I remember that phone call like it was yesterday. My eye doctor called me from his home at 9:30 at night to confirm what they suspected, I in fact had MS. He immediately referred me to a specialist he knew and I was able to get in to see him that same week. Luckily, after a round of steroids, my vision came back in my eye just leaving me with leg pain that would continue to be part of my life. Through the years I have tried numerous different medications that are meant to slow the progression of the disease down. I was never good at the injections and it wasn't because of the needle, it was because the medication burned like fire going in. Still after all these years I still go through my battles of denial, anger, frustration and sadness. However, I have always said that I would NEVER allow MS to control my life but I would control the disease. For the most part, I have been pretty successful with that. I mean we all have our bad days but it doesn't make the situation any better. With this blog I am hoping that with my experiences, endless amounts of research and a powerful fight i me that I can not only help others going through this but that I can learn from others as well. Living with the ups and downs of MS can be challenging but the power of the mind can beat anything that is thrown our way!

Let It Go Friday

I am so glad that it is finally Friday because this has been a challenging week. I am sure you are looking forward to the week as much as I am and I hope you have whatever you have planned brings you a lot of joy. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with not having any plans and in fact, sometimes that is the best way to spend these short weekends. After a long week, sometimes we just need time to recuperate and heal from the week. I do hope you had a nice week and you did not endure anything too challenging.

Now that we have made it through the week, we need to try letting go of anything negative that we had to deal with during the week because we deserve to have a good weekend. Were there any specific days that were more demanding than any of the others? You think I would say that Monday was the most challenging, but to tell you the truth yesterday was the most demanding, challenging, and miserable day I have had in a while. I am truly thankful that I did have an opportunity to call someone to vent and cry to because this person is incredible, kind, understanding, and logical, but also is never quick to be judgmental. It helped to just be able to vent and work through my feelings. I never use specific names to protect the privacy of others, but “B”, this one is for you😊!

Life can be one of the most beautiful, magnificent, and amazing things in the world, but it can also be extremely painful and exhausting, so we must try to find ways to cope with the many challenges we will be presented with. If you are anything like me, you bottle things up inside until you feel like you are going to explode. I am fully aware that this is the most unhealthy way to handle things. It is always best to have open and honest about the way you are feeling and or how another person is making you feel. Yes, I know this is not easy, but it is crucial to have at least one person you can confide in and know what you say will not leave their lips to tell anyone else.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared today and hope you have a good day. I am looking forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Pick-Me-Up Thursday

Happy Friday eve, y’all! How has your week been? It seems to have been a long and exhausting week, but as my late Grandfather always said, someone else is always going through something worst. Of course, one reason my week has felt long is because of pain, but the thing about pain is it lets you know that you are still alive. Maybe that is my way of coping with it because I am aware some of the pain I deal with is never going away.

It has been a couple of years, but I mentioned how it felt when we lost our dear sweet cat, Chloe. That kind of pain is emotional and it is awful. Unfortunately, a lady I work with lost her dog yesterday and I know the pain she is suffering, which breaks my heart for her and her family. Physical pain is awful, but I think emotional pain is far worse. I know it is not much, but all I can tell this lady I work with is that I understand and I am here for her anytime she needs to talk. I also know right now the pain is so raw, she does not want to talk but that I will be available when she is. I still remember the pain from losing Chloe and still break down in tears when I think about her.

We are towards the end of the week and have the weekend to look forward to. We do still have one more day to make it through, but considering we survived the first part of the week, I hope the last part will be much easier. I do believe we could all benefit from a little pick-me-up to lift our spirits! I hope the quote I am sharing today offers you support to help you to shine as bright as you can. No matter what we go through in this crazy life, there is always something positive that makes us smile😊. It is crucial to look on the bright side because things can always be worst.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope your week has gone well and you are looking forward to the weekend ahead of us. We all go through different struggles in life, but when we learn someone we know is struggling I think it is important to offer our kindness, compassion, and support! I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Pain Sucks!

It is an undeniable fact that pain for lack of better words sucks! Of course, I, unfortunately, have some form of pain 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, but I somehow manage to deal with it without becoming too homicidal (most of the time at least😊). No matter how frequently we are inflicted with pain, there is typically one kind we find to be unbearable. Do you experience any type of pain that is so miserable, that you would not wish it on your worst enemy?

Of course, the pain that is always present in my mid to lower back is not easy, I can normally ignore it. The neuropathic issues residing in my legs can be a challenge, but I have learned to live with them. Then the issue with what I believe is plantar fasciitis is extremely unpleasant and as much as I do not want to, I can deal with it. The only type of pain I find nearly impossible is any pain that is in my head, which includes headaches, migraines, and tooth pain because they all nearly send me over the edge.

For the past several days I have had a tooth that has been getting increasingly awful. Of course, I do know what I need to call my dentist to make an appointment. The problem with making this call is I have what some would call an irrational fear of the dentist and I know they are going to want to pull the tooth. I have had this fear of the dentist for as long as I can remember, and I am unsure where it comes from. Yes, I do believe most dentists have the personality of a gnat and they seem to enjoy causing people pain with all their little drills. I once asked one of my former dentists if he was bullied when he was younger and that is why he became a dentist so he could legally cause people pain.

Although my fear of every dentist is very intense, I do know I need to call to make an appointment soon. I am also aware the pain from pulling a tooth will be uncomfortable, it probably will not last as long as I think and will eventually stop and then my tooth will not hurt because it will be gone. Maybe if I put the tooth under my pillow the tooth fairy will come and be very generous because I conquered my dentist fears😊! Seriously though, this pain is so miserable I do not believe I would wish it on my worst enemy and the person I think is the evilest and most immoral person in the entire world, well honestly, I do think it is something he might deserve😊!

I hope you are having a good week. The good news is, we are halfway through this insanely long week! I am not sure why this week has felt so long, but it has been overly busy, and people are more demanding. I am sure one reason this week has felt so long to me is the terrible pain I am dealing with, but I hope that pain will end soon. One phone call and I am sure the evil dentist will help the pain go away, but not before causing me more pain first! We have survived the first part of the week and just have the last few days until the weekend returns. I hope the quote I am sharing with you provides you with enough inspiration to get through the last two days of this week!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared with you and the quote inspires you to push through the last part of the week. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Tranquil Tuesday

By saying happy Tuesday, it means we made it through one of the hardest days of our week, Monday! I am not sure why, but it seems like Mondays are normally the busiest days of the entire week. I guess people had time to think about things over the weekend and they think it is best to share those thoughts every Monday. Who knows, but at least we made it through the first day of the week and now we get to handle the second day of this week! I am still very pleased to say the temperatures where I live will not get into the 90s and just remain in the 80s, which I can tolerate.

No matter what day of the week it is, we should all do the best we can to remain calm and not get overly stressed about things. If you think about it, does being stressed help solve any problems, or does it create more? I do tend to stress about things and I can say from my own experience that it does make things worst and cause additional health issues. I really enjoyed the quote I am sharing with y’all today and found it to be extremely true. I am going to try my best to stay calm and allow things to happen the way they are going to and wait for days to be clearer. I mean it can’t hurt to try, right? When you always do things the same way and nothing in life changes, why not try something new and be calm?

One thing that is going to remain a constant in life is that, life is difficult and we are thrown curve balls that disrupt our days. The only thing we can do is keep trying and never surrender to the challenges because the second we give up is the moment we fail ourselves. This is not about what others expect from us, but what we expect from ourselves. I do not believe we can ever fail in this life, but I do think the one way we can fail is giving up when success could be around the corner.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and one of the quotes I shared provided you with some inspiration and peace to make it through the day. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Motivational Monday

Monday has come back around a little too soon, but here we are! I hope you had a good weekend and are ready for the week to begin again. Unfortunately, it does not matter if we are ready for the week or not because it is here and we have to tackle it the best way we can. For some reason, I hardly got any sleep this weekend, so I was pretty exhausted. The only good thing is, that the temperatures are getting slightly cooler and we are not dealing with the high 90s. I just hope Mother Nature does not have some kind of temper tantrum meltdown and those awful temperatures return!

We are all at the beginning of a new week and most of us are not ready. It is never easy to let the weekend go and discover the motivation we need for a new week. I am hoping the quote that I am sharing with y’all today will provide you with just enough motivation to power through the day and hope each day that passes gets better until the weekend returns! I enjoyed this quote because it has a positive vibe and maybe dancing a little in the morning will help make the day better! Music and dance is known to make people happier, so I say it cannot hurt to try it!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and you found the quote motivating. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope your day goes great and you do not allow anyone to cause you any unnecessary stress. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Never forget

Today was a day of horrific memories, commonly known as 9/11. Four coordinated suicide attacks were said to be carried out by the militant Islamic extremist network, al-Qaeda which was following orders from Osama bi Laden to attack the United States of America. These attacks were organized into three groups of five members and another group of four members. Each of the groups included one designated flight-trained hijacker who took control of the aircraft.

Unfortunately, this will always be a day no one will ever forget. Everyone in the United States can remember where they were and what they were doing when the news broke about the plane crashing into the North Tower of the World Trade Center in Lower Manhattan at 8:46 AM. We did not have time to digest the tragic news of the first plane crashing into the North Tower before a second plane crashed into the South Tower at the World Trade Center at 9:03 AM. We all watched in horror as the two 110-story towers collapsed to the ground within an hour and forty-two minutes, which lead to the collapse of other structures in the World Trade Center including 7 World Trade Center, and caused substantial damage to the surrounding buildings.

A third hijacked flight crashed into the West side of the Pentagon, which is the headquarters of the American Military located in Arlington, Virginia thirty-one minutes after the first attack at 9:37 AM. This attack caused a partial collapse of the side of the building.

The fourth and final attack was heading towards Washington, DC. It has been suggested the passengers were alerted about the previous attacks this day and tried to take control of the aircraft to prevent another attack from crashing into its intended target. The passengers struggled with the hijackers onboard and ended up crashing the plane in a field in Stonycreek Township, Pennsylvania at 10:03 AM.

The tragic terrorist events that occurred 21 years ago resulted in 2,977 fatalities, over 25,000 injuries, and countless considerable long-term health consequences. In addition to the numerous lives lost, there was at least $10 billion in infrastructure and property damages.

This terrible event remains to be the deadliest terrorist attack in human history. This was also the single deadliest event for firefighters and law enforcement officers in the history of the United States. There were 343 firefighters and 72 law enforcement officers killed because of this terrorist act.

Although it is not easy to think about what happened 21 years ago today, we should always try to remember the fallen loved ones and heroes that lost their lives. There are still many questions that will go unanswered, and we may never know the full truth because all we have to go on is what the government tells us, and given their track record for the truth, who knows what is real? In situations like this, we must hold onto hope and faith because those are the only things that can help us at times.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I know this is another rather sad post, but I do hope it helps you remember the good people that tried saving lives during this terrifying event. I hope you are having a good weekend and staying safe. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as possible. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Irritating Sounds!

Each person has unique qualities that set them apart from everyone else. These qualities are not something negative or to be ashamed of, but they can create challenges for the person to handle. Since I was a young child there have been certain sounds that I found extremely irritating, which I thought made me strange. It is not loud noises, but small noises such as people chewing gum, chips, popcorn, ice, or anything else that crunches. I remember a time being in the car with my mother or anywhere else when people were chewing gum and it caused an intense feeling of pure and utter irritation. Are there any sounds that you find irritating?

There is a rare disorder known as misophonia that affects about 20% of the population. Scientists suggest that one in five people suffer from this disorder to some degree and less than 1% experience extreme symptoms. This disorder can trigger emotional or physiological reactions to sounds. Of course, those that do not suffer from this view the reactions as an unreasonable and illogical response to sounds that can range from anger and annoyance to panic with a need to flee.

Those that live with misophonia have explained they are triggered by oral sounds, such as the noise a person makes when they eat, breathe, or chew anything. Other sounds people have found to be irritating can include the tapping on a keyboard, table, or steering wheel, or the sound of windshield wipers or blinkers. Some have said small repetitive motions are the cause, such as someone fidgeting or wiggling their foot.

Those with misophonia have said they respond to visual stimuli accompanied by sounds and have an intense reaction to repetitive motions. It has been suggested by researchers that those with this disorder have issues with the way their brains filter sounds and one feature of “misophonia sounds” would be their repetitive noises, which exacerbates other auditory processing issues.

Misophonia appears to range from mild to severe. Many have reported various physiologic and emotional responses. Mild responses can cause people to feel anxious, uncomfortable, disgusted, or have the desire to flee the situation. The more severe response may include rage, anger, hatred, panic, fear, and or emotional distress. 

Doctors are unsure what causes this condition but have stated it is not an issue with the person’s ears. They do believe it may be related to the way sounds affect the brain and trigger an automatic response in the body. The onset is not known, but symptoms have been reported to begin between the age of 9 and 13 and last a lifetime. This is more common in girls and comes on quickly and does not appear to be related to any specific event.

A recent breakthrough study discovered that misophonia is a brain-based disorder. Researchers have referred to a disruption in the connectivity in parts of the brain that processes both sound stimulation and the fight/flight response. This is said to involve parts of the brain that code the importance of sound. 

If this is something any of you deal with, I am sorry because I know how incredibly frustrating it can be. There have been times I had to cover my ears to avoid the annoying sounds because it causes me massive amounts of frustration and anger. It was so hard to deal with when I worked in an office setting because many people loved chewing gum and that is one of the most annoying sounds in the world. Thankfully, I am not working in an office setting, so I do not deal with this anymore, but my husband does love chewing ice and tries to say it is soft ice. It is NOT soft ice! If this is something you must live with, how do you handle it without losing your mind?

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope what I have shared is something you do not live with, but if you do, please know you are not alone. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. I hope your weekend has started pleasantly and you enjoy these two days! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Let It Go Friday

Happy Friday, y’all! It might have been a short week, but it certainly felt longer than just four days. It never ceases to amaze me how much people think what they want or think they need must happen immediately and forget to think about what is possible. Most of what people fret about is not a matter of life and death or even as important as they think it is. There are too many people in the world going hungry and or living without a roof over their heads, so the things people worry themselves about are purely a luxury. I wish everyone could get along and live happily with what they are blessed with and quit demanding more.

The work week is finally over and the weekend will be here in a few hours! The weekends are so short, so anything that caused us stress and or negative emotions needs to be left in the past so we can enjoy the weekend! I hope the quote that I am sharing with y’all today will help you to leave those negative emotions in the past and move forward into a relaxing weekend! I know it seems like just common sense, but I also know how hard it is to forget the negative things that happened during the week. Life is too short to let negative thoughts and people hold us down!

I hope you had a good week and are looking forward to the weekend. Do you have anything planned for the weekend? I am planning to clean the house and watch a UFC fight tomorrow night with my husband. I am not a fighter and do not like violence, but one of the fighters that are fighting tomorrow night is hilarious to listen to and try to understand. Anything you do have planned for the weekend, I hope it brings you a lot of joy and you do so safely. Most people have gotten the COVID vaccine and booster, but it seems that people are still getting sick with the new variant. I am sure I am not the only one, but I am beyond tired of COVID. It seems that COVID is like the nagging gnat at a summer BBQ that will not go away!

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared and the quote helps you find a way of letting go of anything negative plaguing your mind. I am looking forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Missing you still

Of all the posts I have written and will write in the future, posts like this one are always the most difficult. September 9, 2013, was the day when my entire world was turned upside down and inside out because I lost someone that I considered to be my hero. My Grandfather, that I called Poppy was my rock and he kept me grounded through many life struggles. Losing him was one of the worst times in my life and I did not have my rock to help me through it. I thought my Poppy hung and moon and stars, and he could do no wrong in my eyes.

When I lost him nine years ago, he took a HUGE piece of my heart with him, but the lessons I learned from him will always live on in me. As much as I continue to try, there is no way I can ever be as great as he was, but I will never stop trying because I want to make him proud.

My Poppy was honest, caring, devoted, understanding, loving, compassionate, fair, and many other amazing qualities. I do not think there is anyone now or will ever be anyone else like him because he truly was one of a kind. I think that it is possible that God broke the mold when he made him. During my entire life, he never once disappointed me and I always knew that I could rely on him.

I have so many fond memories of him that I will never forget and will treasure until the end of time. He was a pro golfer that dedicated his life to the sport. I can remember times he tried showing me how to play and even though I was not doing well, he never gave up on me. I did not enjoy trying to play golf, but I did enjoy driving the golf cart around his golf course. As a young child, I loved being with my Poppy and rarely paid attention to the other golfers. There were numerous times I was in the way and had close calls with getting hit by the golf balls flying through the air, but he never raised his voice to me when he told me to watch where I was walking.

I remember driving in the car with him while he was singing. There is one songhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ that I will never forget because he loved to sing it. Every time I hear Seven Spanish Angels by Ray Charles and Willie Nelsonhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8A9Y1Dq_cQ, I can hear him singing. Of course, now I am unable to get through the song without crying because I miss him SO much. 

I think one of the hardest things for me is, that I never got to say “goodbye”. I wanted to go visit him because I knew he was sick, but he did not want me to fly all that way to see him. I think he was trying to protect me because he did not want me to see him sick and suffering. It is so hard because the last image I have of him is when we went to his funeral. It is hard to get that image out of my mind because while it did look like him, that was not the man I remember. I am not sure he knew just how much I loved and admired him and that breaks my heart.

Out of everyone in my family, both my mother’s side and father’s side, my Poppy was my heart and soul. I idolized him and thought he would live forever. I will never forget when my uncle called me to tell me about Poppy passing away. The call caught me off guard for several reasons, one being that my uncle never calls me, but the other is because I could not believe the words coming out of his mouth. I could not understand how a man like my Poppy could be gone and I just wanted to see him again. I know someday, I will be reunited with my Poppy, and I just hope he will tell me that he is proud of the woman I had become. 

In all honesty, I am thankful everyday that I had a grandfather as special as mine was. Everyone who knew him was lucky because he loved unconditionally and would do anything for those he cared about. Sadly, all his friends and family lost a magical and amazing human being nine years ago and will forever miss him. He touched so many lives and made a HUGE difference for so many.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you have had a good week and you are ready for the weekend to begin. I know this was a sad post, which I am sorry to end the week this way. Unfortunately, I will have a heavy heart today because I do miss my Poppy. I hope he is looking down from Heaven and he is enjoying the best golf courses ever created and he is proud of who I am today. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

Pick-Me-Up-Thursday

Happy Friday eve, y’all! How has your week been? Yes, I know the short weeks can feel painfully long and people cannot seem to understand most things are not the end of the world and that life will continue to move forward. I wish people would learn to be even a little more understanding and compassionate, but it seems like that is a wish that might never come to fruition. I guess a girl can dream though😉. I do have a few people that I work with that are absolutely amazing and they can make the worst of days much brighter just by being who they are, and for that I love them!

After only a couple of days in our short week, we do still have one more to push through and I think we could all use a little pick-me-up. I love the quote from Albert Einstein I am sharing because it brings so much clarity to the world. As children, many of us had wild imaginations that we utilized, but as adults, we get so bogged down with the busyness of our daily lives we have lost the connection with our imaginations. I think if we could all try using that brilliant imagination a little during the day, we might notice an amazing change in life and even be a little less stressed and a lot happier!

I hope your week is going well and you are looking forward to the upcoming weekend. Do you have any plans for the weekend? Of course, I have no plans at all which is just the way I like it. The work week, even the short weeks seem so long and they are all planned out, I just enjoy having a few days that are not planned. I know some people would think I live a boring life and that might be true, but it is not complicated and it is safe.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you enjoyed what I have shared today and the quote helps you to use your imagination more, and that helps you through the last day of the week. I look forward to reading your comments and I will respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa