There are only a few days left of Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month. March will be coming to an end, but unfortunately, those living with this illness still must endure the issues involved. There are always so many questions that come to my mind and none of them have any answers. Do I wish this illness had a cure? I would be lying if I said no because I wish with everything in me there will be a cure someday soon. Is this illness frustrating? Again, I would be lying if I said no because it is one of the most frustrating things in my life. Is there anything I can do to change things now? Of course, the only thing I can do is stay positive and take care of myself the best that I can.

There are many reasons Multiple Sclerosis is incredibly frustrating one is that I feel like I do not have control of it. Yes, I might have minor control issues. I like things to go according to a plan that makes sense and is clear. I hate not being able to control my body because of an illness that does not have a cure, yet. I do not understand why there has been so much research done and the only thing that changes is the medications being pushed out by the pharmaceutical companies. I know that many people in these pharmaceutical companies care more about themselves and their bank accounts than those living with this illness.

Another reason Multiple Sclerosis is extremely frustrating is that I must live in pain every minute of every day and that is exhausting! I woke up this morning with my back in so much pain it hurt more to lay in bed than get up but still was painful trying to move. Last night, I felt a migraine working its way into my head. The only thing I could do was go to bed and hope it would be gone in the morning. Unfortunately, the head pain was not gone, but it was slightly more manageable. Pain is awful to live with, but migraines are the absolute worst because it often feels like there is a sledgehammer pounding on my head!

Overall, I do loathe Multiple Sclerosis, but I know it could be much worse than it is. I guess there is a small part of me that is thankful for the type I live with. I do not and never will know what caused me to have this condition, but I feel like there must be a reason. When there are no explanations for things, I find it immensely irritating, and it makes me slightly angry. Considering I have always believed there is a reason for everything that happens in our life, I feel there must be a reason I have Multiple Sclerosis.

No matter how frustrating Multiple Sclerosis can be and how many times a day I want to give up, I made a promise all those years ago when I was diagnosed to my late grandfather that I never would surrender and would continue to fight. Sadly, I know there may come a day when I am unable to fight any longer, but that day will not come for many more years. I am far too determined to let anything, especially an illness control my life.

Thank you for visiting my site this afternoon. I hope you are having a lovely and relaxing day! I look forward to reading your comments and will respond as quickly as I can. The weekend will be coming to an end soon, so enjoy what is left of it safely! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa