I have always tried to be tolerant of other people’s “unique” personalities because I do not know what is going on in their life that causes them to be a SO unpleasant, but it has been nearly impossible this week. I know “most” people are frustrated with COVID, as we have all been dealing with this for over a year and a half. The reason I said most people is because there are still some for whatever reason that cannot comprehend the seriousness and how deadly the virus is and are still refusing to get vaccinated. Those of us who can understand these issues are feeling isolated and frustrated because this is hindering doing things we enjoy and living life.

This past week was exhausting and aggravating for me because the harder I tried to be patient with others, the more impossible it became. My supervisor was out this week due to a death in her family, so if I had questions or needed help, I had to go to one of the two other supervisors. One of these supervisors cannot admit when she is wrong about something and will consistently degrade anyone that does not agree with her. While the other supervisor is not like that, her personality or lack thereof created a tremendous amount of animosity and discouragement. I am the type that will be harder on myself than anyone else could ever be, so when someone is being short and demeaning, it makes me feel a lot worse about myself and my abilities.

It is my opinion that a manager, supervisor, team lead, or anyone else that is in charge, should be mindful and understand that their subordinates ask questions for a reason. I will admit the personalities of the two people I had to deal with during the week do not mesh well with my personality at all. I do not need anyone to treat me like I am a fragile flower that is going to fall to pieces or have kid gloves on when talking to me, but I do deserve respect. I think when a manager is being degrading, it is counterproductive and not doing good for anyone involved. I appreciate constructive criticism and will thrive in whatever it is I am doing.

Differences between people are what keeps life interesting and provides us with room to grow. I cannot imagine a world where everyone is the same and think it would think it would be monotonous. I would like to believe that I am easy to get along with and that I treat others with the same respect I desire. I can remember telling one of my co-workers and friend, that work and how other people behave is not worth our tears, but I did not listen to my advice from last week and broke down to tears several times.

Although last week was upsetting and discouraging, I would like to believe there were lessons to be learned and that they will make me stronger and more resilient in the future. I cannot say that I am not overly sensitive at times because I am, but I also can take most things with a grain of salt and keep going. Considering I am already extremely hard on myself and my worst critic, dealing with cold and demeaning people is painfully distressing.

For almost 40 years, I have put myself down and thought I was not good enough. My goal is to stop criticizing myself and start believing in myself, and the abilities I possess. I am not sure if y’all remember me talking about a writing contest I wanted to participate in a few months ago. Unfortunately, I did not because I never thought what I write is worthy enough, so I decided to not try, and I do regret that. Recently, I received another email regarding another contest. The contest is for a personal essay, which I think will be exciting and interesting. I have four topics to decide between for this contest. I am excited, nervous, concerned I will not do well, and several other emotions. I am going to start an outline for the essay over the weekend. To stay organized, I might do an outline for the four topics I am deciding between and see where it takes me. Whichever topics I do not use for the contest, I can use later for another contest.

Thank you for visiting my site today. I hope you had a good week, and you have a fabulous, and safe weekend. I hope you enjoyed what I have written and look forward to your comments. If any of you have done a writing contest before and have any advice for me, I would love to really appreciate it. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa