Been Out Of Sorts

I have been trying for several days to write a post, but I have not been able to. I have a few reasons why things have been so challenging, and I will try to explain. One issue is I have not been sleeping well due to awful tooth pain. I know my fear of the dentist is very irrational, but I have never been able to shake this fear in all my years. After several mornings waking up at 3:00 AM in excruciating pain and it takes me a while to fall back to sleep, I finally scheduled an appointment with a dentist. My husband and I are still relatively new to where we are living and I did not know any dentists, heck, I hardly knew of any doctors besides my neurologist, but I reached out to an extremely sweet couple that has lived in the city for years for a recommendation. This couple is kind, trustworthy, and I feel confident they would steer me in the right direction, the only problem is the dentist did not have any openings until April 19th, but I have dealt with it this long, what is a few more weeks?

The other issue I have been experiencing is my legs and feet are feeling the annoying tingling, pins, and needles sensation, and a great deal of spasticity. This seems to be getting increasing worst at night, which makes it hard to get comfortable and fall asleep. Even though it is known to those with MS that heat causes issues, previously a heating pad on my legs would help calm the problems down. Unfortunately, a heating pad or a warm bath is not helping at all and I am just having to be patient with my legs and feet, which I am not good at being patient at all!

As y’all know from things I have said in previous posts fatigue is a huge issue with people with Multiple Sclerosis, so not getting anywhere near enough sleep due to my tooth pain and twitchy legs is only producing more fatigue. I do not know about you, but when I get too overtired, I become very irritated with everything. It does not matter how small the issue is, it will make me want to scream and or cry. You can only imagine how I would feel if something huge happened.

I like to think that I am a patient and tolerant person, and always try being understanding because I do know everyone is going through something in their life. It takes a lot to push me to my breaking point, which is not always a good thing because that involves a lot of pent of frustrations. While it can be a good quality to be able to let go of things that are not crucial, the built-up of frustration can be like if a volcano, collided with a tornado, and an earthquake happened simultaneously. This is just me and I might be abnormal because I hold onto things for extended periods of time before anyone would ever know something was bothering me and I know this is something that needs to be worked on and improved.

I am not making any promises because I do not like breaking a promise, but I am going to try finishing the posts I had mentioned before. I know March and Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month are over, but there are still a few things I want to mention. March being over does not mean that those of us living with Multiple Sclerosis get a break because unfortunately, we still have the same battle to fight.

I would like to thank you for taking the time to visit my site today. I still have so much that I would like to write about, and I am doing the best I can. I hope your week is going well and you are continuing to stay safe. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa

5 thoughts on “Been Out Of Sorts

  1. Oh Alyssa, I’m so sorry you’ve been doing things extra tough lately. Sounds like a bit of a vicious cycle with the tooth pain, less sleep, more stress, feel even worse… Don’t beat yourself up about the fear of the dentist, it’s a legitimate fear and it’s not easy to overcome, no matter what other people might think. I’m sorry the wait is so long though. Not great when you just want it over and done with. Hopefully it’ll come around soon enough – I’ll of course be wishing you the very best with it!

    I actually recorded my legs the other night. I get tingling and what I call electric zaps, which are apparently from the nerve damage in my back. But I get spasms and twitches of muscles, that you can actually see happening in my legs. I didn’t know you could see it until I looked at my legs the other night when it was driving me absolutely up the wall. It scared the hell out of me. Looks like something crawling under my skin. Can you see it with yours? I’ve no idea what to do with mine and of course yours is MS-related but I wish I could suggest something to help you 😦

    You have got a lot going on and a lot to deal with. There’s no comparing what you’re going through to the struggles of others. You are such a kind, compassionate person, and you need to turn a little of that inwards. Go easy on yourself. Don’t worry about the posts unless you’re able to and want to do them. Rest when you can, if you can. Sending lots of hugs your way,

    Caz xxxxxxxx

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