Pandemic Crisis

~The Never Ending Crisis~

I know I have talked about COVID-19 numerous times since the pandemic started, but sadly things are only getting worse every day. The state that I live in surely isn’t the only one, but it has had a HUGE surge in new COVID-19 cases and deaths. I know it isn’t a good thing to live in fear because life is too short to live that way, but I am terrified of this virus and I think for good reason.

Currently, I basically do not even have an immune system and that is due to the medication I take for Multiple Sclerosis. So, I am dealing with a medication that is supposed to be slowing the progression of the MS but also weakens my immune system to a dangerous level with this virus being as uncontrollable as it is. Let me put it like this, from Monday to Friday in a city with about 68, 560 people living in it, there were 1,187 new cases. That is only the reported cases and who knows how many others are a systematic and have no idea they are sick and spreading a deadly virus.

If you pay attention to the news, you will see that thousands of people are dying daily from this virus. I am not able to watch the news without crying and maybe it’s because I am overly sensitive, but I can’t understand how this wouldn’t tug on everyone’s heartstrings. Some of these innocent people that have died with COVID never leave their homes and others were extra careful, and still ended up with the virus that took their life. How sad is it when someone loses someone they love and can’t even have a normal funeral because of a deadly virus? For me this is heart wrenching and unimaginable.

Of course, I do not for even a second believe we were informed in a proper time frame or manner. If only we received the warnings when those in charge knew there was a deadly virus spreading, maybe we would be in a safer and better place today, and maybe those that lost their life would still be with the ones they love. I do not see how it is possible for a President, Prime Minister, Chancellor, or whatever the name of the leader is would not be made aware of something like a deadly virus and not act accordingly for the safety of the citizens, but this did happen this year because our President cared more about reelection and lost anyway.

This year’s holidays are very challenging and unique. Thanksgiving has come and gone, and I feared going anywhere because of COVID. Christmas is only a few weeks away and I honestly do not feel safe leaving my house. There are so many what-ifs and no clear answers. My husband and I always went to my mother and stepfather’s house for Christmas Eve, but that isn’t happening this year for a few reasons and of course, COVID is one of those reasons. We would then go to my in-law’s house on Christmas day and I am not sure that is happening this year, only because of COVID.

Then there is New Year’s Eve. It is definitely a time to celebrate 2020 ending and 2021 starting, but what do you do on New Year’s Eve? That is right, people hug and or kiss. How can you even celebrate the New Year when you have to (or at least should) social distance? I can tell you that my husband and I will do what we have done for the past few years, which is to stay home just the two of us with our two sweet fur babies. Even before COVID, staying home was a safer way to bring in the New Year, or at least I feel like I am too older to celebrate at a bar with way too many people too close together. I have not ever enjoyed crowds because it makes me uncomfortable and nervous.

This is the first time I started writing without overthinking it. I knew what I wanted to write about, but I didn’t know the way it would come together. I typically write my posts out by hand because I feel more connected to what I am writing when it is written by hand. I am trying to change the way I think because I don’t think it make sense to write it out and then type it because it is kind of like doing double the work. Y’all have probably heard this saying before, “Work smarter not harder!” I am going to start doing this.

Thank you so much for visiting my site today. I hope your weekend has started off great and you are safely enjoying your time away from work. I think this is the first weekend in a while that I am not working overtime and it is rather nice. I might have been getting a little burnt out, which does not help the pain I deal with daily. I do look forward to reading your comments and I promise to respond as quickly as I can. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa


21 thoughts on “Pandemic Crisis

  1. It is a very scary and unsettling time, and especially with an underlying health condition. I am glad you are taking precautions, and I agree with your statements. It is hard not to overthink, I am glad you are aware of this and are talking about it. This is a difficult time. It would certainly feel more secure if everyone would make health (not politics) a priority in this case. I am sending you lots of care/🤍

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    • Thank you so much for your amazing comment! I definitely agree with you, it is an unsettling time around the world. I am very careful and hardly leave my house. I keep saying that the chances of me surviving if I get COVID are slim. It is shocking how many people do not get it at all and some still think it is nothing more than a joke. Some even think I am overly careful, but they can say what they want, I do not think it is possible to be overly careful with this virus. I do hope you are staying very safe!!!

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  2. I understand your frustrations. I don’t enjoy having to step foot in a COVID-19 infested hospital, but I have to in order to get clinical hours and finish school. There are units on the same floor with COVID-19 outbreaks. It would be nice to stay home but I have no choice. I’ve been swabbed twice for COVID-19 two times last night as a safety precaution. I isolated myself for 14 days as another precaution.

    There’s only so much we can control and my best advice is to wear masks and avoid crowds. Fearing COVID-19 worsens one’s anxiety, and we can’t totally run away from an invisible enemy. Control the things you can and do what you can for the things that you can’t control. Hiding in your house forever might not be the healthiest alternative…. staying cooped up inside for long periods doesn’t sound good for one’s mental health and well-being. 😷

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    • I hope the hospital you are doing your clinical hours in is taking good care of you and everyone else. I hate you have to enter the hospital at this time. Are you in nursing school or are you going to be a doctor? How much longer do you have?

      The state I live in many people do not think the virus is serious because they are listening to what the president has said. I always wear a mask when I do leave the house and social distance because that is what we all should be doing. Please take care and stay strong like you always do!

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      • I am not smart enough to become a MD, but I am flattered! 😊 I am in nursing school trying to become a RN. I have 5 shifts left to complete this undergraduate degree [finally].

        Today I went to MCDs because I needed to eat something and we sat inside. There were groups of people (greater than 7-8 people) all huddled around tables together, eating their food. This is exactly why COVID-19 is out of control and cases are record numbers. My husband doesn’t think it is a problem but I do….

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      • I do think you are smart enough to be a doctor, I would trust you! WOW, only 5 left and when will you graduate?

        I am with you on the virus being a problem and serious. I do not leave my house often and when I do, I always wear a mask and even gloves. I do not understand people who won’t social distance


  3. Those number are crazy! I live in a province of almost 15 million people and we’re panicking over having 1500 cases a day, but rightly so. I wish people would just act reasonable and do their part by wearing masks and not complaining!

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  4. The odd thing is we take these meds, or at least I do, because our immune systems are overactive, which causes the disease. All I know is that I was told to lay low for 8 weeks whenever I get the heavy duty meds, which is twice a year. I have no idea how the vaccine will affect me once I do get it, but I know what the virus will do, so it is the lesser of two evils.

    In some ways the whole thing is more unnerving that it was when all this first started because we now at least have a light a the end of the tunnel, but the virus is surging. It would really suck to come down with it this close to what seems to be the end. If we could only get the idiots who think mask wearing is an infringement of their liberties to get their hazards out of their collective asses……

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    • The medication I take for MS is daily and it weakens my immune system. Right now my WBC is very low, which makes it so I have no immune system now. I think it is a good idea to wait a little while for the vaccine. They pulled it together way too fast. Normally, it takes a year and a half.

      Sadly, the messed up state I live thinks Trump is great and the virus is a joke. The few times I do leave the house, no one but me is wearing a mask. I just do not get it. It is those who refuse to wear a mask and those idiots in Washington that are responsible for all the deaths and illness, which is incredibly wrong.

      Please do what you can to stay safe!!!

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