Been on my mind

~Living Life With An Unpredictable Illness~

I have decided to write about a few things that have been weighing on my mind lately. Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmed with life, work, and health concerns. There always seems to be something going on in the world from the political insanity to COVID-19 to mass levels of hatred that is being spread even fast than the virus.

I think after everyone that wanted to vote did so and the counting was finished, there should not be any more talk about it. The voices of SO many American people spoke out and there is going to be a new president starting in January 2021! There is a chance we may have hope now because we are not going to have an immature person that is unable to take accountability for what has happened with this pandemic and is definitely not a leader in the White House.

As for COVID-19, if people would just follow the advice we have all been told for months now, MAYBE there would be more control over the virus by now. Unfortunately, the few times I actually leave my house hardly anyone is wearing a mask. I just do not understand why because I know they must have seen the news and see the numbers on the consistent rise. The virus is NOT a joke. This virus is killing thousands of people every day and it needs to stop.

The hatred that is being spread will never make sense to me. I have said this to y’all multiple times, but I have to say it again, everyone should be treated equally and with respect. A person’s race, color, sex, national origin, sexual orientation, religious following, and anything else should not matter because we ALL have a beating heart and feelings. No one should ever feel shame for who they are, but instead should be proud. The rage and hate that is filling the United States must end because the death, injuries, and fear are things that never should happen.

I will end my little rant now, but I do want to share with y’all a little about what my life has been like living with an unpredictable illness, especially during the pandemic. Most of you, if not all of you are already aware that this is definitely not easy. Of course, there are good days along the way, but then there are also those days that are more grueling than any others. The truth is there are some days it is challenging for me to even get down the stairs to the home office and begin my workday because my legs hurt terribly and they are extremely weak, but I do manage to get there.

Besides the continuous pain I have from my knees down to my toes, I have massive amounts of pain issues from the middle to the lower area of my back. Considering I have been living with Multiple Sclerosis for two decades, I have learned to live with the pain. I guess it is safe to say that I have learned to not just live with the pain, but also accept it as part of my life. I mean there really isn’t another way because I am not going to allow for Multiple Sclerosis to dictate my life as I want to control my own life. Unfortunately, there is not a cure for Multiple Sclerosis yet and I want to live my life to the fullest I possibly can. After all, I did make my late Poppy a promise 20 years ago that I would NEVER give up and I refuse to disappoint him by not keeping that promise!

Another difficult symptom I have been dealing with more lately is dizziness. Previously, the dizzy spells were random and only a few times a year, but recently they have been awful. Last week, I had two dizzy spells within a few days of each other. The second one happened after my husband and I finished dinner, and I told him before I tried to start cleaning that I didn’t feel right. When I tried standing up and I told my husband I was very dizzy, so he started cleaning up for me. I still attempted to try helping and when I thought I had control of the dizziness, I fell in the kitchen. Of course, my husband came running to my side to make sure I was not hurt. The only injuries were a few bruises to my knees and thankfully did not hit my head. Even after sitting on the floor with my husband for a few minutes, I still didn’t feel like I could stand without falling, so my sweet and caring husband carried me into our room.

I want to thank y’all for visiting my site today and reading this post. Even though I know some of you can relate to this, I wish you didn’t have to because I know it isn’t all that fun. On my worst days something that helps me get through them is I can hear my Poppy’s voice saying “No matter what you are going through in life, someone else is always going through something worse. “ He always told me he believed in me and that I was strong enough to get through anything thrown at me and I know he was right!

I would love to read your comments and promise to respond as quickly as I can. I know sometimes it takes me longer to respond, but that is because I have been working no less than 45 hours a week and sometimes more. Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love, comfort, support, and MANY positive vibes!

Always, Alyssa


7 thoughts on “Been on my mind

  1. I wish too more people would just follow the advice. Everyone here is wearing a mask so I feel somewhat better, but the numbers are still on the rise.
    Thank god you have sb so carrying by your side. Sending you lots of good vibes, and please don’t ever give up.

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    • I do as well because if more people wore masks we would be in a much better position than we are now. It is awful how many people here in the states thinks the virus isn’t a big deal and not that serious. Thank you lots of good vibes as well!

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  2. Oh Alyssa, I’m not sure where to start. I think you know how incredibly angry I’ve been lately, which makes me sick because I’m not an angry person. Anger at the governments for putting money before people, and angry at the selfishness and stupidity of those not following common sense and putting others at risk. You’re right, if things had been done well (and surely that doesn’t take a rocket scientist) then the US nor the UK would be in the position they’re in. We’re now the first country in Europe to surpass 50,000 deaths. We’re a small country but actually the numbers are much higher, probably around 60,000 now. It’s shocking.

    I wonder if the stress and the heartache over covid makes everything else we might be dealing with that bit worse. It’s getting cold here too which makes my bones and pains worse. Is it similar for you at all? I hope you can wrap up warm. I hate knowing how much pain you’re in, that you get dizzy, that your legs can become so weak. I wish I could do something. Hang in there my warrior friend with the beautiful heart.

    Sending oodles of hugs  ♥ ♥ ♥

    Caz xxxxx

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    • Unfortunately, Cas, I understand the angry feeling about what is going on right now. Like yourself, I am not normally an angry person, but the lack of leadership with this deadly virus makes me incredibly angry. I also get extremely angry at these people that still support an idiot president like Trump. I do believe Trump and Boris are so much alike, but Boris might be a little smarter than Trump (probably very little). Maybe they should go to an island together and live miserably ever after:)!

      I do think that stress and heartache over COVID makes things we deal with a lot worse. Stress is evil and does awful things to people, but especially those with a chronic illness. I am a lot like you, the cold makes my bones and pain a lot worse. I think it is because the cold makes us tense, which makes pain more severe. I don’t know how we are going to handle Canada, but if we have to be cold anyways, the Canadian leader is better and a little easy on the eye:)! Thank you so much for your sweet comment and I am so sorry that I was so late responding. I hope you are feeling okay and I wish we lived closer so we could have lunch. The only problem is that big ocean between us. At least we have the blogging community! Much love and lots of hugs to you sweetie!! xx

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