When a storm is brewing!

Posted on August 6, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

It sounds a little crazy to say, but I can feel a storm before it even arrives! Before I actually heard the thunder moving in all of my pain became increasing more intense. As this storm continues to build up in my area my back, legs and right arm have started to become more like a 10 on the pain scale. which isn’t any fun!

Honestly, I felt my pain increasing while I was still at work and was just chalking it up to the insane amount of frustration I was feeling! I was having a pretty heated disagreement with my direct supervisor. I normally would just let things go because I really hate confrontation, but I was sick and tired of being disrespected and thought it needed to be addressed and dealt with. To say the very least though, I ended the conversation by walking away when I saw it was not going anywhere. When I get extremely angry I tend to cry before I yell and I could not give him the satisfaction to see how much he was getting under my skin! I am not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow and hope that he will not continue on with his petty harassing ways!

Anyways I got a little off topic with how the stormy weather causes me to feel so much additional pain! I feel like I could be a better weather person because my body tells me what to expect from Mother Nature! In my younger days, I would hear about how an elderly person can feel the rain in their bones and I never really put much thought into that. Now I may not be a young carefree person in her 20’s, but I am NOT an elderly person either! However, I do feel the rain in my body terribly! When it rains I just want to be able to stay at home where I am comfortable and not have to ever go out in it at all, but unfortunately I do have to leave the comfort of my home to go to that place I work at, which as I already mentioned isn’t a pleasant place to be! When I add rainy weather and a semi-hostile work environment to my day, I often feel absolutely miserable!!! In these times I find it best to just stay very silent! Do y’all feel the rain in your bones, as I know many of you live with chronic illnesses?

Thank y’all for visiting my site today. I do not typically do two posts in one day, but this was on my mind and felt it would be good to share this with you! I always appreciate your amazing comments which are always fantastic! I hope your day was much better than mine and I hope you have a very relaxing evening! Never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa

Motivational Monday!

Posted on August 6, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

Good morning y’all! I hope you had a very lovely and relaxing weekend which will make the new week easy to embrace! For the first time in a long time, I actually did take it very easy this weekend and I can only hope it was enough to recuperate from how insanely busy last week was for me!

It is a little funny, but I used to always view Monday’s as a punishment because there was another week for us to tackle. However now I view Monday morning, even the rude awakening from the alarm clock, as a blessing to take on the new week and forget all about what did or didn’t happen the previous week! Even with that said, I do still think we all need a little motivation to start the week off on the right foot! I hope you find the quote I am going to share with y’all uplifting and will set your week off with a bright outlook! Personally, I find this quote encouraging because as long as we never give up our dreams can become our reality!

I hope y’all have a wonderful Monday and really hope you are feeling the best you possibly can! I do look forward to reading your thoughts on this quote and hope it empowers you to always push forward towards your dreams! Please remember that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa

Calming Sunday!

Posted on August 6, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

Good evening y’all! I hope your weekend has been very pleasant and enjoyable! Considering I am still feeling so much pain and fatigue, I literally have done NOTHING today! Doing absolutely nothing for one entire day has been both calming to my out of control nerves and peaceful! I can not believe I have missed out on this feeling for so many years! I am always one who wants to be on the constant move no matter how I am feeling, partially because when I am still, I feel pain a lot more!. Doing things around the house, organizing my week ahead and ensuring that everything that needs to be completed is done by the end of the day on Sunday has always been the way my weekends flow. It sounds SO crazy when I think about that a little deeper because things will always get taken care of when they are meant to, so why rush things along?

I think everyone is already very well aware that I am very disturbed by how the United States has been behaving lately. I feel strongly that the behavior of those in charge is setting a very BAD impression and example for all Americans, as some of us do still believe in EQUALITY and LOVE! Of course there are still some Americans that blindly follow those in charge, which is sad and unfortunate! I find it extremely hard to relate to anyone that does not see what is really happening in this country! I am sorry if anyone finds this statement offensive, but it is how I feel everyday of my life. I have and always will see everyone as just human with no other judgement! I do not appreciate being constantly lied to from those in power of the country I live in because I feel that honesty is the best and only way to live!

I want to apologize for the slight tangent I went off on. I try to stay hopeful that things are going to get better and not any worse, but there is no guarantees with those making the decisions that inflict damage on our lives daily! Currently I feel that I am living in a constant state of fear that I am going to end up losing health insurance because I have a pre-existing condition that I never choose to live with. I do not feel that I should be punished for living with a chronic illness, as that alone is punishment enough, so for our government to decide I may not qualify for insurance is absurd! This has not happened yet, but I do think it is in the works! Hell I think I already pay WAY too much for insurance! But it is scary for me to think that Trump could easily have a bad day and have a temper tantrum that will eliminate healthcare for those with chronic illness!

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for visiting my site today! I do encourage your amazing comments and promise I will response as quickly as I possibly can! I know some of what I have written is a lot different that what I normally write about, but my frustrations have been elevating drastically each day and every day I hear of what is going on in the United States. Trying to find the positive in what is going on is difficult, but I am sure it is there somewhere! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing evening! Please never forget that I am always sending you LOTS of love and comfort!

** I forgot to ask y’all! Do any of you have Facebook as well? As of August 1st, all my blog post do not link to Facebook any longer and I kind of want them to still link to Facebook. Do you by chance know what I need to do, so I do not have to continue posting to Facebook manually?**

Always, Alyssa

Finally received GOOD news!

Posted on August 4, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

Good afternoon y’all! I hope you are having an amazing weekend so far and feeling the best you possibly can. After a really LONG week all I wanted to have was a peaceful weekend, which so far is what I am enjoying! Rest is so important for everyone and some of us are a little more stubborn about resting when we should. I am definitely the type of person that is stubborn about everything so it takes me feeling terrible to actually rest! I have vowed to myself that I will spend the weekend resting and taking care of myself so that I will feel refreshed for the upcoming week!

I know I mentioned to y’all a few weeks ago that I had applied for co-pay assistance with the Multiple Sclerosis Association of America (MSAA) for a much needed MRI. I had been in communication with someone with this company throughout the weeks and she even told me that I was “going” to be approved, but she did not know when it would actually take place. I finally received the APPROVAL letter in the mail today! I am so incredibly delighted that I after all this time waiting I can finally get my Cranial MRI and I will not have to pay a dime for it! I find it amazing that after living with MS for 18 very long years and having numerous MRI’s that cost a fortune, I was finally introduced to help! I know some of you do not live in the United States so this may not help you as much, but for those of you that do live in the states I am going to encourage you to visit MSAA’s website as they might be able to offer you some help https://mymsaa.org/. Now for those of you that do not live in the states you probably have free healthcare, which is really how the states should treat the people living here!

So how is your weekend going? I really hope your weekend is very enjoyable for you so far and continues to be wonderful! The week was so full of constant rain which always causes my pain to be elevated tremendously, but the weekend so far has been dry and just terribly HOT!! Of course with the heat, I am just staying inside with the air conditioning as much as I possibly can!

I always appreciate y’all visiting my site and I love reading your comments, which I do respond to just as quickly as I can! I hope the rest of your Saturday is spent only doing what makes you happy because that is what you deserve! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa

Friday finally arrived!!!

Posted on August 3, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

Good afternoon y’all! If you are anything like me, you are so incredibly happy the weekend is finally here! But I also do hope y’all had a delightful week! This week has been a bit LONG for me because due to a staffing shortage in my office and an increasingly busy work load, I have been working some additional hours! I know I said that I was not going to push myself too far, but the stubborn part of me took control and I might have pushed a little further than I should have! The only day that I did not work 6 1/2-7 hours a day was Thursday and that was only because of a doctor’s appointment, which really took priority for me! Thankfully, my appointment went well even though he was just a little dumbfounded with one of my questions. I guess it is a good thing it was not a too much of a life changing question!

I am extremely relieved for the weekend because I definitely need some relaxation and rest time! I think it is safe to say that I am so far beyond exhausted that being just simply fatigued sounds like paradise. I know our bodies let us know when we need to rest, but I often ignore what my over exerted body is pretty much screaming at me. When I know that something needs to be done, I tend to think everything needs to be right away and never completely understand that somethings really can wait! I am trying to get better at this, but it isn’t easy because I have some control issues about tasks being completed immediately and the right way! The funny thing is when I say I have come control issues about tasks being done, I never want any help and just want to do everything on my own, so I guess just try controlling myself! I guess only controlling what I do is better than trying to control others because that is very impossible!

I have been noticing an increasing amount of anger, frustration, hostility, hatred for no apparent reason and sadness in so many people! What is really causing these negative emotions among so many? I tend to blame the actions of those in charge of the country because they seem to be creating SO much negative energy which is why I do my best to avoid hearing anything they are talking (lying) about. I know there are many people who will agree with this statement and probably many who will disagree with me, which is okay because we are all entitled to our own opinions. If we all thoughts alike on everything there would be absolutely no dynamics and that might actually be a little boring! It is perfectly acceptable to have you own thoughts and opinions, but I do believe it is also extremely important to have an open mind as a close minded person never grows!

Thank y’all for visiting my site today! I always appreciate and value your comments as they are always very insightful! I hope your Friday has been very pleasant and I certainly hope you have an amazing weekend! Please always remember that I am sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa

Pick-Me-Up Thursday!

Posted on August 2, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

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Good morning y’all! I hope your week has been a great one and the good thing is, today is Friday Eve!! I think referring to Thursday as Friday Eve makes the entire day that much better because it allows us to know the weekend is upon us! This has been a pretty long week for me because I have been forced to work more hours due to my “team” being short two people, one is on vacation and the others was terminated. As hard as it has been for me, I have done pretty well working 6 1/2-7 hours each day! These hours have drained me mentally, physically and caused a lot of additional pain, but the weekend is almost here so I will be allowed to recuperate!

So early this week I mentioned that I wanted to do a second day of motivation. I said I did not want to do Wednesday because another amazing blogger Mackenzie at http://lifewithanillness.com/ does a wonderful Midweek Motivation! I encourage you to visit Mackenzie’s site because she handles the illnesses she lives with incredibly well and with so much positivity! I find Mackenzie to be encouraging and so inspiring!

With the help from another amazing blogger at https://thelonelyauthorblog.com/, I decided that Pick-Me-Up Thursday was a great title! By Thursday most of us our completely worn out and need a little hope and happiness! I know by Thursday I have already dealt with work, stress, fatigue, additional pain and much more so a little pick me up to make it just one more day is great! I really want to encourage y’all to check out https://thelonelyauthorblog.com/ because this person writes the most amazing and passionate poetry and I really enjoy every one of the poems shared!

I hope you enjoy my first Pick-Me-Up Thursday motivation and I am looking forward to reading your comments! I find this quote incredibly encouraging and so true because I do believe that positive thinking creates positive results for our lives!

Thank you for visiting my site today and I hope you have a lovely day! I am excited to add another motivation quote day to my posts and I truly hope you find them helpful! Please never forget that I am always sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa

Music Therapy is the BEST!

Posted on August 1, 2018 by Positively Alyssa

Good morning y’all! I hope you are having a great week so far and just think we are half way to the prize of the much-needed weekend! My week thus far has been a little busy at work because one person is on vacation. I mean I guess we all need a vacation, but the “team” I work with was already down one person. I do use the term “team” loosely because most of the time we are anything but that! There is way too much lack of communication, which in my opinion never results in success for anyone involved! Y’all probably already know my how my personality is and that I will push myself a little too far most of the time. Prior to this week I was struggling to work just 6 hours, but I am pushing myself to do more this week! I have been doing 6.5 hours early in the week and plan to do 7 for the rest of the week! I know this sounds pretty crazy considering 6 hours was killing me, but at least I do have the evenings to rest!

It seems that life just has a way of becoming iincredibly difficult at times. There are times that I honestly feel trapped in the shell of my body and want to find a way to escape from it! When my pain gets out of control and or the heat takes the life out of me, I just want to find a peaceful place to run to! I have found that music is absolutely the best therapy for everything!!! Suffering with pain, I turn the music up loud to distract my mind from the pain I am feeling. Battling with stress, I turn the music up even louder to drown the negative thoughts out. Crying with sadness, I will submerge into the music for comfort and peace. Frustrated with your job, which I normally am, I turn the music up even louder to avoid all the negative energy that is surrounding me!

Maybe it is just me but I can get completely lost in music! There are certain songs that resonate with what I am feeling at any moment in time. There are even songs that can turn a really bad day into something a lot more positive! To me there is more to a song than just the words being sang, but the musicality of a song that can take me to another place far away from any pressures I am feeling! Sometimes the mood I am in might require lots of base to drown out my thoughts and other times I just need a nice soothing song to ease my mind.

This week I was fortunate enough to be nominated to do the song/lyric challenge which was absolutely amazing! I shared with y’all two songs from The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, but what I failed to share was my husband and I were able to see this band play live last Friday! Having the opportunity to see one of our favorite bands, which also holds SO much sentimental meaning was a wonderful way to end the week! The funny thing is, we almost did not go because I was in a lot of pain. Even though I suffered the consequences on Saturday, I am still SO incredibly glad we went! The music and being able to interact with this amazing band after the show was well worth the pain I endured! I am also still thrilled that I was able to meet Erin Winter, which is Randy Winter’s wife. Randy is one of the amazing guitarists from this band and has always been so kind to my husband and I! I had gotten to know Erin on Facebook, so finally meeting her in person was wonderful as she really is an amazing woman!

Thank y’all so much for taking the time to visit my site today and I definitely look forward reading your comments as I know they will be great! I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday and really hope you are feeling the best you possibly can! Please always remember that no matter what I may be going through, I am always sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!

Always, Alyssa