We all have our good days when we feel border line normal, which is absolutely fantastic and treasured! Then we also have those bad days when we feel anything but normal and maybe even disconsolate. So what do you do when it seems as though the bad days are taking over those precious good days? I guess there is no use crying over spilled milk and we just continue our journey of life the best was can.
Y’all already know that I am typically a very optimistic and positive person, but then you also know how much pain can influence our attitudes. Pain and muscle spasms have been making me absolutely and totally miserable, but I was still attempting to fight through how I was feeling because I do not want to allow my illness to win our war. Last night was the tip of the ice burg for me. Between my back hurting fiercely and from my knees to my tip toes achy and burning viciously, I could not get comfortable AT ALL. All I was trying to do was go to sleep so I could go into work today, but it was absolutely impossible! The combination of frustration, pain and being over tired I lashed out and was being very difficult towards my poor husband, who was only trying to help me. Finally at about 2 am, even after my hateful attitude my sweet husband helped surround my feet with ice packs to ease the horrible burning sensation I was experiencing. Given my miserable night, I ended up missing work today to try to rest and with the help of my husband hopefully start to feel a little more “normal” or as normal as I can be!
I am hopeful that tomorrow will be a better day and I will not be suffering in this much pain! I obviously do not like hurting, but I really hate when my attitude changes and I am just mean or at least I think I am mean. I am truly thankful for how understanding, supportive and loving my husband is. We understand each other as we both live our lives with pain. I promise I am normally a lot more kind and helpful towards him, but last night was just a horrible night and thankfully he has forgiven my terrible attitude! Normally I do not do more than one post a day, but with being at home in excruciating pain it is helpful to let out those feelings knowing that y’all understand fully!
I appreciate you visiting my site today and really look forward to reading your amazing comments. I hope y’all had a great day today and I hope you are feeling well. As always, I am sending y’all LOTS of love and comfort!