Good afternoon Y’all! I hope you had a good Thursday! It is amazing, the weather is finally starting to stabilize and be cooler temperatures with no humidity! This summer was insanely hot every single day. High temperatures and humidity makes things miserable.
Today was a pretty bad day for me. As y’all know I went back to work yesterday, but only was able to work 5 hours and had to go home because of the intense pain I was having. I had so much additional pain in my back and so much leg spasticity, I could not even sleep last night, at all! Needless to say, I was not able to go work today. I think it is possible I tried to do too much yesterday and pushed myself further even when I felt the pain getting worse. It is okay though, a minor set back will only make me stronger and things will get better. I am hoping tonight I will be able to get some sleep and the spasticity will calm down so that I can go to work tomorrow. No promises as to hour many hours I will work, but I am going to give it an honest effort!
I do think it is best while healing I should not make any promises as to what I am going to do. I think it is best to just take things one day at time, or even sometimes an hour at a time. If I get too much on my mind of what I think I need to do, it will only cause me stress, which will only allow for negative things to come into my life. Even though this flare up has been the worst one I have experienced, I can honestly say that I feel truly lucky. I have had MS for 16 years and only had a couple of bad flare ups. I guess in my opinion that makes me blessed. Having a debilitating illness for this many years and still having the ability, most of the time, to do what I want to is purely luck! I can not say for sure though if it is really luck or just the fact that I will not give into anything, no matter how bad things get. Even though my legs and back are as bad as they are, I still want to do as much as I can for myself and only ask for help when I have to. Call it stubborn or headstrong, but it has worked for me.
I hope y’all have a great and relaxing evening! I truly love all the comments y’all make because I love being able to communicate with others that understand the trials I go through. I hope that during our conversations, I am able to help you as much as you help me. I try to respond to all your comments as quickly as I can and when asked any questions, I do try to give the best advice I can based solely on my experiences. Take Care!!