Good afternoon Y’all! I know I said yesterday that I was returning to work today. Unfortunately, my mind was ready to go back to work but my body was not quite there yet. I woke up this morning in severe pain all over and the numbness in my legs and feet was on overdrive. It has been hard for me to continue moving around my house but I am trying!
Just because my plans to return to work today did not go as planned, does not mean I have been defeated. I am going to try again tomorrow and see how it works, but if it does not go as planned I will not be disappointed in myself. I know that I made the right decision to give my body at least one more day to recover from this terrible flare up. I know how important it is to not be hard on myself and push to hard, because all that will do is bring me back to square one. I do not want to go backwards in my healing, I want to move forward. Taking the healing process slow and not rushing myself will definitely result in a better outcome. I believe I am getting closer just not quite at the finish line, but I WILL get there!
I really am truly blessed that I have SO much support as I go through this difficult time in life. My family has been amazing, trying to do everything they can to make life a little easier for me. Also, all the friends I have made through this blog have been incredible with encouraging and supportive comments. Thank y’all for all your kindness! I hope you all have a great evening! And as always please leave any comments you have, I will respond as quickly as I possibly can! Take Care!!
Always, Alyssa
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*BIG HUGS* I know all too well about the mind vs body thing with MS. It can be quite frustrating, but we have to just keep going.
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OH my goodness it is so frustrating!!!! My mind says get back to the reality of work and life and my body said NO!
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Nominated you for The Unique Blogger Award. It’ll be fun, answer in pics.
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Really???? How does that work? That is an amazing nomination to get!!!!!!
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Honestly I am so bad at these, I just screen shoot the image, put it on the page and answer the questions, check it out!
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I didn’t even know anything about nominating blogs. I have absolutely no clue where to go to do that, so you are doing much better than me!
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Haha! I don’t know about that but you definitely deserve the award!!!
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Thank you so much! It means so much to me that you would feel that way! I am trying hard to be an inspiration and be positive. This blog has been such a great experience for me. My dream since I was young was to be a writer. I wanted to be a journalist, but that did not work out. Now I have a goal to someday write and publish a book. I actually started it, well I have 3 pages done, but it is a start!!!
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I just published my first book about fibromyalgia. It is an interactive journal. It took a long time but I did it and now it is for sale on my vlog and from Amazon! Keep working on your book, you can and I have no doubt will do it!
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That is amazing! How did you get it published? A lot of my book is based on my diagnosis and list with MS. It is going to kind of have a love story involved as well. But, a lot of it is going to be based on my life.
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I went to Createspace and after I told them there were NO journaling books about fibromyalgia on Amazon -did some research as there are several publishers out there, they said how soon can you upload the mauscript? They now use my journal as a teaching format for their editors… very long story. You might want to take a look at the book on Amazon, The ShadowBoxers, Fighting Fibromyalgia, Your Personal Journal. Authors Kim Johnson and Karen Anderson. That’s my book!
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That is great! I will check it out!!!! Thank you for sharing this information!!!
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Thatās how progress is made! Never losing hope no matter how many setbacks. Youāre an inspiration š
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Thank you so much! I am trying to stay positive because that is the only way to get better! I appreciate you saying that I am an inspiration!
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Alyssa, thank you. You truly inspire me as I am struggling with a chronic mental illness so to some degree, I can relate. But physical pain is something I can barely endure. I don’t know how you do it. I think about you often and your positivity truly inspires me. I really like how gentle you are with yourself and I’m working on that too. I am currently trying to ease into working after several months off. Hang in there. My thoughts and prayers are not far from you. Thank you again for sharing.
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Thank you so much for saying that! Physical pain is really hard to push through and I can do it most of the time. The past few months have been really hard. I try hard to stay positive but to be honest with you, I have had so many break downs in tears I lost count. But all those tears has not helped at all. I mean it is good to get those emotions out but then it is important to find a way to move on.
I know the mental illness is very difficult and it seems at though no one understands. Mental illness runs through my entire family so I have learned how to try to help. Be sure when going back to work after months you take it slow. Do not push yourself and think about you only, no one else. People at work in the grand scheme of things do not really matter. I keep telling my husband, who is going through somethings that work is just a paycheck and nothing else.
Please always remember, no matter how far away I might be, I am here to help in anyway I can. Just an email away!! Take Care!!
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I love your positive attitude! ā¤
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Thank you so much, I really do try!!!!
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Good for you for giving your body the time it needs! I hope tomorrow is a better day.
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Thank you! I am doing my best to listen to my body and not my mind.
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Hi Alyssa, really hoping that you will feel better soon but also a huge WELL DONE for putting your health first and resting up. I know the guilts all too well and sometimes feel like I should be putting my own needs first more often. Xxx
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Thank you! I do have some guilt about not even trying to push myself to go to work, but it won’t do me any good pushing myself! I actually stayed home again today and am planning to go back tomorrow. I asked my manager if I could work 10-6 because mornings are just too difficult right now. Hopefully he will allow that. He is pretty understanding and accommodating! XXX
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That’s good to know – my manager is completely the other way š which is very frustrating! Good luck tomorrow š xx
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I am so sorry your manager isn’t understanding. People, especially managers need to think about how others feel! I am really sorry for the delayed response. I had a terrible headache last night and I was exhausted! xxx
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Thank you for sharing. Glad to know others dealing with health issues and sharing their journey. I look forward to reading more of your blog.
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I hope that my posts will be helpful to you. It is comforting to know that others do understand! Take care!
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Thank you so much!
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You are very welcome!!
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Jsst don’r rush. Pace yourself; that’s the best advice I can give u.
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I am actually doing better at pacing myself. I am taking things very slow right now and it is kind of hard for me, but I know it is important to do. I did not go to work today and moved my follow up appointment with the NP to this afternoon. Thank you for all your great comments! I hope you have a great day! Take care!
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I’ve been struggling myself.
Anyway, pleased to meet you too. š
Keep in touch and hang in there.
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I am so sorry you have been struggling. I hope things get better really soon for you!
It has been great meeting you as well! I look forward to continuing to get to know you!
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Likewise.
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